Disclaimer: isn't it obvious? I don't own InuYasha or any of the characters… they are a © to their rightful owner! But you might find some odd O.O.C. (Out Of Character) here… forgive me, I only read the translated Manga, I've never seen the show! Well now… R&R!
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alone in my bedroom, silently relaxed, eyes closed, the softest winter breeze blew against the dead trees outside, candle flames softly flickering with the faintest blow… hand clasped under my head, wearing my night kimono… after two months of travel, we have finally retuned home, to the palace, and I, Sesshoumaru, am finally to rest… to sooth my nerves from my toad-follower's annoying chatter… I had a nice warm relaxing shower, and now, I am snuggling ready to sleep in my luxurious bed, just waiting for the sandman--as Rin call it--to help me sleep…
Creek…
"…?" my bedroom door had opened; a small white ghost slipped in quietly, the whiteness glowing with the light…
"Sesshoumaru-sama?"
"Yes, Rin?"
"I can't sleep" she said in fright, ever since the snowstorm three days ago she hardly slept a wink…
"You can't sleep with me Rin" I reason, she shouldn't get used to it…
"But I'm scared" she whispered, her hands clutching to a doll in her hands, giving me that big puppy-dog eyes gesture…
"Sigh… go to your room Rin"
"(Sniffle)" she hides behind the door and peeks at me still...
"(Expressionless)" so damn cute!! "You're a big girl now Rin! You should sleep by yourself"
"But Rin is scared! Rin wants to be with Sesshoumaru-sama!" she pleaded, a tear rolled down her pink face, she's still sniffling, slightly sobbing…
"…" is she that scared? "Sigh… Rin"
"…?"
"Close the door!" I say to her as I toss the blanket from my side, one hand patting the bed "come over here"
"(BIG happy toothy grin)" lit, she slowly closed the door and smiled widely as she slowly turned to me, taking a few steps, hesitating, and stood at the side of the bed "can I?" she smiled…
"(dips head)" this is the first time I let her in my bed… no one shared the bed with me but my half-wit brother… back then when we were little, it was a stormy night and he was scared as well… I wonder if he's still scared of lightning…
"(Giggle)" she climbed her little feet to the bed and snuggled into me, I covered her, tucking her near me as I lay on my side facing her, smiling widely, she snuggled into my chest, but somewhat squeaked in fright when the wind outside went strong…
"It's just the wind" I reason, she looked up at me with her cute brown eyes and smiled again…
BAM!!!
"Eep!!!" she ducked into me in sudden fear, tossing the blanket over her head, shivering… stupid wind just bursting through my window! Feh, I hate getting out of bed when I finally get warm…
"…" I stand up and walk to the window, closing it again… Shivering, this wind is really cold! I feel a slight shiver going down my skin!
"Sesshoumaru-sama" she calls me again, and I walk back towards her…
"…" snuggling back into bed, I lay back and wait for her to speak…
"Are there monsters under the bed?"
"…?"
"Jaken-sama told me that there are monsters under my bed!!!"
"(Vein pop/expressionless)" I need to take care of that, "Rin, there aren't any monsters under your bed… now, go to sleep"
"(Smile)" she snuggles into me, and I wrap one arm on her as I cover both of us with the blanket… I close my eyes, I need to rest…
"…" I can hear her breath calmly now, her heart isn't pounding in fear anymore…
"I love you Sesshoumaru-sama" she hummed as she fell asleep…
"…" why did I save Rin when I did? Is it gratitude that she 'tried' to help me? Or was it something else?? Sigh… there are things that I cannot understand… someone with my brilliance and knowledge shouldn't strangle himself with such things… but sometimes I cant help but wonder… this pup, why do I care? Why is it that I just can't force my heart to yell at her? To scold her? To rip her up and throw her away?
If only I had a heart…
"………"
Do I have a heart?
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"Sesshoumaru-sama! Sesshoumaru-sama please wake up!! Sesshoumaru-sama!!!" I hear Rin, she's pleading and sobbing, tugging to me, shaking me, Jaken had better not bothered her again…
"ungh…" wh--what's wrong with me? I can't move! I'm shivering, and I'm drenched in sweat… I'm panting, I feel fog forming in my lungs, and it's getting hard to breath! My eyes hardly crack a slit, and I turn my head to see her… she's still at my side on the bed, she's looking down at me and tears dwell down her crimson cheeks… "Rin" I breathlessly say her name, I feel chocked… what's wrong with me? Am I sick?
"Sesshoumaru-sama?" she asked in fear, I can sense her worry, so I reach out a hand and caress her face, she holds it tight, her tears drip on them, they smell so salty, so warm, I feel my heart pounding, what's wrong with me? I am a demon! I don't get sick!!!
"Rin… get Jaken" was all I could say to her, she dipped her head unwillingly, hesitating to leave me; I dipped my head to assure her to go, so to no further pause, she climbed down my bed and bolted out… I can hear her running through the wards calling for Jaken… that toad is probably going to put her in blame and whack her for it; if he does I'll tear him apart!
"………"
Wait… why do I care?
It's because 'she' cares!
"Sesshoumaru-sama!!!" Jaken crocks in, his voice is annoying, so when he stands besides my bed, I whack his as hard as I can with my fist, but instead of drawing it back--I'm too tired to do so--I leave it swung asides me…
"Not so loud you idiot!" I hiss, my ears hurt… panting, I'm hardly capable of talking, head resting on that pillow, I close my eyes, open my mouth a bit to take in more breath, then close my lips and gulp in to clear my throat, Rin climbed from the other side avoiding Jaken who started swearing and cursing, but I silenced him, and Rin sat besides me, legs tucked, looking down at me worried… then she reached out to draw my swung hand resting it on my chest, then I rested both my hands on my chest, appearing like a man waiting for death… I look at her tiredly but say nothing…
"Sesshoumaru-sama? Are you going to be okay?" she whimpered in fear, eyes locked, and her fragile hands on my chest…
"You stupid brat! This is all your fault! Stay away from Sess--(BONK)--!!!" you annoying toad! I should rip out your tong!
"Jaken" I hiss as I draw back my fist…
"Yes! Sesshoumaru-sama?" he muttered sheepishly feeling his bald scull…
"Rin has nothing to do with this…" I say as loud as I can, sweat cold on my face, "go… and look for a chemist who might have remedy"
"Yes, right away!" and quickly bolted out…
"Can Rin help?" she tried to smile down at me… those eyes… she stared down at me like a sad little puppy…
"Just--(clears throat)--stay by my side" I pant… God what's wrong with me? It's just a stupid cold right? Or is it a fever? Why do I feel so weak? So helpless? I can't even move…
"Rin will go get cold water" she whispered to me and bolted out… she's right, I need to cool down this heat! I hear her as she ran out, and I can tell she tripped and fell, I hear her moan, skip to her feet again and continued running… and then it faded away, and I hear nothing… nothing but the pulse of heartbeats in my ears…
"(pant-pant-pant)" I crack my eyes a slit, looking around me, this silence is so loud, it's bothering me! I drew in a deep inhale to increase the size of my clinching lungs, and it feels a bit better, they feel a bit wider, but I'm shivering! Where the hell did I get this?
"(Absolute silence)"
"…!!" last night when I had the shower! And the window opened! Dammit! I must've got it from there!! "(Groan)" I feel so tired, I think I'm going to fall asleep, I need a rest, so I close my eyes… and I remember nothing more…
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"Remedy-remedy-remedy--!! Where am I to find remedy in the middle of a forest?" ack! It's all because of that insolent brat! She caused this! When I return, I'll be sure to swat her good!
"SIT!! (CRASH!!!)" hnn?? I didn't hear that, did I? Blinking confused, I walk towards a near by bush and watch, it's that human girl with the odd clothing arguing with my masters half-breed! He peals himself off the dirt and shouts at her… I wonder what they're doing! I see the monk and that little Kitsune, along with the yellow-black two tailed creature, is it a cat or a fox? Who knows? Why am I here staring at a bunch of troublemakers? I should be going around looking for a remedy for Sesshoumaru-sama! "(Yelp!!!!)"
