If I cannot have your heart.

Chapter one.

Starfire sat on the roof of Titan Tower, as often she did, her arms wrapped around her knees and her chin resting on them. She sighed and watched as the night faded in and the day faded away. A small breeze tugged at her hair, and she relished in the refreshing feeling it gave her.

I'm sorry Starfire… It was a mistake.

The words played over in her head, and stung her heart. She hugged her knees tighter as if trying to escape it. The Teen Titans had not been back from Tokyo for much more than a week and everybody was happy of their victory. Plus the hospitality of the Japanese people was something that the teenagers would never forget. Starfire thought that everything was going so well! Robin had kissed her. And she couldn't have been happier. She had waited so long for something 'more' to happen between the two, and finally it had. he had taken some convincing, but he had kissed her, and they had finally embarked upon 'the relationship'. That was, until this very day. Starfire had been on the roof for some hours now, saddened by Robin's words.

I shouldn't have led you on. I got caught up in our victory, but I stand by what I said, and I cannot, under any circumstances, be in a relationship.

Robin. He was all Starfire could think about. Though she did not want to. She wanted nothing more than his words to leave her mind, and the harsh look on his face to be erased from her memory. For him to take it all back. But she knew he wouldn't. Despite their kiss. Despite the emotion she thought they shared. She knew that Robin would not go back. He wouldn't listen to her. He only listened to the voice in his head, telling him that it was a bad idea. Telling him that it wasn't right. That it was a mistake. Though Starfire doubted that the voice in Robin's head was his own, but rather that of The Batman telling him these things. But that was beside the point. no matter who's words they were, Robin was the one who had said them to her.

You're my best friend Star… you've always known that. But that is all we can be. I can't be Robin the hero, and Robin the boyfriend. It wouldn't work. It can't work. I didn't mean for this to happen, but i can't do it. And if I'm totally honest, neither should you. Hero's are what we are. All we are. I hope you can forgive me.

But she was not so sure. She remembered what he said back atop that building in Tokyo. That he was a hero, so he didn't have time for a relationship, and if she didn't like it… well, she didn't. But what could she do? It was Robin's wish that she keep their 'relationship' strictly professional from now on, and that she should see him only as her leader and her friend.

"Um… Star?" Beast Boy placed a hand on her shoulder, and she turned up to see him. His face was almost scared, he was unsure how to act.

"It is okay Beast Boy, I will be all right. You do not need to be so afraid. I shall not raise my voice at you, as I know you have come as a friend." She watched him relax, and a small smile met her eyes.

"I'm glad to hear that Star. Cyborg wanted to know if you were gonna come down for dinner?"

Starfire stared back at the almost set sun and sighed again. "I am not very hungry. Thank friend Cyborg for me, but I wish to partake in a flight across the city. I do not think I should be very long, but please take this for me," she took her communicator and handed it to the green boy, "I do not wished to be disturbed."

Beast Boy was unsure, he knew Robin would be against it, but he knew that Starfire was upset, and he didn't wish to upset her further. He nodded at the girl and moved towards the door to go back inside before Starfire caught his attention again. "Beast Boy?"

"Yeah Star?"

"If Robin has something to say about me being out alone in the city, with no way of communicating with any one, as I know he will, please tell him that I believe I will be fine. If he can face the hardships of life on his own, then I am certain I will be able to face a simple flight alone." And she took off into the sky, heading towards the city.

Beast Boy watched her leave, before heading back down to the kitchen area, where Cyborg was preparing to start dinner, and Raven was sat on the sofa in the living room area reading. He placed Starfire's communicator on the coffee table in front of the television, before going and sitting on a stool opposite Cyborg. "She's gone for a fly round the city, said she doesn't want to eat. Do you think she'll be okay?"

Cyborg looked sadly at his green friend. "I don't know, probably, because that's Starfire's nature. She'll pretend to be alright even if she isn't. It's Robin I'm worrying about. He's mad because he thought that Starfire would understand that he was trying to protect her."

Silence filled the room, and Cyborg went back to cooking. Beast Boy decided he was going to sit and mope and watch Cyborg cook. It was some time before Robin showed his face. No one turned to him when he entered; he looked sceptically at them, but shrugged it off. He was not in the mood.

