Sorry about the little cliffy last chapter. Sorry that this took a lot longer. I've been busy. Not enough time to do everything I need to get done.

I can't believe this has happened. Everything was okay, but now... Now everything is upside down.

I've been at the hospital for two hours now and I haven't been able to see Seb once. No one has seen him yet. We don't know if he is going to be okay or not. His mother was said to have died instantly in the car crash. A car had hit them head on, but there was another car that hit them in the back end. I don't know if the rest of the people are okay or not, but right now I just want to see Seb.

Izzy is pacing frantically and crying on the other side of the waiting room. Simon is trying to calm her down, not really doing very well at his job. Alec and Magnus are sitting in front of the door so they can get up quickly. Tess and Jem are sitting in the opposite corner from Jace and I.

I wanted to see Seb- very bad, in fact- but I didn't want to see his state of condition. I don't want to see him die. I don't want to see any of the tubes coming out of his skin. I don't want to see his chest rising and falling slowly. None of that mattered, though, because I needed to see him.

"Shh. It's okay. Come here. It's okay, Clare." Jace was whispering to me. I hadn't realized I was crying. He wrapped his arms around me and I buried my face in his chest and started crying harder. "Shh. It'll be okay. Clare, shh. It's okay. Okay?"

I couldn't say anything, nor could I breathe because I was crying so much.

"Clare? Can you look at me? Please?"

I slowly raised my face and met Jace's eyes. His beautiful golden eyes that are so unique. I once tried to paint them, but could never get the color right. He took my face in his hands and started wiping away the tears with his thumb.

"This is just like when we were younger." I say without much thought. I see a little smile play on his lips.

"It's just a little different. We are in a hospital, there's people around, and I haven't kissed you."

I felt a blush creep up on my face.

"Are you going to be okay now?" Jace asks. I'm not really sure if I will or not, but I nod my head anyways. "Okay. That's good. Even though I know you're lying." I smile a little, but it probably looks more like a grimace.

Just then a nurse comes through the doors. "Hello. Are all of you here for Sebastian Verlac?"

"Yes! How is he? What's happened?" Izzy jumps up and asks.

"He had to be stabilized. He has been paralyzed the waist down. He was asking if he could see you all. He couldn't talk well but we got the message. The sight might not be the best."

I stand up and start to walk towards the doors but stop. "Hey. Clare. What's wrong?" Jace asks me. He was walking beside me and stopped with me.

"I don't know if I'll be able to see him with a lot of wires coming out of him." I feel tears starting to spill over again.

"You need to see him. He's okay. He's going to live. Okay?"

"Okay."

"Okay, c'mon then." He grabs my hand and pulls me toward him. He puts his arm around me and I lay my head on his arm.

We follow everyone to Seb's room and are the last to enter. I look in and meet Seb's eyes. "Hey." I croak. I could barely get that word out without tears spilling over even more.

There were wires all over the place. There were a lot of tubes coming out of his body and an oxygen mask on his face. There was morphing beside his hospital bed. He was about to talk but the nurse told him too be quiet. He lifted his arms a little instead and I walked over to him. I was about to just fall into his arms but I didn't want to mess up any of the wiring and tubes.

"It's okay. You won't mess anything up." The nurse told me. I then practically fell into Seb's arms and hugged him tightly. I put my face in his chest and smelled hospital. I couldn't believe this happened.

"I'll be down the hall if any of you need me." The nurse says. She walks out the door and closes it behind her.

"Are you okay?" Iz asks. I could tell from her voice that she is trying not to cry.

"I'm fine." Seb says. It seems pretty normal, but I can tell a little difference.

"I suppose you should be. Clary would have killed you if you weren't. She practically crushed you." Magnus says trying to hold back a laugh. I turn my head so that I can see him and glare at him. "Oh, don't be that way. You know it's true. You fell on him and squeezed him to death."

"Do you even need that mask?" Alec asks.

