Writers Block
Ijuuin x Yanase
Final Chapter

Yuu grabbed the last colored page and lifted it up to his face scrutinizing it critically. He nodded smiling despite himself, and placed it carefully into the page protector and then into his leather art bag. Two weeks had passed since their encounter, but Yuu still felt nervous about seeing him again. Would he be cold towards him now? He couldn't decide whether he preferred the charming Ijuuin who dazzled him with his exuberant grin, or the calm and focused Ijuuin, professional and business like. Both in their own way made him shiver anxiously.

He pulled on his jacket sighing defeated and headed towards Ijuuin's house. He could have sent the finished pages by messenger, but there was a chance Ijuuin would hate everything. They hadn't after all seen each other since he stormed out dramatically. That thought itself mortified Yuu, thinking about how theatrical he'd been. Of course logically there was no reason to act in such a way. What did Ijuuin do to him?

"Nothing." He said composing his thoughts. That was it simply. Nothing…and yet his heart pounded every time he heard the calm resonant voice over the phone for the past two weeks.

He knocked on Ijuuin's door gently, holding the art case in front of him tensely. "Drop the prints and leave." He thought desperately and seriously considering.

Ijuuin opened the door smiling and Yuu was surprised to see him looking so well. The smell coming from the condo drew Yuu in. Like a bee to sweet honey.

"Come on in." Ijuuin said opening the door fully. When Yuu entered into the living room he let out an audible gasp of disbelief. The entire living room was spotless: the books that were on the ground now furnished the book shelves on the walls around the room, the papers that previously littered the floor were gone, and Ijuuin's manga, all 12 volumes lined neatly along the extensive table placed directly center of the now massive looking room.

Yuu sat down at the table looking around the room incredulously.

"Cleaning lady?" He asked with his mouth still gaping impressed. The delicious smell wafting through the air ensnared him and made his mouth water.

"No actually…" Ijuuin replied. "I've had a lot of free time, so I cleaned up a bit." Yuu couldn't see how that was possible considering he had a manga due the next day, but he nodded quietly and bent down for his bag.

Ijuuin came in back of Yanase and collected his jacket hanging it on the coat rack and Yuu shifted uncomfortably feeling his finger tips on his back.

"You don't have to do that, I won't be staying long," Yuu responded grabbing his art bag pulling out the completed pages and handing them Ijuuin.

Ijuuin merely smiled and sat at the head of the table inspecting the pages closely. He traced his fingers over the dark lines Yuu made with his pencils drawing the characters expertly, nodding approvingly.

So he's going to pretend nothing happened? Yuu narrowed his eyes, peeking over at Ijuuin curiously. When he finally heard Ijuuin's low voice, he turned his head towards him quickly.

"This is great Yanase," he grinned excitedly. "Of course I'm not surprised, you do great work."

Yuu nodded smiling back happily, but felt bothered for some reason. Ijuuin wasn't acting like anything happened…did he want to forget it too?

"I'm glad you approve." He answered. On the one hand Yuu wanted to leave with a well completed job and put it to rest, but his precocious always got the better of him in these situations. "Ijuuin, what is that smell?"

"It's our victory dinner." Ijuuin answered back boisterously. "A thank you for all your hard work Yanase." Yuu turned away from him smartly, and crossed his arms.

"I actually have plans today." Yuu could have left it at that, but he wanted to rouse Ijuuin. Seeing him so calm this way, offering him a congratulatory dinner so amicably, why did it irritate him? "Chiaki and I are going to the movies." He smirked proudly.

Ijuuin looked as though he was going to respond, but instead smiled graciously nodding.

"That's to be expected I suppose, I should have asked if you had plans." He answered looking back down at the pages. "Just one th-"

Ring. Ring. Ring.

Yuu's phone went off interrupting Ijuuin about to say something. Yuu excused himself and dug into his bag, hitting the receive button.

"Hey Chiaki." He said quietly not wanting Ijuuin to hear him.

"Anh? Why are you whispering?" Chiaki asked loudly.

"I'm in a meeting ne, what do you want." Yuu answered impatiently covering the phone with his hand.

"Oh! With Ijuuin-Sensei?!" Yuu didn't tell Chiaki what happened the last time with Ijuuin, and he wasn't sure why. He knew Chiaki would have rolled around excitedly about a sleepover at Ijuuin's, but that is not what bothered Yuu. Somehow, being with Ijuuin, made him forget about his child hood friend.

"Yes you idiot. I'll see you later."

"No. No." Chiaki replied back eating a mouthful of bread hungrily. "I'm calling to tell you we can't today. Hatori is here, and he bought dinner. We're going to spend some time together, because he'll be gone for a few days. Business trip!" He exclaimed still chewing.

