A/N: I hope this update was worth the wait. In my defence I've been so busy reading everyone else's fabulpus fanfiction, I negelected my own. Oops. Oh and theres work getting in the way too.
Lizi xo
Kate woke with a start and bolted upright in bed. "NO! NO!" Her breathing was laboured and her heart was pounding.
Caroline stirred beside her and sat up, panicked setting in at the unsettling cries from her girlfriend. Caroline rubbed her eyes. "Kate?" She rubbed Kate's lower back and searched the younger woman's face frantically. "Kate, what's wrong?"
"I lost the babies!" Kate exclaimed through her uncontrolled sobbing.
Caroline continued rubbing Kate's back in soothing circles. "Sshhh, its ok sweetheart, it was just a bad dream." She told Kate calmly as she rested her forehead on Kate's cheek and tenderly left a lingering kiss on her bare shoulder.
"No..." Kate replied feebly and her hands quickly found her stomach, which was now sporting a a healthy looking baby bump, she was just over fifteen weeks gone. Kate looked up to the heavens and closed her eyes, finally realising it was in fact, all a dream.
"Ssshhh," The blonde soothed and lay back down taking the shaken women beside her down with her. "Sshhh, you're ok sweetheart, it was just a horrible dream."
Kate's body racked with quiet sobs. "It felt... so real."
Caroline kissed Kate's forehead and rubbed her arm that was draped over her stomach. "You're ok." Caroline repeated softly and looked the clock beside her. "We've got a few hours before we have to get up, try and go back to sleep, darling."
A breath hitched in her throat. "What if I lose our babies, Caroline?"
"You won't, Kate, you're past the early high risk stage and when we go for your second scan tomorrow, they'll be just fine in there." She whispered into the darkness of the bedroom as she placed her palm on Kate's stomach and caressed it gently.
"I hope you're right." Kate sniffled, letting out a yawn.
"Now, mummy-to-be, you need your rest," Caroline ordered, in her best Dr Elliot voice. "You're fine, the babies are fine and I'm right here." She once again kissed her forehead and pulled the younger woman to her in a protective embrace. "Try and go back to sleep for a little while."
Kate yawned again, her sobbing having taken it's toll on her. "Ok...love you." She breathed, feeling safe in her girlfriends arms, safe enough to forget the dream she suffered and fall back to sleep.
Caroline smiled. "Love you too." She whispered back and waited till she heard Kate's even breathing before drifting back off to sleep herself.
The following morning, both women had taken a couple of hours off from work so they could attended their second ultrasound scan. Kate lay on the bed, pretty familiar with how the whole scan procedure went by now. She wrung her hands together nervously until Caroline took Kate's hand in hers and squeezed it reassuringly.
"Stop worrying, love." Caroline rubbed her thumb over the top of Kate's hand.
At Caroline's touch, she nodded, took a deep breath and watched the nurse intently as she again squirted the cool gel onto her stomach, which was now looking more like a bump with each passing day. Kate looked from the nurse to the screen.
"Is everything ok? Are they ok?" She asked, tentatively.
The nurse, who wasn't the same one they had last time, nodded. "Both babies look great, you have nothing to worry about."
"Told you." Caroline, who was stood to Kate's left side, beamed and nudged Kate's side with her hip.
Relief washed over Kate's features and she smiled back up at the love of her life. "Alright, Miss-Know-It-All." She chuckled.
The three women listened as they heard both heartbeats, strong heartbeats at that, and then the nurse told them she'd make some pictures for them.
"Can you tell us the sex?" Caroline asked, earning a puzzled look from Kate.
"I thought you didn't want to know?"
"I've...changed my mind. Can..can we find out, please?" Caroline stuttered adorably and Kate couldn't say no! As if she would have said no anyway considering she wanted to find out too.
Kate nodded at the older woman. "Can you tell us?" She smiled towards the nurse.
"I can, just give me a second," the nurse glided the wand over her stomach. "...it looks like...two girls."
"Wow." Kate said, stunned, not only was she pregnant but she was having two babies and now she knew it was twin daughters.
"I've always wanted a daughter, now I get two." Caroline choked back her tears and lifted Kate's hand to her mouth, leaving a gentle kiss to her knuckles. "I didn't think I could ever be this happy again."
"Me either." Kate replied, her eyes fixated on Caroline's, a smile glued to her face.
Later that night after dinner, Kate went up to have a bath to calm her aching back but also to give Caroline some alone time with Lawrence. They had both decided they wanted Lawrence to know about the babies before anyone else because he'd more than likely take it the hardest. Although he was fifteen years old, he was still a little kid and very much needed his mum. His dad was very rarely around anymore, which pleased Caroline no end.
After dinner Lawrence had filled up the dishwasher than retired to the sitting room to play on his xbox. Caroline finished wiping down the kitchen benches, picked up her glass of wine and went to join Lawrence.
As much as she was worried about the upcoming discussion with her youngest son, she was still so very happy with her life at the moment and that helped to quash any nerves she had.
"Lawrence?" Caroline sat perched on the edge of the sofa. "Can I talk to you for a minute?"
"Just a sec mum, I need to kill this guy before he kills me! Yeah die sucker!" He yelled excitedly at the tv.
"Get your priorities right, son." Caroline muttered to herself, sarcastically, taking a swig of her wine.
"Woo, yeah! Get in!" He yelled, obviously pleased with himself. He punched the air then paused his game. "What is it?" He asked, turning his head towards his mum.
