Rin: just saying I was tired and bored. I have no idea what I was writing my hands moved on their own so please don't be mean.

Deak: I think its cute.

Lavi: I seem so weak! .

Deak: and so cute

Lavi: shut up! /

I do not own d gray man

"Deak"

Dreams

"Normal"

Blood, everywhere. Screams feel the air. Gun shots. Watching as people bleed to death doing nothing, wishing to help them, save their lives, to do SOMETHING! Nothing, I can do nothing. As they call to me to help them survive just so they can continue to kill each other in a stupid war. Humans are stupid.

"LAVI!" Watching them die one by one. "HELP ME!" Lenalee screams as Allen dies, Kanda glares at me wondering why I didn't help. I just walk away saying "Bookmen only observe nothing more." Then Lenalee screams as Tyki rips her heart out, Kanda try's to help, but ends up being killed by road in her dream realm. They stare at me. I give them a blank look. "You're not going to fight us" Tyki ask. I shake my head 'no'.

All of a sudden I see myself standing in front of me. "You are a bookman do not forget." Before I could say anything he stabbed me. "Never forget."

"Wake up! Lavi!" I suddenly sat up scaring Bookman. He stares curiously. "Another bad dream?" He asked. I shake my head 'Yes' He sighs and walks out of the room. It's not the first time I had dreams like that. I had dreams like that since the first war I seen. But they had been getting worse then the last.

I change and headed to the cafeteria, and asked for my usual. I went and sat down. "Don't forget." I looked around and found no one there. What was that? "Lavi!" I jumped at seeing Lenalee. "Are you ok?" Lenalee screams as Tyki rips her heart out. "Y-yea I'm fine." I replied, getting up and running out of the cafeteria. I ran to the library. When I got there ran to the back where no one ever goes. When I got to the corner I sat down and brought my knees to my chest. 'I can't take it!' I started to cry into my arms wishing I could tell someone. "Lavi, look at me." I look up to see my 48th persona: Deak.

"You are a bookman do not forget." Before I could say anything he stabbed me. "Never forget." I try to get away from him wishing the bookshelf's to just suck me in. "I won't hurt you Lavi." Deak embraced Lavi into a hug. "I'm sorry, I wish I could stop those dreams for you." I look at him. He looks exactly like me but instead of an emerald eye he has a teal color eye. He kisses away my tears saying he won't hurt me and he's sorry. "I'm scared." I admitted to Deak. His grips tighten. "I'm know, Lavi have you ever heard of narcissism?" I sniffled. I nodded my head yes. "Good, because I love you." Deak softly kissed my lips and I pressed closer to him. "I know that." Je gives me a confused look. "We're the same person remember that's why it's called narcissism." We both laugh.

"If you have any more nightmares come to me alright? Now go to your friends." I get up to leave but before I got too far I turned and ran back to Deak and kissed him and said "I love you too." Then I ran out of the library with my usual grin.

Rin: done!

Deak and Lavi: ….. Weird

Rin: SHUT UP IT'S 1:40AM I'M TIERED!

Lavi: yes yes

Deak and Lavi: (pushes me in bed) THEN SLEEP

Rin: please read and review (SLEEPS)