Angel Beats: A Meaning to Life

By DualStarduter

Chapter 1: Which Side?

All my life, I worked so hard, but for what? What was the meaning in life.

I guess, I won't find out, my life is at it's end, but maybe with that final action. I will have meaning in life. But as for now, my life is a train wreck, an a train wreck, is what killed me, goodbye world, and Hatsune, I'm sorry onii-chan never became happy...

I woke up, "What the, where am I, no wait who am I?" What happened to me, I looked at my clothes, standard school uniform. I looked at where I was, in front of some high school. Now that I got myself familiarized, am I a student? Maybe, I'll find out if I ask around, this will be troublesome...

"Oh, your awake?" I stood up to see the back of a purple haired girl with a green bow-like tie on her headband. A white and blue outfit with a sniper perched on the ledge of a small wall.

"You..." I was cut off by her.

"Welcome, to the Like-hell-I'm-dead Battlefront." She said still scoped at whatever she was planning to shoot, a disc maybe? Some game her friend made? Shadows began to cover her and I, she jerked slightly ready to fire. "This is a bit strange and sudden, but want to join us?"

"Join?" I questioned, join what? an who is 'us'

She never gave me a glance, "The fact you are in this world, means you are dead."

"What, I don't get it, what do you mean I'm dead?..." I wondered, how did I die?

She moved a bit to get more of a better aim. "This is the Afterlife. Do nothing, and you will disappear from this world."

"Disappear? by who?" I asked her.

She thought it was a stupid question. "By God of course."

Okay, crazy talk aside... "So what's were you talking about, joining you?"

"Join the Like-Hell-I'm-Dead Battlefront, well the title changes a lot so this is just the current name we have." She explained. "First we called it the Afterlife Battlefront, however calling ourselves that, we would admit we have already died ne? So, we changed it and we change it constantly. Now it's Like-Hell-I'm-Dead Battlefront, before this we were known as, "Don't-even-feel-alive Battlefront. Though that was simply a joke name, so we changed it the next day."

"Uh..." Taking time to understand why this crazy girl is wanting me to join something as ludicrous as this, and why is she so focused on that damn sniper if she wants me to join. "Is that, an actual sniper?"

She sighed, "Why do you new people always react like this, try to be more flexible. Just accept it okay?" She was slightly annoyed.

"Okay? Um, so what should I do here?" I questioned.

"Fight." She said simply.

I needed to ask, "What?"

"That." She finally pointed to the reason she had the sniper in hand ready to fire. So she's fighting, this one girl, "That's the Like-hell-I'm-dead Battlefront's enemy, Angel." She pondered for maybe half a second or to take a breath. "I think I will change the name Like-hell-I'm-dead Battlefront to something different again. Give it a bit of thought."

Hey, hey... I thought to myself, No matter how you look at the girl down there, it's just that a normal girl. This makes no sense. "Uh, mind if I go down there?"

She stopped focusing on aim and turned to yell at me, "EH!? What?! You make no sense!" I make no sense? You hardly explained why she is the enemy. "Why would you do something so idiotic! Do you want to die again!?" She yelled, but then calmed down, "That's a joke you'll hear often, in this realm, it is impossible to die because we are dead. Was it funny?"

I glared at her slightly in an annoyed way, "Setting that aside. I want to have a proper sensible talk with her, she looks like someone who could explain, rather than you when you only just turned to actually talk to me, and point guns at her without giving me a good reason she is an enemy."

She grunted and stood up, hands on her hips. "I'm your ally. If you want me not to aim at her I won't. You can trust me." Yeah, trust the girl that freaked out because I wanted to talk to her target."

Uh... "Oi Yurippe! How's the enlistment going! We're short on hands so do whatever it takes to-" A blue haired boy called. She face palmed and I went to the stairs that lead to the track.

"I'm going to see her." Then Yurippe freaked out.

"Aaaahhh! Recruitment failed!"

I sighed, whatever's going on is something I don't understand. What is up with those two. I could still hear her screaming. "Uh, Good evening," I looked at the white haired girl. "Yeah, there is someone aiming a gun at you. They said you were an angel or something..." I trailed off looking for words to say.

