One of Many
I can see it in your eyes The very thing that I despise
I know I'm one of many. I've always know. I wasn't the first to warm your bed and I won't be the last. You know no love and you can give none. I used to think I knew your secrets but I guess I wasn't too smart because no one would ever know your secrets except yourself. You tend to hide. Away in a shell. Once you've gone I can never reach you. Sometimes I can't bear the thought of you not returning my love but I know I must only take what you can give for giving for you is a high price. You say that emotions are weakness, but it's not true. Emotions drive you. They make you stronger, they make you burn. You told me once that I wasn't the one that can satisfy you and you were right. Nothing will ever satisfy you ever. You said that there was only one person that could but can she truely satisfy your wish for revenge? Will the fire of rage that burns deep within you be distinguished? For that fire is all that remains of your soul. Don't let it die. I'm pleadng, I know you can't see though, you've always been blinded even when you think your vision is so clear. That fire. That fire I love. For in that fire contains everything I've ever wanted and lusted for. I can normally bend people to my will. I don't deny I'm a manipulative bitch. But you were the first to see through it. You were the one that saw that I held power and that I was trying to bend you. And you recoiled, while you were coiling in wait like a snake would waiting for the right moment to strike you didn't know your poisionus venom had hit me already. That I could feel the weavings of the deadly desease insnaring me in its trap. Aishiteru.........it's such a feeble word. To think someone could try to cut down such a powerful emotion into such a small word. Its almost ludicrous, I could laugh. Looking into your eyes I can see you now, the true you, the one that's frightened.
Don't try to hide it Don't deny it Admit, you love me just a bit
I'm not going to cry. I saved you. My services are done and due. My debts are repaid. I know you won't weep. You don't have the tears. Not for me, not for the world, not for yourself. You forgot how to cry long ago. I remember when I saw you. So beautiful to me then. An Angel, resuing me from a certain death at the hands of a man I'd suffered by long enough. Then we crossed paths again and I knew there was a destined path we must take together. This is it and as I've always known its hard and difficult and demanding. You're really fragile I see that now. You utter my name into my hair as if it were a prayer. I'm dying Nakago. You've seen death for as long as you've been alive and it was something you never deserved. You deal out death as well as recieve and I'm just a ploy in the bargin of the gods. I know that its the ones who seem strongest that are truely the weakest. That's something I've known since they made me work at that god awful place. I never resented my parents for selling me. I've never met them to hate. I don't hate you for not having the ability to love me. These things are no fault of your own. The sword cuts deeper and I can feel death creeping up on me like a cold wraith. Perhaps I'll bypass hell. Maybe I'll be lifted off to the fields of the heroes though I am no saint. At least I die safe in the knowledge that I am Soi and I die proudly for this love that is not returned. For I have accomplished something that no one else will. Though I may be one of many, I'll be the one you won't forget. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Was it good? Review me kudasai! Arigato. Sayanora
I can see it in your eyes The very thing that I despise
I know I'm one of many. I've always know. I wasn't the first to warm your bed and I won't be the last. You know no love and you can give none. I used to think I knew your secrets but I guess I wasn't too smart because no one would ever know your secrets except yourself. You tend to hide. Away in a shell. Once you've gone I can never reach you. Sometimes I can't bear the thought of you not returning my love but I know I must only take what you can give for giving for you is a high price. You say that emotions are weakness, but it's not true. Emotions drive you. They make you stronger, they make you burn. You told me once that I wasn't the one that can satisfy you and you were right. Nothing will ever satisfy you ever. You said that there was only one person that could but can she truely satisfy your wish for revenge? Will the fire of rage that burns deep within you be distinguished? For that fire is all that remains of your soul. Don't let it die. I'm pleadng, I know you can't see though, you've always been blinded even when you think your vision is so clear. That fire. That fire I love. For in that fire contains everything I've ever wanted and lusted for. I can normally bend people to my will. I don't deny I'm a manipulative bitch. But you were the first to see through it. You were the one that saw that I held power and that I was trying to bend you. And you recoiled, while you were coiling in wait like a snake would waiting for the right moment to strike you didn't know your poisionus venom had hit me already. That I could feel the weavings of the deadly desease insnaring me in its trap. Aishiteru.........it's such a feeble word. To think someone could try to cut down such a powerful emotion into such a small word. Its almost ludicrous, I could laugh. Looking into your eyes I can see you now, the true you, the one that's frightened.
Don't try to hide it Don't deny it Admit, you love me just a bit
I'm not going to cry. I saved you. My services are done and due. My debts are repaid. I know you won't weep. You don't have the tears. Not for me, not for the world, not for yourself. You forgot how to cry long ago. I remember when I saw you. So beautiful to me then. An Angel, resuing me from a certain death at the hands of a man I'd suffered by long enough. Then we crossed paths again and I knew there was a destined path we must take together. This is it and as I've always known its hard and difficult and demanding. You're really fragile I see that now. You utter my name into my hair as if it were a prayer. I'm dying Nakago. You've seen death for as long as you've been alive and it was something you never deserved. You deal out death as well as recieve and I'm just a ploy in the bargin of the gods. I know that its the ones who seem strongest that are truely the weakest. That's something I've known since they made me work at that god awful place. I never resented my parents for selling me. I've never met them to hate. I don't hate you for not having the ability to love me. These things are no fault of your own. The sword cuts deeper and I can feel death creeping up on me like a cold wraith. Perhaps I'll bypass hell. Maybe I'll be lifted off to the fields of the heroes though I am no saint. At least I die safe in the knowledge that I am Soi and I die proudly for this love that is not returned. For I have accomplished something that no one else will. Though I may be one of many, I'll be the one you won't forget. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Was it good? Review me kudasai! Arigato. Sayanora