Okay ...
this is my first Fruits Basket fic so please give me some
feedback. (I hope this is not too wordy.) This is more like the
introdution to the fic. ^_^
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Lies and Deception
Chapter 1
By: Faye_Valentine00 (Sarah-chan)
I laid in bed staring at my
ceiling. The clock on my desk said 4:38am. I hadn't slept in
almost 48 hours but it didn't matter. I knew that I'd be getting
no sleep tonight either. The last three weeks of my life had been
a trail of lies and deception but I was unable to do anything to
stop it. The only people who knew the truth were Hatori and Akito
but I wanted ... no I NEEDED so badly to tell someone else but
how could I? How could I tell anyone or do anything without
ruining everything?
Although I knew that I'd
always hate the decision, Akito had been right. The truth would
only tear the family apart. The only way to make things better
would be to leave. I just needed to get my affairs in order
quickly and move out of the Sohma home for good before it was to
late. In all my life I'd always tried not to hurt anyone. This
time around I was hoping that there would only be one person hurt
and that would be bearable, right? I'd be able to handle that
with no problem, right?!
I reached a shaky hand to my
face and wiped away the tears that had started to fall. But why
did the only person hurt have to be me? I knew that I'd do
anything to save my friends from anything unpleasant but this
time it just felt wrong. I felt that they all had a right to know
the truth but with Akitos reasoning, I couldn't think of any
excuse to defy him. It seemed like there would have to be
something better then simply lying and running away. I am only 21
years old now, yet it feels like my life as I know it is
completely over.
It shouldn't be like this! It
shouldn't have to be like this! I did nothing wrong and I do not
regret any one of my decisions or actions but it still feels as
though I am being punished. It feels like I am destined to have
every good thing in my life ripped away. That seems to be the
vicious cycle of my life.
Throughout everything, I'd
maintained that never give up attitude and no matter what
happened, I could make it through. This time I'm older. I
understand more about real life and the world. I know that
nothing is ever perfect but just this one time I wanted to be
selfish. Just this one time I didn't want to be alone. I didn't
one to leave the Sohma family... MY family.
Someday everyone would learn
the truth. That was the secret that I held deep in my heart. I
knew that Akito thought that no one should ever know the truth
but someday they would. Someday they had to know. I just couldn't
live with myself if I had to spend the rest of my days in a lie.
I just knew that sometime would be right but I also knew that the
time would not be anything soon.
More tears rolled down my
cheeks and onto my pillow but this time I simply let them fall. I
could hear each one land on the pillow with a soft thud and it
was the only thing that broke up the horrible heavy silence in
the house.
Oh Kami... What should I do?
I sighed heavily and sat up in bed. I knew my hair was in utter
disarray and that my clothes were all rumpled but I did not care.
It didn't seem to matter anymore. Nothing matter anymore. The one
thing that I'd selfishly set my desires on was no longer possible
and I'd never quite felt this way before. There seemed to be no
upside. No positive aspect to me leaving. Even by doing what was
right, I was still hurting people.
As I stared out the window,
memories of that day three weeks ago began to fill my mind. I had
arrived at Hatoris door with no warning. He'd been surprised at
first but one look at my face and he quickly ushered me into his
office and into a chair. Without me even having to ask, he closed
all the doors and windows before sitting down across from me with
concern and confusion written all over his face.
I'd told him everything. What
had happened. Why it happened. When it happened. He sat quietly
with a serious expression on his face and listened to every word
that I spoke. From time to time I'd see a flash of surprise or
various other emotion on his face but thankfully he said nothing
and simply held my hand until I was finished talking. He'd always
felt like a big brother to me and we both seemed to realize that
I needed him now more than ever.
When I was done he squeezed
my hand before pulling me towards him. For a brief moment, I
thought he might hug me but instead he placed his forehead
against mine. He'd promised to do anything he could to help me
but asked me not to tell anyone until we knew exactly what was
going on. He ran a few tests on me and as I made my way back to
Shigures house, I felt like a ton of bricks had been lifted off
my chest. Unfortunately, the feeling was only temporary.
That night over dinner,
Shigure told me that I had a phone call. To my surprise, it was
Hatori. He'd asked me to come over to the main house right away.
When I'd asked why, he'd told me that Kisa wasn't feeling well
and had been asking for me. I quickly hung up, said my good-byes
to Kyo, Shigure and Yuki before making my way to the Sohma house.
I was shocked to see Hatori waiting out front for me.
He'd quickly explained that
he'd lied over the phone and said that we needed to talk. We made
our way back to his office and closed the door before he gave me
the news that I'd never truly expected. I knew it had been
possible but I never thought that it would happen. I knew then,
from that moment on, that my life would never be the same but I
also know that it would all be okay as long as I had my friends
around me. That was, I felt that way until Akito came out from a
dark corner and nearly caused Hatori and I to jump out of our
skins.
Akito didn't seems at all
surprised with the news that he'd overheard but that's when he
dropped the bomb. He'd said that regardless of what I wanted, the
only thing I could do was leave. He given logical reasons about
why my staying in the Sohma home would rip apart the family and
after hearing him, it ripped out my soul because I knew that he
was right. After Akito had left the room, I cried with Hatori for
hours. I didn't want to go but I knew I had to and I had to do it
soon.
That explained why I now sat
staring out my bedroom window. Yesterday afternoon, I'd told
Shigure, Kyo and Yuki that today I'd be moving out. It'd come as
a massive blow to all three of them and none of them were willing
to accept it so after a short while, I'd come up to my room and
never gone back downstairs. I couldn't stand to see the hurt and
confusion on their faces. It made an already bad situation worse.
I looked over at my clock one
last time. 5:21am. It would be alright to get up and start
breakfast soon. I slowly moved the covers off of my legs and got
out off of the bed before a figure in my doorway caught my eye.
"Yuki!"
His face looked pale, almost
like he'd become ill in the last few hours that I'd been
upstairs. His eyes met mine and his usual calm and collected
appearance was completely gone. He looked as though he'd been
crying. "Please don't go."
"Yuki..." Those
three words he spoke ripped my heart out. Tears filled my eyes
but I let them roll freely down my cheeks. We never lost our eye
contact. "I-I have to go."
"Why?" His question
was so simple but yet impossible to answer,
"I have to go."
"Please tell me
why." His eyes pleaded to be and seeing him this emotional
was a completely new experience.
"I'm can't... I'm
sorry."
Tears streamed down my cheeks
as I stared into the eyes of the man that I loved. I couldn't
tell him the truth. I mean how do you tell the one person that
means more to you then anyone else in the world that your
pregnant with his child when you know that it will only tear him
and his entire family apart.
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Next chapter - What did Akito say to Tohru? How did Yuki and
Tohru hook up in the first place? And where does she go from
here?
I hope you like it... Like I said ... it is my first FB ficcy!
THANKIES!
Sarah-chan