"What have we got here!!" Oh-my! A Youkai hunter!!! The one with the huge boomerang! "Hey guys!" she smiles wickedly dragging me by my scarf towards them…
"NO! Let me go!!" I struggle, but too late, the half-breed grabs me by the leg dangling my upside down…
"It's Jaken!" he growled, and he gave me no choice but to--WHACK--with my staff! I fell and run as fast as my legs could go! "OW!!! Why you dirty little green runt!" he sneered and chased after me…
"OW~!" that hurt! he pummeled his foot over my head, and then jerked me up face to face…
"Okay you little piece of sh**! What are you doing here??" he demanded, God he's so impatient, not like my Sesshoumaru-sama! My master is as cool as ice yet his wrath can crumble mountains! I snort at him and kick his chin--I learned that one from Rin!--yet he doesn't let go…
"(InuYasha goes into 'Kill now think later' mode!)" Maybe I made a mistake!!! (O_O;;)
"InuYasha wait! At-least let us figure out what he's doing here!!" the wired girl quickly grabbed his darted clawed hand…
"Feh!" he dropped me and jerked around…
"Okay Jaken!" Oh-Uh!! I don't like that glare! "What are you doing here??"
"I-I'm… looking for remedy for Sesshoumaru-sama's two headed beast!" I hope they buy it!
"Remedy? Why? Is the poor thing sick?" she asked softer now, great! She bought it!! And it seems the other did, except the hanyou!
"Yes!" I affirm, maybe now they would let me go!
"Okay, can I kill him now?" the hanyou growled, but the wired girl only glared him…
"(sweat drop) Kagome!" he waved his hands and attended to run off until--
"SIT!!!"
THWACK!!!
"!" I bet that hurt! "………" hurt… God I hope Sesshoumaru-sama is getting better… that little brat had better be away till I return…
"Jaken!" the Kitsune called suspiciously, "you look worried" he cocked an eyebrow…
"So?" I hiss, I need out of there!!
"You can't be worried about the two headed beast, and even if you were worried you couldn't possibly be 'this' worried!" he talked back, and my tong got knots in it, everyone is staring at me! Stupid Kitsune! He just blew my cover!!
"Jaken!" the hanyou smiled and eyed me where he was flat on the face, "you know something we don't so better spit it out or else!" she widened his smile, hand on Tetsusaiga!
"(Gulp)" for Sesshoumaru-sake… they might help??
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"(pant-pant-pant)" patting his face with a handkerchief to dry away the sweat, Sesshoumaru-sama isn't breathing right, Rin is worried! His face is wet and he's asleep for a long time, and Jaken-sama is really late! Rin is scared! She doesn't want Sesshoumaru-sama to die! She would be alone! She doesn't want to be alone! Rin wants to be with Sesshoumaru-sama! A tear runs down her face and she look down at Sesshoumaru-sama's face, he's calm but having problems breathing! Rin is really scared…
"uhh--uhh--uhh" Sesshoumaru-sama moved his head to the other side, looking sad, more sweat rolling down his face, his eyes cracked a slit and he looked at Rin…
"Sesshoumaru-sama!!" he's okay? He's looking at Rin, but looks sad; he shifted a hand up and caressed Rin's face! He smiled! 'Sesshoumaru-sama touched Rin's face and smiled!!' her mind lit in happiness…
"Rin…" he closed his eyes and frowned, Sesshoumaru-sama feels pain? "Jaken?" he breathlessly asked…
"Jaken-sama isn't back! He's really late! Maybe Rin should go look for Jaken-sama?" he shifted down his hand and held Rin's really tight, but it didn't hurt…
"No… Jaken had better come soon… (pant-pant-pant)… Rin… get me water" Sesshoumaru-sama is thirsty! Rin hurries to the water jug and carefully pour water for Sesshoumaru-sama… then she picked up the glass really carefully and climbed up the bed…
"Here!" Sesshoumaru-sama pulled himself a bit up to be able to drink, back laid on the huge pillow supporting him, somewhat sitting upright, he couldn't hold the glass so Rin helped, "(drinking)" Sesshoumaru-sama looks really tired… a droplet of sweat rolled down his forehead all the way to his neck… "Uhh--" he's finished, and laid back his head, still panting, tiredly looking at Rin…
"Rin" I call her softly…
"Yes?"
"Go… to the gates… and wait for Jaken…"
"What about Sesshoumaru-sama?"
"Just go!"
"Rin won't leave Sesshoumaru-sama alone! Might need help!"
"(Somewhat hurt by the thought)" need help? I'm sick, I'm week, I do need help, "Rin, Go!"
"No!" and then threw herself over my chest and clutched to my clothing and sobbed, "Rin wants to be with Sesshoumaru-sama!"
"Rin!" I scold, really annoyed with this, "Go…" I say softly, I don't want to sound like I'm begging…
Puppy-eyes shimmered with tears…
"Sesshoumaru?" a voice lost in disbelieve asked worriedly, I shift my sight, only for the horror of my brother, with Jaken hanged in his clawed hand, "so it's true!" he dropped the toad and took a step towards me…
"Inu-nee-san!" Rin chirped and quickly climbed off the bed to him, quickly holding his hand pulling him towards me, "Inu-nee-san! Sesshoumaru-sama is sick! Can you heal him? Onigai?"
"(Heart skipped a beat)" the shame and disgrace, my brother caught me in a moment of weakness…
"Sesshoumaru"
"…!!" only to snap my eyes sitting besides me on the bed, looking concerned, "…" he only gazed at me, and I turned my face away, I cant take this any longer…
"Leave" I hiss as loud as I can, but that only made him rest his hand on my forehead… his hand! It felt so--warm! I never noticed how cold I felt till now! I look at his hand there on my forehead, and heavily brushed it away, "Don't touch me!" I try to get up, but I only end up getting myself dizzy… Oh~! Why is everything spinning? Why does my head feel so heavy?
"You're feverish!" no kidding? I plop back on my back, hand on my head, it's too much, I can't take it…
"InuYasha" I hiss at him, "what do you want? Why are you here?" I glare while panting…
"…" uhh--? He gave me this--sad baby face--reminds me of Rin!--I haven't seen this face since we were kids… why is he looking at me like this? He doesn't… miss me… does he? I look at Rin as she perched besides my head, InuYasha on the other side, Jaken muttering curses at the foot of the bed…
"InuYasha… leave…" it was all I could say, I'm tired and I don't feel like arguing with him now…
"No… not when you're like this…" he somewhat hissed… I look back at him, eyes locked, he has something there, something--that is a part of father! His eyes shine with determination, "and don't try to change my mind Sesshoumaru! Let's call it a truce!" he slightly smiled…
"…" I glare him for a second… why am I to disagree? I'm sick in bed and I can't even move… "wait…"
"…?"
"Are… they here?"
"No! Just because we're a group doesn't mean I can show them the location of the palace… if I did, it's like cheating on my parents!"
"Not even… to that girl?"
"Kagome understands family borders…" he calmly said to me, then reached to his sleeve and picked out a small pouch, "this is from Kaede, it's a mixture of herbs, it should heal you in a jiffy!" he smiled…
"I did not ask for you pity" I shrug attending to situp, but my powers failed me, so I plopped back again… cursed fever! No wonder Rin turns so helpless when she's sick! And she's human! What of me? The great Lord of the western--(chock!!)--Cough--Cough--Cough!!
"Sesshoumaru-sama!" Rin sobbed…
"What's wrong? Sesshoumaru!!" InuYasha quickly placed his hands on my shoulders, pale face to sick face; the pouch fell from his hand to the floor, "Sesshoumaru!" he cried in worry… odd… I… never thought he cared…
"Sesshoumaru-sama!!" Jaken squeaked…
"(pant-pant-pant)" what the devil happened? I didn't cough before! It hurts my throat and lungs, I cant breath and I feel so tired… I think I'm gonna take a nap, I'm beat…
;__;
"What's wrong? Sesshoumaru! Answer me dammit!"
