Bodkin was flying out side the ship. She was in her alt mode and have no problem keeping speed. There is funny thing in space. You only need to get a speed and nothing will slow you down. She love it.

It was hard to stay in Interceptor. Kilowog was heartbroken after living his love on that last planet and Cybetronian really feel for him. But this was very unhealthy for her own broken spark. If she stay near him her spark could reach to him in a weak mental link and that mean a LOT of pain... She was't sure she was able take it. Some time she envy a flash-made. Having a heart that only pomp a blood and only mind that really holds all feelings... and the ability to weep...

She ship changed course. She follow. There was something in space... like half visible jelly... and Interceptor was flying right in to it!

' Guys! Theres is thing on the course! ' She coled on the comlink.

There was no answer.

' Really! Is big, ugly and you are going to crash in to it! ' Still no one seems to hear her.

That was enough. She fly to front window to hit it and warn Lanterns on board. Then the pain in her chest attacked with so much force that make her transform in half. Her leg was still a tail of a jet but her hands and head was out. She curled up and moaned in pain. She feel like her spark was going to jump out of her body...

The Interceptor hit the creature. It have a tentacles and a mouth big with a nasty looking sharp teeth. Monster hold the ship in deadly grip. Bodkin saw Lanterns flying outside and try to chase it away.

The pain didn't let go or loosened. But she know they need her help. Transforming was a agony. Again as a jet she turn her thrusters at maximum power. This is was going to hurt...

She crashed in to the side of a creature. The hit was enough to make it let go of Kilowog. Bodkin bounced of the jelly monster. Part of her front was bent in a strange direction. She could feel a few riped cables and a energon leak. Noting really serious but painful. On the bride side her spark stopped acting up... or one pain defeated the other. Funny...

Someone stared to pull her towards the vessel. Only now she realize she was floating motionless. She had a red lasso around her tail... Red?

' Raz... Razor? ' She asked completely surprised.

' Aya asked me to ' He said cutting of the conversation.

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The repairs didn't take long, and thank Primus for that. Bodking was still hurting and the two Star Sapphire, Gi'ata and Aga'po played it on the nerves. The younger one glue himself to Jordan and the other, was waking like ship was belonging to her. Imaging Razor in a pink Star Sapphire outfit helped a little, but the womans was annoying as hell. And there is a little fact that make all situation worse. So coled "power of love" was the thing that make her spark go violent on her. So as long as they where around Bodkin was going to hurt.

They landed and all Interceptor crew was invited to the party. Razor declined which was not surprising.

' I'm with you there ' Bodkin said to Red Lantern.

' You? ' asked surprised Hal

' Yes, me. No go, have a nice time '

' Are you sure? It not really like you '

' And how log do you know me? Go have fun flesh-made '

Jordan and Kilowog left Gi'ata and Aga'po. Aya give a Cybetronian a long look.

' What? ' Bodkin asked.

' Bodkin, are all your repairs are complied? '

' Yes, why do you ask? '

Bodkin make a bad move. She wave her hand little to fast and pull arm little to far form her chest. That make her almost scream. She curled up and wait until she get the pain under control. Aya scan her immediately.

' There is no internal damage, all your systems are at normal ' A.I. said.

' I know sweetie, is just after shock, that's all ' Bodkin try smile.

Aya leaved her alone, but Razor stared to stare at her. And there is a traces of concern on his face... or maybe it was curiosity? Transformer wasn't able to tell.

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' So what now? We can't just go and ask "Hey, didn't you by accident didn't drug or knock out Kilowog?" ' Bodnikn asked after Aya have detected drop of pig like alien energy levels.

' Me and Aya will go find him ' Razer said.

' There is a little less "Bodkin" there then I like ' Cybertronian said.

' You are hurt, and you don't admit it. You are no use to as ' Red Lantern said.

' You little piece of...! ' Bodkin stared.

