A/N: It has been three months since the final battle. Where has Billie been?

Disclaimer: I do not own Charmed and I'm making no profit from this.

"Tell me!"

"No."

Crack.

Scream.

This pattern has been repeated for several days now. They like mixing it up, after three months torture gets repetitive.

"Tell me!" The hooded figure hissed.

"Never."

Crack.

Scream.

The whip has opened up wounds that were beginning to heal. It was turning the delicate skin on her back into patchwork and still she won't tell them anything.

"Tell me."

It has gotten to the point where she can't handle the pain. She can't speak because of it. She has gotten to the point where she wants to tell him just to end it, but she can't, won't. As long as she's the only one getting hurt it doesn't matter.

'I deserve it anyway.' A small voice in the back of her mind tells her.

"TELL ME!" He wants an answer so he'll get one. She shakes her head.

Crack.

Scream.

Crack.

Scream.

Crack.

Scream.

Crack.

Darkness.

It's better when she's pain stops, the torture stops. She can go to her happy place where no one is hurting her, a place where she doesn't need saving. For in dreams, she enters a world that is entirely her own. It's only a matter of time before she will wake and have to deal with the harsh truths of reality but for now, in her unconscious dreaming state, she can escape it all.

~o0o~

"She's a tough witch, I'll give her that." The hooded figure said as he stood over the unconscious blondes' battered body. He kicked her in the ribs breaking two of them.

"That'll sting like a bitch when she wakes." Another voice spoke from just outside the cage.

"Good. We've been doing this for three months when won't the stupid cow give in?!"

"She's protecting them."

"Why? They shunned her. She chose them over her sister and they left her. Kicked her out of their lives and never looked back. If it were you would you protect them?"

"No, but then if it were me they would all have a fire-ball to the back." The second demon said with a smirk on his face.

"So why won't she give in? It would stop all of this." The first demon was clearly angry and took it out on the small blonde again by stomping on her hand breaking at least one finger.

"Maybe she thinks she deserves it?"

"Why the fuck would she think that?"

"She chose her sister over the Charmed Ones. The people who helped her. She chose evil over them, maybe she isn't talking because she wants to be punished, maybe she thinks the only way to make it right, is this."

"Stupid humans with their fucked up logic and morals. Stupid bitch." The first demon said spitting at the ground near her.

"Let's go, you can continue this when she wakes."

~o0o~

"Billie open your eyes?" A soft voice called to her through the fog of her mind. Billie opened her eyes to see herself in what looked to be a beach.

"Where am I?" She asked turning around to see a women in a white dress smiling at her. "Who are you?"

"We are in your subconscious and I am Patty Halliwell."

"So you're Piper, Phoebe and Paige's' mum?"

"Yes dear." Patty said smiling.

"Why are you here?"

"To tell you that you are being ridiculous. You need to get out of their, you need to let someone help you."

"WHY?" Billie shouted. "I deserve it. I chose my evil sister over the side of good. I chose evil over your daughters! I tried to kill them! And then, then I killed my sister! The only family I had left and I KILLED HER! I DESERVE THIS! TO BE BEAT! TO BE KILLED WOULD BE TOO EASY I DESERVE TO BE TORTURED TO DEATH!" Billie took a deep breath in after her rant and looked out to the sea. Sighing she sat down in the sand and crossed her legs, Patty followed suit.

"No one deserves this. You made a mistake albeit a big one but so have many others. You just got your sister back, you didn't want to believe their was a chance she was working with the Triad. It is not your fault."

"Why are you here? Why do you even care?" Billie asked blinking away her tears.

"Because you need someone, Billie, you do. You need someone to hold you and tell you that this, this does not make your mistake go away. The only thing this does is ruin you, destroy you and in the end it will probably kill you."

"Maybe that's what I want." Billie said looking far away into the nothingness. "Maybe I want to die, be nothing and just not exist anymore. No one will miss me, heck I wouldn't miss me."

"People would miss you Billie, you have to realize that. Do you not think Paige would be distraught at loosing not only her first charge but her closest friend, do you not think Piper would miss your sarcastic comments whilst fighting demons and miss having someone to teach, someone who looks up to her and do you not think that if you died it would break Phoebe's heart when all she wants to do is fix you and go back to a time where you were all happy. They will miss you Billie."

