Izayoi couldn't meet her mates gaze from the guilt that overwhelmed her. What could she say in this type of situation? Sorry I tossed our son into the dragons den and let him have his way with him? No, she didn't do anything wrong! Inuyasha was the one who decided to let Itatchi have his way with him!

Toga's eyes narrowed as his mate's shoulders hunched over and then straightened as she raised her head defiantly. She met his eyes full on, amethyst eyes clear of any guilt she had felt earlier.

"Izayoi!" Toga snapped in a threatening tone of voice.

"Don't be angry with her...I was the one who wanted it, sides I loved him...Loved every single minute of it." Inuyasha spoke so quietly that all had to strain to hear him.

Toga couldn't believe what he was hearing, and from the look on his eldest sons face neither could he. Izayoi only crossed her arms over her chest looking down yet again before mumbling.

"You heard him...he loved it…" The human refused to believe she was in the wrong, she subconsciously knew that if she admitted to it she wouldn't be able to live with herself.

Toga could not believe what was coming out of Izayoi's mouth, never in all of his life had he been more wrong about someone then now. He wanted to beat his mate until she was nothing but a bloody corpse, it was there jobs as parents to protect their children.

"I want you out of this house!" Toga snarled almost silently fist clenched at his side as he fought the overwhelming urge to strangle the woman who stood beside him.

Inuyasha felt his heart stop at those words, it was just as he expected. They wanted him to leave...then so be it, but he couldn't just leave sasuke...but maybe it was for the best? He shoved Sesshomaru away with the last little bit of strength he had.

Izayoi stared at Toga with wide eyes, stifling a sob she ran out of her sons room...Sesshomaru was stunned could his baby brother really hate his touch that much? He raised a hand to touch Inuyasha but his father stopped him.

"Sesshomaru let's give him some space." Toga spoke gently knowing that his youngest probably just needed some time alone to think.

Nodding the Daiyoukai stood up and headed to the door. With one last look back his father silently closed his precious otouto away from him. Rage consumed the young pure blood, his baby brother was hurting, and yet he could do nothing to stop the pain!

"Sesshomaru, leave it be son. We need to discuss a few things in my study about the whole Naraku and Itatchi business." Toga laid a hand on his sons trembling shoulder flaring his youkai to help calm him.

"Father he needs me! I have to do something!" Sesshomaru hissed intent on going back into the room and consoling his mate.

"Sesshomaru, there is nothing you can do but give him time! We mustn't push him to soon, he isn't ready." Toga growled claws digging into Sesshomaru's shoulders as he turned him away from the bedroom door.

Inuyasha felt as if he was in shock, they truly wanted him gone...even his beloved mother! Numbly he stood and staggered his way to the desk. He knew what he had to do...he would beg that they at least keep Sasuke, the boy deserved better, not a filthy hanyou!

With eyes burning he shakily started to write his letter.

'To whom this concerns,

I Inuyasha Heartsaharu beg your humble forgiveness for bringing shame to your family, for letting myself taint your home in such unspeakable ways. Mother I only hope you can forgive me. I never meant for any of this to happen. Please believe me when I say that getting to know you all, to have you by my side for the short amount of time that I did was the best gift that a filthy hanyou such as myself could ever receive. I pray to the gods and goddesses that your anger won't be turned on poor Sasuke, he deserves so much! Please don't turn him away! If you can find it in your hearts then please keep loving him, and if not please please please send him to a home where he won't be mistreated and will be loved. Thats the last thing this mongrel will ever ask of you! Sasuke is innocent to the world, please don't let him be tainted and sullied like I am. Keep him safe, that's all that i'm really asking for.

Inuyasha.'

Tear's stained the letter smearing some of the words, but Inuyasha knew that they would be able to read it. Trembling he took the letter over to the bed and laid it on the pillow that he had occupied hours ago.