' We may need all the fire power that we have ' Aya said putting her hand on transformer arm. ' Bodkin is the fastest one. '

' Thanks sweetie ' Bodkin give a A.I. a smile.

' Every well, but keep close to me and don't you dare get in a line of fired ' said Razor.

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' I don't wish to harm you, but know that I will. Now stand aside! ' Red Lantern was pointing his power ring at Star Sapphire guard after they stopped them after leaving the ship.

' You social skill are amazing, Cliffjumper ' the voice of Bodkin was full of irony. ' Girls, we looking of our friend. Big, pink like your outfit, you see him anywhere? '

' Stop! ' That was the Queen Aga'po who just arrived at the perfect moment. ' They are the honored guests. Who rescue me so valiantly today.'

' Who save who now? ' Bodkin asked surprised.

' Now tell me what is bothering you? ' the queen ignored Cybetronian and try to touch Razor cheek.

He grab her hand and the gourd raised their spears at him.

' What have you done with Kilowog?! Where is he?! ' Razor growled at Aga'po.

' I do not know here he is at the moment, but I'm sure he come to no harm. Come, we well find your comrade to together '

' O dear Primus ' Bodkin said roiling her optics ' Aga'po what do you do when you don't seduce every man you see? '

' Kilowog's live signal is nearby. But his vital sings are to week to me to pint point ' Aya said.

' Robots you are not welcome ' queen said hard.

' But I must... ' Aya stared.

' We have now use to insensate machine! '

' WHO ARE YOU CALLING INSENSATE MACHINE?! ' Bodkin jumper forward feeling as her spark speed up it's beating giving her more pain.

Aga'po pointed her ring at her. Bodkin didn't step back. Eyes of Cybetronian spared with anger.

' Well... you are not like her ' Aga'po said.

' Flesh-made ' Bodking spit out.

' Bodkin is coming with me ' said Razor. ' Aya please stay '

As they leave with queen Bodking walk next to Red Lantern.

' Why me? ' she whispered to Razor.

' Aya will go find Kilowog, and I need you if the queen try anything ' he answered quietly.

' I thought you do not trust me '

' I don't... but less then her '

' Lucky me '

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With every step Bodkin feel like a knife twisting more and more inside her spark. There was a lot of love here... Selfish, cruel love. The one that only bring despair. She tripped at one moment and Razor put an arm around her.

' What do you feel? ' He asked.

' What? ' Bodkin was surprised.

' You can sens something, are you not? You keep away form Kiloword, and me. It got worse after we get here '

' It is... selfish... the jealous love ' She was surprised that she telling him all of that.

' Are yo alright, dear? Aga'po asked.

' She is ' Razor answered as Bodking stared to swear in old Cybetronian language. ' Drop the act, I know what you are doing in here! '

' What? ' Asked Queen.

Then the wall exploded in the green flash. It was Aya. The blast send Bodkin to the floor. She pressed one arm to the chest and pull the dagger with the other.

' They have imprisoned Kilowog! ' She said.

' That is the last part I need to know ' Razor said ' All that rambling about love... I should have know form beginning '

' Guards! ' the queen called.

The all hell brake lose. More and more Star Sapphire appeared and soon Bodkin landed on a floor ones more after one good hit. This time she didn't try to get up. Just curl up in agony. After more then the minute she open her eye to see that Aya was holed up by to guards and Razor was lock in pink crystal. Aga'po reviled that face of Aya was based after Razor lost love. And now Red Lantern was furious.

' You are an idiot, Cliffjumper ' She said weakly. ' That is not her face that you are angry with. Your true feeling was brought to light and now someone else know. Trust me I can feel that '

Then she jumped up and with one powerful kick she send Aga'po to the wall. That take all of her remaining strength, and she fallen for good.

' So, there will be no team up? ' Asked Hal who have just arrived with Kilowog.

' Take Bodkin, she is in no condition to fly ' Razor said after he was free form crystal.

