Disclaimer: I do not own Lab Rats

This is after Avalanche.

Chase's POV
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I'm so ashamed of my self. What happened with Douglas was something I completely hate now. My family is so glad he is out of the way and we even celebrated.

However I have a confession to make.

I almost took his offer. For that one moment all of the bullying, the jokes, and the pain came to me and I realized that most of it came from my family or the people my family was friends with. In that one moment I hated them for everything they had done to me.

I'm a nerd yes, it's because of my bionics; it and with it me constantly crave more knowledge and more hobbies, more everything. My bionics runs on the need to always find and do something new. I constantly have to do things (while my family is asleep) to control the need for downloads.

Okay yes I admit it is slightly weird that I have to meditate and I take a love of candles and such. But if my siblings bothered to care about me as more than a punching bag they would find out that, I only do those things to keep myself calm and with me Spike.

Yes I'm a perfectionist but if we do something wrong in a mission we could get hurt. If we do something wrong in a project someone can get hurt. And if we do something wrong in a paper I'm sorry but that's pretty embarrassing to me. Though I suppose that may be my bionics talking.

If only they would look at me with more respect. If only they would try and see something in me besides what I act like with my bionics. Am I selfish for wanting this?

I was able to trick him, and not go against my own morals but it was so hard. My family didn't ask me what Douglas meant when he said he could give me all three powers combined. I think they thought that Douglas was going to make a new chip and as long as he is frozen he can't. Now they don't realize the ticking time bomb in their home.

Then I realized something, something that I hadn't really thought of before this. All of our bionics may give us more power but they also give us defaults. Not the glitches but actual feelings. When I was offered the chance to get more power part of me didn't care about the cost. I discovered that I have a slight lust for power and that makes me feeling bad because who knows if I will be able to control it in the future. Before I always thought my powers were set in stone and I couldn't fight that I was the weakest link. But now I know; I can be better than them. And yet while I'm in the right stage of mind I know that the power might drive me crazy if I wasn't careful. I need to make something so that if I fall to this little problem of mine my family can bring me back.

Let's just hope they never have to use it.

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And there it is. I noticed that Chase seemed to change a little bit in Avalanche (maybe it was just me). He seemed to really want that power and here is my idea for that.