The half-being didn't know where he would go, but he did know he would survive. 'I am a survivor!' He chanted over and over again, somewhat relieved that his brother beast was being quite through the whole affair.

He contemplated on how he should leave, it was obvious to him that he didn't deserve to go through the front door and he really didn't know the layout of the house that well. Looking around and chewing his bottom lip with his fang he spotted a window…

Toga sat down in his chair across from Sesshomaru, he threaded his long thin fingers together and laid his chin on them while his elbows supported the weight. It was quite between the two, neither really knowing what to say or to do, everything still felt so raw and new.

"Father, just who is Itatchi?" Sesshomaru was the first to finally break the silence.

"Itatchi...I can't say i know much, but I do know he was your brother's step father and lover for the majority of his life...He took your brother's innocence when he was three." Toga struggled to find the words as his throat seemed to close up.

"Where can This Sesshomaru find him?!" Sesshomaru growled so lowly that it would have gone undetected by human ears.

"Inuyasha killed him, as I said I don't know much...Izayoi did not feel it important enough to give me all the details." Toga nearly wilted under the accusing stare his son submitted him to, of course the boy was right to blame him.

Sesshomaru was having a difficult time coming to grips with his situation, he was stuck between wanting to destroy everything and needing to comfort his sibling. To think that someone could do such horrid things to his baby brother...Without think he slammed a fist on his father's desk making it crack down the middle.

"Sesshomaru, I know how you feel son." Sesshomaru's bent head snapped up as he eyed his father teeth clenched. "Soon son, we shall have vengeance. The spider will pay dearly at our hands."

Sesshomaru stood snarling teeth snapping and bouncing off each other eyes flashing between crimson and muted gold. Chuckling darkly Toga pointed at the chair that Sesshomaru had sent flying backwards.

Sesshomaru's eyes darted from the chair to the cutting figure his father made before grudgingly walking over and picking the chair up.

"Seat yourself." Toga spoke calmly.

"NO! THIS SESSHOMARU SHALL KILL THAT VILE NASTY DISGUSTING CREATURE, REVIVE HIM AND KILL HIM AGAIN!" Sesshomaru roared voice fluctuating along with his control of his beast.

"The timing is not right!"

"HOW CAN YOU BE SO CALM? DO-"

"ENOUGH! SESSHOMARU CONTROL YOURSELF BEFORE I DO IT FOR YOU!" Crimson eyes met and locked in a battle of wills before Sesshomaru looked away, hands clenched into fist.

"As you so eloquently put it, I am anything but calm, however this situation requires finesse and cunning." Toga spoke gently without a doubt he found himself straddling a line, but he was wiser and older than his son and that alone is what gave him the power to control himself.

Sesshomaru took a deep breath through his nose and unclenched his fist finally noticing the smell of his blood permeating the air. His body trembled as he seated himself, closing his eyes he counted to three hundred and fifty before his body stopped shaking.

"This is what we must do…" Toga whispered as he leaned forward to conspire with his son.

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'Hmph everything is coming together. Inuyasha….PRECIOUSSSSSS ONNNNEEEEEEEE...Don't worry you'll be home soon.'

Inuyasha shivered as he rubbed his arms up and down, It was still dark and to be honest freezing. He knew he couldn't go back to the apartment it would be to easy to find him there. He couldn't explain it but his beast was telling him he had to go run and hide.

His side throbbed with the pain of his fall as he had escaped out of the window, he could feel his broken ribs mending. All things considered he was physically in good in shape, but alas the same could not be said about his mental state.

His mind was a whirlwind of hatred pain confusion, and add a dash of fear to that and you have his state of being. He had no one he could turn to, what was he to do? Rain started to pour down soaking his desolate figure through.

The hanyou refused to cry though his throat burned with the need of it, but then again who would see? The rain would wash the sight away and absolve him of his sins for the time being...Still he could not let himself go.