"Sesshoumaru-sama!!" Rin started crying, sobbing bitterly as she threw herself on his chest, her tiny hands clutching his clothing, he was still alive, but hardly breathing, coughing wasn't a good sign, "Jaken!"
"Err--?" he blinked at me, "what do you want you impudent hanyou?" he growled, "leave as Sesshoumaru-sama ordered!"
"Over my dead body!!" I hiss with anger, no toad is gonna boss my over my sick brother! I pick up the pouch, "Rin, can you lead me to the kitchen?" she looked at Sesshoumaru and sniffled "I have a cure! Show me to the kitchen and I'll help!"
"Really?"
"You fiend! You are to kill Sesshoumaru-sama! Rin don't believe him!"
"Butt out toad face!" growling, I kick the damn thing, sending him flying out the window… he falls with a crater into the thorny bush… Heh! I always remembered its place! (Flush) I fell there once!
"Inu-nee-san?" she sniffled, "is Sesshoumaru-sama going to be okay?"
"I promise Rin! I won't him die!" Oh! Now I remember where the kitchen is, "Rin wait here! I'll make some remedy for Sesshoumaru and be right back!"
"……… sigh…"
"…" where am I? I look around and I see nothing, I hear nothing, I'm here with my traveling clothing! My armor, silk kimono and sword… Jaken? Rin? Where is everyone?
"Sesshoumaru!"
"…?" hn? I jerk behind me, and I see it… "This cannot be!"
"Get lost!" I see myself as a youth, swatting away my younger half sibling; father comes and furiously yells at me… I'm sent to my room, and I stay there alone… wait! I don't remember this! But--somehow it feels familiar!
"Nee-san" InuYasha is only five! I'm fifteen… he walked into my room and I hiss at him… I can feel him shivering as he walks to me…
"I said: Get Lost!!!" I sound as stupid as a youth! My voice is soft like a girl! (Shudder!) And he still approaches me; I watch my youth-self stand and grab his collar, shoving him outside, "Baka!" I hiss and slam the door…
"(Sobbing/sniffling)" my little brother sat there at my door where I threw him and started crying…
"!!!" a painful shiver when down my spine as he craned to me! His big baby-golden eyes and pink cheeks from all the crying… looks like Rin when she wants attention…
"I love you Nee-san! Please let me in!" he whimpered at his eyes formed tears drawing wet on his face… still sniffling and sobbing, he got up--and up to me! wh--what kind of dream is this?
"Uhh!" startled, I flinched a step back, but he managed to grab my Kimono and tugged it, still looking at me with pleading eyes…
"But I love you nee-san!" he whimpered…
"…" this child… I fix my eyes on him, and I can't help it… I kneel down and look at his teary face, with the tip of my sleeve, I pat his cheeks, "don't cry" was all I could say… but my heart was clutched horribly when he drew his tiny hands to hold my fingers and shed a tiny smile…
"Nee-san loves InuYasha?"
"…" my heart is throbbing… what is this? A heart? Demons don't have hearts! I only felt it when Rin held my hand, but…
Ugh!!!
"Easy" I slowly pour the remedy in his mouth, and I can tell it tastes awful; his face went all wrinkles when he swallowed… I lay Sesshoumaru's head on the pillow, and it looks like he'll be sleeping for a while, the little brown eyed girl sniffled and stared at him, probably waiting for him to wake up, "Rin" I softly call her, "you can go! I'll take care of everything from here"
"No! Rin want to be with Sesshoumaru-sama!" she whined, a tear rolled down her face, and in affirming to what she said, she snuggled next to him and held his clothing tight… she loves him, I can tell…
"Okay… but don't stay too long, you might get infected…" I smile and pat her head; she only snuggled into my brother even more… I look down again at Sesshoumaru… he's so weak! He never got sick before! I wonder if he's gonna be okay…
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"Sigh…" I wonder if InuYasha is okay… I wonder what Jaken told him… what if it was a trap? He might be in trouble! I have to help him but, he said the location of his old home in strictly forbidden! I can't go there or he'll be crossed at me… I wonder what it has to do with Sesshoumaru…
"Kagome" Sango-chan calls so I turn to her and smile, "don't worry, I'm sure InuYasha will be okay" she soothed, then sat next to me on the dead tree trunk…
"I just hope he doesn't end up killing anyone…"
"He's hotheaded, but I think since it has something to do with his brother he might consider a second thought"
"Hey! How about lunch?" Miroku whined, a few feet away under a tree, I can hear his stomach protesting from here! Kirara and Shippou sitting near him…
"Okay!" I chirp, maybe thing would go well??
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"Unhh--?" I open my eyes and I see two brown shimmering orbs looking back at me, "Rin?" a wide smile appeared, and before I know it, something rested on my chest somewhat hugging… I shift one hand and rest it on her back; it felt a bit better to hug her back… odd, isn't it?
"Sesshoumaru" another voice called, and I know it's who I think it is…
"Why are you still here?" I don't need to look… the shame! I close my eyes, I already know…
"…" he said nothing, but I feel something cold, I'm a bit better, but still a bit cold, what on earth did he do to me?
"Inu-nee-san helped Rin! Sesshoumaru-sama is going to be okay?" she beamed down to me, yet, tears still in her brown orbs…
"…" I ignore her and try to sit up, surprisingly, I had the strength to do so, but I'm still a bit unstable to try and walk, my head still feels heavy, "what did you do to me?"
"Nothing serious! Just a cure that should fix you up quickly!" he smiled, and it seemed like a victorious smile…
"(Expressionless) I see…"
"Sesshoumaru-sama?" Rin called in fright, she's worried about me… but I don't want my brother to know my secret…
"You could've killed me…"
"There's nothing honorable about killing a sick man, Sesshoumaru! Besides! You're my brother, and you're sick!! If I killed you instead of trying to help I'll be nothing but a f***ing sh** of a traitor!" he can be so loud! Why did father's loud side pass down to him?
"I see…"
"Inu-nee-san?"
"Yes Rin?"
"Do you hate Sesshoumaru-sama?"
"No Rin! It's him who hates me!" he sneered…
"Sesshoumaru-sama?"
"…"
"Why do you hate Inu-nee-san?"
"………" I knew it was coming… I look away and say nothing…
"(Pout)" Rin just snuggles into me and shed a cute smile, I look down at her then look at my brother, oddly enough, he's expressionless! (Shudder) looking at me with calm eyes…
"Are you feeling any better?"
"I'll be fine when you leave"
"Is that you're way of gratitude?" he growled; he's pissed off already; he should learn to stay calm…
"(Annoyed sigh)" I look at him and he pouted angrily, and then folded his hands into his red sleeves as he sat next to me on the bed…
"C'mon! Are you feeling any better?" he somewhat begged… is he that worried about me?
"Not so loud" I say in a whisper, eyes closed, I draw in a deep breath, I need to expand my lungs!
"Sesshoumaru" my brother whispered…
"What" I hiss, eyes slit, I glare him, oddly he smirked with a passionate face looking at something besides me, "??" I look aside, and I see Rin, fast asleep, snuggling into me… I, Sesshoumaru, try not to blush, but I failed!
"She's cute!" he snickered… caressing her face, but then got up, walking to the chair near the window, he opened the window, it was night, and the sky was heavenly…
"Sesshoumaru" he started, weight leaning on the window frame looking outside, "remember back when we were kids?"
"…"
"The times… at winter, we used to go out and play in the snow" his voice calm and oddly soft…
"…" I don't want to waste my breath on him, if he doesn't mind a one side conversation, then it's not like I'm willing to listen… it's just that I have no other damn choice!
"Sigh… you're not cooperating here!" he hissed… that was quick!
"…" I don't want to talk, surly not with you!
"(Frown)" he sighed, then went looking outside again… hmm, it's getting cloudy!
