Ryan laid in his bed, tears falling from his eyes.
He felt worthless. He felt unwanted. And to add to it there was a whole day dedicated to the person who brought him all this pain.
Sure he had his mom and little brother, but there will always be a spot for a father he never had.
He felt sobs racking his body, but he didn't care. At least not today.
He hasn't answered his Skype or his phone at all today.
Not that anyone tried to call him anyways. Everybody knows he needs today to be alone. They know what today means to him and feel guilty about leaving him alone in his misery, but there's nothing they can do to fill the void. They tried in vain to help, but they soon realized that it was a useless attempt.
As Ryan wept, he heard the distant 'Ding' of his Skype account.
He looked up, confused. Who would call him today? Didn't they know-?
Another ding.
Ryan shook his head. Lets just get it over with. I'll tell them that I'm not in the mood to talk, I mean it's the truth.
Ryan walked to his computer and sat down at his desk.
To say he was surprised was an understatement. He stared at the screen of 22 missed Skype calls and 30 messages. All from the same Swedie.
Ryan scrolled through, each message sounding more and more frantic and worried.
He rolled his eyes at one.
'Goddamnit Cry! Answer your Skype!'
He smiled slightly and clicked on the 'call' button. It rang for half a beat before Ryan saw the angry and hurt expression of the swedie on the screen.
He sighed. He was gonna get an ear full.
"What the hell RYAN!" Felix started. Then he stopped, seeing the face Ryan made. He flinched. Why?
"Ryan? Are you okay?" Felix asked slowly.
He knew about Ryan not having a father, but didn't think it affected him as much. Hell, he was Cry! The happy-go-luck boy with the sexy ass voice everybody want to hear!
"Huh! O-oh nothing, friend. What's wrong with you?"
Felix then saw the tear stains on Ryan's face through the dimmed lights.
Felix takes a deep breath, "Who made you cry, Ryan?" Felix says slowly.
Ryan gulped, "W-what are you taking about?" Ryan saw the danger signs when Felix's eyes turned a darker shade of blue as he narrowed his eyes.
"You know what I mean, Ryan. Who made you cry like that?" Felix says slowly and dangerously.
Ryan felt trapped. Sure he could hangup, but he was sure that the swedie wouldn't let it just stop there. Ryan sighed for the millionth
time that day.
"Happy Father' Day, Felix" Ryan says sadly, looking down. Felix saw his face and felt horrible.
"Ryan, you know it's not gonna last forever. You got me, you can talk to me when ever you need to." Felix said in a low voice that made Ryan shudder.
"I-I know.." He said quietly.
"Obviously you didn't or you would have answered my MANY messages." Felix exclaimed.
Ryan refused to make eye contact with the blond man.
"I'm sorry. I'm just not used to talking about stuff like this." Ryan says in a soft and child like voice.
Looking up slightly.
"Look Ryan, I know it hurts, but I wan you to call me when you feel like this." Felix said sorrow in his voice and eyes.
"Someone like 'him' shouldn't make you cry like that.." Felix finished.
Ryan was shocked. Nobody has ever gave him the time. He always felt uncomfortable talking about his father. He felt like he was wasting their time with his childish fears, but not with Felix. It's different with him.
He could tear his heart out and lay it before Felix and not have a single worry in the world, because he knew.. He knew Felix would take care of it. Of him. Like nobody else.
Felix is what he needed most. And Felix felt the same way.
Felix want Ryan to tell him when something is bothering him. He wanted Ryan's undivided attention. He would get so greed when it comes to Ryan. He hated to watch him with his other friends. He want Ryan to himself, and to do that he needed Ryan to know that he was his shoulder to cry on. The he cared for Ryan. And damn it he will get his way!
Ryan sighed. An easy feeling pushing the fear away from hi mind when he look into the eyes of his protector and crush, Felix. His eye's are comforting and reassuring. He has no fear when he's with Felix. He can breath around him. HE doesn't have to hide his emotions anymore, because he had Felix. His savior. His only lifeline to grab onto.
Felix saw this newformed trust in Ryan's eyes and grinned on the inside, while on the outside he look serious. Staring into Ryan's lovely eyes. A blue-green with a yellow hue circling the puple.
"Ryan, I want to visit you. In America. Okay?" Felix said slowly. Waiting on Ryan's responce.
Ryan grinned at the idea. Felix, here. With him. "I-I would love that, sir~" Ryan all but purred.
Felix grinned, on the outside this time. "Good. I'll be there by Saterday morning~" Ryan smiled.
"I'll see you in two days then friend!" Ryan said happily~ Felix winked making Ryan blush before they hung up with smiles on there faces
And for the first time in years, Ryan had a peaceful nights sleep with a smile stretched across his face~
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