But here eyes and hair, they looked too innocent for her to be an enemy. What could such a frail girl do to make them all run in fear?

"I'm not an angel." She tilted her head to the right confused.

I sighed and hung my head on my hand. "I thought so, then-"

"I'm the student council president."

"I'm such a baka, they're just making fun of me. Damnit." I lifted my head from my hand. I turned my head away from her. "I don't even remember who I am supposed to be..." I waved off to her, "I guess I should go to a hospital or something."

She spoke again, but still her voice never changed tone, "There are no hospitals here."

"Eh?" I'm confused every city should have a hospital. "Why wouldn't there be one, every city has one right?"

She looked at me, "People, can never get sick here."

"Never, get sick?" I asked her. She turned her head away from me.

"Ah, because everyone here, is already dead."

Hold on... "Oh," I said angrily, "I get it now! You're in on this too aren't you! Enough with these games! I suppose me having no memories was out of your doings too isn't it?"

She answered swiftly, not even flinching the fact I just yelled at her, somethings wrong. "Memory loss is quite common when people come here." She explained, "If you die in an accident your head takes damage does it not?"

I yelled again, "Then prove it!" I cried at her, no way could I be dead, a dead person has no body right? Atleast not one in stable condition, "If I'm already dead," She walked towards me, "I can't die agai..."

Her golden eyes stared at me, her lips moved forming words, "Hand Sonic." I heard her mutter quietly. Suddenly a blade appeared out of her right sleeve. She ran up to me, and jabbed me where my heart would be, impossible, the blade went swiftly it's as if, no heart was there to take any pain, is that why, it was so swift and much less painful then expected?" I breathed heavily before passing out.

My eyes shot open once more, I gasped for air. Bells chimed like at a school, but I'm in a bed? An infirmary... But then, I remember the blade coming out of the girls right sleeve, and running up to me, while I froze there and died right? I heavily breathed and patted my bare chest for any wounds. But there were none. "But, the pain, it felt real, it couldn't have been a dream, but I had no cuts that's impossible!" there, next to the bed. My white shirt I had under by black one. Dripping with blood. "Wherever I am I have got to get out of here!"

The door slid open, a purple haired boy a bit over my height holding an ax in his hand "So, it was you." I backed up, this guy is mad! "The one that humiliated Yurippe and refused to enlist!" He yelled pointing the dagger end at me.

I raised my hands to surrender, "H-hey, hold on for a moment, just calm down."

He smirked, "Wanna die?"

"Is that it?" I laughed, "Oh I get it! That's... one of those jokes you use for a world you can't die in correct?" I chuckled. "Funny." I laughed more.

He didn't find it funny, "A hundred times!" He struck me all the while yelling DIE! If this life were a game, why, there would have been some insane background while he attacked me with a hit marker in the bottom corner showing the amount of times I've been attacked. At most I knew there was blood where he left me.

Some X minutes later, I woke up, "Are you trying to kill!?" I yelled flipping to the door. "Wait, I guess I was too late to say that. What kind of world is this? I am still here with all this blood and pain I've gone through. This is the worst..."

Then the memory of Yurippe telling me what this world is rolled in. "This is the afterlife, do nothing and disappear."

"That's it! If that happens then I could just leave this world." I ran outside still wearing the cut clothes.

"I am your ally, you can trust me." Another memory flipped by. Is there really a person I could trust in this world? Oh yeah! An adult, I just need to find one. But where are the adults?! The teachers?!

I went to the Principals office, surely a school has a principal. "So, they must be in here, or something." But as I turned the nob, The ceiling opened up with a giant hammer crashing to me sending me out of the building.

For the third time in a day, or what I think is a day, I wake up. The first words I hear this time. "Then how about, The "You're-gonna-die! Battlefront"!"

I heard another voice I recognized as Yurippe, "That makes it sound like I'm gonna die."

"Eh, no I mean the girl is gonna die..." Where am I now?

