Dear Diary

I'm sorry I haven't been writing in a while. There has been something that's been troubling me. I think I'm in love with my best friend. This does not only mean I'm gay, but we've known each other since we were 4, he's like my brother which also shows how incestuous and messed up this would feel.

I love Sasuke and I always have. But only recently did I realize that I was also in love with him. There's seriously something wrong with me.

When we were getting changed after basketball and he took his shirt off. A warm sensation brushed past me. I've seen him shirtless so many times but this time was different. It was the first time i saw he shirtless since i acknowledged my feelings for him.

Did i mention Sasuke isn't single? Yeah well he's got a girlfriend called Sakura and they've been dating for about six months. They're relationship was kinda cute at first but now it's a catastrophe waiting to happen. Sasuke's my best friend and i like seeing him with someone as amazing as Sakura but too be honest from the looks of things, they don't always seem very happy with each other. They argue A LOT and by the end of almost every argument, Sakura ends up in tears for some peculiar reason. Whenever i ask Sasuke what's wrong with Sakura, his only response is;

"she's just being a drama queen"

I usually tell Sasuke everything like when something is troubling me. Whenever anything is on my mind I would tell him. Right now, just looking at him feels like I'm lying to myself and what even hurts more is that if anything were to happen between us, it would completely break Sakura's heart and that would really pain me. Sakura's a really close friend of mine. Actually when we were younger, me, Sasuke and Sakura were best friends. We would do everything together then when we grew up, we started to grow apart and Sakura started hanging around girls so it was just me and Sasuke.

Anyways, i'm rambling on.

~Naruto