Blaine smiled as he rushed down to his first impromptu performance since he returned to the Warblers. It truly felt right to sing with them. He wasn't lost. With the New Directions, it had always been Blaine and Kurt or Kurt and Blaine. He'd lost his individuality, and it had taken him too long to realize that.
Now that he had... Well, he wasn't going to be going back anytime soon.
He walked down the stairs, still having an idiot smile on his face and a slight spring in his step.
Just as he stepped off the staircase, a hand on his shoulder stops him.
"Excuse me?" the boy said. Surprised, he turned back.
For a moment, he, irrationally, of course, thought it was Kurt.
In less than a second, that was out of his mind.
But the guy who'd stopped him was someone he knew.
It was also someone from McKinley.
"Finn?" he asked, incredulously.
"Um, hi. Can I ask you a question? I'm new here."
Blaine gritted his teeth, good mood nearly forgotten. He knew what they were trying to do, and he knew it wouldn't work.
Barely refraining from clenching his fists (and no, it wasn't because he was thinking of Kurt... Of course not...) he decided to play along.
Just like that day (it seemed like ancient history,) he held out a hand.
"My name's Blaine."
Finn looked at Blaine with astonishment. Blaine nearly rolled his eyes. Who's bright idea was it to send Finn, anyway? He truly didn't seem to understand what Blaine was doing.
After a moment, it seemed to occur to him and he took Blaine's outstretched hand.
"Finn... So what exactly is going on?"
"The Warblers," Blaine managed to spit out through his clenched teeth. "Every once in a while they throw an impromptu performance in the Senior Commons. Tends to shut the school down for a while."
Finn stared at Blaine, looking directly into his eyes. Blaine glared at him openly.
"So, wait, Glee club here is actually cool?"
"The Warblers are like rock stars," Blaine said coldly.
"Really?" Finn said. "They all seem like dappers to me. What, with their suits and ties... If only there was a bow tie somewhere in this mess."
Blaine shut his eyes and took a deep breath. He then turned away.
They didn't understand. He wanted to be Blaine Warbler.
He wanted to be himself.
And at McKinley, he couldn't do that.
So he left.
"What? No offers to show me? No telling me that you know a shortcut?"
Blaine just continued walking, ignoring Finn.
He could tell that Finn was following him, but really, he wanted nothing to do with it.
Blaine was past them. He was past Kurt and the New Directions. Once again, he was a Warbler. Where he belonged. And yes, he did miss Kurt.
He regretted their breakup every day - every minute... But Kurt wasn't going to destroy him. He was too strong for that.
Blaine felt a few tears beginning to prick at his eyes. Hastily, he blinked them back. He was done crying about Kurt...
But still, he couldn't help but wish it was Kurt that was following him.
He was done with Kurt. There was no Blaine and Kurt anymore. Kurt had been clear that there never would be again, either. So it was time to heal the scars. And that's what he planned to do.
Using the shortcut - the same one - he reached the Senior Commons in mere moments. As soon as he arrived, Finn commented,
"I stick out like a sore thumb." He seemed a bit uncomfortable saying it. Perhaps it truly was uncomfortable for him. Perhaps it was because the other Warblers were glaring at him.
"Next time don't come," Blaine growled. "You'll never fit in here." He swallowed thickly, trying not to think of Kurt as he said it.
Kurt would hate him for being this mean. Then again, Kurt already did hate him.
There was no problem in adding to that.
That way, he wouldn't try to pull Blaine down again.
"And vice versa," Finn said angrily.
"...What?" Blaine said. He was honestly confused. It seemed to overtake his anger. Finn's statement really hadn't made sense. Kurt would have –
That didn't matter.
"You don't fit in here. Not anymore. You belong with us."
Blaine opened his mouth for a scathing remark, but the Warblers, some shooting questioning glances at him, began the song.
"I disagree. Now, if you'll excuse me," Blaine said quickly. He turned his back on Finn and began the song.
"Uh-ooh Uh-oh oh, oh,"
"There's a place that I know
It's not pretty there and few have ever gone."
Finn seemed a bit surprised with the song choice - or because Blaine was singing it straight to him.