"Okay, then look this way," I heard her voice again. As I woke up, I keep thinking of that girl, Angel or whatever her name is. The blade that stabbed me, Hand Sonic... It was swift, and much less painful than it should have been. It attacked my heart didn't it? It should have been more painful then the guy with the ax. So why did it hurt so slightly? As if my heart didn't exist. Is it, the way I died that caused it? "You're-gonna-die! Battlefront."

"Oh crap!" He yelled. "It does sound like I will die."

She sighed and leaned back in her chair, "Any others? Any good ideas?" I finally leaned up but only a bit to see what's going on.

"How about Flashback Battlefront!" Another boy suggested.

Yurippe said, "That sounds like you've already died and are gonna die again."

Another larger man said, "Then how about, "I-want-to-disappear- Battlefront"!"

Yurippe closed her eyes in anger, "Sounds to me like you are ready to die."

A girl with pink hair said, "Absolute-Death Battlefront."

"This is not absolute death!" She cried out.

A young boy with chestnut hair suggested, "The what about Invincible Battlefront?"

They still hadn't realized I am awake, when she said, "And now, we're no longer a battlefront..."

"Honorable Death Battlefront!" A guy with a bamboo rod or giant stick yelled.

Still Yurippe wasn't happy with that answer. "I'm going to punch you..."

"The Wright Brothers!" The blue haired guy from earlier yelled.

"Don't bring us to embarrassment!" She yelled slapping his face hard. "BAKA, it hass to end in "Battlefront"! Or I won't accept it. We are the front line in this battlefield! Doesn't anyone have a proper name for us?!"

Finally, the chestnut haired boy realized I woke up, "Hey, he's awake."

"Ah? You're awake? Oh yeah, I got him to think over it too." She said, "You've had plenty of time. How about we hear it out?"

I am still confused, "Hear what out?" I questioned.

"The new name for Like-Hell-I'm-Dead Battlefront!" she cried happily.

I didn't care so I said, "Do-whatever-the-hell-you-want Battlefront"

The one with the bamboo rod or whatever it is he was holding held one end, "You've got guts to talk back at Yurippe..."

I jumped up and pointed at him. "I said Do whatever the hell you want!" I yelled, "What the hell is with you. Don't drag me into this. I don't care if I disappear, I'd rather disappear as quickly as possible.

"So, you want to disappear?"

"Yes I do!" I yelled at him.

"You don't mind becoming a water flea?"

"Hell yeah I don'- Water flea?

One explanation later because this part is overall ridiculous...

"Now now guys don't bully him like that. He just doesn't get it yet." That's not it at all, I just, need questions answered. This may be the only way I could get to Angel though, "We the uh, what are we called now?"

"Barnacle Battlefront."

"Oh yeah! The Baranacl- BAKA! We are changing it back to Afterlife Battlefront!"

"Good kick..."

She turned to me again, "This is our HQ, it's the only place we can converse safely. You knew that so you tried to take refuge ne?"

Actually I was looking for an adult to actually talk to. I thought in my head, "No not really. I just go sent flying the moment I tried to get in." I shook the thought away, I need to get to Angel somehow, "Anyways. What was with the whole human before reincarnated to... A joke right?"

"No joke," The large man spoke.

I had to ask them how, "You know this for certain? Did anyone every try just to find out?"

"Of course we can not say for a fact, besides, you have to have a hard past, how do you expect to talk as a water flea?" Yurippe asked, then I thought it over my idiot mind. "It's from Buddha prophecy that you are reborn you might not be what you were. You could be a snail that turned into a human for all you know. Or were lucky to remain human, you might become a tiger or a cat if you die or anything with a soul really."

"But a barnacle was the best you could come up with?" I asked.

"Religion is a human thing to start, but setting that for later..." She said looking at the floor before back at me. "This is important, when we were living in the real world, death was inescapable, it would come whenever and however it would. So it became an impossibility to fight against that. But here, in this world is different. As long ass you oppose Angel and refuse to be normal, you can stay alive here. Well stay dead here. You won't die here to return to the real world."

I tensed, "So what was up before, what do you want to do, exactly?"

