a/n: Happy Easter!


I sat in the uncomfortable hospital bed, my hand on my stomach, trying to tell myself and the baby that everything would be okay.

The doctor had told us that the babies heart was erratic, and the only way to save him or her was an immediate surgery.

Austin had just sat there through the whole thing, a slightly terrified expression on his face. He hadn't looked at me at all and I was desperate for any sign of recognition. But I knew I didn't deserve anything from him so I kept my mouth shut.

"Are you ready for this, Miss Dawson?" The doctor asked me, a concerned expression on his face.

No. Not at all. But I had no choice. "Yes. Yes, I'm ready."

The doctor wrote something down on his clipboard. "All right. Well, we'll prep you in a few minutes."

I nodded, not wanting to say anything in case my voice wobbled.

The doctor left, and it was just Austin and I.

I swallowed, and decided that it was time to start being brave. I'd been a coward for the past three months and I was tired of it.

"Austin, I am so sorry. I really did want to tell you, I just kept talking myself out of it, and that's no excuse. Believe me, I know that there is no excuse for what I've done, and I just really want to apologize."

I took a breath, waiting for him to respond.

We sat there for a few seconds, before he finally looked over at me, his eyes wide with something a lot like betrayal. "Were you ever going to tell me? Or would you have just let our child grow up without me?"

A single tear slipped out. "I deserve that. I do. But I swear, I was going to tell you."

His eyes never left mine, and for some reason it made everything seem so much worse. In that moment, I hated myself.

And I couldn't help the tears anymore. I broke eye contact, looking over at the wall. I didn't want to cry in front of him.

The nurse came in, took one look at us, and sighed. "I'm sorry but we have to prep you now, Ally."

I nodded, still refusing to look at Austin.

The nurse put something cold and wet on my stomach, and then began pumping something into my IV bag.

"Wh-what are you doing?" Hospitals had always made me nervous, and I was beginning to feel a bit queasy.

"Just some drugs to help put you to sleep, honey." The nurse looked at me. "You'll start to feel drowsy in a second."

And I did. My eyes started to close, and the last thing I saw was Austin standing over me, a slightly worried expression on his face.


I opened my eyes to find Austin in almost the exact position as he'd been when I'd fallen asleep.

My brain felt all muddled, and I couldn't place all my thoughts together. All I knew was that Austin looked particularly yummy standing above me.

"Austin!" My voice sounded thick and sleepy. "I'm so glad you're here. I missed you."

Austin smiled down at me, and I swear he looked just like an angel. My own personal guardian angel.

And then I remembered that he was mad at me. I hadn't told him about our kid, and now he hated me.

The emotions were all so overwhelming, and the tears started to spill onto my cheeks.

"A-Austin. Please don't hate me." I tried to gulp in air. "I'm so s-sorry."

Austin sat down into the chair next to me, taking my hand in his. "Ally, shh. Sweetheart, it's okay. The drugs just haven't worn off yet."

I whimpered, afraid he'd leave me. "N-no. It's not okay. You're gonna leave now."

Austin frowned, a cute little crease appearing between his eyebrows. "I'm not gonna leave, Ally, I promise."

His words calmed me down a little, but it still wasn't enough. "Please, Austin. Please."

Austin pressed a button. "Hi, can we get some a nurse in here. She's panicking."

A nurse came into the room, with a big needle in her hand. My breathing got shorter. I thought she'd make Austin leave. "No, no. Please, no."

"It's all right, sweetie. I'm just gonna give you something to make you go back to sleep for a bit."

She stuck the needle into my IV, and I felt my eyelids begin to close.

I gripped Austin's hand as hard as I could. "Please, don't leave. I love you, Austin."

The last thing I saw was a surprised look on Austin's face before the darkness hit.


a/n: Hi guys, I know this chapter is really short but I haven't updated in a while so I just wanted to give you something. I promise I'll do more next time.