Kilowog grabbed little transfomer and the took of to the ship.

But that was not end to trouble.

The half visible jelly monster was back and block their way. It tentacles Stared to squeeze them and Bodkin hollow like a wounded animal. And then.. it just let go.

Gi'ata the girl that was with Hal was holding monster back.

' Go Hal Jordan. Go while you can ' She said.

The others Star Sapphire opened fire at them. Kiloword saw his love between them. Galia was the one that trapped him... but still...

The groan of pain form Bodkin brought him back to reality. There was a wounded comrade and he needed to her her to safety.

' I'm sorry Galia ' he said and followed the others.

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' So... what is wrong with her? ' asked Hal.

Interceptor was no flying far away form Star Sapphire planet, and all of a crew gathered in the infirmary. Bodkin was laying on the side still under big pain.

' She have it for some time ' said Razor much to Jordan surprise. ' She is feeling pain around strong emotion, hers of the others '

' Ok... Aya? '

' Physically she fine, I believe the problem is in the thing she called "spark" ' the computer said. ' I am not able to relieve her pain to get her to tell as the true '

' Let me try something ' Razor said putting hand on Bodking head.

' First Bodkin is no longer and "it' and now you are helping her? What happed? ' Kilowog asked

' Quiet! I need to focus ' Red Lantern barked.

Razor could feel the little what Bodking was right now. Paint was only a part of it. It was loneness, despair and deep sadness. He didn't know how but it reached out to him. The feel it when she helped her after she crashed to the monster. The mental link. Maybe because deep in heart feels the same. He calmed his mind and get rid of all emotions. It took the moment but little Cybetronian stared to relax. She stooped clenching her fists and tension disappeared from her body.

' Nice move Cliffjumper ' Bodkin said opening one eye.

' Bodkin WHAT happen? No lays and haft trues now ' Hal said with serious voice.

Female said slowly and crossed her arms.

' Ever heard of "Broken Hart" syndrome? ' She asked.

' A what now? ' Kilowog asked

' A brain induces a state similar to a heart attack after the loss of a loved one ' Said Aya.

' That one. Well... we, Cybetronians are natural empaths and produce metal link to the ones that is close. Weaker if here is a friend, stronger for love, but it is not permanent. The one that is permanent are established in the weeding ceremony and of course between carrier, sire and sparkling '

' What that last three was? ' Asked Hal.

' Oh yes... mother, father and child. I have lost my creators - parents soon after i was born. But there was someone that take care of me. His name was Bluemax, a war veteran, good guy just little harsh. Kilowog reaming me of him '

The pink alien avoided the others look. He feel a surprised and embarrassed by this comparison.

' And spark can realty brake after link is shattered. My spark never heal after my parents, and when Bluemax leaved Cybetron, and went missing, my spark cracked. It reached to Aya because he is cybernetic, and to Razor and Kilowog, to their sadness after lost love. And it hurt. Hurt a lot. '

Bodkin let her arms drop. The par of her chest plate opened reveling a inside of full of moving parts and lines transferring violet substance. In the middle there was a blue ball of energy. It was bright and pulsing like a heart. But here was black stain, just like a crack.

' That is me, my spark my soul. It it extinguish, I die '

' What... what can we do to help? ' asked Hal. He was enchanted by this physical manifestations of consciousness.

' Ask Razor ' Bodki smiled.

' Keep calm around her ' said Red Lantern.

' And just some company form time to time ' Bodkin added . ' And I'm sorry '

' For what? ' Hal asked.

' To pull you in. From now on you are going to feel my emotions sometimes. And that come with all, pain and depression included. I.. I should never let this happen '

' It happens and now et least we know what we deal with. Next time tell as is something is wrong. We are at war and we need do know our weakness ' said Kilowog.

Bodkin smiled sadly. Oh yes he was like Bluemax. She was feeling this worry and it bring comfort. Maybe... just maybe the pain will go away. Now when she have friend that will help her.

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