"So what? They'd mourn for me for a little while I'd give 'em two weeks at tops before they go back to their happy lives and forget me. They should just forget me."

The peaceful beach scene suddenly turned a blinding white and then back.

"What was that?" Billie asked nervously.

"You're waking up. I'll be here when you come back Billie. Unfortunately I can't tell my daughters where you are until you realise that this is all for nothing."

"Looks like you'll never be able to tell them then." Billie said with a glad smile.

"I wouldn't be to sure about that Billie. I will see you shortly, think about everything I've said. You know in your heart it is true."

~o0o~

Billie opened her eyes and took a deep gulp of air which ended with her choking from the pain in her ribs.

"Your awake... finally. Are you going to tell me what I want to know?"

"No." Billie said defiantly.

"Very well." The demon made a low voltage energy ball and threw it at her. Billie bit her lip trying not to scream, it failed.

"Tell me you stupid cow!"

Billie took a shaky breath in. "No!"

The demon roared and threw energy ball after energy ball after energy ball at her. Screams tore out of Billie throat making her want to throw up. Due to the pain of the energy balls, the screams and the headache she is causing herself. Billie collapsed and landed face first into the dirt on the floor. The demon grabbed a handful of her hair and yanked her up.

"Just tell me what I want to know." He whispered into her ear, his hot sticky breath on her neck making her shudder and want to be sick.

"Tell me Billie and it will all be over." He purred into her ear. Billie closed her eyes tightly and shook her head. The demon kissed her neck.

"Come on Billie, you know what's going to happen Billie. Tell me and you can stop it all." Billie shook her head again and squeezed her eyes even tighter.

"Very well then." He said as he started to take of the remains of her once large and baggy top.

"Last chance to tell me." He said running his hands up and down her sides. Billie was crying now but still refused to make a sound, shaking her head one more time he realised she wasn't going to change her mind.

Two hours later Billie was alone in her cage. She tried to move herself so that her back was to the wall but the pain she felt soon stopped that. She managed to put her clothes back on and ignored all the blood coming from her. Curling up into a small ball Billie cried, hating herself for it. She hated how weak she was, hated that she was crying when she deserved this and hated herself for how dirty she felt. Sobbing hysterically she hated herself for the pain she felt in her ribs because she couldn't control herself. She hated herself for not being able to control her breath and making it too hard to breath. Her tiny form racking with sobs that looked like they could break her as she hyperventilated.

She willed herself to stop but her will power just wasn't strong enough, although she did manage to calm her breathing down and eventually she cried herself to sleep.

~o0o~

"Billie honey are you okay?" Patty asked. Billie was collapsed on the ground still crying.

"Billie what happened."

"I deserved it." Billie whispered.

"I promise you Billie whatever they did to you, you did not deserve it."

"It hurt, it hurt so much." Billie whispered. Patty sat on the ground next to Billie and pulled her into her lap. The young witch didn't fight it and let Patty stroke her hair whilst making shushing noises.

"Do you see it now Billie? You don't deserve this, nobody does."

"I do." Billie said quietly through her sobs.

"No honey, no you don't I wish you would see this so that it can all stop. Please, Billie, let me make this stop."

Billie who was still sobbing hysterically only shook her head in answer.

"They still care Billie." Patty whispered.

"How can they care if I don't? How can they not hate me when I hate myself? I deserve this. I do." She whispered the last part as if trying to convince herself.

"How much do you have to get hurt before you realise that you don't deserve any of this?"

They both sat in a relative silence only broken by Billie's soft sobs, staring at the dark sky of Billie's happy beach, that seems to hold no happiness for her. She closed her eyes and could still feel his hands all over her, feel what he did to her, feel the horrible pain she felt throughout the torturous act. She quickly opened her eyes in a panic only to have Patty quickly comfort her.

"I want it to stop, but I deserve it. I know I do."

"No Billie, you don't please understand that. You don't deserve to be hurt no child does, and yes Billie you are still a child you need to be looked after please Billie think about it. You. Do. Not. Deserve. This." She told her punctuating each word.

"I do. I do. I do." Billie repeated more to herself than to Patty. Before everything went a blinding white and Billie woke up.

A/N: So how did you like it?