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Lilith blinked back tears as she laid a single flower on Roland's grave. She let her hand brush over the grass, barely a month old. Still fresh, yet so much had changed in that short time. Everybody seemed to have moved on in one way or another, except for Lilith.

In a way, it was reasonable. Roland was her boyfriend for nearly five years when he had passed.

"You gonna be okay?" a voice asked softly behind her. Lilith turned her head and nodded to her Siren sister. Maya smiled and patted her shoulder. "Come on, Lil. Mordecai said that Axton sent word of the Vault they've been tracking down."

"Even though I never want to see that Vault key again, I'm curious to know how the boys have been," Lilith confessed. She rose to her feet, stumbling a bit. Maya grabbed onto her arm and hip.

"You know it's been almost a month since Handsome Jack put that collar on you," Maya began as Lilith steadied herself. "I think you need to see Dr. Zed about this. This isn't normal, there's either some permanent damage from that or something else."

"See that loon? He's not even a real doctor," Lilith scoffed, brushing her Siren sister off gently. "I'm fine."

"You're not fine!" Maya scolded lightly. "Go see Tannis then! If this isn't something physical, then it's mental. Lilith, I'm worried about you. Mordy is too, and even Tina's showing some concern. It's okay to admit that you need help."

"Maya, it's nothing!" Lilith snapped back before sighing. "It's just…I miss him. It's going to take more than a month to get over this. Six years. I know we ended it shortly before you guys showed up, but I still love him."

"I know you miss him. We all do, especially Tina," Maya replied gently. "But maybe you should go to the doctor. It's healthy to miss somebody, but it's obviously affecting you physically. You're always so tired, you barely eat and so much more. Please see Zed or Tannis about this."

Lilith waved a hand and began the short walk to the fast travel station to head to Sanctuary.

"I'll talk to Tannis, okay? Rather talk to the psycho than the one more than happy to play Operation with me," Lilith mumbled, selecting Sanctuary. She couldn't help but smile slightly when she felt Maya hug her from behind.

Lilith nervously tapped her boots together as she laid on the couch in HQ. Tannis was pacing in front of her, blabbing on about her theories about the connection between Sirens and the Vault and Eridium. Of course, Lilith knew a good portion already but she honestly didn't feel like talking to Tannis about her issues surrounding Roland's death, so she let the lonely woman babble for nearly two hours now. Maya was sitting in the chair next to Lilith's head, hanging onto every word. All of this was so new to her.

"Eridium, of course, helps Sirens enhance their abilities, much like a drug. And like a drug, it can be formed as an addiction, as seen with Angel's need for it in order to live and surely explains her death shortly afterwards," Tannis rambled. "It seems as though if balanced correctly, the Eridium is more powerful than any other possible drug for a Siren but I cannot help but wonder the connection between Sirens and Eridium are. I cannot help but wonder and theorize if-"

"As interesting as your theories are, Dr. Tannis," Maya interrupted, making Tannis completely halt. "There is the matter of Lilith's mental state?"

"Of course!" Tannis blurted out quickly. She quickly sat down in a chair, cross legged. "Tell Tannis everything."

Tannis suddenly desperately clawed at the table near her to reach for a pad of paper and pencil before sitting up straight, ready to take notes. Lilith bit her lip, glancing at Maya.

"Don't worry about anybody walking in," Maya assured her. "I have Krieg guarding the door, I told him to not let anybody in."

Lilith sighed before shifting in her position to get more comfortable.

"Well…I miss Roland," she admitted. "Can't get much simpler than that. It's just…I was with him for almost five years as a girlfriend, nearly seven as a friend and fellow Vault Hunter. It's never easy to get over that kind of loss. I mean…I know it's silly because Roland was also so dedicated to the resistance, but after claiming one more Vault for its riches, I maybe was hoping we'd get married and off his hellhole of a planet. Looking back, I can't help but wonder if Roland would even want to."

Tannis nodded her head, rapidly scribbling down on her pad and paper.

"You can still always leave if you want," Maya reminded her. "You and I can go on the hunt for other Sirens, learn more about them."

"It's not just that," she sighed. "I…I…just…I just feel like everybody's been able to move on since Roland and Handsome Jack but me. Just…look at everyone. Salvador and Ellie got hitched, and Gaige's living with them so that she and Ellie can design more mechanical things. Axton, Brick and Zero all went Vault hunting, Moxxi had a fling with Michael Mamaril, that weird guy who eats the trash behind the bar and then married Mr. Torgue, Krieg has cleared out more psycho and bandit groups in a day than I do a week.

"Worst of all, I'm supposed to help Mordecai and Maya rebuild Pandora. Mordecai even stopped drinking for the most part, and what am I doing? I can't get over Roland long enough to function like a normal person. I mean, ever since he died I've been so nauseous I can't eat. Hell, I throw up almost every morning, and I'm so tired and my body hurts so much, especially my back and head that I end up lying in bed most of the time now. I can't help but...almost...just feel so alone since his death. He was all I had for the longest time. And this...almost kinda kills me that his death has reduced me to this. I'm such a strong Siren, my powers can do amazing things, even without the Eridium. I've always been so strong on my own, or so I thought until Roland died."

Lilith covered her eyes with her hands.

