"Jesus was a faggot
Mary Magdelane was his whore
God's a **it sucking fraud
The Bible's a load of steaming crap. . ."
My knuckles were growing white
Clutching the sides of my chair as the tirade went on
I couldn't take it anymore
The legs of my chair banged against the floor
The speaker looked up at me
Startled at first but then pleased when he saw my angry face
"I hope you burn in Hell," I spat
The door slammed behind me
Righteous rage burned in my chest
And my mind whirled in angry circles
My Savior insulted
My God Profaned
My beliefs, held dear and sacred, sprayed with filth
Tears glittered angrily in my eyes
"Go to Hell"
Vehemently whispered
"Go to Hell"
I stopped for a moment
And imagined with relish
His Judgement
The Father stood beside me
Blinding in his majesty
And below us
The blasphemer
"Judge"
I was told
"Eternity is in your hands
Eternal torment which is My absence
Everlasting joy which is but another name for Myself"
I looked down at the miserable creature before us
Remembering the words he had spoken so shortly before
Words of filth for God
Holy and Pure
Anger rose freshly hot within him
I felt my face flush in the heat of rage
I pointed down at the scum
Ready to condem him to all eternity in torment
But I felt eyes on me
I hesitated
Turning slowly
I found myself looking into the eyes of Jesus
My Christ
My Lord
My Savior
And I raged anew that anyone had dared to insult him
Then I stopped
For He was weeping
Tears were streaming down the face of God
And he was trembling
I was taken aback
Had the insults cut as deeply as that?
The filthy scum!
How dare they hurt Him so. . .
"Would you?" Christ asked softly
I wasn't sure what He meant
Surely He knew that I would never. . .
Of course I would never hurt Him so
"Would you condemn one of My children to eternal torment?"
I stared at Christ
"Why would you wish to hurt Me so?"
"Lord!" I cried
"Lord I would never hurt you!
I have no desire to hurt you
He has blasphemed you!"
The Son watched me sadly
"Surely you must know. . ."
His voice was soft
"Do you know not how much it hurts?
To know that one I love so dearly
Is in torment forever
That there is nothing and never I can do for him?"
The voice of God broke
I stared
My Lord and my Life turned away
And Jesus wept
I came back to myself
Horror-stuck
Not because of words spoken by another
But because of my own words
The guy looked surprised as I walked up to him
I humbly begged his forgiveness
He smirked
I took a deep breath
"I hope to see you in Heaven"
I knew he stared after me as I left
A smile was on my face as I walked out into the sun
And I hoped
That on that day
There would be a smile on the face of Christ
*Author's Note*
Of course the poem doesn't have any form, doesn't rhyme, and I couldn't think of a better thing to call the "blasphemer".
::sigh::
sic est vita. . . such is life. . . such is life. . .
Why did I write this? For the simple reason that I am quite sure that it makes God unhappy when anyone even suggests that somebody is going to Hell, I don't like it when people use the phrase "go to hell". Not just Christians, of course, getting mad at people who are saying bad things about God, I wince when I hear it from people everyday in ordinary situations. A pet peeve perhaps, people just snap it out without thinking but we Christians REALLY OUGHT TO KNOW BETTER