DISCLAIMER: SM OWNS ALL EXCEPT THE PLOT
A/N: Hey guys! New E/L story that I am extremely excited about. So excited that I might have missed a few grammarish things, so forgive me. No flames please and as always Read & Review!
PROLOUGE
The universe hates me. I'm serious. I am the universes bitch, literally. I mean what other excuse do I have! My boyfriend dumps me because he has some sort of epiphany that he is meant to be with my cousin! And then my blessed family gene decides to kick in turning me into a massive dog—I'm sorry, I hear the polite term is werewolf. But beyond that, the universe furthered my punishment and fated me to be with the one person that is unavailable. The one person that I couldn't even be with if I tried, and they wouldn't even want me to try. Yes, that's right. I imprinted on Edward Cullen, and he is so far up Bella Swans ass that he couldn't see the light of day if it slapped him in the face.
CHAPTER 1
There are certain feelings in life that I will never forget. I will never forget falling in love with Sam. It was one of the happiest times of my life, and yet I will never forget when he told me that he was in love with Emily. However, I reckon that the feeling of your heart being ripped out is altogether unforgettable. The first time I saw them together I literally ran into the woods and cried so hard that I vomited.
I'll never forget the feeling of empowerment as I promised myself I would never again feel that way, or fall in love again. Shortly afterwards, I fought with my mother and burst into a furry dog. Literal power running through your veins is the best form of adrenaline.
However, the one thing that I will keep with me forever is when I first laid eyes on Edward Cullen and felt my body give itself away, and the strings of my soul tie themselves to him. I'll never forget the rejection I felt when I saw the horror written on his face, or how I somehow just knew that he immediately thought of Bella Swan.
That was two weeks ago and I had gone through that period refusing to phase, claiming that I was sick. And I was. I could feel my body becoming weak, the wolf needing her imprint close by.
I wonder if he feels this?
Probably not, he loves Bella.
Fire flashed through my veins causing me to break out into a sweat. I groaned out loud as I fought the urge to phase. I knew that if I gave in, not only would my pack know the secret that I had been burying, my wolf would run straight to Ed- him.
"Leah" my mother called softly through my shut door. "Leah, are you awake?"
I didn't answer her, which only fueled her curiosity as she softly opened the door. She took one good look at me and her motherly instinct took over.
"What's wrong baby?" she asked brushing my short hair from my face.
I shook my head afraid to open my mouth knowing that everything would come spilling out.
"You can tell me anything. You have cooped up in this room for days, not phasing or eating. I'm worried… and so is Sam. He's downstairs and he wants to talk to you…"
"I can't, I have to leave" I said thinking about an escape route.
"He's trying his best to resist the alpha command, but if you don't speak to him…"
"It's going to be bad either way Mom."
"Then tell me, he can hear you from here. If you just say it, if you just let it out, then maybe-
"Nothing good will come from what I have to say" I roared at her feeling my joints beginning to burn. I was about to phase, inside my room, and there was nothing anyone could do about it.
I could hear Sam running down the hall and he appeared at the door and grabbed my mother before she could receive the same fate as Emily.
Heat flashed through my body and in a spilt second I felt my paws hit the ground. I couldn't stop the thoughts that ran through my head. The imprint, the rejection, all flashed at blinding speeds letting anyone on patrol know what was burdening me. I ran out of the house and shot into the forest running as far away from the Reservation and Forks I could get.
I followed a familiar path long enough to grab some cloths from a nearby tree. I held them in my mouth, turning into a different direction hoping to spread my scent so that I couldn't be followed.
The further I ran the tighter a cord in my body became. I knew it was the force of the imprint trying to pull me back, and I refused to let it work.
Imprinting on a leech… is that even possible? Jacob thought as he changed his route trying to find me.
Her clothes are gone… damn her scent is everywhere.
Leah! You can't run! Jacob shouted at me.
Someone get Sam!
Panic went through my body and I tried to do what Sam once taught Jacob and cut my thoughts off to everyone.
No, Leah don't-
I pushed myself to run faster, the trees turning into a blur as I ran over the county line heading to Port Angeles. The sole thought in my head was to get as far away as I could, but I knew that I wouldn't last more than a couple of hours at this pace. If only I could get out of Washington…
I realized the exact location of the cord was on my heart, as the pain it was enacting became almost unbearable.
I'm too far from him.
Maybe that was a good thing. My breath was coming out in short gasps and I knew that I needed to stop soon. No one had ever been rejected by his or her imprint, so we didn't know what would happen, but I had a feeling that I knew exactly what was coming.
As I phased back I fell onto my hands and knees panting with the excruciating need to run back home, back to him. But I couldn't give in; maybe I could break this thing by making the wolf live with pain. I was used to that, right?
It will become a dull ache. I thought trying to convince myself that I would live through this; I would learn to live without him.
I barely pulled on the old sundress I stashed away in the forest. Being tucked away under some brush thinned it and weak sunlight had dulled its color, but it covered my nakedness and it was all I needed. I crawled towards a tree and tucked myself into its trunk.
Silence covered the forest. It was as if it knew that there was some predator hiding in its home. Nothing moved it was a still silence and one of the loneliest nights of my life. I sat for what seemed like hours, not sleeping, not thinking. Just sitting, starring out into the forest in front of me as the sun left its hidden home in the clouds and the moon rose to shine down on me. I used to look up at the moon and feel such hope, now all I had was despair.
A branch snapped about ten feet in front of me, causing me to spring to my feet. I craned my neck, sniffing the air and peeking my tongue out to taste the atmosphere around me. There was something out there and it was watching me. It wasn't human, and it certainly wasn't anyone in my pack.
Was it the red-haired vampire?
As thoughts flashed through my head, I realized the ache had vanished from my body. The form moved from behind the tree and I felt relief soften my bones as I stared at Edward walking towards me.
I didn't dare open my mouth or move as he stopped in front of me. If I just moved my hand, I could touch him. My fingers twitched at the thought.
Fight it.
"I got a call from Sam today." He said shoving his hands in his pockets. He didn't make eye contact with me; in fact he looked beyond me, like I wasn't even there.
He can't even look at you.
"Said you had run off. They've been looking for you for hours, but your scent was scattered and you cut them off, almost as if you didn't want to be found."
I didn't.
"Look… I know that this is hard for you-
Hard?! Try fucking unbearable.
His eyes snapped to mine binding me in place with the hardness in them.
"Fucking unbearable! Do you have any idea what I've been going through? Do you think you're the only one suffering?" He seethed at me.
"We are suffering for two complete different reasons! I'm sorry that I put a crack into your golden life, but there's nothing I can do about that now!"
"I can't be what you want me to be…
Oh God, this is it…
"But I can offer my friendship."
What?
"I feel that pull. It's dull when I'm in Forks and you're in La Push, it's there, bearable. But today, I knew something was wrong before Sam even called."
He paused and kicked the dirt at his feet.
"It felt like I got the wind knocked out of me." He patted his chest and laughed a little. "I hadn't felt like that in so long. I thought I was dying… Bella freaked out."
I winced when he said her name.
"Sorry" he murmured noticing that I was uncomfortable. "I guess what I'm trying to say is that you can't just run off like that again. If I understand correctly, you will be to me what I need you to be?"
I nodded hanging onto his every word.
"I don't have many friends, would you be okay with being my friend?"
"I'll be anything you want me to be." I said before I could stop myself.
Note: This is a literal work in progress. I usually am several chapters ahead, but in this case I just have an outline and what the Leah in my head tells me to write. She's so damn controlling!
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