Hey guys! So for today I have something very small for you guys. It's small for a reason you can read at the end.

Disclamer: Mijke does not own Inazuma Eleven or any of it's characters.

Me: [silence]

Disclamer: What?! Nothing today?!

Me: [seems very nervous]

Disclamer: Mijke...

Have you ever had the feeling that your body and mind wanted something, but you were completely against it. Well that was what Shindou had right now.

He was lying on his bed. His eyes were still red from the crying. After everything he had been through this happened.

Why?! That was the only thing he was thinking right now, why did this had to happen. Years and years everything was fine.

He had no idea how it had happened. Since when was a normal friend suddenly the one his heart wanted.

He knew that this might happen one day, but he wasn't ready for this. Not even the slightest bit!

Oh would he do anything to let this hell end, to let it all be the way it was before. But there was no way to let the clock go back in time, no way to undo the things that had happened.

He hated to admit it but he was in love with his best friend, Kirino Ranmaru. The one he had known for so long was the one he truly wanted to be with.

The worse thing was that he knew he didn't have any chance. It was the way Kirino talked about him. The way Kirino talked about Kariya.

He had to admit it, but it was pretty terrible. Listening to Kirino talk about Kariya, the way he looked at that moment or how he acted. He wanted so bad that he would talk about him like that…

Kirino was clearly in love with Kariya and not him. Why would he be? They had known each other for so long, the chance that he loved him the same way as Shindou did with Kirino was so small.

Thanks to that he was too afraid to tell him. He hated lying to Kirino, but he knew that if he told him he would break his friendship and if that would happen…

Shindou would rather be just friends with Kirino then not at all…

But every time he looked at him… he knew that it was true. He loved him; nothing more, nothing less.

So that was it.
So guys, this was actually something that is happening with me right now and the reason that I'm posting it here is cause I have something to confess.

I'm Shindou... What I wrote down, what Shindou is having right now is my real problem. Kirino is actually a friend of mine. I'm not gonna say a name but I'm sure the person will know it herself (yes her, it's a girl).

To the person:
I know we have known each other for a while now and I know that this might be a bit weird or even crazy to you, but yea... So now I'm here, writing this all down cause I'm too afraid to tell you myself. I hate myself for all of this and you will probebly start hating me too when you're done reading, but I had to tell you. I've been dealing with this for a while now and it just feels wrong to hide it from you. I don't like lying, you know that.
You don't have to react to this if you don't want to, you can just ignore it and then we move on like nothing had happened, I'm cool with that. But if you would just like text me a yes or a no, just that would be enough...
P.S. I love you...