It was the day, it arrived at last, and Nationals were here. After winning cheerleader's contest, Santana and I were happier because we didn't have to lie to Sue ever again. We didn't have to be her spies in the Glee club after days of lying and giving fake list of songs to her. We perfectly knew that if we gave her a last fake list, she would figure it out the truth. So, we didn't have to be cheerleaders anymore and we could escape from Sue's orders.

-'We have to decide what we are going to tell Sue'-Santana shouted from the room while I was having a shower. She woke up lazily and she went to the kitchen to prepare breakfast. I was drying myself while I had the best idea ever.

-'I think you should go alone, you're the badass right? The tuff one'

I heard her laugh, it didn't work. I tried to put on my trousers with a lot of effort.

-'Don't be a coward'-Santana said-'Sue can't do anything to us a anymore'

-'Yeah, but she's still scary and she drinks a lot of protein shakes'-I said while I left the bathroom drying my hair with a little tower.

Santana was cutting some oranges to make juice with only her underwear on. I was really happy with the change she made since she confessed in front of the Glee club. We didn't hide anymore. At first we had to put up with some rude words, and some guys proposal to 'made us straight again', everyone accepted us and our relationship couldn't be better. I arrived from behind and hug her from her hips.

-'What if I black mail you?'-I said resting my head on her shoulder, with the saddest face I could be able to make.

-'It won't work, I know how to play that too'- She heavily breathed, and slowly, she moved her face till she arrived my neck, and started with the kisses. I couldn't help but moan. I knew that I needed to scape, and I managed it, with a fast move. She smiled, she knew that she always won. If I continued next to her, she would convince me to go next to Sue alone, for sure.

-'Okay, you win'-I said raising both hands as a sign of peace.

In that moment, a few letters slice from the floor of the front door. With my eyes White I breathed heavily.

-'Great, bills, the day starts amazingly'-Santana turned round her face and laughed, she looked entertained watching me pissed off.

-'At least you're still on your underwear'-I said making her stop, she hated to lose

I went straight to the letters, and obviously, there were four bills ready to be paid. But the last one I took was different. It had a stamp of something unknown and it was from London. It had my name on it with big black letters. And as a reflect act, I hide it on my back pocket of my trousers. Whatever it was, it couldn't be good, and I didn't want to worry Santana.

-'What happened? It looks like you've seen a ghost'- Santana said lauging again. I tried to fake as I could.

-'I hate bills, you know''

I've never seen Sue that angry. A really big vein on her neck was about to explode, and I only wanted to run before that happened. When we entered in her office she was cleaning out last price, a very sharp one, and I forgot all we prepared for hours. We sat down in that uncomfortable gym balls and she recived us with a mix of excitement and happiness.

-'Finally, my champions and my favorites spies!'- She sat down in front of us, in her chair. She looked for a paper and extended it to us. It had write down in huge words: Song list- Nationals and also gave us a pen. I gulped, and Santana, quickly took the paper and cut it in four pieces, I couldn't believe it and when I looked at Sue, it seemed that she didn't too. Her face started to look red and her bottom lip shacked like never before.

-'What do you think you're doing?'- Sue said slowly, and every word looked like a world to me. I noticed how Santana's leg started to shake, so I plucked up the courage and started talking with the bravest voice I could use in that moment.

-'We are not going to give you more information, Sue'-Was then when I noticed the vein and her hands closed with a lot of fierce. - 'You can't blackmail us anymore, we are not in your team, and we love the Glee club, sorry but we desert'

Santana wide opened her eyes and looked at me with a little smile on her face. Was she proud? I was shacking and I couldn't believe how the hell I've been able to say that to Sue Sylvester. We both were prepared to run in case she adopted a violent reaction, but she looked at the floor and breathed heavily before starting shouting

-'You two don't know who are you dealing with…GET OUT OF MY OFFICE'- We were paralyzed, and we couldn't move, but the last word was the only energy we needed to stand up and move our buts as fast as we could- 'NOW!'

When we closed the door, we heard a lot of strange noises, a lot of shouting and a lot of broken glasses.

-'Holy crap'-Santana breathed. She grasped my t-shirt and pulled me close to her, I didn't even have time to slow down the race of my heart when she kissed me slowly but intensely. I breathed at the touch, letting all the air that filled my lungs, and all the adrenaline scape. I could feel her smile into the Kiss and I let my arms rest on her shoulders, around her neck. If she was happy, I was happier, and even more right now, when we were able to do that kind of things in front of all the high school without any regrets.

She left my lips quickly and let a lightly Kiss on my cheek before running her mouth next to my ear.