"We want to erase Angel. Then take over this world!" sounds like she is the villain. Maybe, they are all wrong and Angel is the one I should be siding with... it's too late for that I don't know where to go. "You only got here, it's no wonder your confused of our actions." I'm not confused at all, you live a bad past and want to get rid of the thing that can make you return to a place it can happen again. What I want, is to see if you erase Angel, your sending her down the same fate aren't you? "Just try to be more flexible and accept things as is."

"And... fight? Against angel?" I needed answers still from them.

"Yes, do you accept that? Will you join us against her." Should I join? What if my answers are with them instead, but if they aren't and are with Angel... will she accept me to her side? Yurippe held her hand out for me, do I accept?

Most of them were smiling as I raised my hand towards her, until the door bursts open revealing that guy who killed me. "Not so fast, Yuripp-" And then he was hit by a hammer.

"There he goes again, falling for his own trap." Someone behind me said.

"So that's what happened to me..."

Yurippe explained, "The only way to get in here and not fly out via hammer, you need the password. And I'm not gonna give it to you if you don't accept. It's an Anti-Angel HQ so this is the one safe haven we have against her."

"Can you give me time to think for a moment?" She smiled.

"Sure, just not in here." Great, meaning if I do accept, I'd be hit again.

"Fine, I'll join what's the password." I said.

She grabbed my hand. "No God, No Buddha, No Angels." She smiled, "I'm Yuri, leader of the Battlefront. This here." she gestured to the blue haired guy from earlier. "is Hinata-kun, he's a slob but once in a while he gets it done."

"Yep that's me an- HEY! That doesn't make me look good." He whined, clearly he thought he deserved more recognition than that.

She moved on to the larger one, "This is Matsushita-kun. Judo 5th Dan. Out of respect we call him Matsushita 5th Dan."

He offered his hand, "nice to meet you."

The chestnut boy was next. "That's Oyama-kun, his specialty is having no specialty at all"

"Welcome to the battlefront." He shook my hand.

"Come on let's dance!" The guy who's eyes hid behind his bandanna said popping out of nowhere.

"I'm not dancing here." I said glaring at him, though I doubt he knew.

"That's just his way of saying hi, we call him TK. He's a mystery, we don't know his real name either."

I couldn't believe it, "You're okay working with a guy like this?"

"The one who continuously props his glasses to look smart is Takamatsu-kun. He's really an idiot."

And yet, he props it up again anyways, "Pleased to meet you."

Then the one with the bamboo pole is next, "He's Fujimaki-kun."

"The names Fujimaki, kid."

I muttered quietly, "I'm no kid."

Finally I found out the one who attacked me, "The one that went flying, is Noda-kun."

"The girl who's in the corner saying, "How shallow-minded in the shadows is Shiina-san"

Next is the last girl in the room. "Sitting on the chair is Iwasawa-san. Leader of the Diversionary squad. There are more, but they aren't here, then again they wouldn't all fit in here if that were the case. Uh what's your name you never told me."

"O, Oto.. Oto,nashi..." I pondered.

"Given name?" I shook my head.

"Forgot it." I shrugged.

"Amnesia huh? Don't worry, you'll remember someday." Hinata said to me.

Matsushita 5th Dan suggested, "shouldn't we give him a uniform?"

"I guess so..."

Then I realized, "Speaking of which, why am I in a different uniform from you guys?"

Yurippe walked towards me, "You're not the one who's different, we are. These clothes are the ones we made for us. Yours is actually pretty standard. Ours is a model students, 'Class 3S uniform."

I was on the roof looking at the students below doing whatever. "This sure is a big school."

Yurippe explained to me, "Total student count is just over 2000. It's no surprise, this school is technically a boarding school. Just who-"

"Hey, is it okay to be talking out here?" After the talk of only safe place, I question her reason for her to help me understand in such an open place.

"Yeah, as long as it's not about operations we will be fine." She responded.

I gagged, "I feel like I've been tricked."

"Nani?" she said wondering why.

"Nothing," I answered quickly. I only joined her battalion, so I can get closer to Angel and ask her. "Is that, canned coffee?"

"Key coffee, it's delicious. Was that your question?" I shook my head.

"No. What about them, the students down there?" If we are humans what are they?