"Dinner will be five minutes." Cyborg smiled at him and Robin returned it with a weak one. He meandered over to the sofa and plopped himself down sighing. Inside, he was glad Starfire wasn't in here. He didn't think it was safe to talk to her yet. He knew he'd upset her, but he also knew he might shout at her if she asked him one more time if he would reconsider. He couldn't. Of course he couldnt. She knew that, but she was being sutbborn Starfire as usual. Robin was brought out of his thoughts by Cyborg telling him to go over to the table. Homemade pizza! Cyborg's specialty and favourite. After ten minutes, he realised that Starfire hadn't arrived. He was reluctant to ask, but he did despite himself.

"Um, where's Starfire?" He looked around at his friends who neglected to meet his gaze. He noticed Beast Boy was fidgeting, the way he did when he couldn't keep his mouth shut, but knew he had to. Robin stared him out.

"She went to fly for a while!" Beast Boy shouted under the pressure. Robin sighed and glanced at the window. It was dark out now, and getting close to winter. He pulled his communicator off of his belt. She might not answer him, but it was worth a try. He clicked her name… and then he heard it. The beeping coming from behind him. Getting up, he walked over to the coffee table, and picked up the flashing communicator. He shot a death glare at Beast Boy who sunk into himself to try and get away.

"Beast Boy!" Robin growled at him, and before he had the chance to say anything else Beast Boy began talking.

"She said that if you could face life on your own, then she would be okay on a simple flight alone. Her words not mine! Please don't hurt me!" He shot behind Raven, who rolled her eyes at the green boy.

"Why did you let her go?!"

"Robin!" Raven got out of her seat and walked toward him. "This isn't his fault. You know he can't stand it when people are upset, and he probably just wanted to give her what she asked of him. I think it would be best for the two of you to not be cooped up here together, and get your heads around what happened. She's a strong girl; she can take care of herself." Raven reached him, and took Starfire's communicator out of his hand. He just stared at her, and then looked out to the city through the window.

"I hope so, I'd hate for her to get hurt because of me… again."

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Starfire managed to reach the city before the tears started. As they continued, she found it hard to keep her altitude and ended up touching down in the middle of the park. She fell to her knees and wiped her arm across her face to rid herself of the offending tears. Looking up, she realised that no one was around, not that she would have expected many or any people to be out when it had gotten so dark. Starfire picked herself up from the floor, and walked over to a swing set. She sat on the small seat, and gently pushed herself into a soothing rocking motion. She wasn't really thinking, wasn't really listening. She just sighed every now and then, and pushed herself when the light momentum ceased.

Then she was pushed. There was no breeze strong enough to move her and the swing, and she was certain that she hadn't pushed herself. But she found herself panicking and grabbing onto the chain for support as the swing moved forward fast. Starfire slammed her feet into the ground and lifted herself from the swing, turning to face the trees, starbolt at the ready. "Is there anyone there?" she got no reply. Only the trees rustling as they moved against each other. She made the decision to move towards the trees. Carefully. Cautiously. Her starbolt illuminated the branches, giving them an eerie look. She would be lying if she said she was not just a little bit afraid.

"Perhaps I was just imagining that there was someone." Starfire killed her starbolt, and made her way back to the swing set. She ran her hand along the bar as she passed it and made her way towards the fountain. Her reflection stared back at her and she looked at herself. Her eyes were a little red. But that was to be expected from her crying. Starfire sighed again for what must have been the hundredth time that night. She looked up to the stars, watching them blink. She tried. She tried so hard. But her trouble with Robin had clouded her mind. She could not find the joy in her to fly. Not matter what she thought of, Robin was in the back of her mind. Robin was making it so she could not fly.

"Oh Robin, why must you do this?" Tears threatened her eyes again and she sat down on the edge of the fountain. They fell again, she could not stop them. "Perhaps I should just let Robin be a hero. It is clear that his heart belongs to the helping of others and so can never belong to me."

She heard the footsteps this time. Loud and clear. They were heavy and stopped in front of her so she could see the front of the offending shoes. She followed up from them to the face of her intruder. Her hands found her mouth as she gasped and he eyes widened.

"Hello my dear."

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