Chapter 1

James sat in his chair with his headphones on Listening to Phil Collins song in the air tonight it always made him relax he felt calm while listening to it the lyrics made him felt calm as he sang along out loud as no one was watching him so he just got carried away after a sort while then the drums kicked in and he started drumming the desk with his pens and singing along then he felt a soft tap on his shoulder and he immediately turned around and almost fell out of his chair in shock and embarrassment when he saw Lara with a smile on her face and her arms crossed staring at him he took of his head phones and tried to compose himself.

"lll Lara erm I was just … erm"

She raised an eye brow curious as to his answer "yes?"

"I was just working and then … I started plying music and I …"

She started laughing "you were listening to THAT song again went you?" this wasn't the first time she had seen him acting silly

James looked away like a child who had been caught doing something he shouldn't "yer …. Again, I promise I was working relay its just SOO boring translating these old Texts"

"yes but it's also very important to" she laughed to herself "I remember when I used to catch you listening to music instead of studying at University" James laughed as well "yer I know ha ha …. The good old days" James and Lara used to flat mates while studying at University together.

The door opened with a creak and Sam came in Camcorder in hand "o hay guys what you doing?"

Lara looked over to her friend "I was just making sure our resident Band member wasn't forgetting to get his work done" she looked over at him he put his hands up as if to surrender "ok ,ok I'm going" James put the chare back in front of the desk and carried on working Lara continued

"Any way ill be off now I have my own work to be getting on with" Lara got up and left

"Ok see you at dinner Lara"

James added "bye Lara" with a smile it was always nice to see her

Sam came and sat on James bed next to his desk in his room on board the Endurance it wasn't exactly a Presidential Suite at the Hilton Hotel but it was liveable, she set her video camera on James desk he looked over to her … "is there something you want Sam?"

"O nothing …" she said with a cheeky grin

"You're up to something I can tell … come on what do you want?"

"Well Lara's your friend so she probably can't tell but I can … "she whispered to him after checking the room was clear "I know your secret"

James face when red with embarrassment but he immediately remembered not to let his secret get out "I have NO idea what you're on about Sam now please leave!"

She rolled her eyes "JEEZ! You don't have to be so uptight I think it's cute you like her … I think you two would be grate together …" James let his guard down for a second "really?" her face lit up "I KNEW IT!" James felt angry "you tricked me!" "Aw come on! Admit it you have feelings for Lara" he Sighed "…. Fine yes I have Loved Lara since the second I met her all those years ago" Sam asked "you mean since when you FIRST met her? … When you were 6 right?"

James stopped working and looked at her "yes for almost my entire life but I never told her ok so don't you dare tell her!"

"Ok fine but seriously … that long and she still doesn't know? Why haven't you said something?"

"Because WHAT IF? Hmmm what if I tell her and she doesn't like me back? I can't take that rejection she's the only person I have ever loved …."

The room was quiet for a moment Sam reassured him "it can't be that bad I'm sure she wouldn't hurt you she's your friend?"

"yes but it doesn't matter I don't want to know that she doesn't have feelings for me it hurts less now that it would if I told her"

Sam sighed "boys *ugh* … you don't know if she dose or doesn't but it's better for her to know who you really feel and if not then you can still be friends like you are now but you need to tell her before someone ells snatchers her and you don't get a chance to tell her before"

James thought about it for a while "you really think it would be best to tell her?"

She smiled "absolutely"

James sighed very loudly "ok then … I will" as if giving up … after 14 years of being in love with this girl he was finally going to tell her what he felt about her …. Was he ready?

James thoughts where interrupted when Sam spoke up to him she was like an exited school girl "this is so cute I'm sure it will be grate, don't you think?"

James a bit sheepishly replied "err … yer sure"

Sam reassured him "come on! It will be fine I certain just DON'T chicken out, ok?"

James put on a brave face "ok fine if you're sure"

Sam smiled "good, I am … in fact how about now? … Right now"

James looked surprised "what? What do you mean?"

