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A/N: Hello! This is my first KH fanfiction so I'm sorry if the characters are off in any way! I will try to keep them close! :3 Also- this is going to be a transgender fanfiction! (Just a heads up) No rude comments! (Unless you are correcting me on something I didn't know) But PLEASE don't be mean about it! If you have any question or are confused- PM me or just say something in the review~ Thanks and I hope you enjoy! Also I'm sorry if there are any misspellings or anything like that… thanks!

Prologue:

Heavy breathing… my heart beats faster with every struggle.

'I- can't breathe!'

Panic rises in me.

'I-I have to hurry! I have to take this off!' I swiftly take off my shirt and release my binding on my chest. 'I can breathe now…' I'm calmed down.

My doctor told me not to wear my binding to bed, but I can't stand not having it on. 'I hate this! My chest… my whole body! Why? Why was I born a girl?!' I always ask myself that… I wonder why God would do this to me, putting me in a body that I'm not supposed to be in.

I sit on my bed, my chest showing in the mirror across from me. I stare at my reflection. 'Why?'

A tear goes down my cheek. I want to put my binding back on, to hide, but I'm afraid I will have trouble breathing again. I wipe my cheek and stare at my reflection a little more. The moon makes my room glow, making everything noticeable.

I stand, heading to my closet. I decided that I will put on just a hoodie. I won't have to see my chest or wear the binding. I slip on the hoodie and crawl back into bed. I have school tomorrow… I need to sleep. I look over to my clock- 1:30 am. Ok, make that today… I sighed, "Great… just great."

-.-.-.-.-.-.-

Before I went down stairs I my binding back on. Then the rest of my clothes: checkered hoodie, black jeans with black and white converse. I left my room smelling pancakes being cooked from down stairs. I sit down at the table, next to my older brother, Cloud.

Cloud's a good brother. I tell him everything… Sometimes during the night if I can't breathe, or if I'm worried about something, I can go to him. He always calms me down, and he supports my decisions.

Cloud looks at me- he can tell I had another breathing problem last night because of the bags under my eyes. I can never go back to sleep when that happens.

"Why didn't you come to me? I'm right across the hall."

"Cloud," I met his eyes, "don't start this… not today. I'm too tired to argue with you."

He frowned, "You aren't supposed to even wear that when you sleep!" he poked my chest.

I swatted his hand away, and turned to my mom. She flipped a pancake.

"Mom, what did the doctor say? About the surgery?"

"Well, he said said it will have to be in a month or so… maybe a little longer."

I smiled, "That's great! I hope it will be this month… or next month!"

'I've been waiting for more than two years for this.'

When I told my mom I wanted to be a guy, she didn't take it well… she yelled at me and told me 'you were born a girl!' Cloud already knew (he found me researching the surgeries and he asked questions) I explained everything and after a talk with my mom, he got her to calm down. My mom told me we had to take baby steps, and I was ok with that.

She let me cut my blonde hair, so it went a little above my ears, she let me get a bind. Then I asked about getting surgery. She said I had to pay for it. I've been saving for four years. I'm now sixteen and with all the money I got from my job, family, and savings- I'm almost there!

"Yep, my little girl wants to change…" even though she was letting me change my body it was still a touchy subject for her. She always wanted an older son and a younger daughter, so the son would look out for her. I'm not exactly the perfect picture. She still loves me and doesn't blame me for my decisions. Like Cloud, she support me.

Cloud then told mom bye and that we had to go or we would be late. I kissed my mom on the cheek and ran outside to Cloud's mustang.

-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-

"ROXAASS!" I walked into the classroom only to tackled.

"Sora! Get off me!" I pushed on his shoulders. He just sat on me, giggling.

"Riku, get your boyfriend off of me!" I glared up at Riku, who was snickering at us.

"Ok, Sora. You heard Roxas, get up." Riku tugged at Sora's shirt.

"Rikuu~" Sora whined.

"Sora, I will kill you if you don't get off me! People are staring!"

"Only because you're yelling~" Sora pouted, getting off me, then helping me up.

"Yea, yea… come on let's sit down." I walked over to my seat, setting my things down. I sat down with a huff.

As soon as the bell rang for first period the teacher walked in. He started talking about some stupid math equations.

'His voice is annoying.'

Like my brother and my mom, Sora and Riku are accepting too. I told them two years ago when I invited them to my house. They thought I was a guy when we first met. When it was time to sleep I took off my shirt, allowing them to see my binding. They didn't freak out like I thought they would have. They asked me something's and I explained. They have been my best friends since. And we're cool since I accept Riku and Sora's relationship.

-Flashback-

"He guys want to come over to my house tonight?" I asked my two friends, Riku and Sora.