She hummed a bit, "Hmm? Oh them, they're in the middle of club activities or going home."

"You don't participate?"

"If we did we'd vanish since we'd live a normal life."

"Ah?"

She didn't sound annoyed, "If us people attend class and join clubs like Angel says, we'd disappear."

"People?" I asked, "You almost sound like those aren't real people."

She drank more coffee, "Precisely, they are NPC's."

"NPC's?"

"Never heard of them? Non-player Characters."

I chuckled, "Is this a game now?"

"Don't take it so seriously, be flexible, it's just an analogy. They are models and have been here since the start of the world."

"So they aren't conscious? If you talk to them do they give you the same answer every time?"

She asked me to try it, "Why not find out for yourself?" Same answer when I need information... "You won't be able to figure out the difference between us and them since you are new and all."

"You can talk with them?"

"Try poking a girl's butt." she dared.

"Up her butt?!" I yelled shocked she'd suggest it at all. A simple yes or no answer would be fine.

"They'd probably run away from you or kick you." She smiled while responding.

"Well made obviously... So, the teachers too?"

She nodded, "Yep, also NPC's are unable to age, anything here is unable to age so nothing can ever die because nobody is ever sick. We don't harm them, Angel only fights us, it never happens that they die. Any questions?"

I needed one that Angel could not answer, "How violent is Angel? The moment I asked her I was unable to die again, she stabbed me."

"Yeah, but you were asking for it, you said you were unable to die so she stabbed you in the heart," But I felt no pain from it, it was the most painless thing that has killed me. "to her, it's like asking where the staff room is."

"So Angel obeys the rules of this world. Does that mean she's an NPC?"

Yurippe sighed, "It's a mystery, she uses too few words to be an NPC, but we never killed her to find out if she is like us."

"So, not easy to get a kill- I mean done in like so?"

"If someone doesn't act like a model student, first she gives a warning. Run and she will chase you and attack you."

"And if I were to attack?"

Yurippe charged her fist in the air. "An eye for an eye! Well that's what we do anyways." I see, so, am I really on the wrong side. So far Angel has done things according to this world, since I joined them she might be after me too. Now, do I betray them after all this acceptance, or do I attack her and may never find an answer. Those eyes are hard to tell, her golden eyes look at me like nobody else has. Almost like, she's looking for someone.

"So, sometimes you will die like I did when I talked to her?"

"Mochiron." she replied taking her can. "Oh and don't act like a model student, you'd vanish that way." Great, follow the rules vanish, try to play pretend, disappear, fight and die. This sure is a one sided war. "Several tried, they disappeared on the attempt."

"Okay. One last question, about God, is he real?" I asked her.

"I believe he is." She said turning back to the railing.

"Have you tried to ask Angel about it?"

"If you ask her any questions of this world she will not respond." I narrowed my eyes at the NPC's down bellow, so, those aren't real, they just are. "That's all? Good. Our study meeting ends now." She sips her coffee.

Technically, I haven't joined anything. What I want, ie, what I need more than anything now, is answers. Answers to my past, my memories. They remember but I don't. Why am I different. They know their pasts and it's bad. But mine, clearly it isn't good if I am here. So why can't I remember.

After that, after that... what?

Yurippe shot a gun outside the window. I covered my ears because of the noise, but I was the only one not used to gun fire. She handed it to me. "Here you go Otonashi-kun." She smiled handing me a weapon. "This should be good enough. Something you can shoot as a beginner."

"Will this take any affect on her?" I asked this is a simple pistol, she's used a sniper, he's got an ax. I've got a regular gun.

"Unh, aim for the legs, it'll slow her don and she can't chase you for a while. Really we just stall her."

I looked at Yurippe, "Shoot a girl?" Great, if I shoot her my chances of getting answers I need will fade. "Do her wounds heal quickly?"

"Try and find out, we found out the same way." Again with all the smiling at my death. Great. Make fun of Mr. Amnesia.

"Fine." The lights suddenly shut off and she pulled a screen down.

Laptops turned on and she put a hat on as the screen showed the symbol on our uniform, "Good answer, Otonashi-kun. First off, in order to get you used to things, I'll have you participate in a simple operation. It's name is, Operation: Tornado."