Gritting his teeth he hunched his shoulders and let out a low growl as if challenging the world, he never expected the weight of a hand on his shoulder...Letting out a large snarl he whirled around, intent on showing his attacker a thing or two.

"Whooaaa!" A small throaty voice reached his flickering ears as if coming through a tunnel.

Inuyasha blinked several time before standing straight the rain continued to pour making it hard for him to see, he would have asked who the stranger was but a hand darted out grabbing his wrist and took off.

'What in the hell?' Inuyasha thought startled as his feet thudded against the wet pavement, wheezing his body struggled to catch up with the strangers own temp as he was dragged to only gods knows where!

The figure suddenly stopped making Inuyasha stumble into him consequently catching his scent, the hanyou reeled as the figure fumbled with a key ring searching for a key.

"Shippo? T-t-t-the hell?!" Inuyasha stuttered eyes wide.

A cry of triumph made the hanyou start once again as a door was swung open and his wrist was grabbed once again and he was literally tossed Inside. "Stay there!" Shippo barked as he hurried off.

Inuyasha grimaced as he remained in place and not even five minutes later the fox demon had returned throwing a towel on the hanyou. "Dry yourself off the best you can pup, and follow me." Shippo ordered as it suddenly dawned on him to turn the light on.

Inuyasha didn't get the chance to look around as Shippo ushered him into his bathroom. The hanyou shivered as cold started to set in fangs clinked against each other as his teeth started to chatter.

"Shhh pup we'll have you warm soon enough Shippo encouraged.

Inuyasha gave a small nod as the fox demon bent over the tub and began to play with knobs until it was at a warm enough temperature, humming to himself he straightened and turned the shower on.

Inuyasha continued looking at the tiled floors before warm fingers were tilting his chin up, emerald green eyes met his own golden orbs and held searching-but for what?

"Inuyasha?" It was enough, the way that voice said his name so warmly with a twinge of worry- Inuyasha couldn't fight it anymore! A sob ripped from his throat and he found himself embracing the warm gently being before him.

Shippo was at a loss as the hybrid before him sobbed into his chest and clung to him. Shippo had known the minute he saw the boy in the pouring rain hunched over that something was eating him up, and looking him in the eyes had confirmed it.

The pup continued to sob as Shippo rubbed his back soothingly growling lowly in his throat to add to the calming atmosphere. Shippo looked up taking a deep breath as the body pressed so closely to his began to shake with the force of his sobs.

"Please!" Shippo was completely taken back as this particular word was flung his way, he looked down as large begging eyes looked up shining with tears that trickled down his pale cheeks. The alpha in Shippo wanted to throw the boy to the floor and take him savagely and yet hold him gently and promise him sweet nothings and give him the world.

"What do you want?" Shippo asked as his eyes searched yet again, even he didn't know what he was looking for.

"Please?"

"What are you asking me for?"

"Please?"

Shippo gritted his teeth as the thin body pressed closer to his seeking warmth comfort,and protection. With a huge amount of inner strength Shippo pulled away only to be grabbed so suddenly that they both fell to the floor.

The hanyou gripped his shirt tightly as he started to outright sob again from the rejection coursing through his being. Shippo closed his eyes clenching his teeth as he held the boy close again.

'Dear gods above what cruelty as befallen this child?' he questioned mutely.

Sesshomaru gritted his teeth he hated how long it would take to exact his revenge, but his father was right. He sighed rubbing his eyes mindful of his claws, leaning back he regarded the clock it flashed 3:45 am in bright red lights.

The pattering of feet reached his elven hearing as little Sasuke entered the room rubbing his eyes sleepily.

"What are you doing up?" Sesshomaru questioned in what he hoped was a gentle manner.

It was at that moment that Toga walked in with two steaming mugs of coffee. He looked from Sasuke to Sesshomaru with a raised brow. Shaking his head he set the cups on his desk before seating himself.

Sasuke gazed around the room sleepily before it rested on Sesshomaru, mutely he walked over and placed himself in the Daiyoukai's lap. Tiredly he rested his head on the strong chest before him.