"Sure!" They both seemed happy I invited them over, "Can't wait!"

-.-.-.-.-

"This has been really fun Roxas!" Sora smiled at me, pushing random buttons on the Xbox controller.

"I'm glad!" I smiled and watched as Riku's player body slammed Sora's to the ground. They really like wrestling games…

"Yea, you are a really cool guy to hang out with."

"Thanks Riku." My door opened, showing Cloud, saying we should go to bed.

Riku and Sora turned off the Xbox and started changing into what they brought to sleep in. 'they're not looking…I can take this chance and change really fast!' I thought, taking the ends of my shirt and starting to pull it over my head.

"Hey Ro-"I heard Riku's voice stop. I hurriedly pulled my shirt back down to see Riku staring at me.

"Y-yea…?"I asked, smiling like nothing just happened.

"Why do you have that thing around your chest?" Riku raised his eyebrow.

"Umm… well you see…"

"Huh? What are you talking about Riku?" Sora turned from where he was hunched over his bag.

"Roxas has a bind looking thing around his chest. Were you hurt?"

"No…"

"What happened Roxas? Is it a secret?" Sora bounced to my side, "You can tell us! We won't tell!" Sora smiled.

I hesitated, "I-I'm a girl…"

"Really?" Sora went wide eyed, "I would have never guessed!"

Riku stayed silent.

"Riku, say something!" Sora whispered to him.

"Why hide it?"

"Well… I'm not trying to hide it. I'm wearing a binding because I don't want to be a female, so I'm going to get surgery to become male. Do you hate me now?" I asked, looking down at my feet.

"We would never hate you Roxas!" Sora hugged me.

"But why aren't you freaking out?" I looked at Sora then Riku.

"I don't care whether you are a boy or girl! You are my best friend!"

"What about you Riku?"

Riku sighed, "I have a family member that's transgender, so I don't care. I'm cool with it."

"So you will still be my friend?"

"Of course silly!" Sora giggled.

"Thanks guys." I smiled.

-End of Flashback

When class was over, Sora and I left Riku to go to our next class.

"So, what did the doctor say?" Sora asked, dodging people in the hallways.

"He said it will be in a couple months or so~" I smiled.

"Roxas, that's great!" Sora hugged me. "We should celebrate!"

I chuckled, "We can celebrate after the surgery."

"Fine…"

We were almost to class when someone bumped into me, knocking my books out of my hands.

"Sorry!" I kneeled down, picking up my things.

"Watch where you're going, freak!" I looked up to see Seifer, one of the school bullies.

He picks on me because he knows my secret that I'm going to change my body. I don't know how he found out, but he's been bullying me ever sense.

"Why can't you just leave Roxas alone?"

"Shut up, fag!" he yelled in Sora's face.

"Why you-"

"Sora! Come on it's not worth a detention…" I pulled Sora away from Seifer.

"But Roxas…" Sora whined.

"No buts! We're going to be late."

-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-

After school Riku and I were waiting in the parking lot for Sora. Well I was waiting for my brother. We were talking about our science homework when I saw a flash of brown, then Riku was on the ground with a loud thud!

"Riku!" Sora giggled, sitting atop Riku's stomach.

"Really Sora?" Riku sighed, sounding annoyed.

"I love~ you, Riku!" Sora kissed the silver headed boy's cheek.

"Get a room!" Cloud laughed from beside me.

"Hi Cloud!" Sora giggled more.

"Come on Roxas lets go home."

"Bye guys. See you tomorrow!" I got into Clouds car and shut the door.

My brother just sat there, not moving.

"What's wrong?" I asked putting my seatbelt on. "Aren't we gonna go?"

"Roxas… I saw Seifer, and what he did to you and Sora." He didn't look at me when he spoke.

"He just called us names, no big deal." I shrugged it off.

"It is a big deal, Roxas. He is bullying you! How long has this been going on?" He turned to me, frowning.

I turned away looking out the window. "Since he…" I mumbled the last part.

"Since he what? Did he touch you…?" I could tell Cloud was getting angry.

"No! Since he found out I want to change from a girl to a boy!" I yelled. I was now trying to hold back tears.

"Roxas…"

"I wanna go home!" I kept facing the window, not letting him see my face. He sighed and started the car.

We drove home in silence.

As soon as we got home I ran inside and slammed my door shut.

"Sweetie? What's wrong?"

"N-nothing mom…" I sniffled.

"Are you sure? Cloud said-"

"Nothing! Bad day at school is all… please go away."

"Ok, dinner will be ready shortly. I love you." I heard my mom pause and then head down stairs.

"Yea…ok." I whispered.

A/N: Soooo? How was it? I hope you liked it! And please review if you want more! :D

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Thank you both for helping me!