The Choices we make

Chapter 11: Emotions

A/N: Hey all, thanks for all the reviews having relooked at the chapter, I see some sneaky grammar errors T_T so ashamed, glad there are people who have good processing skills :p having read some of your reviews I thought about them how it seems to be goofy and a bit slow.

Now there will be a point where rain will be involved so I want you to listen to Rain by shadowlink from full metal alchemist brotherhood, trust me it'll work...

I'll let you know a secret, I don't want this story to be fast paced I pull it back to slow it down because its part of my plan, we all know I have poor grammar skills. you may not like this story but this is a fanfic...

By Order of the Writer, a BETA reader is needed to check and correct grammar, if you have the time and want a sneak peak into the next chapter send me a message, I tried the forums but nothing...

Ok now that I have that out of the way on to the chapter, like always Enjoy and review.

Thoughts

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"When you cry your hearts got a nose bleed..."

As the days went by the late summer turned into a gloomy autumn, Harry was becoming on edge without his memories to guide him he had no idea what was coming next. As he walked to his next class with Hermione and Neville, he began to think about what could come and the more he thought the more in pain he became.

Clutching his head in pain he fell to the ground, his friends turned around and rushed over to him, Hermione looked at Harry with worry in her eyes and as they looked at each other everything seemed to shift aside like they were in their own world.

"You ok Harry?" Spoke Hermione who's hand was stretched up to help him up.

Taking the hand he got himself off the floor, giving them a small smile he continued down the hall, as they continued to walk Hermione and Neville chatted away. But for Harry he mind was still racing.

"When she looked at me back then it was like, she knew what I was going through"

As he looked at his friends, he smiled when he saw them laughing unaware to him looking at them. turning back to the corridor he opened the door and allowed them through and as they walked down the stairs to get to the great hall, Harry continued his musing.

"What if the memories I gain back just cause me pain? would it change me? No it wouldn't for its our choices in life that make us who we are"

Shaking his head free of the thoughts he began to engage in the conversation that they were having, the thoughts of the past or in this case the future were gone for this moment.

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Elsewhere in the castle Dumbledore was talking to one Ronald Weasley and he did not look pleased.

"Mr Weasley have you gotten closer to Mr Potter?"

"No Sir, He wont even speak to me, if he doesn't want to talk to me then I'll just leave him alone..."

Suddenly he was hit by a confundus charm and Dumbledore moved round his desk and snarled.

"you will get close to Potter, if you need to get rid of the girl"

"Yes sir" spoke a robotic Ronald Weasley.

As Ronald Weasley left the office, Dumbledore leaned back in his chair, thinking on how he could kill the girl. Then it came to him, he knew his defence against the dark arts professor had a part of Voldemort or Tom Riddle at the back of his head after all who would wear that stupid turbine.

Smirking he started to write a note off to his professor and as he was writing the note he thought a powerful confundus charm would do the trick... he would use him to get a troll into the school.

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As the day progressed, the thoughts from earlier left Harry and he began to try and focus but his thoughts fell upon the book that the creator gave him, classes had finished for the day and there was still time before he had to go down for the feast, Harry parted ways with his friends and headed for the library his curiosity was starting to get to big he needed to know what the book was about.

Reaching the library he took out the book and sat down and looked at it was written in Japanese, he had seen writing as this somewhere before but couldn't remember. Frowning Harry looked around the large and silent room was there a book on learning other languages.

As Harry flipped through the book, he saw a strange diagram of a circle with other lines going different directions, he sighed and closed the book and muttered;

"It's a shame I can't read this, guess I'll be spending my time in here trying to find a way to learn Japanese"

Going over to the book shelves he began to look for a book on learning Japanese, Madam Prince the librarian came over and asked Harry what he was looking for;

"Is there something I can help you with Mr Potter?"

Looking at the title of the book he was holding Harry sighed and placed the book back and turned to the librarian and gave a small smile and spoke in a quiet voice;

"I'm looking for a book on languages"

Madame Prince raised an eyebrow, she'd thought the young Potter would be like his father but he seemed to have gotten a love for books like his mother, giving him a small smile she asked:

"Any particular language? French? Italian? Spanish?"

"Well those would be good but do you have anything on Japanese?"