"Sesshoumaru"
"…"
"Why do you hate me?" voice firm yet curious…
"You already know" I hiss, I don't want to awake my Rin…
"Because my mother was human; and that I'm half human?" he cocked an eyebrow, "you blame me for something I had nothing to do with? You think I 'like' to be half human? To lose my powers every month, to be absolutely useless?" he shock his head in irritation, "Dammit Sesshoumaru! If the choice was mine, I never would've wanted to be born like this! I want to be a full demon! That's why I'm hunting for the shards!" he explained rather loudly, but bit his lips when Rin moved a bit…
"You are what you are, a hanyou! And I am what I am, a complete demon" I hiss softly, my eyes fixed on his annoyed figure, his fingers twitching either to draw out his sword on me or not…
"Feh…" and he didn't… sulking away, he gazed out into the sky…
And a period of silence came…
"InuYasha" he called me all so suddenly, now what does he want?
"What? I spat…
"Your room is still the way it used to be… go look at it if you're interested"
"!?" I jerk to him, and his face is still expressionless… but now, his hands are resting on the child's back; I blinked once, is he asking me to stay?
"Although it's dusty… it hasn't been cleaned ever since you left" he eyed above him now, and said nothing afterwards… funny, Sesshoumaru never did talk to me about something by his own free will! Usually mother or father would force him to!
"I haven't been there for years!" I replied, he somewhat shrugged and leaned his head a bit back… Rin snuggled into him a bit more…
"…" Sesshoumaru… why wouldn't you answer me? Why do you hate me like so? Is it just because my mother was human? I don't understand you; you never did show yourself to me! You're such a clamped up shell; you open up to no one! I bet even Jaken doesn't know you! He's been your servant ever since we were kids…
"Sesshoumaru" I call him unwillingly, his name just crept up my lips; and thank goodness he didn't look at me… he stayed as he was, eyeing atop of him, I look up and I see nothing… I wonder what he is thinking about…
"It's getting late" he suddenly whispered, I look back down at him, and he slowly shifted his head to look back at me, and he seemed--(expressionless of-course!)--exhausted, "we all could use a rest" he concluded, then eyed beyond me…
"Oh~!" I snap and quickly close the window, I forgot it was open! I gave a slight sigh and turned to him again, his golden eyes staring back at me… his golden firm exotic eyes… they remained me of father's eyes…
"Its--" Sesshoumaru started, voice calm and steady, but then hesitated; I wonder what he wanted to say…
"…?"
"--late for you to go back… isn't it?" he concluded…
"Not really" I carelessly shrug "as long as the sky is clear, getting back won't be much of a problem…" I smile at him, but his expression doesn't change…
"I storm is very near" he said calmly; but it felt more like he was asking me to stay! "A hanyou as weak as yourself would easily be frozen in such weather" he said, but with more of a mocking gesture…
"Don't worry! I don't turn into popsicles!" I chuckle…
"…?"
"Feh~! Never mind!" I mutter… I guess I'm picking up Kagome's naming; but I still wonder what a monkey-wrench is… and why would anyone in his right mind wanna wrench a monkey?
"Hm~!" Rin mumbled softly in her sleep, she can be so peaceful, unlike my half brother… he crept near me again in effort to look at my Rin's adorable face…
"Sesshoumaru" he called softly, and I smell curiosity, "from where did you get her?" he cocked an eyebrow at me…
"…" I ignore him; I am in no need to tell him anything…
"Feh… thought so" he slurred, and then walked to a chair and sat, one leg tucked under him, I wonder why he likes doing that! Doesn't it go numb?
"…" I close my eyes for a minute, I feel them a bit dry… but then, I hear my brother drawing a slight yawn…
"umh" InuYasha lazily rubbed his eyes, blinking twice then noticing me, he blushed and chuckled sheepishly, "Uh--Kagome and I were busy all day! I haven't slept well last night"
"I have too many guestrooms" I mutter carelessly, and looked back at Rin, cutely clutching my clothing snuggling into me, beautifully smiling…
"???" with the faintest corner of my eye, I'm enjoying his amused face… think not that I'm worried about a worthless hanyou like you brother, I just don't want your friends barging in demanding your location…
"Are you not aware of that?"
"I know we have guestrooms Bak--err, I mean…" and hesitated…
"…"
"Sesshoumaru" I call him, his expressionless gaze is there still…
"…"
"Don't you ever get lonely here? I mean… now that… our parents aren't here anymore, the palace is too huge for one member to live in, don't you think?"
"I, Sesshoumaru, do not need your pity Hanyou" he somewhat spat at me, funny, he never did that since we were kids! "It's getting late" he then started again, "a hanyou such as you needs rest for tomorrows travel"
"…?" I gaze at him, dumfounded, he's asking me to stay for the night!!
"Not many meeting occur here, I'm not sure how comfortable the guestrooms are… they aren't used much" he eyed Rin again, slightly stroking back a few of her lovely bangs…
"Sesshoumaru?" I gawk at him, and I could swear he smiled!
"You are dismissed, Jaken will attend a room for you" he then paused, and eyed away, "I, Sesshoumaru, need to be alone"
"…" I'm speechless… he actually asked me to stay--(kind of~!)--for the night! I couldn't feel myself, but I dipped my head and slowly walked to the door, I slowly slid it open, but… I couldn't help the need to look back at him…
"…" expressionless still, but then, he faintly dipped his head, and cocked his head a bit to the side…
"Good night Sesshoumaru" I smile widely as I walked out, slowly closing the door; I walked down the wards, thinking about what just happened, although he didn't answer, something about him made me feel… happy!
"Sigh…" I pass my room, and I slightly crack the door a slit open, man~! It's so dusty! I guess I won't sleep here tonight! Better go see if that toad is as bright as he looks--though I doubt it!--and get a guestroom ready, "(Holds back a chuckle)" I've always enjoyed the guestrooms! they're so wide and clean, I remember Sesshoumaru and I used to play there when we were kids, though Mom always yells at us for making a mess out of things~! "(Hand rubbing neck)" I got one hell of a spanking that day when I broke dad's favorite vase--err--vas or whatever…
"(Stops in the middle of the hallway)" I missed this place; it reminds me of so many memories! I look around me now and I remember all the fun things I used to do here… Sesshoumaru never did play with me much, but when he does it was usually something fun~! "(Chuckles a little/morphed into silence)" until dad died, he changed into this cold-expressionless guy… casting mom and I out, although he was only fifteen? Seventeen? I don't remember, I was less than ten as far as I could tell, "Sigh…" I walk to an almost-open window attending to close it, but then I blink down, and I see the gardens, "Whoa~!" I breathe in amusement, it's beautiful! All in white sparkling beautifully like that… heh! I remember mom and I once made a snowman like dad! Dad got mad at first, saying that he looks much better than that, but then started laughing…
"Hanyou~!" Ack? I jerk around…
"Sh**~! What do you want Jaken?" the little freak startled me!
"You want your room? Come with me" he hissed, then continued muttering something under his breath, the little sh**, I'll wring his neck if he startled me like that again…
"Yawn" man, I'm feeling drowsy, it's probably pass midnight and I need a nap, I'll check on Sesshoumaru when I wake up… I hope Kaede's remedy worked… Jaken led me to a really nice and wide guestroom, man~! I bet it's the biggest best room there is!
"Humph~!" he hissed and walked away… I ignore the little rat and go to bed… I need to do a lot of things tomorrow, but I guess I'll organize them later, (Yawn~!) I'll sleep now… I'm tired… so I close my eyes, cover up well, snuggle myself into that warmth and slowly sleep…
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A/N: phew~! I really wanted this fic to be a one chapter… but I'm running out of ideas and I need to upload this chapter for reviews… reviews are what give me inspirations, so please, be a responsible reader and share some ideas with me~! Please~? (Big-baby puppy dog eyes)
If you're really interested in this fic, gimmy ideas! (No battles allowed! This fic is gonna be absolutely harmless!) I wanna show the relationship between the two brothers, so please help me out, I don't own the Manga and I've never seen the show, and I have no idea how big Sesshoumaru-sama's palace is… please R&R, okay?
