Part. 1:

I did always wonder what would happen after I died, but I honestly didn't think I'd be seeing the reality so soon.

I had woken up just a couple of minutes ago, and I was outside lying down on the cold, wet grass. It was actually pretty disgusting. When I finally stopped blinking, I noticed I was at some sort of gravesite and that there were a lot of people here.

When I looked even closer, I had noticed that it was everyone I knew from Fairy Tail.

There was Erza, Levy, Gajeel, Gray, Romeo, Wendy, Cana, Lisanna, Mira, Natsu, etc.

However, when I had looked closer I noticed something else too.

They were all crying.

They were wearing black too.

So, obviously I had looked around to see if I knew whose funeral this was, but I couldn't really see much or even hear very well…and that's when it hit me.

It was me.

I was the one who…died.

The memory came back in an instant flash of a bright light and a scream, but that was it really…that's all I remembered before I woke up here.

I had shaken my head and tried to convince myself that this must all be a bad dream, but something in my gut told me it was real and it was actually happening right now, so here I sat…on my tombstone watching my friends cry and talk about all of our wonderful memories.

However, it was Natsu who intrigued me the most. He hadn't moved once since he got here, I believed, or at least I hadn't seen him move, but I've been staring at him almost the entire time, so I would have seen him move if he did.

He was just staring at the tombstone with an expression that haunted me.

He just looked…broken.

I didn't like it at all.

I glanced down at my tombstone and before I knew it, the tears were falling.

Why did it have to be like this? Why?! What did I do to suffer this, and what did they do to suffer this?!

I looked back up at the sky, as the tears continued to flow.

Why wasn't I in Heaven? Or something like that?! Why was I forced to watch my friends suffer, and why were they forced to suffer?! WHY?!

I looked back at my friends with a longing look. I couldn't really hear them, but I figured I could imagine what they were saying, but it was strange…at first I heard them, and even saw them pretty clearly, but now…it's like they're a blur.

Maybe it's me? Maybe I don't want to hear them or see them, so I'm blocking them out?

That was a possibility, however strange it sounded…I shook my head and got down from the tombstone. I waked towards Master first and gave him a small hug, I assumed, when he was saying my eulogy.

After that, I walked around to each and every one of my friends and hugged them, while the tears continued, but I saved him for last.

When I finally reached Natsu, I stood right in front of him, and smiled as if he could really see me. Then, I reached out and I hugged him as tightly as I could even manage for a dead person. However, it wasn't a small, fleeting hug. No. I gave him a long, real hug as I sobbed into his shoulder.

He just stood there, not aware that I was hugging him in the after life, not like he should really know…he would probably try until the ends of the world to try and "bring me back", which was impossible.

However, when I finally let go of him, and walked back towards my tombstone, I noticed his eyes change as a spark lit up in them. He reached out his hand unconsciously, and I heard him mutter,

"Lucy…come back to me…"

The tears came again and I turned away.

I screamed out in pain as my breath drew in, and I fell to the ground.

I guess the pain and shock had finally hit me…

My head and body was on fire as I sobbed and sobbed into the ground, cursing myself for my bad luck to die so early in life. I started to think about all of the things I never got to accomplish in life such as finishing a book, or getting married to a nice man who loved me deeply, like in those romance novels I've read so many times.

Why?!

Memories coursed through me as I remembered the first time I met Natsu, and him taking my hand to guide me towards Fairy Tail, my soon to be home back then.

Why?!

Another memory of when Natsu first called me his friend up in those god-awful-cold mountains.

Why?!

I screamed again as I remembered when I first met Gray and Erza, who I had awe for immediately, well maybe just a little creeped out by Gray.

Why?!

My body trembled as I saw Erza step up to put some flowers on my grave as she cried silent tears, which made me remember when she was happy and laughing just by hanging out with all of us…

Why?!

There was no one to hold me. There was no one here now to comfort me, like all of my friends had done so many times before…there was no one…not Erza…not Gray…

Why?!

Not…Wendy…not Cana…not Mira…not Lisanna…not Elfman…not Macao…

Why?!

There wasn't Romeo…Happy…Master…Gajeel…Juvia…hell even Laxus…Freed…Bickslow…Evergreen...Levy…Jet…Droy…

Why?!

The tears came faster as they poured down endlessly.

Why?!

There's no Loke…Carla…Pantherlily…Reedus…Alzack…Nab…Bisca…damnit!

Why?! Why?! Why was it like this?!

The tears came down harder, and my sobs became more choked. It shouldn't be like this. It shouldn't be like this! I have no one…there's no one…there's no one…

There's no Natsu.

WHY?!

My sobs became more forced as I knelt there in the cold wind on the cold ground as I watched Levy walk up to my tombstone and place a book and a bouquet of flowers besides all the others.

WHY DAMNIT?! WHY?!

...

I'm not sure how long I was there crying and crying thinking about the life I could've had…but when it started becoming dark, people began to leave while their tears still continued on as well.

I just cried harder, so I barely noticed Natsu walk up to my tombstone and sit there right in front of it. I looked up at him from behind him, sniffing horribly.

I saw him reach his hand forward to place against the rock that now represented me.

I stood up, curious about what was going on exactly, so I walked so that I now faced him.

He was…crying, and I'm not even sure if he even knew that he was.

He bent over and sobbed into the ground, while screaming.

I cried too, and I knelt besides him, and hugged him close. He would always be in my heart, and even if he didn't know that, I would be here close to his heart, to make sure it never suffered this again.

That was my vow as he shivered from his broken sobs that he was making.

For him…I wanted to listen, and as those thoughts remained in my head, I could hear his every movement.

He was crying…so much and so broken. I reached up and wiped away the tears that were already threating to continue to fall.

No. I have to be strong for Natsu…even if he doesn't know I'm here…I have to be strong.

I forced my tears away and simply held him, as his whole body shook from his heartbroken sobs.

He was broken, and it was my fault.

I looked back up at the sky, looking for a sign of hope, but there wasn't any.

Why is it like this?

I just glanced back down at my broken best friend crying in the arms he didn't know were there. I tried to smile for him, but it was pained as I leaned down and rested my head against his.

That's when the traitor tears started to fall once more, and there we were, together, and crying, both and utterly alone on each side, yet both just as broken as the other.

I closed my eyes and took it in, soaking in the unknown embrace between us.

"Natsu…I'm so so sorry," I whispered in his ear, pretending that he could hear me.

Natsu shivered again as his sobs continued to be the only sound in the graveyard.

Just as I was about to unlatch myself, I heard him mutter something between choked sobs.

"Lucy…I'm so so sorry."

I leaned down and took his face in my hands, even though his face didn't move, I leaned in again and whispered shakily,

"I know Natsu. I know."

Once again, there we were, sobbing in the embrace of those who were gone from us.

Natsu…

"Lucy…"

The tears just continued to fall.

*Geez. Why did I write this? It's really sad, isn't it? I'M SORRY! And yet again, I AM SO SORRY for not updating other stories…it's just I was in the mood for tragedy and ALL of my other stories are happy, funny stories, and it's just that…it's not really been the week for that for me (I've had a sad week...), so sorry…well this is going to be split into parts; how many…I'm not too sure, but probably around 3-7 parts. I hope you enjoyed this, well no because it's really sad…well anyways…review? o.O

P.S. I'm much better at romantic comedies type of stories...so sorry if this sucks. O.O