Chapter 1: What was Missing

It was a calm afternoon by the fields, the cool breeze brushed softly against her soft pale white skin as the grass tickled the sides of her arms. Mikasa always felt drowsy whenever she found a quiet spot to rest on. If only Eren was here…
She lazily lifted her arm to shade her eyes from the sunlight thinking how much she started to miss him so much. Ever since Levi Rivaille took him to his squad, she barely talked Eren for a week but sometimes they didn't see each other at all.

Whether she was getting in love with him or not, she would always think of him as part of her family, but there were times she couldn't hold back anymore. One night after an intense training, she spotted Eren soundly sleeping at the very place she was resting on. She was asked to look for him since it was almost time for dinner. She approached him and knelt down, then she stared at his peaceful face as he snored inaudibly. A feeling of want and longing struck her, she bit her lip. At first she was hesitating but her body moved on their own and sneaked a kiss on his lips.Why am I remembering that…?
Unexpectedly, an arm grabbed her wrist with eyes flew open from surprise, he said, voice cold and sturdy, "Don't do that again… we're a family, Mikasa." She could still remember how his tone was icy and shaky as he spoke.

She couldn't face him after that, but good-natured brother Eren kept telling her that it was okay and wanted everything to go back to normal.
Obviously, she didn't want to see him as a family – her brother, she wanted him more than that. The feeling of frustration and slight bitterness never left her since then. With the same old pokerface she had on, she kept her feelings bottled up.

"It hurts…" Mikasa gripped her hurting chest, it almost made her feel like weeping every tear within her.

"What are you doing here?" she immediately sat up the moment she heard a voice so familiar and irritating at the same time. It was Corporal Levi standing with a book in hand. He was the man who'd humiliated Eren, the one who hurt him, and with clenched fists she remembered all of it vividly. Mikasa kept her cool and stood up.

"Sorry Sir, please excuse me," she said before she could throw an insult at the most hated person of her life.

I want to see him… I need him…

His hand flew onto her shoulder to stop her, "I asked what you are doing here. is that how you respond to your superior?" this time she glared at him, she had grit her teeth and shoved his hand off.

She began to mumble, "There was nothing rude from what I said. Please excuse me, sir."

Mikasa's glare displeased him, "And you think the way you look isn't rude?"

What does he want…?! She took a deep breath, she wouldn't want to lose her cool now out of all times.

"Sir, I – "

"I thought I told the blond brat to tell you, that you're transferring to my squad," his voice was deadpanned which matches his beaded grey eyes.

"Armin?" he didn't reply, instead he sat down on the grass and started reading his book, "Why all of a sudden?" the stunned woman forgot that Levi's squad was full of elites among elites and she was the second strongest fighter of humanity so it was no surprise that she would definitely belong to them. A spark of happiness hit her, it would be a great chance to see Eren, just a little glimpse of him was just enough for her to get through a day.

Levi's eyes didn't left the page of the book he was browsing, "Get your things ready for tomorrow."

xXx

The horse ran at full speed, no matter how steep the hill was or how there were sharp branches scratching the fragile porcelain skin of the determined Mikasa, the feeling of excitement hadn't left her the moment she woke up. Eren… Eren…
She can finally make it up to him for that cursed kiss she gave him, but at times she would always think that trying to settle things with him was no more than a sin just to satisfy her forbidden feelings bit by bit. To be exact, they weren't blood-related, but Eren could only think of her as a family, his sister, he'll never see her as a woman he would someday desire.

She finally arrived at the castle, her new place that can still be considered as home as long as Eren would be by her side, she'll feel complete. Mikasa smiled a little at the thought and had blushed slightly, being a little shy to face him.

Several members of the troops welcomed her, but her expression showed too well how much she couldn't care about anything besides seeing Eren. The lady with shoulder length and bright orange haired woman named Petra greeted her with a big smile on her face. she seemed to be in her early 20's or 30's. But Mikasa just looked at her and spoke, "Where will I be sleeping?" she hoped it would be near Eren's room.

"O-Oh… I'll lead you there. Please follow me," Petra sighed and took a bag from her hand, "Allow me to help you."

As they ascended the stairs, one of the members eyed at Mikasa, "She better not be trouble," he clicked his tongue in disgust for her cold behavior.

"Watch out man, you might end up biting your tongue off again," they laughed, "If she is, Corporal will surely be able to handle her," they nodded at each other in agreement.

xXx

"It's a bit dusty in here, but there's a bed and table at least, right?" Petra giggled slightly, trying to lighten up the situation with Mikasa. S-She isn't that sociable isn't she…? At least experience was on her side; Levi was pretty much the same so she was sure that they would get along after some time.

"May I ask something, Ma'am?" Mikasa gazed around the room.

"Sure, what is it?"

"Where is Eren?"

"Would you like to talk to him? He's your brother, no?" she had to admit, it was really irritating to have Eren be called his brother. Mikasa nodded as Petra started to walk out of the room to let her see finally see him, "His room is in the basement."

A curly permed tall man suddenly appeared behind them and whined, "Petra! Come on! We gotta eat dinner ya know?"

"Olou! Don't yell at our new comrade."

"I'M HUNGRY!"

"Right, but Mikasa wants to meet Eren, you guys go on ahead okay?"

"Petra-san, please go eat. I'll go there on my own," even Mikasa appreciated the kindness of her.

"Are you sure?" the younger woman nodded as reply, "All right. And after that you two should come have dinner with us," she waved then ran off with Olou.

Mikasa headed for the basement, since it was nighttime the path would almost be pitch black if it weren't for the torches lighting her way down. As she grew closer at the bottom, she started to run, "I finally get to see him…" but due to her excitement, it led to her fall on the stairs. Oh no…
It wasn't like her to be so careless, only he could disrupt her cold walls and calm nature.

As she fell into the darkness below, she felt like she landed on something warm but sturdy, someone else's breath brushed against her neck.

"What the hell were you doing?" his voice brought a sting of hatred within her body.

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