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alone in my bedroom, silently relaxed, eyes closed, the softest winter breeze blew against the dead trees outside, candle flames softly flickering with the faintest blow… hand clasped under my head, wearing my night kimono… after two months of travel, we have finally retuned home, to the palace, and I, Sesshoumaru, am finally to rest… to sooth my nerves from my toad-follower's annoying chatter… I had a nice warm relaxing shower, and now, I am snuggling ready to sleep in my luxurious bed, just waiting for the sandman--as Rin call it--to help me sleep…
Creek…
"…?" my bedroom door had opened; a small white ghost slipped in quietly, the whiteness glowing with the light…
"Sesshoumaru-sama?"
"Yes, Rin?"
"I can't sleep" she said in fright, ever since the snowstorm three days ago she hardly slept a wink…
"You can't sleep with me Rin" I reason, she shouldn't get used to it…
"But I'm scared" she whispered, her hands clutching to a doll in her hands, giving me that big puppy-dog eyes gesture…
"Sigh… go to your room Rin"
"(Sniffle)" she hides behind the door and peeks at me still...
"(Expressionless)" so damn cute!! "You're a big girl now Rin! You should sleep by yourself"
"But Rin is scared! Rin wants to be with Sesshoumaru-sama!" she pleaded, a tear rolled down her pink face, she's still sniffling, slightly sobbing…
"…" is she that scared? "Sigh… Rin"
"…?"
"Close the door!" I say to her as I toss the blanket from my side, one hand patting the bed "come over here"
"(BIG happy toothy grin)" lit, she slowly closed the door and smiled widely as she slowly turned to me, taking a few steps, hesitating, and stood at the side of the bed "can I?" she smiled…
"(dips head)" this is the first time I let her in my bed… no one shared the bed with me but my half-wit brother… back then when we were little, it was a stormy night and he was scared as well… I wonder if he's still scared of lightning…
"(Giggle)" she climbed her little feet to the bed and snuggled into me, I covered her, tucking her near me as I lay on my side facing her, smiling widely, she snuggled into my chest, but somewhat squeaked in fright when the wind outside went strong…
"It's just the wind" I reason, she looked up at me with her cute brown eyes and smiled again…
BAM!!!
"Eep!!!" she ducked into me in sudden fear, tossing the blanket over her head, shivering… stupid wind just bursting through my window! Feh, I hate getting out of bed when I finally get warm…
"…" I stand up and walk to the window, closing it again… Shivering, this wind is really cold! I feel a slight shiver going down my skin!
"Sesshoumaru-sama" she calls me again, and I walk back towards her…
"…" snuggling back into bed, I lay back and wait for her to speak…
"Are there monsters under the bed?"
"…?"
"Jaken-sama told me that there are monsters under my bed!!!"
"(Vein pop/expressionless)" I need to take care of that, "Rin, there aren't any monsters under your bed… now, go to sleep"
"(Smile)" she snuggles into me, and I wrap one arm on her as I cover both of us with the blanket… I close my eyes, I need to rest…
"…" I can hear her breath calmly now, her heart isn't pounding in fear anymore…
"I love you Sesshoumaru-sama" she hummed as she fell asleep…
"…" why did I save Rin when I did? Is it gratitude that she 'tried' to help me? Or was it something else?? Sigh… there are things that I cannot understand… someone with my brilliance and knowledge shouldn't strangle himself with such things… but sometimes I cant help but wonder… this pup, why do I care? Why is it that I just can't force my heart to yell at her? To scold her? To rip her up and throw her away?
If only I had a heart…
"………"
Do I have a heart?
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"Sesshoumaru-sama! Sesshoumaru-sama please wake up!! Sesshoumaru-sama!!!" I hear Rin, she's pleading and sobbing, tugging to me, shaking me, Jaken had better not bothered her again…
"ungh…" wh--what's wrong with me? I can't move! I'm shivering, and I'm drenched in sweat… I'm panting, I feel fog forming in my lungs, and it's getting hard to breath! My eyes hardly crack a slit, and I turn my head to see her… she's still at my side on the bed, she's looking down at me and tears dwell down her crimson cheeks… "Rin" I breathlessly say her name, I feel chocked… what's wrong with me? Am I sick?
"Sesshoumaru-sama?" she asked in fear, I can sense her worry, so I reach out a hand and caress her face, she holds it tight, her tears drip on them, they smell so salty, so warm, I feel my heart pounding, what's wrong with me? I am a demon! I don't get sick!!!
"Rin… get Jaken" was all I could say to her, she dipped her head unwillingly, hesitating to leave me; I dipped my head to assure her to go, so to no further pause, she climbed down my bed and bolted out… I can hear her running through the wards calling for Jaken… that toad is probably going to put her in blame and whack her for it; if he does I'll tear him apart!
"………"
Wait… why do I care?
It's because 'she' cares!
"Sesshoumaru-sama!!!" Jaken crocks in, his voice is annoying, so when he stands besides my bed, I whack his as hard as I can with my fist, but instead of drawing it back--I'm too tired to do so--I leave it swung asides me…
"Not so loud you idiot!" I hiss, my ears hurt… panting, I'm hardly capable of talking, head resting on that pillow, I close my eyes, open my mouth a bit to take in more breath, then close my lips and gulp in to clear my throat, Rin climbed from the other side avoiding Jaken who started swearing and cursing, but I silenced him, and Rin sat besides me, legs tucked, looking down at me worried… then she reached out to draw my swung hand resting it on my chest, then I rested both my hands on my chest, appearing like a man waiting for death… I look at her tiredly but say nothing…
"Sesshoumaru-sama? Are you going to be okay?" she whimpered in fear, eyes locked, and her fragile hands on my chest…
"You stupid brat! This is all your fault! Stay away from Sess--(BONK)--!!!" you annoying toad! I should rip out your tong!
"Jaken" I hiss as I draw back my fist…
"Yes! Sesshoumaru-sama?" he muttered sheepishly feeling his bald scull…
"Rin has nothing to do with this…" I say as loud as I can, sweat cold on my face, "go… and look for a chemist who might have remedy"
"Yes, right away!" and quickly bolted out…
"Can Rin help?" she tried to smile down at me… those eyes… she stared down at me like a sad little puppy…
"Just--(clears throat)--stay by my side" I pant… God what's wrong with me? It's just a stupid cold right? Or is it a fever? Why do I feel so weak? So helpless? I can't even move…
"Rin will go get cold water" she whispered to me and bolted out… she's right, I need to cool down this heat! I hear her as she ran out, and I can tell she tripped and fell, I hear her moan, skip to her feet again and continued running… and then it faded away, and I hear nothing… nothing but the pulse of heartbeats in my ears…
"(pant-pant-pant)" I crack my eyes a slit, looking around me, this silence is so loud, it's bothering me! I drew in a deep inhale to increase the size of my clinching lungs, and it feels a bit better, they feel a bit wider, but I'm shivering! Where the hell did I get this?
"(Absolute silence)"
"…!!" last night when I had the shower! And the window opened! Dammit! I must've got it from there!! "(Groan)" I feel so tired, I think I'm going to fall asleep, I need a rest, so I close my eyes… and I remember nothing more…
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"Remedy-remedy-remedy--!! Where am I to find remedy in the middle of a forest?" ack! It's all because of that insolent brat! She caused this! When I return, I'll be sure to swat her good!
"SIT!! (CRASH!!!)" hnn?? I didn't hear that, did I? Blinking confused, I walk towards a near by bush and watch, it's that human girl with the odd clothing arguing with my masters half-breed! He peals himself off the dirt and shouts at her… I wonder what they're doing! I see the monk and that little Kitsune, along with the yellow-black two tailed creature, is it a cat or a fox? Who knows? Why am I here staring at a bunch of troublemakers? I should be going around looking for a remedy for Sesshoumaru-sama! "(Yelp!!!!)"