Madame Prince thought for a moment and gave him a sad smile and softly spoke;

"unfortunately I have not seen such a book on Japanese, its not a language people look for really, maybe it is here, if not the only place that will sell them is the muggle world."

Thanking the librarian he picked up his book and placed it back in his bag and swung it over his shoulder, looking up at the clock he saw it was getting late but what really caught his eye was the date.

There on the wall the calendar read October 30th, tomorrow would be the day his parents had died, sighing he left the library and headed for dinner, he had a bad feeling about the next day, he'd have to keep his guard up.

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The next morning, Harry was rudely woken up by Hedwig by having her talons stick into him, he jolted upwards and relaxed when he saw her on the edge of his bed.

"Morning girl, your up early?"

The Owl in question just merely stared at Harry and flew off, shaking his head at his owl's antics he looked around the dorm all of the curtains around his dorm mates beds were closed. Harry Figured it was most like still early in the morning.

Moving from his bed to get up for the day Harry remembered what day it was and he sat on the edge of his bed and dropped his head, just as he felt himself welling up a pita pata sound was heard. Turning to the window he saw it was raining, quickly getting dressed he grabbed his satchel and ran out of his dorm as the emotions he was starting to feel were becoming to much.

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Unknown to Harry, Neville had awoken and had seen Harry begin to tear up, concern rushed over Neville as he saw his friend deal with emotions, suddenly he realised what day it was and he to began to began to felt tears in his eyes, as he heard his friend rush out of the dorm Neville put his head back on his pillow as the sound of the rain got heavier and he softly began to cry as he too remembered what had happened to his parents and to Harry's

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As Harry approached the courtyard doors, his eyes were nearly bloodshot, placing his satchel by the door to keep it from getting wet his walked into the rain and looked up at the grey sky, he closed his eyes and let the tears begin to fall.

As Harry stood in the rain, the tears began to fall even quicker as he thought:

"All these memories, locked away, I can't even remember my parents..."

The rain continues to fall, Harry opened his eyes and moved his vision from the sky to the floor his face was as he tried to remember his childhood but alas he couldn't remember.

"Why... can't you just let me have this one thing" muttered Harry.

Harry had soon dropped to his knees in the rain, as he began to think why did it choose him he had no were to go as he couldn't remember his family, even if the creator said a few months it was far to long of a wait.

As Harry was so lost in his own thoughts that he failed to notice someone walk towards him, suddenly Harry couldn't feel the rain anymore looking up he saw Hermione in front of him with an umbrella over them.

Hermione had a small sad smile on her face and had her hand out towards him, as Harry looked at her time seemed to slow down, taking her hand Harry pulled himself up, he gave her a small smile and looked to the floor.

Hermione only moved in closer and embraced him.

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Minutes earlier

As Harry rushed out of tower, he failed to notice Hermione who was reading on the cough, the young scholar on said couch didn't fail to notice the emotion in Harry's eyes, looking out the window, Hermione realised what Harry was going to do.

Placing her bookmark in the book she was reading she, went up to her dorm and grabbed her coat and the umbrella that was by her bed, she began to follow Harry.

Hermione had followed Harry to the courtyard and her suspicions were confirmed there in the rain was Harry, allowing the rain to take his tears.

Giving a sad smile, she had read books on Harry Potter and she knew what day it was, as she stood by the door unaware to Harry, Hermione knew that he needed this he always seemed to be closely guarded like he was holding a secret, it was the first time she had seen Harry this emotional.

Deciding to make her presence known, Hermione walked quietly into the courtyard, putting a sad smile on her face she released the umbrella from its hold and opened it up.

Walking towards him, Hermione kept thinking of things to say to Harry, after all its not everyday Harry Potter breaks down, as Hermione continued to walk toward him, he had still hadn't noticed her presence.

Stopping in front of him, Harry had finally noticed her presence and was now looking at her, Hermione gave him a sad smile and offered her hand to him.

Harry seemed to be lost in thought for a moment before he took her hand and pulled himself up and gave her a small smile before looking toward the stone ground of the courtyard.

Hermione just moved in closer and embraced him, showing him that he was not alone and that he would never be alone again.

It was a blissful moment shared between the two of them and with no one else around it made it even more special. Looking into his eyes Hermione pulled him towards the castle.

It felt like their friendship was even stronger now...

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A/N: chapter completed :O I think I did well for this chapter :p please do review and subscribe.

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