-'That really turn me on'-She whispered, letting my scape and giving me goosebumps. She turned around and started walking down the hall.

I let all my body, with all the stress accumulated on it, rest on the wall. Then I noticed the letter on the back of my trouser and I decided that it was the moment. Santana was in class and I was so excited that maybe with it didn't seem so bad news.

I ran to the bathroom, to find some privacy and I sat down in an empty toilet and crossed my legs to try to stop the shacking. I couldn't open well the envelope so I quickly broke it and unfolded the letter.

I breathed in relieve.

It wasn't from my sister, or from someone of my family. It was from a dance school, from one of the most famous one in London. It looked like they sent a talent spotter to one of our Glee club interpretation, and he also saw me working in the club. They were amazed with my talent and they invited me to study with a scholarship in their school for three years. They also spoke about all the people who graduated in their school and how high they arrive in the world of the dancing.

I stood up so quickly that it took me a while to recover from the dizziness. It was amazing! It was even better, it was my dream came true! I needed to talk to Santana, but with a lot of calm because we hadn't talk about our future plans yet. But I really know that she was into music a lot, maybe we could find some good academy in London where she could become the star she wanted to be.

I practically went to class jumping. I was more than happy. I finally started to feel complete at all.

But it didn't last. When I arrived home, Santana was already in there because I spent a few hours in the library studying for finals. But we needed to be at eight in front of the school to catch the bus for Nationals, so I tried to be an hour before at home to stretch and prepare myself for the big night. Santana was sitting on the couch, with a huge smile on her face, and a letter over her knees. As soon as she saw me, she jumped shouting and clapping and I tilted my head in surprise. She always seemed happy to see me, but not that thrilled.

-'Britt Britt, you won't believe this'-She took my hand and pulled me to follow her to the couch. She was flourishing the letter with excitement-'Sit down' she ordered.

-'So, today, when we left Sue's face red, I stopped by the Glee club before class to ask Mr. Schue about what should I bring on today. And he gave me this little gem'- She moved the letter in the air happily.-And you won't believe this Britt'-She relaxed a little and breathed slowly.

-'It's from NYADA Britt…I did the casting a few months ago, and they want me! I did it'.

I knew that I needed to be happy for her, and I was, but I was a little bit lost. I didn't know how to react, if I should tell her that, after all that effort in our relationship, I wanted to be far away from her.

-'What's wrong?'-She took my hand between hers, without knowing what was going on and why I wasn't as happy as she was.

-'Uh…nothing San I'm really happy for you but it's that…'-I doubted, but I decided that telling her what was going on was the best way to act. It was the only way to be honest and put all the information on the table to decide the best for both of us, as a couple. I took the folded letter from the back of my trousers and gave it to her.-'I get a letter to…'

She read it slowly and a smile started to appear on her lips

-'Britt…this is amazing! It's the Passport to your dream'

-'Yeah…but I won't go'- I gulped. I didn't know if there were the words I wanted to hear or if I really thought about it. I felt sad and disappointed but it was my decision since I Heard Santana's news.

-'What? Are you crazy?'- She wide opened her eyes-'It's one of the biggest dance schools in the world Brittany, they sent a guy to the other side of the ocean because they want you, you can't do that. We…we can be separated, I mean… it would be hard, but we can with that''

-'I won't go Santana, I can't go without you, and I don't want to go with you knowing that you left your dream behind. Listen, I've never had a family, or friends, someone to be close at the end of the day. I've never really had…love in my life'-I could feel how Santana's hand started to shake and how a wet spot appeared on the corner of my eye.-'I never felt as good as living with you and I know that it won't be the same in the distance'

-'But it's your dream Brittany…I won't let you stay because of me, I'll go with you'

-'No way'-I cut her words-'I…I can stay in here if I don't find something else, I have a house, and a work, and we can be close…'

-'Don't even think about that'-She cleaned my tears with her soft back of the hand-'I still can change your mind…or you can come with me to New York, but it's not the end of this conversation okay?'

She pulled me close to her, and hugged me tightly. When she left me, I took my letter and cut it in pieces.

-'It's my decision Santana. I won't go'

We prepared ourselves for nationals in silence. Santana was gently with me and sweet but she looked really nervous during the journey, while I started to get used to the idea of staying in America for the next year. I still had time to find some good dance academy. People in the bus was excited, there were none nervous or in silence, except for us.

-'Hey'-Kurt came next to us and tap on my shoulder-'You two okay? I'm really worried'

-'Uh yeah yeah, a little bit nervous, but that's all'

He shrugged and left us alone and when I turn my face to a side to see why Santana was so shy, I surprised her with her with her mobile phone sending a text. All our friends were in there, so I started to wonder if it was for her parents or something. I put my hand on her tight and she jumped.