"What have we got here!!" Oh-my! A Youkai hunter!!! The one with the huge boomerang! "Hey guys!" she smiles wickedly dragging me by my scarf towards them…
"NO! Let me go!!" I struggle, but too late, the half-breed grabs me by the leg dangling my upside down…
"It's Jaken!" he growled, and he gave me no choice but to--WHACK--with my staff! I fell and run as fast as my legs could go! "OW!!! Why you dirty little green runt!" he sneered and chased after me…
"OW~!" that hurt! he pummeled his foot over my head, and then jerked me up face to face…
"Okay you little piece of sh**! What are you doing here??" he demanded, God he's so impatient, not like my Sesshoumaru-sama! My master is as cool as ice yet his wrath can crumble mountains! I snort at him and kick his chin--I learned that one from Rin!--yet he doesn't let go…
"(InuYasha goes into 'Kill now think later' mode!)" Maybe I made a mistake!!! (O_O;;)
"InuYasha wait! At-least let us figure out what he's doing here!!" the wired girl quickly grabbed his darted clawed hand…
"Feh!" he dropped me and jerked around…
"Okay Jaken!" Oh-Uh!! I don't like that glare! "What are you doing here??"
"I-I'm… looking for remedy for Sesshoumaru-sama's two headed beast!" I hope they buy it!
"Remedy? Why? Is the poor thing sick?" she asked softer now, great! She bought it!! And it seems the other did, except the hanyou!
"Yes!" I affirm, maybe now they would let me go!
"Okay, can I kill him now?" the hanyou growled, but the wired girl only glared him…
"(sweat drop) Kagome!" he waved his hands and attended to run off until--
"SIT!!!"
THWACK!!!
"!" I bet that hurt! "………" hurt… God I hope Sesshoumaru-sama is getting better… that little brat had better be away till I return…
"Jaken!" the Kitsune called suspiciously, "you look worried" he cocked an eyebrow…
"So?" I hiss, I need out of there!!
"You can't be worried about the two headed beast, and even if you were worried you couldn't possibly be 'this' worried!" he talked back, and my tong got knots in it, everyone is staring at me! Stupid Kitsune! He just blew my cover!!
"Jaken!" the hanyou smiled and eyed me where he was flat on the face, "you know something we don't so better spit it out or else!" she widened his smile, hand on Tetsusaiga!
"(Gulp)" for Sesshoumaru-sake… they might help??
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"(pant-pant-pant)" patting his face with a handkerchief to dry away the sweat, Sesshoumaru-sama isn't breathing right, Rin is worried! His face is wet and he's asleep for a long time, and Jaken-sama is really late! Rin is scared! She doesn't want Sesshoumaru-sama to die! She would be alone! She doesn't want to be alone! Rin wants to be with Sesshoumaru-sama! A tear runs down her face and she look down at Sesshoumaru-sama's face, he's calm but having problems breathing! Rin is really scared…
"uhh--uhh--uhh" Sesshoumaru-sama moved his head to the other side, looking sad, more sweat rolling down his face, his eyes cracked a slit and he looked at Rin…
"Sesshoumaru-sama!!" he's okay? He's looking at Rin, but looks sad; he shifted a hand up and caressed Rin's face! He smiled! 'Sesshoumaru-sama touched Rin's face and smiled!!' her mind lit in happiness…
"Rin…" he closed his eyes and frowned, Sesshoumaru-sama feels pain? "Jaken?" he breathlessly asked…
"Jaken-sama isn't back! He's really late! Maybe Rin should go look for Jaken-sama?" he shifted down his hand and held Rin's really tight, but it didn't hurt…
"No… Jaken had better come soon… (pant-pant-pant)… Rin… get me water" Sesshoumaru-sama is thirsty! Rin hurries to the water jug and carefully pour water for Sesshoumaru-sama… then she picked up the glass really carefully and climbed up the bed…
"Here!" Sesshoumaru-sama pulled himself a bit up to be able to drink, back laid on the huge pillow supporting him, somewhat sitting upright, he couldn't hold the glass so Rin helped, "(drinking)" Sesshoumaru-sama looks really tired… a droplet of sweat rolled down his forehead all the way to his neck… "Uhh--" he's finished, and laid back his head, still panting, tiredly looking at Rin…
"Rin" I call her softly…
"Yes?"
"Go… to the gates… and wait for Jaken…"
"What about Sesshoumaru-sama?"
"Just go!"
"Rin won't leave Sesshoumaru-sama alone! Might need help!"
"(Somewhat hurt by the thought)" need help? I'm sick, I'm week, I do need help, "Rin, Go!"
"No!" and then threw herself over my chest and clutched to my clothing and sobbed, "Rin wants to be with Sesshoumaru-sama!"
"Rin!" I scold, really annoyed with this, "Go…" I say softly, I don't want to sound like I'm begging…
Puppy-eyes shimmered with tears…
"Sesshoumaru?" a voice lost in disbelieve asked worriedly, I shift my sight, only for the horror of my brother, with Jaken hanged in his clawed hand, "so it's true!" he dropped the toad and took a step towards me…
"Inu-nee-san!" Rin chirped and quickly climbed off the bed to him, quickly holding his hand pulling him towards me, "Inu-nee-san! Sesshoumaru-sama is sick! Can you heal him? Onigai?"
"(Heart skipped a beat)" the shame and disgrace, my brother caught me in a moment of weakness…
"Sesshoumaru"
"…!!" only to snap my eyes sitting besides me on the bed, looking concerned, "…" he only gazed at me, and I turned my face away, I cant take this any longer…
"Leave" I hiss as loud as I can, but that only made him rest his hand on my forehead… his hand! It felt so--warm! I never noticed how cold I felt till now! I look at his hand there on my forehead, and heavily brushed it away, "Don't touch me!" I try to get up, but I only end up getting myself dizzy… Oh~! Why is everything spinning? Why does my head feel so heavy?
"You're feverish!" no kidding? I plop back on my back, hand on my head, it's too much, I can't take it…
"InuYasha" I hiss at him, "what do you want? Why are you here?" I glare while panting…
"…" uhh--? He gave me this--sad baby face--reminds me of Rin!--I haven't seen this face since we were kids… why is he looking at me like this? He doesn't… miss me… does he? I look at Rin as she perched besides my head, InuYasha on the other side, Jaken muttering curses at the foot of the bed…
"InuYasha… leave…" it was all I could say, I'm tired and I don't feel like arguing with him now…
"No… not when you're like this…" he somewhat hissed… I look back at him, eyes locked, he has something there, something--that is a part of father! His eyes shine with determination, "and don't try to change my mind Sesshoumaru! Let's call it a truce!" he slightly smiled…
"…" I glare him for a second… why am I to disagree? I'm sick in bed and I can't even move… "wait…"
"…?"
"Are… they here?"
"No! Just because we're a group doesn't mean I can show them the location of the palace… if I did, it's like cheating on my parents!"
"Not even… to that girl?"
"Kagome understands family borders…" he calmly said to me, then reached to his sleeve and picked out a small pouch, "this is from Kaede, it's a mixture of herbs, it should heal you in a jiffy!" he smiled…
"I did not ask for you pity" I shrug attending to situp, but my powers failed me, so I plopped back again… cursed fever! No wonder Rin turns so helpless when she's sick! And she's human! What of me? The great Lord of the western--(chock!!)--Cough--Cough--Cough!!
"Sesshoumaru-sama!" Rin sobbed…
"What's wrong? Sesshoumaru!!" InuYasha quickly placed his hands on my shoulders, pale face to sick face; the pouch fell from his hand to the floor, "Sesshoumaru!" he cried in worry… odd… I… never thought he cared…
"Sesshoumaru-sama!!" Jaken squeaked…
"(pant-pant-pant)" what the devil happened? I didn't cough before! It hurts my throat and lungs, I cant breath and I feel so tired… I think I'm gonna take a nap, I'm beat…
;__;
"What's wrong? Sesshoumaru! Answer me dammit!"
