I Don't Need Help, I Just Need You

This idea has been in my head for days ever since the announcement of Spencer's bipolar storyline.

Spencer had taken up running in the days that followed his break up with Sasha and it helped him calm his thoughts. He was either working, at school or jogging. He knew Chris was worried about him and even threatened to call their parents until Spencer managed to talk him out of him.

He was entering work when he saw Casey in the office with Indi where he remembered his break up with Sasha.

It was 3 nights ago. They were at Angelo's on a date. Sasha was always watching him which annoyed him. He was on edge, as he searched the menu, his hands clenching onto it.

"I'll be back in a minute. Casey's here" He heard Sasha tell him, a hand on his arm. It felt warm, against how cold he was feeling and she was gone a moment later. It hit him she had left a few seconds after as he looked where she sat and looked around for her. He sighed, annoyed and walked outside to find Sasha outside, talking to Casey, who was fresh from a physio session and still in his wheelchair. Spencer felt jealously raged in him when he saw Sasha bend down to hug Casey. He stormed over to them, feeling his blood boil.

"So this is what you do then, Sash? Ditch me on a date to be with your ex?" He proclaimed. Sasha stood up, ending her hug with Casey and looked around at him, confused.

"Excuse me?" She asked, narrowing her eyes.

"There's nothing going on, Spence, don't worry, mate" Casey tried to reassure him but Spencer laughed. Sasha couldn't of felt worse if he had slapped her.

"Is this your thing now? Using the wheelchair to get girls? Well I'm here to tell you Sasha is mine. You lost your chance when you chose Tamara but you must of done something wrong as she prefers your brother now" Spencer replied. Sasha's mouth fell open, not believing what she was hearing.

"You're lucky I'm in this chair, actually, mate because you would be on the floor right now" Casey told him, before going off. Sasha stared after him, wiping away a tear before turning Spencer.

"What the hell is wrong with you?!" She whispered, sighing.

"This is me. Don't like what you see?" He asked, raising an eyebrow. She felt like she wasn't looking Spencer, she was looking a stranger. This wasn't the guy she loved.

"No I don't quite frankly and until the Spencer I love is back, this is over" She replied, pointing between them before walking off, trying to control her tears.

Indi opened the staff room door, letting Casey out, stopping when he saw Spencer. There was an awkward atmosphere.

"Can you move please?" Casey asked, through clenched teeth.

"As long as you stay away from Sasha" Spencer replied, crossing his arms. Casey scoffed, trying to move past him. Spencer narrowed his eyes, moving forward and grabbing Casey by his t'shirt.

"Spencer!" Indi hissed, moving forward.

"Got something to say, Braxton?" Spencer asked, raising an eyebrow.

"You're off your head, mate" Casey replied, struggling.

"Woah, woah, Spencer, stop!" Chris said, rushing into the gym, pulling him off Casey and allowed him to past. Spencer managed to shake Chris off and stormed into the staff room, slamming the door shut, any more so, the glass would of shattered.

"What is the hell is wrong with brother, Chris? Is he on something?" Indi questioned, crossing her arms, sighing.

"Can I come to the house later? I need to speak to you and Sasha" Chris replied. Indi was scared by the look of fear on her boyfriend's face but nodded.

•••

"What's going on?" Sasha asked, walking into her living room later on.

"Can you sit down please?" Chris replied, pointing to a chair. She looked at Indi who looked as confused as him.

"Spencer isn't well" He started to say, sighing, placing his head in his hands. Indi sighed, standing up and put an arm around him.

"I could of to-"

"He hasn't been well since he was 15. They thought it was anger problems, growing up but it wasn't. It was much, much, much worse" Chris cut across him, getting emotional and Sasha could tell he was close to tears.

"Tell me Chris, please" She said, standing up.

"Spencer's got bipolar disorder. My little brother has to deal with that everyday and has for 2 and half years" Chris told her, just as Dex and April walked in, looking confused.

"And what's this? An episode?" Sasha asked, raising an eyebrow.

"He stopped taking his tablets. Something about not being boring" Chris replied, rubbing his eyes. She stared at him before heading towards the doors getting a chorus of 'woah, woah'.