"Eh?"

"That's a big one."

T-torado? I thought it over, how is this gonna be easy?!

"We're going to lift meal tickets from the students!"

And that vision crumbled as realization kicked in. "You'd steal something like that?!" I yelled at her. This is insane how is this a battle it's just bullying! "That's not even big that's just bullying the students! I'm disappointed, just because you have so many members and weapons we are going to do that to innocent students!?"

Then Noda came over and put his ax under my chin. "Why you little...You dare disgrace Yurippe?" He bounced it up and down. "Take it back."

"Why should I?!"

Matsushita 5th Dan replied, "As members of the Barnacle Extinction Guard Battlefront. We would absolutely never threaten ordinary students with numbers or power!"

Oyama spoke up, "They're going extinct?!"

"Probably one day." Matsushita 5th Dan answered.

"But you said you'd lift them!" I yelled at Yurippe even though the ax hadn't moved from under me.

"Right, literally lift them." She moved over to the laptop which controlled the screen. "Alright, you're going to be in the "barricade squad" that ties up Angel's movements. You'll all surround the main operation point - the dining hall, and lie in wait, armed at set positions. Don't worry your spot is fairly easy. Just a bridge. Ask Takamatsu-kun or Oyama-kun afterwards for the finer details. Iwasawa-san, I need you guys to do your best too okay?"

Iwasawa replied, "Ah."

"Alright if you happen to encounter Angel do not hesitate and fire at her right away. It'll be the signal for you all to run towards the sound. The operation starts at 18:30." For those that don't know Military time, 6:30 pm, "Operation... START!"

I stood facing the only possible entrance Angel could entire on my side. The other side of the bridge. "How on earth are we supposed to peacefully lift meal tickets when there will be gun fire, what kind of band are they anyways?" Then I heard it, so that's how. This is a loud band.

Then the clouds moved, on the other side of the bridge, was Angel. "So, I'm the weakest link." I pointed the gun at her, if any of them saw me, they needed to know I was ready to fire. But, her eyes stared right through me, do I fire? Is there a reason to? My answers are right in front of me. Her golden eyes, still searching for that something. The only question, is what?

I had several options, she had already seen my gun, pretending it's not here is a mistake. 1, fire at her legs and hope the others hear. 2. fire in the air and hope they hear but won't think ill of me assuming she has Hand Sonic, the skill that obliterated me. and 3. drop the act and walk towards her to ask.

She got closer, each step was hesitant for me to fire. Should I shoot the delicate person in front of me? I grabbed my chest, I don't know why, it felt like something should have burned, my heart, but it didn't it still feels... missing. Shoot her, that was the one thing that went in my mind. I did, but I had missed and hit her stomach. Why did I close my eyes?

"Guard Skill: Hand Sonic." I looked at her, her eyes piercing me. So, this is it, her eyes continued to search. Why, did I feel, like I knew those eyes, like my heart had felt their gaze. That's an impossibility, I don't know her, she doesn't know me. So it has to be impossible, that those eyes, feel like I've seen with them right? It's a girl, I couldn't have seen through a girls eyes before.

She continued to walk towards me as I ran away. I fired three bullets while running to the main dining hall. Each one she stopped to deflect, but I'd run out of this eventually.

But when I reached there and was about to fire, Noda's ax came out of nowhere, "Darnit! I missed!" He yelled.

"Sorry we're late!" Some cried firing. "She's only using Hand Sonic we have to act quickly!"

"Attack! Let's go!"

"Guard skill: Distortion" The bullets went around her!

"Darn we are too slow!"

"This is why I hate guns!" The bullets flied over and over. Just as Shiina launched something at her, we fired a bazooka at her and she ran to dodge it.

Suddenly, I turned around to see the meal tickets fall, Ticket 105, Meat Udon, 300 yen... I turned back to see them running back to the hall. And Angel, standing there.

"Here you go, Meat Udon.."

"Is it really okay to eat like this?" I asked Yurippe, this world is not simple.

"All we are doing is eating.