"Come up here." Caroline instructed patting the space next to her.
Lawrence rolled his eyes but obeyed Caroline and sat beside her. "S'up? Lawrence rested his forearms on his legs.
"It's about me and Kate, we have some...news."
"What is it?"
Caroline paused, wondering what was the best way to approach the subject, or even if there was a 'best' way to do it. "It's Kate...she's, we're..." Caroline sighed, exasperated with herself. She didn't think it would be this hard to tell Lawrence.
"Spit it out mum."
"Kate's pregnant, we're having a baby...well two actually...girls...twins...you're going to have to new baby sisters." Caroline stammered nervously.
Lawrence's mouth fell open. "Pregnant?...how?"
Of all the questions she thought Lawrence would have, that wasn't one of them. "Oh, urm..well, you know how babies are made, don't you?" Lawrence nodded. "Well we used a donor, an anonymous one..."
"Right..." Lawrence stared at the game he had paused on the tv, taking in the new information in.
"Lawrence, I know it's a shock," Caroline put her palm on his leg. "And having two new babies in the house won't mean that me and Kate will love you any less. We wanted to tell you first before we told William or Granny or anyone."
Lawrence looked back to his mother. "I know you're happy mum, happier than I've ever seen you...and I know...that's because of Miss Mck-..Kate," he corrected with a smirk. "And there's more love in this house now than there ever was when you and dad were together."
Caroline rubbed her sons leg, not realising how much he had taken in over the years. She was about to speak when Lawrence spoke again,
"Kate's changed you, mum, and I'm liking the new you, you're not...boring anymore." He grinned.
Caroline was in awe of her youngest and wasn't entirely sure what to say. "I love you." She said, kissing the side of his head.
"Eww mum!" Lawrence turned his nose up and wiped the side of his head with his sleeve.
"Charming." Caroline smirked.
Lawrence smiled at his mum. "Can I go back to my game now?"
"Is your homework done?"
"Yep."
"Alright, you have one hour." She warned in her headmistress tone.
Lawrence nodded in agreement and went back to the floor and his video game. Caroline shook her head at Lawrence and went to get a refill.
"Mum?" Lawrence called out.
Caroline poked her head around the sitting room door. "Yes, my dear loving boy?" She replied dryly.
"Love you too." He said, without taking his eyes off the tv screen.
Caroline's heart swelled. She didn't hear Lawrence say that as much as she'd like, but when she did, she felt enormous pride.
About half an hour later, Lawrence had gotten tired of his game and gone up to his room which had left Caroline on her own in the sitting room, lying on the couch reading a book. Glass of wine in hand, she was feeling relaxed and content. She was so engrossed in her book, she didn't hear Kate come downstairs.
"Good book?" Kate asked. As she knelt down behind Caroline, leaning on the arm of the settee.
"Mmmm." The blonde replied allowing her head to fall back to meet Kate's eyes. "Hi."
"Hi." Kate beamed, in fact she hadn't stopped beaming all day. She kissed Caroline's lips softly.
"How's your back feeling?"
"It's a little less achy, the bath certainly helped."
"I know what else might help," Caroline said, her voice dropping an octave lower.
"Oh yeah?" Kate raised her eyebrows as she stood and sat on the edge of the settee.
"Yeah." Caroline said as her right hand found Kate's lower back and began to massage it deep, exactly where t he younger woman needed it.
"That feels amazing." The younger woman's eyes automatically closed as she enjoyed the pressure from the blondes skillful fingers. Caroline stopped momentarily to reposition herself and Kate pouted at the loss of contact. The blonde sat with her legs crossed under her and allowed Kate to sit back a bit further then resumed her massage on the younger woman's lower back.
Caroline let her fingers work deep into the tense achy tissue and Kate felt like she was in heaven. Her back had never felt so good.
"Better, sweetheart?" Caroline asked, pushing the robe off of Kate's shoulder so she could place a open mouthed kiss to the back of her neck.
"Much." Kate breathed. "How did it go with Lawrence?"
"It went...well, he didn't flip out like I expected him to." Caroline chuckled.
"That's good...oooh so good." Kate said, clearly enjoying the massage Caroline was still giving her.
"Mmm, is that so?" Caroline smirked.
"Mmmm, you're so good with your hands...and your tongue." Kate giggled.
Caroline blushed and was grateful Kate was faced away from her so she couldn't see. "Miss McKenzie!" She laughed.
"What?" Kate feigned innocence.
"Come here." Caroline stopped massaging her back and pulled Kate to her, so she was lying with her back to the blonde's chest. She wrapped her arms around Kate and kissed her neck tenderly.
Kate placed her arms on top of Caroline's. "Everything seems to be falling into place." Kate sighed contently.
"It does, yeah." The blonde agreed and then in a seductive manner, she untied the robe Kate was wearing so it fell open between her breasts and showed her growing bump.
Kate grinned and watched as the older woman placed her hands on Kate's belly then Kate followed suit and put her hands on top of Caroline's.
"Baby girls." Caroline stated, nuzzling Kate's neck.
"I know, I can't believe it." Kate turned her head to look at Caroline. "I love you."
"I love you too." Caroline brushed her lips against Kate's in a tender loving kiss. As the kiss came to a natural conclusion, Kate rested her head back against Caroline's shoulder. "Have you thought about any names yet?"
Kate laughed to herself, remembering the amount of girls names she rattled off when Celia asked her in the kitchen a few months ago. "It's funny you should ask that..."