"Think about this, Sasha. If he has stopped talking his tablets, he will very unstable right now" Dex warned her, stopping her.

"This is my fault and I need to help him" Sasha said, sighing.

"No, he needs professional help, Sash" April told her, as Sasha struggled to get past her brother.

"I love him and I need to be there for him. Please, guys" Sasha proclaimed, as Dex's grip tightened and April went to lock the doors.

"You can't do this to me" She said, looking around at the other four.

"I'm sorry, Sash. He could kill you, literally. He's on edge right now" Chris told her, walking forward.

"You don't want another Stu" Dex said, facing her.

"Spencer is nothing like Stu" Sasha cried, wiping away tears and ran into her room, collapsing on her bed in a flood of tears

•••

She must of cried herself to sleep as when she looked at her digital clock it was 10:54. The house was quiet. She changed and sneaked out of her room, towards the front door, trying to find the keys.

"I wouldn't bother. You won't get out" Chris told her, walking out of the living room. Sasha narrowed her eyes and stormed back into her room, slamming the door shut. She walked to her window, looking out. The last bus to Spencer's was in 6 minutes, she would make it if she ran to the bus stop. She made the decision, grabbing her purse and slowly and carefully, climbed out of her window, something she had done many times before, trying not to make a noise as she landed on the decking, tiptoed off it and ran to the bus stop.

Spencer had just come back from another run. He was too tired for any more. He sat on his bed, looking at a photo of him and Sasha on his bed side table, sighing. He wanted to get back to that but that was the boring and dependable him. He didn't want to be that. He put the photo down when there was a knock on the caravan door. He jumped up, opening the door. To see Sasha, she smiled weakly when she saw him with a scared and concerned look on her face and with that he knew.

"You know" It wasn't a question. She nodded, taking a step forward and flung her arms around him, hugging him tightly. He sighed, putting his hands on her shoulders, pushing her away.

"I don't want you to feel sorry for me, Sash" He told her, pushing her away.

"Stop it!" She proclaimed, taking his hands "If the situation was reversed, would you be at my door?"

He sighed and nodded, hugging her tightly.

"I love you so much. I just didn't want to be boring anymore. I don't get how you could love me back oppose to someone like Josh or Casey" He murmured, kissing her hair briefly.

"I love you, Spence. All of you. Nothing you do will change that. I just want you. The real you. You could never be boring" She replied, as she ended the hug, beaming at him.

"It's what the tablets do. That's not me" He sighed, looking at me.

"And this is what this does to you" She told him, titling his chin so he would look at him.

"You can say the word. You don't have to scared of it or me" He replied, lifting a hand and caressed her cheek with the back of his hand. She took the hand on her face, lacing her fingers through his.

"Okay, it's what the bipolar makes you. I could never be scare of you. You wouldn't hurt me. I know that" Sasha smiled, smiling at him.

"How do you know that?" Spencer asked, raising an eyebrow.

"Because I know what it looks like when someone wants to hurt you. On purpose" She replied in a small voice, swallowing loudly.

"Who's hurt you? I'll kill them. No one hurts you. Is it Casey?" He questioned, raising an eyebrow, heading towards the door. She stopped him, shaking her head.

"It's not Casey and you can't kill them because they are already dead"

He narrowed his eyes, looking confused.

"It was my ex boyfriend. That's how I know. He used to hit me" She told him, biting her lip. He gasped, taking a step back and sat on his bed

"Are you sure he's dead?" He asked, raising an eyebrow, his hands shaking. This side of Spencer did scare Sasha a little bit. She was used to see him as the guy who wouldn't hurt a fly.

"Yes because it was me who killed him" She replied. His head snapped up, staring at her.

"In self defence?" He asked. She nodded. He sighed, holding out his hand, she took it.

"I don't need help, I swear. I just need you, Sash. No one will ever hurt you again. Let me protect you please" He told her, squeezing her hand.

"You already have me. You always have. You won't get rid of me that easily. I love you" She replied, sitting on his lap.

"But you want me to go back on the tablets don't you?" He asked, raising an eyebrow.