"Sesshoumaru-sama!!" Rin started crying, sobbing bitterly as she threw herself on his chest, her tiny hands clutching his clothing, he was still alive, but hardly breathing, coughing wasn't a good sign, "Jaken!"
"Err--?" he blinked at me, "what do you want you impudent hanyou?" he growled, "leave as Sesshoumaru-sama ordered!"
"Over my dead body!!" I hiss with anger, no toad is gonna boss my over my sick brother! I pick up the pouch, "Rin, can you lead me to the kitchen?" she looked at Sesshoumaru and sniffled "I have a cure! Show me to the kitchen and I'll help!"
"Really?"
"You fiend! You are to kill Sesshoumaru-sama! Rin don't believe him!"
"Butt out toad face!" growling, I kick the damn thing, sending him flying out the window… he falls with a crater into the thorny bush… Heh! I always remembered its place! (Flush) I fell there once!
"Inu-nee-san?" she sniffled, "is Sesshoumaru-sama going to be okay?"
"I promise Rin! I won't him die!" Oh! Now I remember where the kitchen is, "Rin wait here! I'll make some remedy for Sesshoumaru and be right back!"
"……… sigh…"
"…" where am I? I look around and I see nothing, I hear nothing, I'm here with my traveling clothing! My armor, silk kimono and sword… Jaken? Rin? Where is everyone?
"Sesshoumaru!"
"…?" hn? I jerk behind me, and I see it… "This cannot be!"
"Get lost!" I see myself as a youth, swatting away my younger half sibling; father comes and furiously yells at me… I'm sent to my room, and I stay there alone… wait! I don't remember this! But--somehow it feels familiar!
"Nee-san" InuYasha is only five! I'm fifteen… he walked into my room and I hiss at him… I can feel him shivering as he walks to me…
"I said: Get Lost!!!" I sound as stupid as a youth! My voice is soft like a girl! (Shudder!) And he still approaches me; I watch my youth-self stand and grab his collar, shoving him outside, "Baka!" I hiss and slam the door…
"(Sobbing/sniffling)" my little brother sat there at my door where I threw him and started crying…
"!!!" a painful shiver when down my spine as he craned to me! His big baby-golden eyes and pink cheeks from all the crying… looks like Rin when she wants attention…
"I love you Nee-san! Please let me in!" he whimpered at his eyes formed tears drawing wet on his face… still sniffling and sobbing, he got up--and up to me! wh--what kind of dream is this?
"Uhh!" startled, I flinched a step back, but he managed to grab my Kimono and tugged it, still looking at me with pleading eyes…
"But I love you nee-san!" he whimpered…
"…" this child… I fix my eyes on him, and I can't help it… I kneel down and look at his teary face, with the tip of my sleeve, I pat his cheeks, "don't cry" was all I could say… but my heart was clutched horribly when he drew his tiny hands to hold my fingers and shed a tiny smile…
"Nee-san loves InuYasha?"
"…" my heart is throbbing… what is this? A heart? Demons don't have hearts! I only felt it when Rin held my hand, but…
Ugh!!!
"Easy" I slowly pour the remedy in his mouth, and I can tell it tastes awful; his face went all wrinkles when he swallowed… I lay Sesshoumaru's head on the pillow, and it looks like he'll be sleeping for a while, the little brown eyed girl sniffled and stared at him, probably waiting for him to wake up, "Rin" I softly call her, "you can go! I'll take care of everything from here"
"No! Rin want to be with Sesshoumaru-sama!" she whined, a tear rolled down her face, and in affirming to what she said, she snuggled next to him and held his clothing tight… she loves him, I can tell…
"Okay… but don't stay too long, you might get infected…" I smile and pat her head; she only snuggled into my brother even more… I look down again at Sesshoumaru… he's so weak! He never got sick before! I wonder if he's gonna be okay…
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"Sigh…" I wonder if InuYasha is okay… I wonder what Jaken told him… what if it was a trap? He might be in trouble! I have to help him but, he said the location of his old home in strictly forbidden! I can't go there or he'll be crossed at me… I wonder what it has to do with Sesshoumaru…
"Kagome" Sango-chan calls so I turn to her and smile, "don't worry, I'm sure InuYasha will be okay" she soothed, then sat next to me on the dead tree trunk…
"I just hope he doesn't end up killing anyone…"
"He's hotheaded, but I think since it has something to do with his brother he might consider a second thought"
"Hey! How about lunch?" Miroku whined, a few feet away under a tree, I can hear his stomach protesting from here! Kirara and Shippou sitting near him…
"Okay!" I chirp, maybe thing would go well??
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"Unhh--?" I open my eyes and I see two brown shimmering orbs looking back at me, "Rin?" a wide smile appeared, and before I know it, something rested on my chest somewhat hugging… I shift one hand and rest it on her back; it felt a bit better to hug her back… odd, isn't it?
"Sesshoumaru" another voice called, and I know it's who I think it is…
"Why are you still here?" I don't need to look… the shame! I close my eyes, I already know…
"…" he said nothing, but I feel something cold, I'm a bit better, but still a bit cold, what on earth did he do to me?
"Inu-nee-san helped Rin! Sesshoumaru-sama is going to be okay?" she beamed down to me, yet, tears still in her brown orbs…
"…" I ignore her and try to sit up, surprisingly, I had the strength to do so, but I'm still a bit unstable to try and walk, my head still feels heavy, "what did you do to me?"
"Nothing serious! Just a cure that should fix you up quickly!" he smiled, and it seemed like a victorious smile…
"(Expressionless) I see…"
"Sesshoumaru-sama?" Rin called in fright, she's worried about me… but I don't want my brother to know my secret…
"You could've killed me…"
"There's nothing honorable about killing a sick man, Sesshoumaru! Besides! You're my brother, and you're sick!! If I killed you instead of trying to help I'll be nothing but a f***ing sh** of a traitor!" he can be so loud! Why did father's loud side pass down to him?
"I see…"
"Inu-nee-san?"
"Yes Rin?"
"Do you hate Sesshoumaru-sama?"
"No Rin! It's him who hates me!" he sneered…
"Sesshoumaru-sama?"
"…"
"Why do you hate Inu-nee-san?"
"………" I knew it was coming… I look away and say nothing…
"(Pout)" Rin just snuggles into me and shed a cute smile, I look down at her then look at my brother, oddly enough, he's expressionless! (Shudder) looking at me with calm eyes…
"Are you feeling any better?"
"I'll be fine when you leave"
"Is that you're way of gratitude?" he growled; he's pissed off already; he should learn to stay calm…
"(Annoyed sigh)" I look at him and he pouted angrily, and then folded his hands into his red sleeves as he sat next to me on the bed…
"C'mon! Are you feeling any better?" he somewhat begged… is he that worried about me?
"Not so loud" I say in a whisper, eyes closed, I draw in a deep breath, I need to expand my lungs!
"Sesshoumaru" my brother whispered…
"What" I hiss, eyes slit, I glare him, oddly he smirked with a passionate face looking at something besides me, "??" I look aside, and I see Rin, fast asleep, snuggling into me… I, Sesshoumaru, try not to blush, but I failed!
"She's cute!" he snickered… caressing her face, but then got up, walking to the chair near the window, he opened the window, it was night, and the sky was heavenly…
"Sesshoumaru" he started, weight leaning on the window frame looking outside, "remember back when we were kids?"
"…"
"The times… at winter, we used to go out and play in the snow" his voice calm and oddly soft…
"…" I don't want to waste my breath on him, if he doesn't mind a one side conversation, then it's not like I'm willing to listen… it's just that I have no other damn choice!
"Sigh… you're not cooperating here!" he hissed… that was quick!
"…" I don't want to talk, surly not with you!
"(Frown)" he sighed, then went looking outside again… hmm, it's getting cloudy!