She stood up and pulled his arm pulling him off the chair he stood up and followed her trough the hallways of the ship until they arrived at the mess hall James stood in the door way and immediately he saw her sitting there her beautiful brown hair her soft brown eyes her angelic face studing the book James started to remember why he never told her … she was so beautiful he would never be loved back by such a Beautiful person. His Harte started beating faster he was getting very scared he slowly started backing up before Lara noticed him But suddenly Sam grabbed his arm "o no you don't" she took him to the table he reluctantly followed Lara looked up and smiled "o hello" Sam was smiling James was looking shy they both sat down Sam asked "so what reading Lara?" "just an adventure romance story ha" James didn't make eye contact with her now she was this close Sam continued talking to Lara when she saw James was being shy "that's cool yer I like those kind of story's when it all works out well in the end … don't you James?" he Looked over to Sam "yer sure"

Lara asked "so, what's up?"

Sam answered "wellll James has something he wanted to tell you, isn't that right James?" she gave him a shove for good measure to make him respond.

James looked up at Lara and completely froze "I …."

Lara laughed slightly "yes?"

James tried to say anything but it didn't work "I … your … what I mean is …"

Lara was confused "why are you so nervous? What do you want to say?"

James relaxed and took a breath he couldn't tell her it was silly he would never be Man enough to tell her how he feels he gave up and faked a smile "haha nothing I was just wondering how your research was going?"

Lara looked at him strange "ok? Well its good thanks I think I'm really making some good progress"

Lara looked at Sam "hay Sam you ok?"

She was looking frustrated "nothing, Lara any way I'll see you later" she whispered to James "you will have to tell her one day James you shouldn't lie to her"

Sam left Lara asked "what's all that about?"

James smiled "I have no idea haha any way I need some food before I go to bed you want anything?"

Lara smiled "thank you James you always a good friend" James got up and went to get some food but that word stuck into him it almost hurt …. 'Friend' that's what he, that's what he always will be.

It was getting late and Jordan decided to get some rest another uneventful day ahead as he lay down in his bunk he thought about what Sam said how long can he go on living like this ? to not tell her how he feels for the rest of his life ? What if she finds someone who likes her? What if she loves someone ells? Jordan tried to hold back tears he felt so lone as never before he HAD to tell her he had no choice it was killing him he swore to himself Sam was right he WAS going to tell her tomorrow no matter what happened.

It was difficult to get to sleep his mind was racing but eventually his exhaustion gave in and he fell to sleep He fell into the black void of sleep

James Heard waves not big powerful scary ones but soft ones as if by a beach and he felt a soft sea breeze on his arms he was in a bed his arms above the covers, the bed was so soft and comfortable he felt at peace he opened his eyes he was lying on his side he saw her face it was Lara in the bed next to him He smiled this was perfect he was so happy he sat there listening to the ocean it was outside the room it looked like an expensive hotel room In Hawaii the sun was coming through the open window he felt so relaxed seeing Lara's Beautiful face open her eyes and rubbed them with a yawn then a smile as she looked at him James felt so warm and happy then she quietly and softly said something to him he saw her lips move but he couldn't hear her say anything then she smiled and then placed her hand on his cheek but he got a shock when she did James suddenly violently woke up shooting up and hitting his head on the bunk above him Lara was standing next to him shaking him.

"GET UP!" Lara commanded

James tried to get out of his bunk and fell down he was dizzy and confused but he could still tell the ship was violently rocking around.

"What? What's going on?"

"GET UP NOW WE HAVE TO GO!" Lara pulled him up he had no idea what was going on but as they ran through the corridors of the ship he understood the ship was sinking!

He followed Lara and tried to keep up as she darted through the ship as it shock and sea water poured in all around them "KEEP GOING COME ON!" He was out of breath and terrified they came to what seemed to be an exit in the ship and James almost ran straight out without looking Lara Grabbed him firmly "STOP" he looked down and saw the ship was broken in to 2 pieces on the other side was Roth calling them across to jump James insisted straight away "you first" She nodded "ok" then she made a run for it and jumped across Lara grabbed Roth's hand but slipped she fell down into the deep violent waters churning in between the 2 hulks of the ship James looked up to Roth he shouted for him to jump but he shook his head he wasn't going to abandon her he closed his eyes part of his mind said to him "this is a bad idea James you're going to die" but he wasn't going to leave her he Jumped down and fell thought the air his stomach churned like being on a rollacoster but this time he could die when he hit the bottom but he couldn't live without Lara he had to try and save her, he had to he loved her.