Author's note: Hello I'm here again! LOL hope you'll like my second Takumi-kun FF, and I'd like to thank again whoever read the previous one and left me a comment, I was really moved reading the ones for the last chapter thank you, and especially a big thank you to dancingcandy for all your sweet reviews, apart from making me intensely happy they were also an inspiration for me m(_ _)m arigatou!

So now about this FF, we know the beautiful thing Gii says to Akaike: "I knew Takumi when he was still like the real Takumi. I've liked him since then". For me that is one of the best scenes from Takumi-kun! Now in this FF he won't have the chance to say that because it's about an AU where Gii didn't meet Takumi before what happened with his family which made him become as we knew him at the beginning of the story.
I'm in love with the Takumi-kun series, I've read and watched the movie/manga/novel thousands times already (not the first movie tho, it's too different from the original work AND DaiMao are not there.. and all in all there's an abyss between the first movie and the others in terms of quality, I wouldn't say the acting was bad but anyone could see the chemistry between DaiMao as the main characters, it felt real especially after Mao became comfortable -you know what I mean- ^/ /^ they became the real Gii and Takumi, of course those movies would be so much better compared to the first), about the novel I can't stop thanking mimiwosumaseba on Live Journal who translated it (btw I really recommend to visit their page and read it), I could understand the story much better after reading the first novel, especially since they made a mess of the story in the 1st movie!

So one day I wondered what could have happen between our boys if Gii didn't saw him at Sachi's recital and their first meeting was at Shidou. Even though I changed the very fundament of the story, I stayed as true as it was possible to the original work.
Maybe this FF is just an excuse for me to watch again those beautiful characters! ^^

Sorry for the long note! Please enjoy the first chapter of "If you hadn't known the real me"

Hayama Takumi was in his first year at Shidou academy, all-boys boarding school hidden deep in the mountains. Normally it'd be impossible in such a short period of time to make so many people hate you, but he did, well actually he didn't do anything to make himself hated, and that was exactly the point: he didn't do anything, so he was hated. People won't accept that someone may behave differently from them, everyone wants you to be exactly like they want you to be: like everyone else is; and act the same, if you're different then you're hated. And it's so strange, because normally you'd hate such cruel people who think this way and torment others for no real reason. They hated Takumi because he reacted differently, if only they could bother to look for the reason of such behavior, Takumi would surely be loved by everyone and everyone would do anything to protect him, to protect a smile that was never shown, that still didn't reveal its beauty. But it wasn't like that, no one bothered to look and he didn't bother to try letting others see the truth since he knew it'd be in vain, he stopped caring about what the others may think. In his 'my-pace' expression, he never cares for anyone or anything, his eyes wear a constant glare or complete indifference, he hates people touching him, even a very light touch would make him overreact, making his breath quicken or with pushing away the person who touched him, and he prefers not to be surrounded by people... those were enough reason for people to treat him like an outcast.

Toshihisa was his roommate during his first year at Shidou and his only friend. He was the one who got to spend enough time with him to come to understand that he's a good person. He came to know Takumi and discovered his other expressions that others never saw and it was all thanks to his gentleness which managed to overcome some of Takumi's walls.

While most of his classmates were just evil, others just ignored him, and then there was one person especially who often spoke up for him, but he was the class rep so it was his duty, it wasn't like he cared especially about Takumi, right? But it was for that that he didn't like it, he wasn't anyone special for him so Takumi didn't want to be saved from hateful classmates, he didn't need the fuss, if someone wronged him, as long as whatever the argument was about it'd stop soon, he didn't care about anything else. Not even being misunderstood. He gave up wanting or hoping for someone to understand him since a long time now.

His only concern was graduating from the school that was the farthest from Shizuoka, his hometown, and everything else was just a feeble wind sliding on his skin. Or more accurately on his heart, since he made a barricaded around it, acting like nothing mattered; being indifferent, giving up on everything was his technic to protect himself, the only one he learned. He may look cold but he's not, he's only protecting his heart, or what is left of it. But they didn't bother to care about his reasons, he was a pretext for their unreasonable behaviour, everything he did was never forgiven, it was like they just wanted to be hurtful. But Takumi didn't care since he gave up on feelings.

Actually not all of them.

He liked his friend Toshihisa and he was grateful that he was his roommate, and he looked up to his classmate, the one who stood up for him a few times when the others went overboard, the class rep. Yes he admired him, and he could only do that silently in the shadows, it was unthinkable for Takumi to even hope to be able to have any kind of relationship with him, he was unapproachable for him, even though during his first year Takumi was helped by the class rep, but he couldn't have that, he couldn't let himself starting to wish for the same thing to happen again, it'd only bring a shattering pain when all the expectations would be broken.
He was the opposite of him, a quarter French, born and raised in America, brilliant and capable in everything he did, everyone loved him, and I mean everyone, kind and always ready to help everyone, he was a celebrity. Takumi could only watch him from afar. His name is Saki Giichi, nickname Gii.