Run to you

There he is beautiful as ever, smoking his pipe and looking as if nothing could disturb his peaceful life. Like nothing unexpected ever happened to him, no old wizard came to him and brought a group of bad mannered dwarves to his home, no mad adventure invaded his quiet life and no dwarf king whispered sweet words to him under the stars.

Thorin finally gathers enough courage to leave his hiding place and approach his hobbit when the door to Bag End opens and a young hobbit lass comes out. She is holding a small tray with a cup of tea and some cookies bringing it to Bilbo. She gives him a quick kiss on the lips and walks back to the hobbit hole. Thorin is standing hidden in the shadow frozen and breathless. In every scenario he imagined of meeting with his hobbit again, there was never one with the possibility of Bilbo starting a new life with another hobbit. He imagined Bilbo kicking him out of his door, yelling at him that he will never forgive him, fainting at the doorstep or charging at him with his letter opener. But it was always only Bilbo in his home, never with someone else.

Oh how stupid he was! Of course he moved on. Why would he wait for someone who almost killed him and banished him? He didn´t even wait for Thorin to wake up, to make sure he was still alive. For all he knew the hobbit could easily think he died on the battlefield. But he didn´t let him fight the orcs alone, he came to fight by his side even after what he had said to him at the gate. Then why did he leave immediately after the battle? Was he afraid of Thorin? Did he think he would hurt him? Didn´t he realise it was the madness talking? He didn´t even give him a chance to apologize and beg for forgiveness. Instead he sought comfort from another. That hurt.

Suddenly it fels like his heart is ripping itself out of his chest. He spent so long preparing for this moment. Years of rebuilding and securing the mountain so that he could run to his hobbit and bring him back with him and all of it just went out the window the moment the hobbit lass kissed his hobbit. No, not his. Not anymore.