I threw my arms up. Because believe me, I didn't know what the fuck I was doing. I just felt some feelings for a dude that I shouldn't have. It's no big deal, we all go through it at some point. I rolled my eyes finally and shook my head at the sky. "It's whatever man." I said to myself, "Did you get in trouble for something?" Evra appeared beside me, scratching at his shedding skin. "That's gross," I said pointing to it, he flipped my off and we both laughed, "I got more of a warning than a write up." I said as I nudged him. "Let's go start a fire or something." I said as I just wanted to clear my mind from all this chaos. We fed the little people and dicked around the camp before we found a good place for a fire. We got some wood and leaves and I sparked it up.
We sat in silence for a while. "What happened while you were gone?" Evra asked lightly, as if not to 'trigger' me. I looked up at the sky and my lips wrinkled, "Really? I lost myself, in my opinion." I said chuckling and looking at the fire and then up at evra. "I lost who I was because I lusted after someone I knew I shouldn't." I shrugged, "I mean at least I'm willing to admit my fault and I guess one day I'll be ready to fix myself." "It was gross." Evra said bluntly, I shot him a look, "It's true." "You're just jealous?" "Why would I be jealous of a man who's like.. 140 years older than you, fuck off." "Go to hell." We went back and forth like cat and dog. We found each other face to face, almost nose to nose. My eyes flicked to his beautiful pale cream colored lips and back up to his reptile like eyes. He smiled and I lost myself in his eyes. Was I really falling back into the hole I just got out of? What was wrong with me. I moved back a bit on the log i was sitting on and looked at the fire. Out of the corner of my eye I seen what looked like Evra sigh and seem really disappointed. I didn't need to hop into some relations and drama as soon as I got out of it. It was time for me to change. But did I truly want to?
A lot more silence and dead end conversations filled the rest of the night before I returned to my tent. Because of past experiences I've chosen a tent to myself, and now that I'm more grown and now an edgy little shit I can be trusted to be alone.. Hopefully. I laid in my hammock, more comfortable than I usually was. I looked through the tiny spots of open space where the patches didn't overlay one another. Trying to find some stars to wish apon. It's like if I could, I'd wish that I would fall asleep and wake up back home. A normal, everyday non-vampire human, but then I start to think. I wouldn't have met all these amazing people. I wouldn't have been to experience or even know about all the breathtaking wonders I've seen. I laid there thinking, but then I also wouldn't have been exposed to such violence. In my own head and what I saw in the mountain. I shook the thoughts out of my head and sighed as I rolled over onto my stomach, my normal sleeping position. I curled up around the hay stuffed pillow that was given to me. Pretending it was a big strong vampire keeping me safe from myself.
I woke up to a green thing slightly slapping my face. "Get up, ugly." Evra said when he noticed I was waking up. "Rude." I simply said and pushed him away with my foot. "We have stuff to do today, digus." "Eat my ass." "Is that an offer?" "Fuck off." I sat up and grumbled, rubbing my eyes and looking up at him. He looked at me and smirked, "You we're also so cute right after you woke up." he said before turning and leaving the tent, "You have 10 minutes!" He said before vanishing out of sight. I murred and rolled my eyes as I got out of the hammock. I brushed my fingers down with my fingers and fixed the collar of my shirt. I looked at myself in the mirror for a good moment before I turned and left the tent.
He was sitting with some of the people that had joined while I was away. I didn't approach the table like I should have. Except I just kinda stood to the side where Evra could see that I was ready to do whatever he wanted to do with me. He excused himself from the table and came over to me. "We're going on an adventure today!" He said. "Where?" I asked somewhat curious. "We're going camping!" "We technically camp every day." "Stop being such a downer." "I'm just realistic." "No you're an asshole! Besides I've already asked Mr. Tall and he said it'd be good for you." I looked at Evra with such disgust. "You're a massive dick." "Hell, I am what I eat." He said as he nudged me and laughed loudly as he strutted off. "Get ready. We're not bringing much. It's gonna be like primitive camping." "WE DO THAT EVERY DAY!" I yelled as I followed up behind him.