-'Whoa, relax San…you sure you're okay?'

-'Yeah… It's all that conversation before…I'm… not happy with your decision'

-'Hey…you are my decision okay?'- I tried to kiss her but she didn't even let me approach her. She pressed the button and sent the text, what was confirmed with a little 'beep'. Then she turned around and faced the window with an expression on her face that I've never seen before.

I didn't know how to describe that feeling but the bottom of my stomach hurt a lot. And I didn't understand why she was so cold with me. I had the feeling that our ways were going to be separated somehow soon.

The stage was huge, and the rivals were even worse than other years. We were the last actuation, and the other ones had been amazing and too hard to outplace them. Sue was on the public next to the judges trying to talk to them, and for sure, trying to convince them to not vote us. Some teachers from McKinley where in there too, and some of the familiars of the guys too.

The first group made a whole new version of looked out of heaven from Bruno Mars and sang beautiful version of hometown glory from Adele. The second one, sang old songs, Mr. Schue called them 'classics', one from Bon Jovi, always and the other one, the famous Total Eclipse of the heart.

It was our turn, we wanted to break the stage with a mix of Michael Jackson songs and end with poker face of lady gaga. We made a circle in the backstage, before the actuation, a ritual for having luck, but this time, it was the last one. proposed us to say a few words about what the Glee club meant to us.

Rachel talked about how the Glee club had been her support for years, just as Kurt who also emphasized how he got the courage to be who himself. Tina and Mercedes admitted that they'd never have more fun than in the Glee club and also Marley said that she had fun and found friends. I called them my family, it was a place where everyone was accepted and I was glad for that, and also said that it had been the place where I met the most important person in my life. Santana felt aforesaid and she gave me a smile, a sad one. I was really worried about her, she really was different since the talking.

-'Okay guys'-It was Santana turn, and my heart started to race fast-'You know that before the Glee club, I didn't give a fuck about anyone'-Everyone in the circle laugh, I only smiled-'But I learn a lot in here, I learn…'-She stopped her sad eyes on mines-'…how to love, I learn to care about people, I figured out that I've got feelings, and that I can do what it's need to make the ones who love happy'

I couldn't breathe. What did she mean? Was all that speech because of me? Everyone clapped and wish us luck. It was show time. And I never been so unfocused

When the main judge said the winner out loud, everything went slow. I felt how Kurt jumped and raised her hands crazily. I saw Rachel's tears run through her cheeks and how Sam showed all her teeth at the same time. I couldn't react when Puck raised me on his shoulders, or when I saw Mr. Schue raising up the huge trophy. When everything arrived my brain, it was like waking up from a shock, and my eyes couldn't help but looking for Santana, who was the truly star in Michael Jackson songs. She was in the corner laughing and clapping. Jumping and truly happy. She looked at me and winked at me. All the fears that I had before disappeared, who knew? Maybe there were another man on the public from a dance school who really liked me. All I knew was that being with her felt right.

I tried to find the Latina at the backstage, where the Champaign flew but it took me a while. She was in a dark corner, talking with someone I couldn't see because of the lack of light I could appreciate a red dress so it had to be a girl. I only could Heard the last words of Santana.

-'I have to do it…it's my last chance. Wait for me at the club…if you appreciate her, you'll do this, please'

I hide behind a wall, I didn't know for sure, but I had the feeling that they were talking about me, and I bet that it was about our talk. When I tried to escape quickly, I crashed with her, and we both felt on the floor. She laughed nervously and I was really tense for that, but I smiled as truly as I could.

-'Hey there you are! The star of the night'-I said, trying to look distracted.

-'Me? If it wasn't for your moves, we've never done it honey'

That feeling on my stomach returned, and I only wanted to cry, it wasn't the same and we both knew. She stopped all the smile thing and put the same face that when she was in the circle. She moved her arms gently, rubbing my hips and pulling me closer. I felt like before all the mess again, and I breathed leaning my head on her shoulder.

-You know…-She started whispering peacefully- that I love you, right?

I nod. I could feel the smell of her neck. I only wanted to be in there forever without thinking and without any problems.

-And you know that I'll never love you anyone like you…

I left her arms quickly and she wide opened her eyes in scare

-'What is this is all about Santana?'

-'It's…nothing, it's because all that discussion before. I want you to know that you're the only thing to me in this world, whatever happens, okay?'

