A/N: Yes, yes I know, another story already, but I can't help it I just freakin' love writing and I'm always eager to share my ideas XD

Here, we have my second official Morganders story, however, I'm a little cautious about it so I'll have to see what you guys think first before I decide to continue or not. II will be addressing some sensitive subjects, so be warned, and arguably it's differnt from what i've done before :S And i've had to really research into the subject, because as is apparent, I am medically incompetent XD

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Chapter 1: Stormy Days

Greg Sanders and Morgan Brody had been married for 8 months now. They had been living in utter bliss as newlyweds and neither ever remembered feeling so content in their whole lives. The honey moon period had lasted a good 3 months after the wedding, but after that the couple were ready to settle down and properly start their new life together.

After 6 months, the pair were starting to think about a family, Greg saying he wanted a whole army of little Sanders' storming around of which he would train to annoy Hodges. He was very eager at the thought of starting a family with the woman he loved and he couldn't wait to be a father. To have a son he could teach about sports and women, or a daughter he would spoil rotten and prevent form dating until she was 18.

However, Morgan had never been one for babies herself. She wasn't one of those women who would stop and 'coo' over them in the supermarket, or smile as she walked past a baby store. But, if there was one man in the world she would love to have a baby with, it was Greg Sanders, the only man she had ever truly loved.

And so, 8 months after their wedding, and almost 2 months of trying for a baby, both CSI's were growing a little anxious as to why it hadn't happened yet. Both Greg and Morgan were of a perfectly normal age to conceive a child and they were both perfectly healthy. So the mystery as to why it had been 2 months with nothing really bothered them.

They hadn't told anyone at the lab or even their parents about their decision to start a family, Greg and Morgan agreed there was really no news to give until an actual baby was on the way. They saw a consultant, who assured the couple it was perfectly normal for it to take this long, but it only eased the CSI's concern a little.

Everyone at the lab however, had noticed how down the couple seemed to be of late and they hoped everything was alright. Finn had talked to Morgan, worried the newlyweds had had their first big fight or something, but Morgan had reassured her that wasn't the case and that everything was fine at home. Finn had then encouraged Nick to talk to Greg, but the Texan argued he didn't want to pry and that if Greg needed his help, the younger man would ask for it.

It was about half way through those 8 months of marriage, when Greg went to see DB Russell in his office.

"Hey boss, can I talk to you for a sec?" Greg asked as he leaned in on the doorway.

"Sure, you got a new lead on your case?" DB asked as he looked up from his work. There were at least 3 different case files spread out across his desk with his frantically scribbled handwriting splattered across all of them.

"No I finished up with that, it's a personal thing…" the younger man said, feeling guilty as he looked at his boss's mound of work "but you know what, never mind I can see you're really busy and it can wait, I'll just…."

"Hey Greg, hang on" Russell called after him "is this about why you and Morgan haven't really been yourselves lately?"

"Kinda" the younger CSI said quietly.

"Take a seat" Russell said indicating to the ones opposite his desk.

Greg shuffled over and sat down nervously drumming his fingers on the arms of the chair. "I need tomorrow night off please, if possible"

"That shouldn't be a problem, but may I ask why?"

"I erm… I have a doctor's appointment." Greg said as he shuffled a little awkwardly in his chair.

"Is something wrong?" DB asked concernedly.

"No! I mean… I don't think so" Greg said quietly. "I guess...well I'm at that age now were I need to keep check on things, you know?"

"Yeah, I do know" Russell said with a small smile. "But, if you knew something was wrong and didn't want to say, you know you can always tell me, right? Anything at all"

"Yes, I'm fine Russell, honestly" the younger man said with a small smile. "Or at least, I will be… I'd appreciate if you'd cover for me though, tell the others some excuse as to why I'm not there. Especially for Morgan, I don't want her to worry."

"You haven't told Morgan?" Russell said, the concern now back on his face.

"No…look it's complicated. Just…trust that I know what I'm doing" Greg pleaded.

"Well…alright" the supervisor said a little hesitantly.

"Thanks, Russell" the younger CSI said with a small smile before going to leave the room.

"Greg!" DB called just as the younger man was about to leave the room. The CSI turned and gave him an expectant look. "Just…remember what I said, my door is always open."

Greg gave a smile of appreciation and a nod before leaving the room.

Russell was noticeably not himself the next shift. First of all he was worried about Greg, hoping the younger man wasn't lying when he said nothing was wrong with him. Second, he hated lying to the others, especially Morgan. The supervisor started the shift by entering the break room to find Nick and Morgan waiting. Sara and Finn had already taken a call out.

"Do you know where Greg is?" Morgan asked with concern for her husband etched in her lost looking eyes. "He just headed out earlier and said he wasn't going to be at the lab tonight. He left before I could even ask where he would be. I tried calling him and texting but it went straight to voice mail"

"I erm… I sent Greg out to be a representative in court for me, so he'll have his phone turned off. We got a big case on so as supervisor I need to be here with you guys" Russell quickly fathomed.

"Really? What big case?" Nick asked with a scrutinising eye. He didn't buy Russell's story after being a CSI for nearly 20 years himself. And from the look of apprehension on Morgan's face, neither did she.