Sesshomaru forced himself to remain calm and not too stiffen at the contact, this was all still too new for him. Humming he looked at his father for guidance who only shook his head with a large shit eating grin.

"Is pappa feeling better know?" Sasuke asked in a small voice, as he derived Sesshomaru of his warmth.

Sesshomaru and Touga caught each others eyes, before Touga cleared his throat drawing the small demons attention.

"Your papa is, well to be honest kit he isn't feeling very well." Touga was nervous he didn't really know how to approach this subject with a child.

"Did he have to go to the hospital again?" Sasuke tilted his head in a very Inuyasha like manner as he looked up at Sesshomaru.

"Of course not kit, everything is going to be okay." Touga hurried to reassure, but apparently Sasuke didn't want answers from him.

"Did he?"

"No pup it's as your grandfather said, everything will be righted soon." He sighed wearily after he spoke shaking his head slightly.

"Then where's pappa?"

"In his room resting." Sesshomaru answered raising a brow at his wayward pup.

"Nu-uh! Don't lie to Sasuke!" Sasuke huffed tiny arms crossing over his thin chest as he puffed out his cheeks.

"This Sesshomaru has no need to lie." The daiyoukai snorted disdainfully.

"But-"

"Sasuke your father speaks the truth, your papa is only resting in his room. He needs some time alone, a lot has happened recently." Touga interjected before his hard headed son and grandson got into an argument.

Sasuke got up from Sesshomaru's lap and walked to the door stomping as he went, before turning around and yelling at the top of his lungs.

"NO HE'S NOT!" He stared at the two men obstinately.

Sesshomaru stood from the chair, eyes narrowing as a low growl rumbled from the back of his throat. He gracefully moved past his defiant pup intent on showing him, before the kit drove him mad.

"Come!" Sesshomaru commanded with a snarl.

Touga groaned before he lifted himself up and out his chair staring at the steaming cup of coffee wistfully.

Shippo emitted a pent up sigh as he leaned against his bathroom door. He had finally gotten the smaller youkai into the shower after almost an hour of his crying, he still refused to speak of the things so obviously tormenting him.

Nevertheless the most pressing issue was to get him a change of clothes and see him well rested. Shippo walked into his room and started to scrounge around for something for the other man to wear.

Shippo gave a triumphant smirk as he came across a pair of old jogging sweats, and his high school senior shirt. This would do nicely as far as underwear went...well the hanyou would just have to free ball he wasn't about to share that, hell he barely even knew the kid.

However something about the Inu Youkai drew him in and made him want to be apart of his life, Shippo looked back to their first meeting. The boy had been devastated and angry, and yet he had shown a fierceness- something that attracted the fox kit. He couldn't explain it, but he had the burning need to stay by his side.

"S-Shippo?" The fox's head snapped up as he quickly stood and hurried out his room and down the hall to see Inuyasha with his head sticking out the door.

Blushing he thrust the clothes at Inuyasha, who stuck out an arm and took them hesitantly before withdrawing to dress himself. Moments later a barefooted Inuyasha stepped out of the room, a flush heating his face.

"Thanks." His eyes darted about before landing on the floor.

"It's not a problem, Why don't you make yourself at home? I'm just going to grab a quick shower" The fox smiled reassuringly before letting himself into the bathroom.

Smiling softly Inuyasha nodded as he made his way into the living room looking around with awe, Shippo had a pretty nice place...Cream colored walls some old throwback furniture, it gave it an antique kinda look. It was homey feeling something that soothed the crossbreeds battered soul and made him feel at ease.

Inuyasha hesitated before exhaling and sitting himself comfortably on the couch with his legs tucked underneath him. He stared silently at the tv enjoying the peace that seemed to float throughout the house.

