"…."

I know who she was talking about, yet I don't want to admit that I do. I don't want to go back to the memories of my childhood, not now, not ever. All I want to do at this moment is change the subject and leave Bella as part of my memories. That was a wound that would never heal.

"You should go home, Laney."

"You didn't answer my question, Corey!"

She looks at me intensely, like a tiger fixated on its prey. Ready to jump at any moment when necessary and it sends chills down my spine. I look away and hide my eyes behind my bangs, not wanting to meet her gaze. I will not touch that subject; it is too painful for me. No matter how cheery I could be or how optimistic I am, it still doesn't change the fact that it hurts to think about. My eyes are dazed and I am certain that I would do anything to not talk about it.

"…it's nothing."

"Then, I would like to know what that nothing is!"

"I said it is nothing!"

"THEN LOOK ME IN THE EYE AND I DARE YOU TO SAY IT'S NOTHING!"

Laney grabs my face firmly but at the same time gentle. Forcing me to look her in the eye and I could see clearly that she was furious. My eyes widen at her and I freeze, my mind is blank and my heart stops. My eyes feel like they are going to water but I hold it in, now isn't the time to show my weakness.

"Laney, please just let it be-"

"DON'T YOU DARE TELL ME TO LET IT BE, WHEN YOU LOOKED SO WORRIED WHEN YOU MENTIONED HER NAME!"

"Laney-"

"YOU CRIED AND CRIED AND HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO LET IT GO!"

"Wait, Lane-"

"HOW WILL I LET IT GO WHEN I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!"

At that moment, my body when numb and my mouth ran dry. Nothing came out my mouth but my face said it all. The look of surprise on my face was enough to tell a million stories. My thoughts went rampant and my mind went blank. How could this be? How come I never noticed? I look at her face and I could see a mixture of sadness and anger and I notice the pain I am putting her through. The suffering she must feel to not know what is wrong with me and why I won't answer her. She puts her head down on the bed and sobs gently on my blankets.

"I …worry a-about you…C-corey! W-why won't…"

Laney said this between sobs and lifts her head up to show her tear drenched face. She puts her hand on my chest and presses it firmly.

"I j-just want to know what you are suffering through!"

My heart breaks at hearing what she said and my eyes can't hold onto my tears any longer. They roll down my cheek and I clench to the hand she holds to my chest. Her face rises to meet my eyes and her eyes soften. I grab her by the arm and pull her gently to a warm hug. I hold on to her as though my life depended on it and place my head on her shoulder, gently sobbing. I want to break down to tears, to let everything go and just hold on to her forever. Not moments later, I feel Laney's hand stroking my back, while she pulled herself together. Even when she was suffering, she comforts me and I let the world around me collapse. My self-restraint comes crashing down and all the tears I held in all these years came out in a horrifying flood. My eyes won't stop making tears as the back of Laney's shirt is soaked in my overwhelming tears.

"I remember tears streaming down your face, when I said, "I'll never let you go

When all those shadows almost killed your light

I remember you said, 'Don't leave me here alone'

But all that's dead and gone and passed tonight"

Laney's shaken voice ringed through the room and filled my ears, leaving me relaxed as her song filled my heart. Her beautiful voice, wait no, not beautiful, more than beautiful, a word I wouldn't be able to explain. At that moment I was at peace as I listened attentively to her now calming voice.

"Just close your eyes

The sun is going down

You'll be alright

No one can hurt you now

Come morning light

You and I'll be safe and sound"

I had stopped crying and I felt dozed off from the melody ringing in my head. A voice that lulled me to a state to a wanting to sleep in her arms, that seemed to fit perfectly around me. My heart was at ease, like when a mother sings a lullaby to her child. When my thought goes back to my mother, someone who I dearly loved and even though it has been years since I have seen her, I could still remember her face and her smile. That wonderful motherly smile that every child loves and would long to see. I wish to go back into my mother's arms but long do I know that that isn't possible.

Laney held me tighter and rested her chin on my shoulder.

"I want you to know that I worry about you Corey and I will be here for you. Any burden that rest on your shoulder you may have, I want you to give me half your load. Rest it on both our shoulders. I don't want you to suffer on your own Corey and when you feel the time is ready you could tell me what bothers you so much."

She pulls back and gives me a light playful punch on the shoulder.

"Just don't wait too long."

I muster up all my strength and smile slightly at her. I grab her hand and hold it tightly, my voice is hoarse but with a simple nod she is satisfied.

I must open to her and I know she will suffer if I don't. I know I don't want to but my heart will hurt even more if Laney is hurt for my cause.

"Laney, I-"

The door suddenly opens, to reveal a small woman with long jet black hair. She is wearing a doctor's coat and a clipboard is in her hand, with a pen sticking out of her bun. She gently smiles at us and it isn't a smile that greets but a smile that brings bad news.

"Hello, I am Dr. Jay and you must be Corey Riffin."

"Yes, I am."

"Good, I have some news for you."

Hello there people of the internets 8D I have brought you another chapter of REALIZATION and I hope it is to your liking. I hope you have noticed that I put myself in here XD but I can't help it I was deeply tempted! Besides I find it more fun that way! Please Comment!