Russell opened his mouth, ready to lie through his back teeth again when his phone beeped. He sighed in relief. Saved by the bell. He read the message from Brass. "This big case" he said as he read along. "Bank robbery gone badly, 5 people dead" Seems fate is on my side, but not for the poor people who died in this.

"It's gunna be a long night" Morgan said regrettably. She turned to leave but then turned back to Russell "I don't get why Greg couldn't just tell me he'd be in court?" she said. Russell couldn't tell if she was genuinely asking him or if she was just thinking out loud. "Forward me the details, I'll meet you guys as the scene" she said quietly and went to gather her things.

"What's going on, Russell?" Nick asked as he folded his arms. If something was going on with Greg then he sure as hell wanted to know about it.

"Nothing, Nick" Russell said as he grabbed his kit and brushed past. Nick followed him adamantly.

"C'mon boss, please don't do this to me, or Morgan" the Texan persisted. "Greg is my best friend, Morgan's husband. If something is wrong with him then we have a right to know…"

"He doesn't want any of you to worry, Nick" Russell finally said. He wished the younger man would drop it, but he knew if it were the other way round he would be equally as concerned and frustrated.

"Well it must be bad enough for him to hide it from us…from his own wife!" Nick pointed out.

"Look, to be honest… I don't know what's wrong with him" Russell confessed.

He knew Greg wanted it to be kept secret, but Nick was Greg's best friend and would probably know what to do better than Russell did. Nick had known the younger man a lot longer and they'd been through a hell of a lot together, so he would probably be the better person to give Greg advice. As Russell looked into the Texan's eyes, he could see the waves of concern for the man Nick loved like a younger brother.

"But, there is something wrong?" Nick asked quietly.

"I...I don't know" Russell said as he ran a hand through his hair and they stopped walking. "Greg…he asked for the night off because he had a doctor's appointment" he explained. "I asked if anything was wrong, and he said no, it was just a check-up."

Nick was a little shocked to say the least. If anything the worry only grew deeper "Does Morgan know about this? Is that why they've been acting a little…off, the past few weeks?"

"She doesn't know about the doctors, no" Russell told him "But yeah, perhaps it is something to do with why they've been so quiet and distant with us. Listen, I know it's hard but let's try and keep this from Morgan, okay? Greg really doesn't want to worry her if it's nothing."

"Well, I don't know. It seems an awful thing to do lying to her about something like this" Nick said. Morgan had become like a sister to him, and he'd always told his sister's everything; Morgan was part of that bond now. "But then again, I guess Greg is only trying to protect her as long as he can, and that's what I want too."

"Good man" Russell said patting him on the shoulder with a reassuring smile. "We'll look after Morgan tonight, and I'm sure Greg is just fine. He told me it was just a check-up and I believe that he's okay."

Nick gave his supervisor a small, appreciative smile as they headed to the locker rooms. The Texan just wished he could have the same amount of confidence in his Russell's belief.

It was about 11pm when Russell, Nick and Morgan finally got back from the crime scene. Luckily, they had been so busy that Morgan barely had any time to talk to Nick unless it was case related, so he didn't have to feel super guilty about not telling her about Greg, although, the Texan couldn't stop worrying about his younger friends the whole time.

Nick had pulled a double shift, and so Russell insisted on sending him home, saying he and Morgan could handle finishing off for the night. Nick had protested at first, but the big yawn which had escaped him meant Russell was not taking no for an answer.

So, Nick reluctantly left the lab. The Texan shivered a little as he stepped out into the cold winter night, and he pulled on his jacket a little tighter. It was raining too, making the ground and all the buildings shimmer, causing the reflections of the florescent lights to dance about. It was quite pretty and tranquil really. But, just as Nick rounded the corner to get to his truck, the serene setting was broken by the sound of heart wrenching sobs.

There, sat on a bench across the road, was Greg Sanders, crying his eyes out. Nick frowned worriedly as he quickly hurried over to his friend. The younger man was sat with his knees pulled up to his chest and the back of his hand over his mouth to try and muffle the upsetting sobs which were currently breaking Nick's heart. Greg was shivering fiercely from the cold as well as the whirlpool of emotions which were racking his body. His clothes and hair were wet through from the rain, but he didn't seem much to care.

God knows how long he's been sitting there. Nick thought sadly. "Greggo? Hey, what are you doing out here buddy, huh? It's freezing." The older CSI sat down beside his younger friend and put a comforting hand on his arm. "What's wrong? You can tell me anything"

Greg turned to look at him with the saddest eyes Nick had ever seen. They had red rims around them and the normal warming brown of his irises didn't have their spark anymore, in fact it was far gone.

"I…I can't…" Greg tried to speak in-between whimpers, but Nick could tell he was having a hard time coming to terms with whatever it was. "I can't have ch-children" the younger CSI said ever so quietly and then he started sobbing loudly again.

Nick couldn't stand it anymore as he pulled his younger brother closer towards him in comfort, shielding him from the rain. Now he understood what had been wrong with Greg and Morgan recently.

"I'm so sorry, Greggo" Nick said quietly, as he began to consolingly rock the younger man.

Greg just continued to weep relentlessly into his friend's shoulder. For him, it felt like nothing would ever be okay again.