Vaguely he knew he shouldn't be enjoying this small bit of kindness, he didn't deserve it after all he was a filthy half-breed slut! Once this man found out it wouldn't be long before he was dismissed again.

These thoughts swirled around his mind in a vicious never ending cycle. Closing his eyes he leaned his head on his arm that he had thrown over the armrest, he was just so tired that he wanted to sleep and forget it all but that thought alone terrified him.

Shippo stepped out of the bathroom and scurried to his room quickly changing, before going into the living room. He smiled warmly as his eyes looked over the form of an exhausted hanyou, chuckling he made his way over.

Inuyasha's head snapped up as he heard the chuckle, his hackles immediately raised he let out a low threatening growl.

"Hey there! I didn't mean to scare you!" Shippo said as he threw his hands up in the air in surrender.

"Sorry." Inuyasha murmured as his body started to relax and the heavy mantle of sleep once again settled itself over his body.

"It's perfectly fine. You look tired." Shippo said nervously stating the obvious as he walked over to the couch and sat on the other side giving the hybrid enough space so not to overcrowd him, "You know you're safe here, right?"

Inuyasha refused to answer that instead he sat tight-lipped and stared blankly ahead eyes drooping slightly. Shippo shook his head and slowly reached forward and turned the tv on not really caring what was playing.

Inuyasha slowly felt himself start to doze off despite his best efforts to stay awake. 15 minutes later Shippo looked over at Inuyasha who was in a deep sleep. Smiling he stood and stooped over the figure before gently hoisting his weightless body up and carrying him to his room, where he placed him in his bed and covered him up.

"Sleep well." He whispered as he flicked the light off and closed the door.

Okay guys so here you have it chapter 13! Wasn't what you guys were expecting was it? Lol yes I know Shippo is way out of character along with the rest but who the hell cares its MY story, I'm sick and tired of putting and seeing Shippo as a beta or a little kid! I wanted to try something daring! What do you guy's think? I hope you all enjoyed this chapter!

Some reviews I really appreciate!

brz:

Sorry it took so long to review but you know how life goes. This was done very well the rapes and the anger the needs and cares all of it. You did a really good job and I thank you for this chapter it explains a lot about Inuyasha poor baby. I hope Sessh does right by him and gives him the love and comfort and security he deserves and protects him fearlessly like he should be. Can't wait to see what happens next especially with what Toga and Sessh are liable to do to Naraku. I can't talk about Izayoi because no one deserves happiness if it brings torment and pain to someone they are suppose to love and care for there is NO excuse for her actions no matter what Inuyasha should have been her first and only priority otherwise she should never have had any kids or given him to someone who would put him first above themselves most of all that is a parent's job

My reply: Lol I'm afraid there plans shant be revealed just yet! But thanks so much for this review it motivated me to finish up this chapter sometimes (ok alot of times i NEED a GOOD kick in the butt!)

Nikkie23534:

Wow...this was so dark! I think it's the darkest chapter you've written to date. I found myself tearing up, when I read about all InuYasha endured for the sake of his mother's happiness. He even convinced himself that it was his job to do it, just so she could believe they were a family. That is way too big a burden for a child to take on!

I think Sesshomaru needs to give InuYasha a bit of his childhood back. Giving him a feeling of security is what he needs above all else. Sesshomaru needs to make sure he knows that nothing and no one will EVER hurt him again. Killing Naraku would be an excellent start!

Plus, Izayoi has a lot of explaining to do. Especially, after what Inu No Taisho has just witnessed. There's gonna be hell to pay for her weakness.

Awesome job, I'm looking forward to reading what happens next.

B reading U!

My reply: Thanks mommy you always make my heart soar with your inspiring words. You really do! I need to message you and check in! Gah me and my anti social self! I love youuuuuuu

Okay guy's until the next chapter thats all for now! You guy's have all my love! Hit me up and lets discuss tea time! Inuyasha! Your most personal feelings! Lol :) I can't wait to hear from you guys! until next time stay safe!