Yuu's heart sank on the other end of the phone. Disappointment? No…this was…relief. He didn't let this weird mix of emotions rile him; instead he only shifted a bit in the chair still silent.

"Yanase? You there?"

"Yea…" Yuu coughed fakely. "It's fine. Go ahead with Hatori." He answered back finally. "Oh and have fun." He grimaced.

"Will do." Chiaki sang happily hanging up the phone.

Ijuuin looked down at the pages Yuu gave him, drinking them in completely. Working with Yuu, he knew the level of ability this man had with a pencil. However, being away from him for the days that passed, he'd forgotten how perfect Yuu drew "The Kan". Ijuuin was this type of man. Someone who took pleasure in the details of things, and so watching him draw and viewing Yuu's work was like foreplay for him. He didn't lift his head when he heard Yuu's phone ring, and even though he still looked down at the pages, his ears strained eagerly when he heard that from Yanase's lips.

"Yea…. It's fine. Go ahead with Hatori."

Ijuuin lifted his tongue to the roof of his mouth trying not to intimate his excitement hearing those words. He heard Yuu end the call and he looked up at him confidently.

"Bad news?" Ijuuin asked. The look on Yanase's face was a strange one, and he couldn't analyze it assertively.

"No." Yuu answered back simply. "Seems as though my plans fell through for the day." He laughed in that nervous boyish sort of way Ijuuin loved to hear. "Guess I'll take you up on your celebratory dinner then. Man's gotta eat right?" He added boorishly.

"That way of adding a qualifier to every request he makes." Ijuuin thought. Not unfamiliar with rejection, Ijuuin nodded with a forced smile in front of Yanase again.

"Sure." He answered back, grabbing the remaining pages and putting them into the manila envelope that held the manuscript. Being left alone in that bedroom that day, feeling the way he felt, with his heart aching the way it did, he assured himself that he would make amends with Yanase. He no longer wanted to chase lost causes in love.

Yuu fidgeted uncomfortably waiting for Ijuuin in the kitchen. The long tabcleared, and Ijuuin asked him to go sit at the smaller table on the other side of the room.

Surprised was an understatement. Ijuuin acted perfectly calm this evening, despite his carnality two weeks before. Now Yuu was here, waiting to have dinner with this man who'd pushed him up to the wall so forcefully.

Irony?

Yuu sat his chin on the table hoping he'd hurry back. Sitting and waiting like this, with nothing but his thoughts made him impatient.

"Missed me that much?" Ijuuin exclaimed coming in with two wine glasses.

"Not really." Yuu lied lifting his head up off the table thinking Ijuuin could read his mind.

"Of course. Mind on other persons I suppose." Ijuuin slipped in cleverly pouring him a glass of merlot.

Yuu tensed a little grinding his teeth but decided not to respond. Isn't that what made him over react the last time he was here? Hearing Chiaki's name thrown out so casually. He sipped the wine as Ijuuin laid the plate of steak and lobster in front of him, sitting across from him charmingly.

"To completing the 13th volume of The Kan." Ijuuin exclaimed lifting his glass. Yuu lifted his glass too with his lips parted a bit. He nodded acknowledging the toast and sipped the wine again.

"Your fans will be happy." Yuu said eating the delicacies in front of him.

"My fans?" Ijuuin chuckled smugly. 'I thought you were "a huge fan".'

Yuu paused clearing his throat looking down at his almost empty plate.

"I am a fan." He murmured quietly taking a sip of wine to his dry throat.

Ijuuin smirked and stared at him.

"I meant other people though…now that I've met you, it feels weird to be enamored." Yuu continued cutting the tender piece of steak. "I mean…take Chiaki for instance..." He looked up with his eyes widening, and then looked away trailing off immediately and became silent once more.

"Interesting…" Ijuuin uttered softly. Even though he'd said he would let Yuu go, the moment he heard Chiaki's name again it coiled around him like a deadly snake, choking his sagacity.

"He must have really hurt your feelings just now for you not to even want to talk about him." Ijuuin leered at Yuu intensely and took another sip of wine.

"What exactly does that mean?" Yuu narrowed his eyes onto Ijuuin fiercely.

"I can only hope I wasn't this pitiful." Ijuuin continued ignoring Yanase's question. "I thought that maybe we could get through one meal without hearing that name, but apparently that's too much even for you." He stood up away from the table coolly and grabbed his plate

"You…" Yanase started angrily. "Hearing that… don't talk about me in that condescending way!" He yelled slamming his hand on the table. "You don't know the half of my feelings!"