"Sesshoumaru"
"…"
"Why do you hate me?" voice firm yet curious…
"You already know" I hiss, I don't want to awake my Rin…
"Because my mother was human; and that I'm half human?" he cocked an eyebrow, "you blame me for something I had nothing to do with? You think I 'like' to be half human? To lose my powers every month, to be absolutely useless?" he shock his head in irritation, "Dammit Sesshoumaru! If the choice was mine, I never would've wanted to be born like this! I want to be a full demon! That's why I'm hunting for the shards!" he explained rather loudly, but bit his lips when Rin moved a bit…
"You are what you are, a hanyou! And I am what I am, a complete demon" I hiss softly, my eyes fixed on his annoyed figure, his fingers twitching either to draw out his sword on me or not…
"Feh…" and he didn't… sulking away, he gazed out into the sky…
And a period of silence came…
"InuYasha" he called me all so suddenly, now what does he want?
"What? I spat…
"Your room is still the way it used to be… go look at it if you're interested"
"!?" I jerk to him, and his face is still expressionless… but now, his hands are resting on the child's back; I blinked once, is he asking me to stay?
"Although it's dusty… it hasn't been cleaned ever since you left" he eyed above him now, and said nothing afterwards… funny, Sesshoumaru never did talk to me about something by his own free will! Usually mother or father would force him to!
"I haven't been there for years!" I replied, he somewhat shrugged and leaned his head a bit back… Rin snuggled into him a bit more…
"…" Sesshoumaru… why wouldn't you answer me? Why do you hate me like so? Is it just because my mother was human? I don't understand you; you never did show yourself to me! You're such a clamped up shell; you open up to no one! I bet even Jaken doesn't know you! He's been your servant ever since we were kids…
"Sesshoumaru" I call him unwillingly, his name just crept up my lips; and thank goodness he didn't look at me… he stayed as he was, eyeing atop of him, I look up and I see nothing… I wonder what he is thinking about…
"It's getting late" he suddenly whispered, I look back down at him, and he slowly shifted his head to look back at me, and he seemed--(expressionless of-course!)--exhausted, "we all could use a rest" he concluded, then eyed beyond me…
"Oh~!" I snap and quickly close the window, I forgot it was open! I gave a slight sigh and turned to him again, his golden eyes staring back at me… his golden firm exotic eyes… they remained me of father's eyes…
"Its--" Sesshoumaru started, voice calm and steady, but then hesitated; I wonder what he wanted to say…
"…?"
"--late for you to go back… isn't it?" he concluded…
"Not really" I carelessly shrug "as long as the sky is clear, getting back won't be much of a problem…" I smile at him, but his expression doesn't change…
"I storm is very near" he said calmly; but it felt more like he was asking me to stay! "A hanyou as weak as yourself would easily be frozen in such weather" he said, but with more of a mocking gesture…
"Don't worry! I don't turn into popsicles!" I chuckle…
"…?"
"Feh~! Never mind!" I mutter… I guess I'm picking up Kagome's naming; but I still wonder what a monkey-wrench is… and why would anyone in his right mind wanna wrench a monkey?
"Hm~!" Rin mumbled softly in her sleep, she can be so peaceful, unlike my half brother… he crept near me again in effort to look at my Rin's adorable face…
"Sesshoumaru" he called softly, and I smell curiosity, "from where did you get her?" he cocked an eyebrow at me…
"…" I ignore him; I am in no need to tell him anything…
"Feh… thought so" he slurred, and then walked to a chair and sat, one leg tucked under him, I wonder why he likes doing that! Doesn't it go numb?
"…" I close my eyes for a minute, I feel them a bit dry… but then, I hear my brother drawing a slight yawn…
"umh" InuYasha lazily rubbed his eyes, blinking twice then noticing me, he blushed and chuckled sheepishly, "Uh--Kagome and I were busy all day! I haven't slept well last night"
"I have too many guestrooms" I mutter carelessly, and looked back at Rin, cutely clutching my clothing snuggling into me, beautifully smiling…
"???" with the faintest corner of my eye, I'm enjoying his amused face… think not that I'm worried about a worthless hanyou like you brother, I just don't want your friends barging in demanding your location…
"Are you not aware of that?"
"I know we have guestrooms Bak--err, I mean…" and hesitated…
"…"
"Sesshoumaru" I call him, his expressionless gaze is there still…
"…"
"Don't you ever get lonely here? I mean… now that… our parents aren't here anymore, the palace is too huge for one member to live in, don't you think?"
"I, Sesshoumaru, do not need your pity Hanyou" he somewhat spat at me, funny, he never did that since we were kids! "It's getting late" he then started again, "a hanyou such as you needs rest for tomorrows travel"
"…?" I gaze at him, dumfounded, he's asking me to stay for the night!!
"Not many meeting occur here, I'm not sure how comfortable the guestrooms are… they aren't used much" he eyed Rin again, slightly stroking back a few of her lovely bangs…
"Sesshoumaru?" I gawk at him, and I could swear he smiled!
"You are dismissed, Jaken will attend a room for you" he then paused, and eyed away, "I, Sesshoumaru, need to be alone"
"…" I'm speechless… he actually asked me to stay--(kind of~!)--for the night! I couldn't feel myself, but I dipped my head and slowly walked to the door, I slowly slid it open, but… I couldn't help the need to look back at him…
"…" expressionless still, but then, he faintly dipped his head, and cocked his head a bit to the side…
"Good night Sesshoumaru" I smile widely as I walked out, slowly closing the door; I walked down the wards, thinking about what just happened, although he didn't answer, something about him made me feel… happy!
"Sigh…" I pass my room, and I slightly crack the door a slit open, man~! It's so dusty! I guess I won't sleep here tonight! Better go see if that toad is as bright as he looks--though I doubt it!--and get a guestroom ready, "(Holds back a chuckle)" I've always enjoyed the guestrooms! they're so wide and clean, I remember Sesshoumaru and I used to play there when we were kids, though Mom always yells at us for making a mess out of things~! "(Hand rubbing neck)" I got one hell of a spanking that day when I broke dad's favorite vase--err--vas or whatever…
"(Stops in the middle of the hallway)" I missed this place; it reminds me of so many memories! I look around me now and I remember all the fun things I used to do here… Sesshoumaru never did play with me much, but when he does it was usually something fun~! "(Chuckles a little/morphed into silence)" until dad died, he changed into this cold-expressionless guy… casting mom and I out, although he was only fifteen? Seventeen? I don't remember, I was less than ten as far as I could tell, "Sigh…" I walk to an almost-open window attending to close it, but then I blink down, and I see the gardens, "Whoa~!" I breathe in amusement, it's beautiful! All in white sparkling beautifully like that… heh! I remember mom and I once made a snowman like dad! Dad got mad at first, saying that he looks much better than that, but then started laughing…
"Hanyou~!" Ack? I jerk around…
"Sh**~! What do you want Jaken?" the little freak startled me!
"You want your room? Come with me" he hissed, then continued muttering something under his breath, the little sh**, I'll wring his neck if he startled me like that again…
"Yawn" man, I'm feeling drowsy, it's probably pass midnight and I need a nap, I'll check on Sesshoumaru when I wake up… I hope Kaede's remedy worked… Jaken led me to a really nice and wide guestroom, man~! I bet it's the biggest best room there is!
"Humph~!" he hissed and walked away… I ignore the little rat and go to bed… I need to do a lot of things tomorrow, but I guess I'll organize them later, (Yawn~!) I'll sleep now… I'm tired… so I close my eyes, cover up well, snuggle myself into that warmth and slowly sleep…
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A/N: phew~! I really wanted this fic to be a one chapter… but I'm running out of ideas and I need to upload this chapter for reviews… reviews are what give me inspirations, so please, be a responsible reader and share some ideas with me~! Please~? (Big-baby puppy dog eyes)
If you're really interested in this fic, gimmy ideas! (No battles allowed! This fic is gonna be absolutely harmless!) I wanna show the relationship between the two brothers, so please help me out, I don't own the Manga and I've never seen the show, and I have no idea how big Sesshoumaru-sama's palace is… please R&R, okay?
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