"Tannis, does any of this sound normal to you?" Maya wondered. Tannis looked up from her rapid note-taking.

"She's depressed," Tannis stated obviously.

"I mean does her physical traits sound familiar to you?" Maya questioned. Tannis bit her lip. "Apparently not…can I see your notes?"

Tannis looked at her outstretched hand before shrieking unexpectedly, throwing the notepad in the air. Papers flew and began to float as Tannis squealed in a mix of terror and panic.

"I confess! I wasn't taking notes I was just drawing a picture of a Clork and Philipe!" she cried before burying her head into her hands. "I just miss them so much!"

Maya gave her a weird look before looking at Lilith. She was still covering her eyes.

"They're chairs," Lilith explained. "Long story."

"Anyway," Maya sighed, ignoring Tannis' hysterical sobbing. "Lilith…have you and Roland ever slept together?"

"Yeah," Lilith said slowly, uncovering her eyes and sitting up. She looked over at Maya, her eyes slowly growing wider. "You're not insinuating…"

"It's possible," Maya said quickly. "We need to see Dr. Zed."

She stood and grabbed Lilith's arm, who angrily tore away from her.

"I'm not going to Dr. Zed. I never should have even sat here with Tannis," she hissed, walking towards the door. She threw it open and slammed it behind her, storming off, ignoring Maya's calls for her to listen to reason.

Lilith sat at the bar.

"What can I get you, Sugar?" Moxxi's sweet voice asked her gently. Lilith pondered her options. She needed a good rak ale, but what if Maya was right? Maya couldn't be right though. It couldn't be. They always used a form of protection. She was just depressed. "Well?"

Lilith opened her mouth to tell her a rak ale, but found herself giving another request.

"Do you have any sodas?"

Moxxi looked surprised, but smiled.

"Of course, Sugar. Any specific kind?"

"I don't care."

Moxxie went through a small door to a separate room in the bar and came back with a can, which she gave to Lilith.

"I'm surprised, Sugar. You normally have a rak ale," she lightly purred. "Trying to give it up like Mordy?"

"Maybe," she mumbled, fiddling with her hands. A hand brushed over the Siren tattoos on her other hand. She opened the can and took a long drink.

"Something's on your mind," Moxxi stated obviously, leaning over the bar, showing her chest to everybody that walked past. "Wanna tell little old me?"

Lilith glanced at Moxxi. If anybody could understand, it was most likely Moxxi. Despite knowing Ellie and Scooter, Lilith still sometimes forgot that Moxxie was not just the owner of deadly battle domes and bars, but also a mother.

"Well…I…Maya talked me into telling Tannis about my problems. You know, my depression since Roland's death," Lilith sighed. "And as I was telling Tannis how it was affecting me physically, Maya things that my symptoms mean that I'm pregnant."

"I've been down the motherhood road four times, Sugar. What's your symptoms?" Moxxi questioned, flashing a friendly smile.

"Uh…um…well…I'm nauseous. All the time, throwing up every morning," Lilith began. "Back and head pains, exhausted all the time…sometimes I get dizzy easily."

"Mhm. Sugar, you might very well be carrying a little vault hunter," Moxxi replied, standing up straight.

"I don't want to see Dr. Zed," Lilith stated firmly.

"Not a problem, Sugar. I have some of those old style pregnancy tests. Come on back," Moxxi told her, opening the door to come behind the bar.

Lilith slipped out of her seat to stroll through the door behind Moxxi. The room wasn't very impressive in size, but it lead to an upstairs, which Lilith hesitantly followed. Above the bar was a small studio apartment.

"Come on in, Honey. Take a seat on the couch while I find that test."

Lilith slowly sat on the couch, staring at the small coffee table that held a few beer cans and a pizza box. The little home wasn't fabulous, but it was nice for a family of two. Little kitchen, couch and coffee table, door that most likely led to a bathroom, a small table and chairs with a radio on it and more pizza boxes. There was an unmade bed in the corner with some clothes and towels laying on it, two small dressers on either sides and a few boxes lined up against the wall. A few beer bottles and cans and the occasional box of pizza littered the floor. Lilith tapped her fingers on her knee, waiting patiently as Moxxi searched one of the boxes.

"Oh, here it is."

The Siren stood as Moxxi came over to her, holding a small plastic stick.

"You pee on this part right here, and if this other part has one line turn up, you're free to drink yourself into a blackout. If there are two lines, then it's time to start preparing for another Vault Hunter on Pandora. It'll take a minute or two for a result, so don't panic if nothing shows up right away."

"One line, nada, two lines, bun in the oven," Lilith echoed. "Got it."

"Bathroom's over there," Moxxi said, motioning to the door Lilith had already guessed was a bathroom.

She walked into the bathroom, closing the door behind her. Lilith stared at the plastic stick in hand in almost disbelief. Never before did Lilith ever think she'd be in this situation.

"Sugar, I gotta get back to the bar. I trust you won't break or take anything," Moxxi's voice called to her. "You're welcome to the pizza in the fridge while you wait. Do come down and let me know when you're done and what the results are."

"I'll be down as soon as I know the results," Lilith promised.

"Good luck, Sugar!"

With that, Lilith heard her walk down the stairs.

"You can do it. It's gonna be negative, and everything will be fine," she assured herself, unbuckling her belt.