Yesterday was the day I returned home from the hospital. When we got back, Bella and I just sat in the living room together in silence. Neither of us could wrap our heads around the fact that I had cancer, and it was probable I would die. I broke the silence

"Belly, you know I can do this. I can win this battle and I won't give up. I'm strong." I said. Bella walked over and wrapped her arms around me

"I know you are. I just can't accept the fact that I could lose you. I can't live without you. Your my best friend, my baby sister, my everything," she said as she started to cry. I started to rub her back and assure her everything would be okay, even though i didn't know if it would.

Today was my first day back at school in two weeks, and I made the decision not to tell anyone about my cancer. I just told everyone I had the flu, and that's why I was absent. School went normally, and my absence caused me to become really behind in all of my classes. Bella and I met at her truck at 3:00 every day, and she was never late. I was surprised to see she wasn't there, so I waited inside the truck. A few minutes turned into thirty minutes and I was starting to worry. As if in cue, Bella came walking out of the woods. What was she doing in there? I ran over and gave her a big hug.

"Bella! I was so worried! Where were you?"

"I'm so so sorry. I lost track of time, and I was with Edward," she answered.

"Oh.." I answered. When we got in the car, she started to drive and then started talking.

"I trust you with everything, so I'm about to tell you something you can't tell a soul, including Charlie. Got it?"

"Yeah, of course," I said. What could be so secretive I couldn't tell anyone?

"Your totally going to think I'm crazy, but Edward is a vampire. That's why he looked so repulsed by me, because he wanted to drink my blood. But he said his family only drinks animal blood, because their creator, Dr. Carlisle, was human." This was why she was in the woods for so long. My mouth just hung open for a few minutes.

"That explains the whole stopping the van thing," I said. By this time, we had pulled up to our little white house. Charlie wasn't home yet, he doesn't return to 5, so Bella and I had the house to ourselves. We spent pretty much the entire evening working on all my missed work, and Bella tried to explain everything to me but it still didn't make sense, not that school ever did. It was about time to go to bed, so I started to put on my oversized sweatpants and sweatshirt. Since I had been diagnosed with leukemia, Bella had insisted that she sleeps with me, so I wasn't surprised to hear her small footsteps come down to my room and climb into the bed with me.

I woke up at 2 that morning because I could no longer feel Bella's warmth. I moved my hands around the bed trying to find her, and eventually realized she was sitting on the edge of the bed with her feet dangling off.

"What's wrong? Are you okay?" I asked my sister, worried.

"I saw him, Ashley. He was standing right there," she said as she pointed to the corner of my bedroom.

"Who?" I asked my sister with a tone of confusion.

"Edward." she answered blandly. I felt badly knowing how this boy was driving my sister crazy, she really liked him.

"We should go back to bed, we have school," I told her. She listened and laid back down, wrapping an arm around me and pulling me closer. I turned around to face her, buried my face in her chest, and fell into a quick and dreamless sleep.

The next morning, Bella and I awoke to our alarm clock. We both groaned, rolled out of bed, and went our separate ways to get dressed. It then hit me that today was my first chemo session. Charlie couldn't be there because of work so Bella had to take me. I swear, Charlie was becoming more and more distant from Bella and I these days, and Bella was becoming more like a mother to me. Since I returned to school from my long absence, I had been distancing my new "friends" and becoming closer to Bella and her new friends, especially Edward and the Cullen family. We sat together at lunch the 7 of us: Rosalie, Emmet, Alice, Jasper, Edward, Bella, and I. They didn't know I had leukemia either. School went normally, and then it was time for what I had been dreading: chemo. When we arrived at the hospital, Bella held my hand and led me inside. We approached the lady at the front desk.

"Name," she asked.

"Ashley Swan, we're here for her first chemotherapy treatment," Bella answered. We were lead to a small room with a chair that I sat in. Bella stood next to me and held my hand. The doctor came in shortly, introduced herself, shook our hands, and began to prepare for my treatment. When she put the needle in me, it hurt like heck and I think I may have broken Bella's hand by squeezing it too hard. The treatment lasted thirty minutes, and they would get longer from there. I passed the time by watching the TV mounted on the wall in the room.

When we returned home, Charlie wasn't home (as usual) and I went right upstairs to take a shower and go to bed. It was only 6. I fell asleep around 6:30 and Bella finished her work and came in around 9.

Every two weeks, I had to go to the doctor to see how my leukemia was. I had only been diagnosed three weeks ago, but I had to go for my first "check up" today. Charlie didn't show, as usual, and so it was just Bella and I. We checked in and waited in the waiting room of the hospitl for about 10 minutes before we were called in. The doctor told me he was going to have to take blood to get a count of my blood cells, and I wasn't happy. The doctor tied a band around my arm and stuck a needle in. It hurt really bad, so I squeezed Bella's hand really hard. After, the doctor left with my blood to go count my blood cells. That was the longest five minutes of my entire life. The doctor came back with a very concerned look on his face and opened his file folder. Bella wrapped her arms around me because she knew bad news was coming.

"Ashley, I'm afraid your condition has taken a turn for the worst. Your white blood cells are multiplying at such a high rate there is a slim chance of stopping or slowing it down, which could lead to death. We need to hospitalize you immediatley and try to do anything we can to get you better. I'm going to get you an IV with some medications," he said as he left the room. I could hear Bella quieltly sobbing behind me and it broke my heart. I hated that I was the reason for her tears. I turned toward her and buried my head in her stomach.

"I'm sorry, Belly," I told her on the verge of tears.

"Don't say that, Ashley. I've failed you. I'm supposed to be your big sister, I'm supposed to protect you. I'm sorry," she said. I was so upset that my poor, sweet sister thought this was her fault. The doctor returned shortly and put a very painful IV into me. I just sat in bed wrapped in Bella's arms for quite some time. I knew I was going to die. I could tell by the doctor's voice. He knew I was going to die, which is why he wasn't even checking on me, he just let me sit there, pretending he was trying to save me. I was OK with it. I think it's my time to go. I was becoming a big neusince to everybody: my father didn't love me anymore, I didn't have any friends of my own, and Bella had to take care of me like I was five. I think she would be better off without me. I could feel myself becoming weaker and weaker and breathing was becoming harder and harder. Bella hadn't even bothered to call Charlie to tell him his youngest daughter was dying because he wouldn't care anyways. Bella and I hadn't spoken at all, but we just sat there and held each other. It was getting late, and Bella had school tomorrow. I looked up at my sister.

"Belly, you should go home you have school. I will be alright on my own," I was gasping for breath from speaking.

"No way. I'm staying here with you. I'm not leaving she said," and we remained sitting and crying. Eventually, I got very tired so I told Bella I was going to go to bed. I laid down on my side with Bella cuddled up closely with an arm over me. I knew that I wasn't going to wake up in the morning, but I didn't want to tell my sister. Instead I just gave her a kiss and told her I loved her before drifting off into sleep.

I woke up in the middle of the night because I couldn't catch my breath. I shook Bella awake because I was really scared. She sensed my problem and carried me on her hip into the hall, searching for a nurse. I guess not many nurses were on duty at this time in the night, because nobody came. That was it for me.

Sorry, I had to. Edward is going to start to come in more.