"If I show it to you now Will it make you run away?"
Well, apparently, Finn wasn't going to run away from his dark side.
That wasn't surprising. After all, his dark side had been at McKinley. He'd lost himself. Now, back at Dalton, he'd already turned on the light.
"Will you stay Even if it hurts?"
Finn nodded, staring into Blaine's eyes. Blaine glared at him. He'd already gotten hurt. At McKinley. He was safe at Dalton. It was better at Dalton.
"Even if I try to push you out Will you return?"
Blaine tore his gaze from Finn, preferring to just focus on the song.
"And remind me who I really am Please remind me who I really ammmmm."
He didn't even need to glance at Finn to know what he would be mouthing. Unfortunately, Blaine had already found who he was, and he wouldn't lose that. Ever.
"Everybody's got a dark side Do you love me? Can you love mine?"
Now, he looked back at Finn. He stared into the other boy's eyes. Blaine had had friends in the New Directions. He didn't want to lose them. Finn didn't move as their eyes met. Blaine couldn't read his gaze.
"Nobody's a picture perfect But we're worth it You know that we're worth it."
Blaine tried to forget Finn and to get into the song a bit more. The other Warblers had definitely noticed something was going on, and he did not want them to think that his loyalty was divided. Even if it was.
"Please remind me who I really am, yeah!"
The other Warblers seemed a bit relieved as he forgot Finn and just sang.
"Everybody's got a dark side Do you love me? Can you love mine?"
"Nobody's a picture perfect But we're worth it You know that we're worth it."
Blaine smiled at the other Warblers, who sent him a range of grins back. He was slightly annoyed about how flirtatious Sebastian's was, but he also knew Finn had to have seen it. So he winked back.
Take that Kurt.
"Will you love me? Even with my dark side."
A small glance at Finn told him that Finn had seen the wink, and he looked pissed.
"Don't run away Don't run away (Don't run away)."
He looked back at Finn. This time, he kept his eyes on Finn for more than a moment. Finn was obviously beginning to get angry. Blaine could read it easily in his posture.
"Don't run away Don't run away."
Now, Blaine was staring at Finn, even stepping closer to him. He was stopped in the middle of the room, and Hunter pushed him into line with the other Warblers.
"Just promise me you will stay (Just promise me you will stay) Promise me you will stay (Promise me you will stay) Everybody's got a dark side Do you love me? Can you love mine? Nobody's a picture perfect."
He jumped up onto the coffee table, looking over the Warblers and Finn at the other students.
It hadn't just been the Warblers that had welcomed him back.
"But we're worth it You know that we're worth it Will you love me?"
Blaine was staring at Finn, waiting for him to show some sort of reaction. Other than anger, he already knew about that.
"Even with my dark side? Don't run away Don't run away."
He stepped towards Finn, his voice fading away.
Immediately after the applause ended, he grabbed Finn's arm and walked away, pulling Finn with him. Sebastian and Hunter followed.
He sat down in the same place he had when he'd met Kurt. Blaine shoved Finn to the other side, and Sebastian and Hunter sat down on his either side.
"What?" Finn asked. "No coffee before you beat me up for spying?"
"Why did you come?" Blaine asked, not even acknowledging Finn's first statement.
"To convince you to come back. We're your friends, Blaine. We embrace your dark side. The Warblers nearly blinded you because they didn't accept you."
"No," Blaine said with a grim smile. "You accepted me because of Kurt. And my dark side? That was McKinley. McKinley is my dark side."
"You're not the same here, Blaine-"
"That's right. This is me, Finn. This is me without Kurt. I don't think anyone at McKinley ever saw me as that."
It truly was him without Kurt. He was dealing with not having Kurt.
"We all see you as that, Blaine-"
"Really? I was never invited anywhere that Kurt wasn't. Now that Kurt's gone, my purpose for being in the New Directions is too."
With that, Blaine stood and left, knowing Hunter and Sebastian would follow.
"Kurt would be ashamed of who you've become, Blaine," Finn said as he left.
"Really?" Blaine snapped, turning back around. "Then make sure you tell him about it - all of it, including this." He felt reckless and angry.
