AN- Twilight and the characters are owned by Stephanie Meyer, I don't own anything.

AN- Ok just trying something a little different here. As this chapter is concerned more with one day, I have decided to do it as a flashback. If you want to see more flask back then let me know. I will not be dispensing with the journal completely though. I am currently thinking journal for periods of time interspaced with flashback for important events or conversations that take place in the past.

AN-Italic is flashback, Bold will be present day, and normal will be Journal. If I make a mistake in these rules then let me know and I will edit it.

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I didn't rush as I walked through the trees on what I believed to be my last walk. I enjoyed the sense of peace and acceptance that had come over me. I contemplated how long I would have to wait for her to find me. I knew there were easier ways for me to kill myself, but if my sacrifice meant that those I loved would be safe then I would gladly accept the pain that was coming. I knew that Victoria would want to cause me immense pain, but if I played on her blood lust then she may end it quickly. Consequently I had my Dads hunting knife attached to my belt, when she found me I would just use it to cut myself as deeply as I could, then hopefully she would feed on me rather than torture me. It was obvious that she may take a while to locate me, so I had some water snacks and books to read. This way I could enjoy my last few hours or days in the meadow, doing the things I enjoyed

It was dim in amongst the trees, because of the time of the year the sun was not getting much light through the canopy above me. I had left as soon as my father had left for work and my pace meant it would take a few hours for me to reach the meadow. I just ambled through the twilight like darkness listening to my iPod and humming to myself. I stepped through the last of the trees into the brightness of the meadow at approximately mid-day. I stopped briefly adjusting to the surroundings, glad I had finally arrived. I then glanced around looking for a suitable place to sit. Finally I settled on the centre of the meadow and walked in that direction. I continued humming to myself as I casually moved forwards. As I arrived at what I deemed the centre a very familiar figure stepped out of the trees opposite me.

I was shocked to say the least; the last person I expected to find me here was Edward. I must have stared in misbelief for a couple of minutes before I removed my head phones. To speak to him.

"Edward." I whispered feeling hope for the first time in days. "What are you doing here, are the others with you?" He moved towards me with that stupid smirk on his face.

"No Bella, the others are not here, it's only me." He replied.

"Why are you here then?" I think I already knew but I still had to ask.

"For you Bella, I have come to get what is rightfully mine." He smirked at me and I looked around with a sinking feeling.

"You're here to kill me aren't you?" I spoke with a full understanding of his previous actions finally rushing through my brain.

"Of course I am Bella, your blood was meant for me and me alone."

"So why didn't you kill me before. You had your chances." I growled out at him.

"Well I couldn't, not that first day because we were in school and it would have exposed us, then after that my family would have stepped in to stop me, like they did when I sucked out the venom after James had bit you." He explained.

"So now you can because they no longer care and have left me." I hissed at him. "I was just a pet to you all wasn't I, a toy to play with and discard."

"Don't be silly, they love you. That's how and why I got them to leave. Thankfully Jasper gave me a reason to, although at first he was trying to protect you." He told me smirking and puffing up in self-importance.

"Huh, what are you talking about?" I had a glimmer of new hope building in my heart. "You said that they all left because they were bored with me." It suddenly struck me that if what he was saying was true then Alice would see this and come to my rescue. Of course he could be lying and there was no help coming.

"Oh Bella, Bella you are so gullible. I soon realised after we all met you that my family loved you more than any human that we had ever met before. It was plainly obvious that I would have to be careful around you and plan accordingly if I ever wanted to have your blood. Especially after Alice saw you as a vampire. So I planned and waited. I thought the incident with James would give me the chance but the fight with him took too long and they arrived." Oh here we go the cheap B move super villain speech, I thought to myself. I glanced around and started to take slow steps away from him but he just followed on continuing his speech.

"I had to wait after that because of the blood transfusion taking away your scent. So I left and went hunting out of state, I do this every now and then picking out sinners and criminals, to feast upon. I have it down to a fine art. As long as I gorge myself on Animals for at least as long as I feed on humans. My eyes are nearly always back to gold before I return home. How Alice never saw I don't know but it was never in her mind and she never said anything, I will have to ask her later before I kill her."

"Why are you going to kill Alice? "

"She will come when she sees this in a vision, she will try and kill me when she gets here and you are dead. This is the only reason I am explaining this to you, so she will come to save you, she will be late though."