"Um. I don't think so. It's here for precautions. I'm actually really fine. I didn't get the most damage." He seems to realize that his parents are not okay. "Are they-" He chokes on his words. "Are they okay?"

Nobody can meet his eyes. We all know his mother has already died and his father is in very bad condition. Finally Si speaks up. "Your father is on really ad condition. We don't know much, just that he isn't stable. Your mother-" Si cut off then. He seems a little uncomfortable. Jem picks up his train of thought.

"She died instantly in the crash. It seems that your mother got most of the impact."

Seb lowers his head into my hair and I feel tears dripping into my hair, even though I can't hear them.

A nurse came in a little later and told us that Sebastian's father wasn't going to make it because they couldn't get him stable and he wasn't able to breathe without the machine. Seb is in pretty bad shape and I have no clue what to do. I never got the chance to comfort Jace when his parents died. He moved away before anyone could do anything.

The boys went to go get food, and Maia and Tessa needed to get some air. Izzy is sitting on the window sill and just staring outside with a blank look. Seb is sleeping from the medicine that the nurse gave him and has been like this for about an hour. I am listening to music- one bud in my ear and one out- and watching Seb's chest rise and fall.

"Do you think he'll be okay?" Izzy asks, still looking out the window with her blank look.

"Maybe. It's hard to get over something like this." I respond. I don't really know if Jace ever got over his parents' death.

"I don't think he has." It seems she knew that I was thinking about Jace, but she was probably thinking about him too. "I sometimes see his eyes go to another place whenever we say something about families."

"Do you know what Seb is going to do? Where he's going to go?" I ask. I hope that he doesn't have to go away, but he may need to. I don't think any of his family lives here.

"He'll probably go with his grandmother. She lives about three hours away. We would still be able to go see him."

"Good. I wouldn't want him to go too far away where we couldn't see him."

"I think he was falling for you. His eyes would light up whenever you were around. When you walked into this very room his mood seemed to pick up a little. I've never seen him like this before. You are good for him, especially now."

"Why do you say 'was falling for me'? Is he not anymore?"

"Of course that's what you picked out of there. You and Jace are similar that way. He is probably going to cut it off because of his paralyzed state and he'll be farther away. He doesn't like long distance relationships. He has said that so many times before. He won't want to keep you held back from living your life either." She seemed to be done, but there it seemed to me that there needed to be more to say.

"He isn't keeping me from living my life. He's part of my life right now and that won't change just because he's moving away and is paralyzed. He hasn't ended our relationship yet. I think that there's still hope."\

"You two are so much alike it's crazy." She mumbled.

"Who?"

"You and Jace. Neither one of you can give up on anything or anyone. It took him a while to finally accept he wasn't going to see you. That boy sure as hell didn't give up though. I would listen in on him some nights when we were suppose to be sleeping and he would say something like, 'I'll see you again, Clare. Please don't forget me.' I believed he was in love with you. And once I saw you, I knew for sure that he had fallen for you and that his love for you was still there. You may not be in love with Seb, but you can't help but love him. You aren't giving up on him and your relationship. You two are adorable together, but Seb sees the way Jace looks at you and he knows that he can't hold you back. He understands that you will hurt but he also knows someone else will be there to pick up the pieces- and in your case, most likely will be Jace." She stops for a few minutes to let me process all of this new information.

She has to be kidding. Right? Jace could not be in love with me. Let alone anyone. Yes, he kissed me but that didn't mean he loved me. I knew that he wanted to see Si and me but couldn't. We had told each other that we loved each other before- Si, Jace, and me- but I thought it was only our friendship not anything more. Si was only joking about all of that stuff about Jace liking me. Iz had to be wrong about that. I put it out of my mind.

"Knock, knock." Came a voice at the door. Iz and I turned and saw that the boys were back. My eyes locked with the golden ones that I was so used to. I still didn't believe Iz about Jace falling in love with me, but I wasn't so sure about myself. I didn't really know how I saw him.