"Here is your pills, remember to swallow probably."

I take the small glass of pills and look at them, there are three in the little cup, one blue, one red and one white.

Better just to get over with it and swallow them, they always check if we swallowed them probably. So that is what I do.

Immediately one of the white-robed wards are by my side, forcing me to open my mouth so he can take a look.

The black-haired young man, with the funny hat and symbol on his t-shirt smirks as he takes the look. "Nice, you can go on." Law says.

Law is the new medical assistant, he helps with the pills and the different medication, he says it's just a student job right now as he aims to become a surgeon.

Law is pretty cool, he is a little older than me so he doesn't want to hang to much out, but some-times comes with a cool CD or movie for me and my friends to watch.

"Oh." Law stops me as I was on my way away. "I was supposed to remind you you have to go to the psychiatrist today."

I nod, and offer Law a smile and thumbs up, he as well nods, and goes back to the other patients.

Other people maybe dislike going to their psychiatrist and talking about their feelings, but I enjoy it, because I really like Robin.

Robin is one of those more relaxed kind psychiatrists, you never feel like you have to speak to much to her, she will even let you be silent, and just sit there with a quiet understanding.

And if you are extra sad or vulnerable that day, she will let you sit and hold Chopper, the stuffed toy reindeer with the nice hat on top of his head.

I really like that toy reindeer, he is warm and fluffy, some-times I just want to sit and hold him for-ever, then I don't have to speak.

"Bleh!" a voice sounds behind me, and I see a teen almost my own age, coming walking towards me with a wrinkled face-expression. "I hate those pills!" he speaks in a annoyed tone. He is a funny looking teen, tall and lanky, with dark-tanned skin, black curled hair and a peculiar long nose. "So disgusting." Usopp states as he wipes his mouth. "Why do I even need them?" he asks me annoyed, as if it is my fault that we all have to swallow pills.

I how-ever smile amused and answer him. "Maybe it's to make you less crazy!"

"Oi, Speak for yourself!" Usopp answers, but then he smiles, and then we both laugh.. until I grow silent, and a little sad again.

Usopp is my best friend, we always hang out together in here. Together we walk to the couch and turn on the TV to make them time pass until I have to go to the psychiatrist.

"Mm, it's just the weather." Usopp sighs deeply and is just about to change the channel, before some-one else stops him.

"Hey don't do that! I want to watch that!" A girl with long pink hair hisses.

Usopp rolls his eyes. "Perona, it's just the weather."

"And I want to know whether I can wear a dress or not when I get to visit my parents." Perona returns.

Usopp shrugs. "Well I guess it's just ten minutes."

I glance at the TV-screen and look at the weather girl, she has short orange hair and bright tight clothes.

She looks mischievous, and smiles playfully at the camera as she speaks. "So remember plenty of sun blocker, this is Nami Tendo, signing off."

Immediately Usopp changes the channel, only to end on a cook show.

I look with a lifted eye-brow on the screen, the cook on the screen sure looks funny as he stands there with his blond hair completely covering his left eye, his visible eye-brow being completely swirled and a cigarette sticking out of his mouth.

"Hey look!" Usopp grinned. "It's Sanji, the cook of our ship!" he exclaims.

"You know that ship isn't real right?" I ask a little tired of this ongoing debate.

Usopp how-ever snorts. "So what if it isn't? I like our crew, which reminds me." He changes the channel again, to where our favourite action adventure show has just begun. "OUR FIRST MATE!" Usopp proclaims in a happy voice.

I look at the show title. "Pirate Hunter Zoro."

The show of the coolest hero in the world, the swordsman zoro, whom hunts down pirates and fights for justice. Never breaking as much as a sweat as he do it.

"You do realise he is a pirate hunter, the opposite of a pirate, right?" I ask Usopp.

"I sure hope you stop being such a downer soon." Usopp asks annoyed of me with crossed arms. "I told you, one day we are going to break out of here, and we'll be real pirates! I'll be a great sniper like my dad, and you'll be the one person in the world with most freedom, the pirate king. Just as you always say."

I exhale a little annoyed, refraining from reminding Usopp that no one knows where his father is, that his father simply left Usopp and his mother when Usopp was just a baby. All Usopp over said about his father, he had made up. Just like every-thing else around him, to cope with the lose of his mother and years of living alone on the streets as a mere child and teenager.

That was what Crocodile said any-way, the leader of this institution, he always reminds us that there is a real world out-side of these worlds, but we cannot see it before we get better.

Some people do get better though, like Coby, he was my first friend here, or so Crocodile tells me, he was the one whom introduced me to the "Pirate Hunter Zoro." TV-show, which I later introduced to Usopp when he came a little after me.

But Coby left to go home to his family pretty quick, he still some-times comes visiting.

"By the way, look what I drew!" Usopp grins as he holds up a piece of paper, on it was a funny looking blue-haired man, with sunglasses and wearing nothing but Speedos and a hawaian shirt.

I crook and eye brow. "Well, he's.." I try to say.

"HE'S A CYBORG!" Usopp exclaims. "You can see that on his big over arms, look! And he runs on cola!" he tells in a excited voice. "He is the one whom is going to build our ship!" he gladly tells. "The greatest ship in the entire world!"

"Thousand Sunny." I whisper.

"Ooooh!" Usopp exclaims. "What a great name!"

I smile, and then I sigh. "I'm sorry Usopp, I have to go and see Robin." I tell.

"Sure." Usopp shrugs as he turns back to the television show, his eyes glued to the screen as the Pirate Hunter Zoro, chops himself through a new horde of pirates.

Normally I would cheer and yell with Usopp, and have fun.. but I am not just up to it today.

It took a while, but there is some-thing I have finally accepted, and it's breaking my heart.

Slowly I walk to Robins office and softly knocks on the door.

"Come in." Robins soft voice sounds from the other side.

And I slowly step inside, her office is as calm and quiet as ever, her wall filled with books.

Immediately my eyes falls on Chopper whom is on the couch, and I bite my lip.

Robin smiles a little amused. "Go say hey to Chopper." She finally invites.

"Doctor Chopper." I correct her as I finally sit down on the couch, and pull Chopper down with me, to where he can sit on my lap.

"Oh?" Robin asks with a lifted eye-brow. "You say he is the doctor on that ship of yours, isn't that right?" she does not sound mocking, more she sounds honestly interested in the answer, Robin is great that way, she never gets angry, just listens and nods, then asks a little more, and listen for as long as you speak, without interupting.

I sigh deeply. "That's what Usopp wants to think.." I hesitate slightly.

"And you?" Robin asks.

I finger with the stuffed reindeer on my lap. "He is just a stuffed animal." I tell. "Pirate hunter Zoro is just a television show, you are my doctor, and Usopp is as nuts as I am." I tell as I look up, meeting Robins icy blue eyes.

Robin nods. "I can see you are making the progress this facility wants you to make." She smiles lightly. "Luffy."