Turning to Sebastian, he stepped towards him and kissed him passionately.
For a second, Sebastian was stiff with surprise, but then he melted into the kiss, his lips becoming soft and sweet against his own.
"Tell that to Kurt," Blaine spat, breaking off the kiss. Finn was frozen, mouth slightly open, in shock.
"Blaine-" he began. Blaine whipped around and stalked out of the room, the other two Warblers following.
"Oh - and I'll bring the Nationals trophy by McKinley tomorrow. They must miss it; after all, it is their only one."
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"Finn!" Sam exclaimed as he walked into glee practice. "How'd it go, yesterday? With Blaine?"
"It was a disaster," Finn said with a groan.
"So... He's not coming back?" Tina asked.
"No," Finn said. "He truly did act like one of the Warblers there..."
"Something happened?" Tina put in, raising an eyebrow.
"I was desperate because he was leaving and hadn't listened to me. So I told him Kurt would be ashamed with him. And he turned around, right there and kissed Sebastian. Then he told me to 'tell that to Kurt.'"
"He really is gone," Sam put in, melancholy.
"Yeah," Finn sighed.
"What about the trophy?"Artie asked.
"He told me he'd bring it by today-"
"That sounds more like the Blaine we knew..." Ryder said hopefully.
"-because we must miss it with it being our only one," Finn finished, ignoring Ryder's perspective.
There was a low chuckle from the doorway. Finn turned around and saw Blaine standing there, in his Dalton uniform.
"Talking about me?" he said with a small smirk.
True to his word, he had brought the Nationals trophy.
"Why, Blaine?" Tina asked.
"Because McKinley is my dark side. Kurt was a light for a while, but he burnt out. So I left."
"I'm surprised you didn't bring Sebastian with you. He's your leader, after all. I never thought you'd stoop so low as to have him for a leader."
"He actually isn't, so I'm glad to fulfill your expectations." His voice was dripping sarcasm.
"Yeah, because you didn't betray them when you left," Ryder said sarcastically, rolling his eyes.
"I'm sorry?" Blaine said, raising his eyebrows. "And this is coming from the one who can't read?"
Ryder's eyes widened.
"H-how do you know about that?" Ryder stood, beginning to look angry.
"Down boy," Blaine said with a smirk. "Please, you've used every excuse in the book to get people to read things aloud. I didn't need to be told."
"And you never said anything?" Finn asked, quietly. It was clear that he was wondering if he knew Blaine at all.
"Of course not. I told you before, Finn. I was nothing here without Kurt," Blaine's smile died as he spat out Kurt's name.
"You said Sebastian isn't the leader?" Artie asked, changing the subject before things escalated further.
"No," Blaine said. "We have someone better. So here's your trophy. Enjoy it. It's the only one you'll ever see."
He set the trophy down and nodded curtly at everyone before spinning around and leaving.
As soon as the door banged shut behind him, Sam whistled.
"And we're sure that wasn't Sebastian in disguise, right?"
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Hey, guys! I know it's been a while since I updated anything. And I doubt anyone wanted to see a new fic from me. But this was stuck in my head.
I've recently had a tragedy in my life, and I find myself unable to write anything really pertaining to death at the moment. Which happens to be most of my Harry Potter fics.
I'm working through it, really.
So, with Glee. I've just gotten into it because of Darren Criss (I'm sort of obsessed with him.)
I don't know much about the characters. (I've only seen clips and read a few wiki pages.)
I've obviously made Blaine OOC. It's a different way for him to deal with Kurt leaving.
If any of the other characters are really OOC, then I apologize.
There are a few things I don't understand though: I get that Sebastian likes Blaine, and I understand it's one-sided. But if Sebastian likes Blaine, then why did Sebastian hit Blaine with that Slushie with rock salt? I think I must be missing something.
Also, what happened when Blaine transferred to McKinley with the flaming piano? That has me confused. The cheerleader's (Cheerio's?) dancing with him poured fuel on it. They couldn't have meant for that to happen with the cigarette. And wasn't a girl from glee pouring fuel onto it? I'm really confused about that.
So, please review. And tell me if this is worth continuing.
Disclaimer: I don't own Glee.