"Is that how this works?" I asked silently. With leadership and power she could make anything happen, but she's smiling and eating. She only has one enemy, Angel, but does that justify what we just did? No, it's too soon to call, because I don't remember anything. It's much too soon to think whose side is right.

But, if Angel is the one following the rules, am I, doing the right thing?

Kanade's POV

The moment I pierced him in the heart, my eyes widened in shock for once. He, didn't have a heart. It's missing. Someone else has it, could, he be the one, the one that donated his heart to me? So I could live longer? It's too soon to call, he probably sees me an enemy now, just as they had.

I just want them to live a normal life, how does that make me the enemy, they won't become any different then they are now or before, they will become humans again, they just don't know what they will look like, or if they will meet against the 1 to 6 billion odds.

This boy, the one with the orange hair. He looked at me, he knew something about me, something only I knew. I was looking for someone, maybe I am looking for him. Or maybe not. I don't know anymore. Maybe, I should have kept befriending people, because then they'd live a normal life. But I stopped that.

But, because I did, will he?

I returned to my office after that. I needed to check on things, the roster of students. Any new ones.

For three hours I scanned the names and the names from a week ago. Clearly he's just arrived. It took will take days before his name will pop up seeing the large list of people.

For now, I will rest in my room.

As I went to my room, I noticed something, there was a bit of blood trailing from the place I had attacked him, to the infirmary. "They got to him first." I muttered, how will I get my answer about his past now. Oh wait, I forgot...

"I'm such a baka, they're just making fun of me. Damnit." he lifted my head from my hand. He turned his head away from me. "I don't even remember who I am supposed to be..." He waved off to me, "I guess I should go to a hospital or something."

I sighed. So even if I hadn't done that, maybe, just maybe he'd ask me something else, and I wouldn't have struck him. Maybe he is the one that donated his heart to me. Maybe he is, Otonashi, Yuzuru. The 17 year old who died after saving many lives in a train tunnel had crashed, giving his water and food up by one of the survivors who shared his portions so they only had half of one persons. The one, who was critically injured but saved everyone before he died. And before he died, he signed off, all his organs. He must have known his injury and his death was soon. He knew that even if rescue arrived, he would be long dead.

I cried a bit, there are hardly any times I let true emotions leek out. His life was hard. I don't know how he looks, I don't know if this boy here is him. But there are hardly anybody that would donate an organ let alone a heart at all.

So could he, the one with no heart, be the boy that let me live longer. The doctors knew I would die, and did everything to let me live longer. They said there was no donor, then by a miracle I lived another month. He saved me. So here I am in this world. Because that boy died, because that boy died and he had a purpose in life, he donated the most important organ to me. A heart. To that, I owed my life, but I never could say thank you, so every night I cried. I said thank you everyday until I died, but I regretted I couldn't say it to him directly.

I prayed he watched over me, smiling everytime I said thank you. I said it every day and cried for him every night.

Because of him, I found joy in life, because of him, he didn't. If only, I knew him. We could become such great friends!

I'd play with him everyday and cheer him on. How ironic, he wanted to become a doctor according to the survivors. He was probably the kindest man they had ever meet. A thief stole the water and lost half a bottle, he didn't punish him, Yuzuru punished himself for letting it happen. He let a man's life slip by, he blamed himself for not seeing it earlier.

So I blamed myself, I lived such a useless life. But now I have the heart of a hero. I didn't deserve this heart I've been given.

Everytime I was alive, I doubted it. I was still in the hospital for another two days after the operation to ensure I could handle it. I cried, a nurse came over and smiled at me asking "Whats wrong?"

I looked at her with tear stained eyes, "I lived such a useless life, I didn't have a meaning to live. But here I am, I have the heart, of someone who lived his life to become a doctor. When the train he rode to the university to live and it crashed he saved everybody, and when he found out he was on the verge of dying, he signed off his organs, and now I have his heart. Why, why did I get it? I don't deserve it. It should go to someone who found meaning in life. Not me, not some 16 year old girl who's been bedridden all my life. Just to walk for a month, with a heart that could have gone to someone more, more meaningful." I cried on her shoulder, she held my shoulders and looked at me before smiling.