"Your feelings?" Ijuuin stared him down heatedly. "Let's not talk about feelings Yanase. You talk about love like it's nothing! You play with it, and fool around with that simple-minded Chiaki-"

Yuu stood up entirely from the table, and punched Ijuuin squarely in the jaw making Ijuuin's head turn a bit. He was intense with anger, feeling his body shake about to explode. His eyes swelled with tears as he heard Ijuuin's words ringing in ears.

"Don't talk like you know everything!" Yuu yelled, his voice trembling. "What do you know about how I feel Ijuuin?!" He grabbed his jacket and ran towards the door quickly, but Ijuuin was too quick this time. He moved towards Yuu, tackling him fully on the ground holding his wrist securely and leaning his weight over top of him firmly.

"Tell me what I don't know Yanase…" Ijuuin said huskily staring through the depths of his eyes. "No more running. If there's something I don't know tell me!"

Yuu turned his head away from that hard stare, his body shaking as he gasped for air. "Stop it…I'll faint." He moaned struggling against Ijuuin's grip. Being held down like this, it wasn't anxiety that was making his breath hasten.

"Not until you tell me…" He responded, pushing harder against him and squeezing his wrist bones.

"Don't… pretend you know what I'm feeling." Yuu whimpered, shutting his eyes to the intense pressure on top of him.

Ijuuin leaned in over top of him pressing his lips against Yuu's ear. "Tell me then." Ijuuin whispered softly.

"Nnh…stop." Yuu pushed harder against his hands feeling himself on fire. The soft tickle of Ijuuin's skin against his ear made him shudder. Ijuuin didn't move, only stared back at him waiting for his answer.

Yuu's breath quickened as the anxiety of being constricted this way enveloped him. Silence with only the increased breaths from his crying made him cringe.

"I only…" Yuu sobbed. "I only am afraid."

Ijuuin didn't move when he saw the tears streak down Yuu's face, but loosened his grip when he began to speak. He gritted his teeth irritably looking at down at him. "What are you so afraid of?

"Being rejected" Yuu continued as his breath hitched from his tears. "I can't take it if it's you." Even though Yuu said the words, hearing them out loud bought clairvoyance to him that mulling it over in his mind countless times couldn't. He didn't really mind Chiaki choosing Hatori. Knowing they were together, it did nothing for him; but thinking that Ijuuin cared nothing for the way he felt, wounded him immensely. Thinking of being shunned and cast aside, like Chiaki cast him aside.

"Yanase." The voice echoing past him which made him open his eyes. "I don't…want anyone but you," Ijuuin proclaimed sternly.

"Don't mess me around!" Yuu spat squirming underneath of Ijuuin, shaking in both fear and anger.

"I only want to make you mine. I missed you so much it hurt! Hearing you utter his name makes me furious! I want to touch you and make love to you…believe me" he whispered tenderly. "I'm seriously…in love with you Yuu Yanase. Please accept my feelings, and the truth of my words." He moved his lips towards his magenta ear and breathed "… you're someone…I can't forget …"

Hearing those last words made Yuu's breath hitch and as his face reddened, and he tried to turn away. Ijuuin kissed him deeply, igniting the passion that rattled behind the bars of Yuu's heart.

"Mm...No sto…" Yuu's mind was yelling, but his body felt weak with the kiss Ijuuin gave him. Feeling Ijuuin's tongue against his, Yuu's mind clouded in pleasure.

Ijuuin stuck out his tongue, trailing it from Yuu's mouth to his neck and down to his collar-bone. Everywhere he touched and sucked reddened, making his own body hot with lust for Yanase. His fingers tensed as he lifted Yanase off the ground sliding his shirt above his head.

"Sensei…this is too much." Yuu whispered as his bare chest was exposed to him.

"I know," Ijuuin replied quietly taking off his own shirt too. "But I can't wait anymore Yanase," he said truthfully kissing him down the crease of his chest and licking down to his stomach holding his back.

Yuu's whole body erupted in bumps that made him shiver against Ijuuin's warm tongue that felt everywhere. Ijuuin slid his pants off him slowly, and Yuu covered his face. He wasn't a virgin, but feeling like this with another man was unknown to him. He closed his legs together as Ijuuin slid his underwear off, and spread them wide wh finished alluringly. Ijuuin stood Yanase up even though he was naked, and leaned his back against the long glass table in the living room.

"Nngh….what are you doing sensei." Yanase said genuinely confused. Ijuuin moved to his knees and began sucking the tip of Yanase quickly licking and flicking his tongue quickly.

"Ah!" Yanase immediately tensed his bottom feeling the tight suction of Ijuuin's mouth as he keeled over surprised. The way Ijuuin sucked him so expertly, he held on to the back of his head moaning loudly and lewdly. It was only minutes when he felt himself tingling at his peak.