"I thought that you didn't want to feed on humans because that made you a monster?" I asked trying to delay him more.

"Oh no I love to feed on humans. However it is a lonely life and I rather like the company that having a family has, so I sacrifice for them because having me around is important after all I am special." Actually insane is more appropriate. "It makes their lives mean something. Stop moving Bella; you are not going to get away from me. Now where was I?"

"You had left because of my scent." I helpfully supplied.

"Oh yes. When I returned I noticed the difference in you and the perverted glances towards my sisters. That's when I realised you were a reward, not only were you a sinner but you blood smelled and tasted wonderful. It wasn't quite as strong as before, but still better than anyone else's. Still how to get it without that little bitch Alice interfering. When I heard Jasper's thoughts when you got that paper cut it just came to me. He felt all our blood lust, so I threw you into that table and picture hoping to cut you even more and it worked. Quick and brilliant thinking on my part if I must say myself. Don't you agree?"

"If you say so Edward."

"Anyway that caused him to alter his course from me to you. Then as usual my family stepped in to protect you. This whole incident gave me a reason to get them to leave for your protection. They all argued against it, well except Rose, but as your mate" My god did he just use air quotes. "I had the final decision."

"So why didn't you just kill me in the forest or come back before this."

"Alice." He simply answered. "Alice has always kept an eye on you, now I know ways around this but if you had suddenly disappeared, then they would know and it would have put my position as a Cullen untenable. I would have to kill Alice and then Jasper. Esme would never forgive me."

"So why now?" his reasoning was warped but sound.

"Well Alice has left the Cullen's after Jasper found his mate." He explained.

"WHAT!"

"Yes, I know surprising isn't it? Apparently they were on their way back to Alaska after visiting Peter and Charlotte. They stopped off in Seattle to see our contact there and run across a new born. I believe her name is Bree, apparently Alice immediately saw them together as mates. They took her to our home in Alaska and well to cut a long story short Alice left. So if she comes to your rescue now then I can kill her and no one will notice she is missing."

"I thought Jasper was her mate." I said in bewilderment.

"Yes they had us all fooled and I am a mind reader. Apparently they were just really close but knew they were never mates. Well that is what Rose told me. I am tired of this and really cannot wait any longer." He blurred towards me but somehow I managed to step aside and crouch in a defensive posture. When I heard something strange. 'How did she do that she moved so fast, she's human she shouldn't be able to do that.' This was immediately followed by a blinding pain between my eyes that made me fall to my knees. This gave Edward the opportunity to grab me by the back of the neck. He pulled up towards him tilting my head to the side.

"I would say I am sorry Bella, but I am no…." his head turned to the side, eyes wide in disbelieve. "How did she get here so quick." I caught a glimpse of two figures streaking across the clearing as I was thrown bodily through the air by Edward.

"BELLA!" I heard Alice's voice screaming as I crashed into a tree about a hundred yards from where I had been. I laid there for a few seconds contemplating, why I was still breathing. My vision was hazy and I was slightly winded but still breathing. Then I became aware I could still move and that I didn't seem to have any broken bones. Odd I thought and Edward flung me by my neck. Surely that would break it. I sat up grimacing. Well I have bruises so that's something I thought. I glanced over the hissing and snarling that and loud crashes that were reverberating around the clearing. Three figures were in combat. Two of these I knew. The third I couldn't get much of a look at but it was definitely a blond female. Eventually Edward broke free and sprinted into the forest followed by the blond. The third Alice was suddenly standing in front of me.

"Oh Bella." She sighed out "What were you thinking?"

"What do you fucking care?" I spat at her. "You fucking left." She flinched at this.

"I know you are angry Bella, but I honestly believed him when he said it was for the best. It wasn't until I was on the way here I realised the extent of his treachery." I just scowled at her. "Bella if I had known what he was doing I would not of left, I thought Jasper had attacked you and with your clumsiness I believed I thought it could happen again. I am so sorry" I stared at her contrite face for a few minute before I could resist it no longer. I leapt at her and pulled into a hug burying my face in her neck.

"This doesn't mean I forgive you. I am still angry." I whispered.

"I know Bella, but we are going to have words about what you planned to do today." She replied. "Although I am glad you did otherwise we would have been too late we nearly delayed to long as it is."

"What are you talking about Alice?"