"Not for me, for you but lets not talk about it, tonight please, I'm tired. Lets just sleep. Nothing can hurt us in our sleep. Just hold me like you would normally do, please" She told him. He nodded, as they laid down. She laid on her side, as he wrapped his arms around her waist, raising his head on her shoulder, kissing it briefly.

"Never leave me please. I don't know what I'd do if I woke up and you wasn't there" He said. She turned to look at him, over her shoulder and gave him a brief kiss.

"Here. Always" She replied, smiling.

"Promise me you won't get sectioned" He asked, after a moment, sleepily.

"I promise" She said, sighing.

•••

Sasha woke to bright lights seeping into the caravan and knew her siblings were here. She sighed, trying to get herself out of Spencer's grip but as she did, his grip tightened as he murmured in his sleep.

"Spence, I won't be a second, I promise" She said, turning to him.

"I don't want to go, Mum, please. Don't make me. I'm normal. I promise. I'm not ill" He said in his sleep.

"Spence, you're dreaming" She tried to tell him. It broke her heart to see him like this.

"Chris, tell them, please. I don't wanna go. Please. I'll do anything. I'll be better" He cried out. Sasha kissed him lightly and he seemed to relax and she was able to move, jumping up, grabbing one of Spencer's jackets and headed outside the caravan to where she saw Indi, Chris, Dex and April.

"Sash..." Dex sighed, pulling her into a hug.

"I'll call the paramedics now" Chris said, getting his phone out.

"Paramedics?" Sasha asked, concerned.

"He needs help. Profess-"

"No. He doesn't. He just needs time" Sasha cut across him when she heard cries of her name from the caravan. Cries that torn through her like a knife. She rushed back into the caravan to find Spencer looking for her frantically.

"Spencer, baby, it's okay. I'm here. Look it's me" She told him, walking towards him, grabbing his hands.

"You wasn't here!" He cried, as she guided him, sitting him down, tucking his head under her chin, as she played with his hair.

"I was outside for like 2 seconds. I had to tell our siblings to go. I told them you were fine" She told him. He found her playing with his hair, relaxing. She looked up and saw Chris looking at her, his phone in his hand. She sniffed, closing her eyes as tears and broke her promise, nodding before looking away as silent tears fell.

Spencer fell asleep on Sasha, his head on her chest, sleeping soundly like a baby. Sasha was still awake as Chris saw opposite her.

"You did the right thing" He told her, watching as Spencer slept.

"I promised him I wouldn't and I did. He's gonna hate me" She replied, still crying.

"He will thank you when he is well again" Chris said, as they heard the paramedics pull up outside. He stood up, sitting up, shaking his brother awake.

"Sash!" Spencer said, looking around her and relaxed when he saw her looking down at him, smiling.

"Thank god" He added, snuggling onto her chest again when there was a knock on the caravan.

"Whose that?" Spencer asked, looking from Chris and Sasha.

"Help, Spence, help" She replied, giving him a soft smile.

"No, you promised!" He proclaimed, sitting up.

"It was me, mate. I rang them" Chris said, sighing.

"No you promised!" Spencer stood up, looking lost and scared, pointing to Sasha.

"Listen to me, listen to me. I love you and I always will. This is a promise I will keep. Please, Spence, look at me" Sasha said to him, putting her hands on her shoulders before moving to his face.

"We can have it all. Anything at all. Marriage, kids. Anything you want. I'll give it to you but please go get well again. I need my Spencer back. It's killing me seeing you like this. Please!" She exclaimed. He moved away.

"I just needed you but no, it's not enough. What's this, some of sort redemption for being murderer?" Spencer asked, raising an eyebrow.

"Spence, please don't do this" Sasha cried, moving forward but he pushed her away.

"Buddy, come on" Chris told him, putting a hand on his back.

"No. You just both let me down in the end. I'll go but it's not for you. Don't expect to see me when I get out because I'm going" Spencer said, walking out of the caravan.

Chris walked toward to Sasha, hugging her. Any other time it would be awkward but right now it was what she needed. She cried into his shoulder, wondering what to do next over the boy she loved.

AN: if you want a full length story, let me know because I'm debating it :)