"You know, that boy, he is a hero. But you know, I think he's happy it went to you, I heard you the other night, how you said thank you to him, how you prayed he watched over you to hear your thanks."

"But, I only have a month to live."

"Then make this life something meaningful, every night pray he is hovering over you like a guardian angel. Why he's probably watching over you right now, smiling. He might even be thanking he gave his organs to you. Because, you see in this hospital. He used to visit all the time."

"why?"

"He asked for a girl's name, Hatsune Otonashi, I believe she was a little girl, probably a sister because he was so young at the time."

"What happened to her?" I asked.

"We don't know, she just, stopped. Ever since then he stopped coming, we even asked if he was going to school."

"He didn't go to school?" She shook her head.

"Every day, he worked at a part time job, just to get money to have food to eat, pay a bit of rent, and go to the bookstore down the street to get his sister a book. Now go on, to your family, they are outside waiting."

I wanted to know more about him, who was the boy that saved me, why his sister was confined to the hospital bed. But, I had to continue, when I died, I died crying for Yuzuru, I thanked him one more time,

"Arigatou Yuzuru, this is the end of my life, I only wish, I could have done something, accomplished something, to have said thank you...

I woke up in my bed, I must have fallen asleep and dreamed of it again. I went to my office, the computer still ran, no new results. I sighed, "Maybe, he's just a glitched NPC..." I said before turning to the cafeteria for lunch.

"Mopo Tofu..." I said getting the meal ticket for it. I headed to the cafeteria worker, she gave it to me and I sat down, some kids eyed me, but then went back to having their meal.

I grabbed my plastic spoon and at it bit by bit. People say it's hot, I think, it's just, delicious...

Later that day, I heard noise outside of my dorm. I walked towards the bridge between the dorms and the main dining hall where the sound was emitted. I saw, the orange haired boy. I didn't know what to do, I pretended he was one of them, that's when he pulled out the gun. He looked at me, wide eyes, something ached in me, my heart, was it because, this is him? Was it his heart? No it can't be. He pulled the trigger and the bullet lodged itself into my abdomen. I rubbed the area around, some more blood revealed itself, but it cleared away after the bullet popped out.

"Guard Skill: Hand Sonic" I had to get closer, but if he kept firing bullets at me, the others would come, if I was injured they'd take me down. I need to make sure he knows that. But it appears they got to him first, he probably thinks I'm the enemy, I just want them to live a meaningful life. Why is that so bad?

He fired again and again. More more, more... I had to defend in case the others saw. If their members saw, then I needed to make sure they knew I wasn't up to something. Just as I was about to block another shot, an ax came twirling from the air to hit me, I guarded quickly to avoid damage. Darn, their team showed up, I have to make sure they don't realize I'm after him.

"Sorry we're late!" Some cried firing. "She's only using Hand Sonic we have to act quickly!" They opened fire,

"Guard skill: Distortion" I said so the bullets didn't harm me.

But that sneaky girl aimed at me and I had to use my blade to guard it. There was no way I could use Distortion to block that. Then that large guy shot a rocket at me! Are they insane!? Just cause I am trying to do something they think is bad doesn't mean you blow me up!

Then it started to rain... meal tickets? They are taking the students meals! Well, at least they don't die or notice really... but we need to do something. I guess, I'll have to do something tomorrow. But I noticed, he turned back, did he, need something?

I went to the cafeteria myself, I saw them eating. There is no need to fight here, eating is normal, but, the way they got it. I can not act rashly with so many students around. For now, they will have him, but I need answers he has to answer.

A/N: Hello my readers, yes this is an AN, only at the bottom! I strongly suggest you read this one, the others are not as important unless I say so (Usually saying IMPORTANT after A/N:) This is my first story of the series. I won't tell you my plans, but the summary itself, the chapters, and the name of the story is plenty ne?

I want you to review after EACH story and tell me where I could use some work, Kanade's POV or Otonashi's POV. Battle scenes I know definitely need a work on. So the next one, might be troublesome seeing it is Guild and it's mostly fighting. Anyways other than that...

Just be a bit... flexible for my schedule ;)

~DualStarduster

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