"We drove and it took us eight hours to get here Bella. If you hadn't decided to give yourself to Victoria then we would not have seen Edward till it was too late. Luckily I had a vision of what you were intending to do earlier in the week so was watching. When I saw you entering the clearing and the consequences of that decision last night that we left. If we hadn't of come then Victoria would finally get you this evening." She explained confusing me a little.

"You didn't see Edward then?"

"Not until he decided to come for you about two hours ago. Luckily, Kate was driving. It seems that Edward has a way around my visions. It must have taken him years to develop it because you have to go on instinct, not make any decisions. If you make a decision then I will see it if I am looking out for you at the time."

"Oh so you were coming back before Edward." I asked her.

"I was always coming back Bella, I wasn't planning to arrive for a few days yet because I was visiting my cousins, but I was always coming back."

"So why didn't you come earlier." I asked angrily.

"Bella I had to give Edwards plan a go. Carlisle insisted. If we had known the truth we would have been back earlier. As it is I had already decided to return after I left the Cullen's."

"You're still not forgiven, you know." I started walking towards my back pack that is in the middle of the meadow. "Who was the blond girl?"

"Oh that is Tanya Denali, you will like her." Alice had this smug tone to her voice that she only used after she had a vision and knew something we didn't. There was no point asking her what she had seen because usually she would barter this for a shopping trip or just smile knowingly at you. So I ignored her tone.

"So what are you going to do now?" I questioned her.

"Well first I am going to carry you home on your back so you can dispose of those letters. Then Tanya and I are going to go to the school to register me. Also she is going to apply for a job there. Then we are going to reopen the Cullen house."

"Oh Tanya is going to stay and shouldn't we wait for her here."

"Oh I don't think Tanya well go anywhere for a while. When she has calmed down she will find us at your house." Alice had that knowing tone in her voice again. She picked me up and swung me around onto her back. I clasped her waist with my legs as she set of at a brisk pace for a vampire through the forest. Strangely unlike the time I had done this with Edward, I found myself glancing around. Even though I still couldn't quite keep up with the blurring images of trees I could make out they were trees. Before everything was a blur and I found it quite nauseous. This time it was just fascinating. It wasn't long before we arrive at my house.

"Bella, shoot in and get rid of those letters. I will wait in the front room. Tanya will be here in 3 minutes and 42 seconds. Your Dad will follow 39 minutes later. Oh and Bella change your clothes and shower. Put on something nice."

"Alice, don't start with that already." I whined at her as I walked up the stairs I was still sorting out my clothes when I heard the knock on the door downstairs. I could hear the mumble of voices so I concentrated on them trying to pick out what they were saying.

"…..she's fine surprisingly nothing but a couple of scrape and bruises. She is upstairs cleaning up now. What about Edward?" Alice was explaining.

"He got away, but I will catch up with the little bastard eventually." Said the most beautiful voice I had ever heard. Wow she sounds hot I thought to myself. I stopped listening at that point and moved into the bathroom. It didn't take long for me to clean myself up and shower. I soon found myself wandering down the stairs, eager to put a voice to that beautiful voice. When I turned the corner at the bottom of the stairs I was greeted with the most wondrous vision of beauty standing looking nervous on the other side of the room, next to a smirking Alice. She had blond hair that flowed down to her waist, a fin angular face, full red lips and large golden eyes. My mouth just fell open in shock and I became immediately aroused as she glided effortlessly across the room.

"Hi I am Tanya Denali and I believe I you are my mate."

Bella closed her journal at this point and looked out of the window at the Alaskan countryside sighing. Two arms snaked around her shoulders from behind. She leant back into the embrace as a kiss was placed on her cheek.

"Finished sweetheart." The voice whispered in her ear before nibbling on her earlobe.

"Yeah I don't want to go into my private thoughts about you because they are for us and us alone. I think I have written about all the important stuff for today" I replied as I angled my head to give her more access to my ear and throat. "It's going to hard for him to read, you know how he felt about Edward."

"I know but he has to hear it. If he doesn't then he will never accept it and consequently never heal. Same goes for Esme." Tanya replied

"I feel bad about causing them pain." I moan as she sucked on a especially sensitive part of my neck.

"Let me take your mind of it all. "she huskily replies.

"How do you intend to that."

"Oh I can come up with a few ideas." She then pulls me into a deep and passionate kiss.

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