I somehow melted. Santana Lopez was saying to me all that words and I couldn't believe how happy I was. I wide smiled and reached her lips as soon as could letting my tongue met hers. She hummed and I move my hands under her t-shirt touching her warm stomach. She clenched all her muscles, and she let me in there for a while. But then she move gently and took my hand.

-'Hey, we have time to celebrate alone'-She winked-'let's go to party with the group right?'

Holly prepared us a huge party at the club, she closed it to the public and served all kind of drinks for free to us. Some of the people in there never drunk so much alcohol in their whole life, and they were happier than ever. Kurt could barely talk, and Rachel could barely walk. We were having really fun. We spent the night singing, dancing, drinking and enjoying our last party all together. Well…together, since midnight, I didn't see Santana anymore, and I started to feel sick with that situation again.

So I spent the night taking care of the drunk ones and trying to have fun with the guys, but my mind wasn't in there. I texted her, but she didn't replied and she didn't answer my calls. The worst thoughts appeared in my head and when the party ended I almost left it running, anxious for arriving home.

When I turn the key on the door I breathed heavily, she was in there because the door wasn't close. So I opened the door really slowly. If I knew what I was going to find I would never entered in the house. It was dark, and I didn't turn on the light, whatever was happening in there, I didn't like it, so I wanted to be smooth. As soon as I walked four steps I bumped into something and felt on the floor. I looked with my hands the object that made me felt and took a piece of clothes. It was silky and it smelled really fine, but it didn't smell like Santana. I ran to turn on the lights. I wish I didn't do it. It was a red dress.

Just like the one that the mysterious Girl who talked to Santana that night was wearing.

I took a look around the room and I found out a lot of clothes on the floor, Santana's clothes…and shoes from someone else. I felt a really painful prick on my heart, and all I wanted to do was blurt. Like it was a nightmare, I walked slowly to the bedroom…our bedroom. God, I really wanted to run away.

As I opened the door, the pain was even more and more intense and I couldn't help but let my tears run crazily.

Santana was laid on the top of a half-naked woman. They both were on their underwear and breathing heavily. I wide opened my mouth, I couldn't find air to breath, and my vision started to be blurred.

As the sound of the door, Santana tilted her head to where I was, and with a nervous face jumped leaving the girl alone in the bed.

-'Hey Dani'-I could only say. And I started to put my clothes on a bag.

-'Britt… I can explain'-Santana started to say. Every word she said, was another prick on my heart. I didn't want to be mad at her…because I loved her, but that was exactly my mood. Mad, angry. I felt the blood fill every vein on my face, and how the hot hit my cheeks. I cleaned my tears. 'She don't deserve see you like that' I thought. And turned around to face her.

-'Don't you dare to talk to me. You broke my heart for only a night of sex'-I looked at Dani with the angriest glance I could, and she tried to cover her body with a blanket-'I hope you to be happy Santana, and that you really find someone you will really love'

All the times she told me I love you came quickly to my mind, a few hours ago she told me it. I really wanted to blurt and I couldn't see what clothes I was taking because of the anger and the tears I was fighting for not let them scape.

-'Brittany…'-She tried to touch my arm but I move it fiercely.

-'You can stay in here until you move on to New York, I won't come back ever'

I left the room without looking at any of them. I only wanted to disappear with my broken heart and never come back. I took a look to where I spent the best year of my life, and I looked at the envelope from London on the table. I took it and put it on the bag. I turned around before leaving, and I found Santana biting her bottom lip and crying a lot, still on her underwear.

-'You…'-I doubted and tears barely let me speak-'you're the person I love the most in my entire life'-I didn't mind let her know that I still loved her. It would be really difficult to forget her.

She tried to speak twice but she couldn't because of the tears, so I decided to turn around and let her for once at all.

Only when I opened the door I could help her voice, full of regret and sadness.

-'Don't forget what I told you today, sunshine'

I left the city a couple of days after my life broke forever. Kurt let me stay at his house and took care of me. I didn't know if I would be able to thank him enough someday. Now…well now I live in London, ready for a new life and...

hoping to find a new beginning

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Hello again, it's been a while right? Sorry once again for being such a mess. My life is been quite diferent now and I didn't have so much time to write.

So, this is the end of this story

Buuuuut, I know that it ended really bad (I hate it too), and that's because I want to write a second story. In the meanwhile I want you to know your opinions, what do you think about both of them? Do you have any theory about what Santana act like that?

I want to thank everybody who's been reading, following, favoriting and speaking to me about the story. Writting it was amazing, made me forget about a lot of problems and make me happy. I know it has a lot of mistakes, but it also make me learn more english.

I'll be back soon, with the second part. Hope you enjoyed it

Love you aaaaaaaaaaaall, thanks for your support 3