"Sen….sei." He gasped pulling at the back of Ijuuin's head. "Staaa…ahh..." he trailed choking as Ijuuin added more pressure and sucking harder. He felt his member twitch and erupt into Ijuuin's mouth fully.

Ijuuin didn't speak, only stood up quickly, turning Yanase's body facing the table forcefully. Yanase inhaled at the way he was being man handled by Ijuuin, being dominated so effortlessly. He even thought, as he was quickly being swiveled to his stomach and leaned forward, that he glimpsed a smirk on Ijuuin's handsome face.

Ijuuin bent Yanase over and spread his legs and entrance, letting the cum he sustained drip from his mouth lewdly. Yanase's entrance twitched irresistibly, and Ijuuin rubbed the cum with his spit against him with his fingertips. Feeling the softness of his cleft made him erect, yearning to be inside of him, and he nudged his fingers in, slipping them in and out effortlessly as Yanase panted and groaned lewdly.

"Hnn...more Ijuuin." He heard Yanase whine, and he unbuckled his pants quickly not able to contain his ache. He pushed up Yanase's body against the couch, and pushed into him feeling the warmth swallow him completely.

Yuu's eyes were closed, but he felt the prick of the stab, and then the pressure creep inside him, filling him completely. Yuu grabbed the table edge putting his head into his arms feeling the stinging yet wonderful sensation that slithered through him. Each time their bodies met, he felt the heat of Ijuuin pushing against him, and the sweat the contact of their bodies made. He wanted more, to die, to live forever with this man…

Feeling as though, in this moment he would get swept away, letting his anxiety drown him. Craving to be touched by Ijuuin, and hoping to feel the strength of his chest on his fingertips again, it terrified him. With Chiaki, it was the complacent way they lounged together, the happiness he felt with his child hood friend. He fell in love with Chiaki because Chiaki was all he knew. Normal to be infatuated with the child hood friend you grow to love. But then with Ijuuin it was everything. The way he spoke in the bass resounding through him, the harshness of his glare when he was angry, and the jubilance of his smile. The way he laughed inappropriately, crudely and at times deranged. The smell of him, like paper and fresh ink. This is how bad he wanted Kyo Ijuuin, it filled his everything.

Yuu stirred the next morning, and rolled over against the heat of Ijuuin's chest. This time when he woke from their night of intimacy, he wasn't alone laying naked and exposed. Ijuuin was there next to him, sleeping soundly. Yuu looked at him closely, smiling. Their love-making through the night lifted a weight off of his heartfreed from the shackles that bound him to the dead love he clung onto with Chiaki. Now thinking of his child hood friend didn't sting, and he wondered absent-mindedly whether Chiaki was being embraced by his lover, by his friend Hatori.

"Nn…you're awake Yanase?" Ijuuin mumbled sleepily.

"Only a little," he answered back softly with his ears reddening.

"Talking so casually after all they'd done last night." He thought childishly.

Ijuuin rolled over and looked at the time above his head board.

"Shit…" He said agitated and hopping out of the bed.

Yuu stared at him intrigued and sat up in the bed. "You're going?" He asked timidly tilting. Ijuuin didn't answer but walked out of the room quickly.

Yuu's eyes widened and he turned to gather his things to get dressed, feeling the throbbing of his lower back.

"Where are you going Yuu?" Ijuuin pulled Yanase back onto the bed firmly making his back hit the mattress roughly. Yuu hissed in pain and scowled seeing him fully dressed.

"Home…you're busy ne?"

Ijuuin laughed loudly which made Yuu narrow his eyes feeling his temper rise. However, instead of pushing him off and raging, he grabbed Ijuuin's cheeks pulling him closer to his face and pouted.

"Don't laugh at me you ape of a man."

Ijuuin smiled still trying to contain his laughter and kissed Yanase tenderly. Yuu felt the tingling bliss through his lips, which quelled his cantankerousness at once.

"I have to deliver this," Ijuuin exclaimed happily pulling away grudgingly and holding up the manuscript. "Or have you forgotten what we were celebrating last night?" Ijuuin asked grinning perverted.

Yuu shifted his eyes embarrassed thinking about the night before, but couldn't contain his excitement seeing the finished manuscript. "I'd like to read that too!" He demanded snuggling back up in Ijuuin's large bed.

"Don't worry," Ijuuin replied smiling. He stood up and grabbed his jacket. "We'll read it together when I get back?" It was a statement posed as a question to which Ijuuin was hopeful.

Yuu wanted to scoff sarcastically, but instead he nodded at Ijuuin encouragingly smiling.

"Chiaki won't believe this." Yuu chuckled, grinning carelessly.

"What that you're in my bed?" Ijuuin answered raising his eyebrow suspiciously.

"No…that you're my lover," he answered arrogantly winking.