A/N: I am. SOOOOOO. Sorry for the last chapter... I will try to make up for it with future chapters. I'm just a bit out of whack, but it's a work in progress, as everything in life is.

Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter, that's all J.K. Rowling's stuff, I just love it too much and have mutated it to my own will.

Warning: Yaoi, gay love, smut. I don't really know what you prefer, I just know that if you get mad at me at this point for anything I write, it's probably your own problem.

THIS CHAPTER HAS CHANGED.

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Harry sits with his weight shifted to the side while writing to his friends. "Sore?" I ask as I observe from where I was lounging on the bed, reading. We'd come back to the manor to be away from the school and all of its chaos for a while, but we were just as isolated here as we were there, much to my mother's displeasure, so she kept planning things for us all to do at least once a day. Today it had been swimming since the days would soon be growing too cool. It was nice, but when we came in, Harry and I showered and went about our other business. We had eaten lunch outside and dinner was in another hour.

We all talked about the fun we had outside today, and noted how exhausted we all were from the exercise. We all agreed that turning in early sounded good, so dinner was shorter than usual and we all said goodnight before seeking out our rooms.

Harry and I fell asleep before I woke still before dawn and gazed down at the beauty by my side. His hair is falling out of the braid and yet it looks so gorgeous still. I pull the tie from the end and carefully untangle the braid before carding my hands through it. A small sigh alerts me that Harry is mostly awake now and I kiss his nose softly.

Harry's emerald eyes blink up at me as I gaze lovingly down at him. "Shower?" I inquire simply.

"Mhm," Harry murmurs simply and wraps his arms around my neck.

I smile and lift him up, carrying him to the shower and we enjoy the warm water over our bodies for a lot longer than we'd usually have time for. I take tender care in washing him and he returns this favor with small kisses to my chest as he washes it. "I love you," I purr out to him.

"Love you too, Drae," he whispers back when he's finished and he simply wraps his arms around my neck. We dry off and get dressed before going to get some breakfast.

Sirius is already seated though he is the only occupant of the room, reading the Daily Prophet. "Good morning boys," he greets with a smile as we seat ourselves.

"Where are my parents?" I ask, thinking it odd that they aren't here already.

"They should be joining us shortly, there was some meeting they had to attend," The ex-auror stated.

Not a moment later, the Malfoy parents entered and took their seats for breakfast as well. "Before you ask, Draco, dear. Your father and I were with Arista and Dumbledore, Pansy's punishment is being seen to. She will be stripped of her magic, obviously removed from Hogwarts permanently, and will be left with minimal provisions to survive in the muggle world. Some thought this overly cruel, but if she can't show respect for creatures or avoid abusing her magic, she will not have access to either." Narcissa explained.

"Seems fair enough I suppose." Draco sniffed.

"It avoids loss of life, although the Veela Queen or Arista would be more than pleased to spill blood from what we gathered." Narcissa admonished slightly.

"I get it, really, I just... I wish she could understand the terror I felt, the anger and hatred are secondary to thinking I could have lost Harry." The teen hums as he combs a hand through Harry's hair.

"We wish she could too."

Without another word, breakfast occurs in silence before Draco excuses himself and Harry and they are wandering through the gardens, silent and holding hands.

"I love you, Drae," Harry whispers.

"I love you too, Harry." Is the response before the two are holding each other close in the shelter of one of the gazebos as a crisp early fall breeze blows across them.

"We'll be okay." Harry added.

"That we will."

"Can we go back tomorrow?"

"If that's what you want. But no study sessions outside of our rooms, Granger and Weasley will have to make the trip down." Draco allowed.

"Deal." Harry said with a grin. He got on his toes and kissed his Veela softly.

The rest of the day went by peacefully and the teens alerted their guardians that they would be returning to the school, as well as writing to Dumbledore to inform him so that the floo would be open for them.

Harry was wrapped safely in Draco's arms and wings and since the two had been left to their own entertainment today, they still had some energy so they just rested there and talked into the later hours of the night. "Blaise seems to like the twins, and I'd say he likes one more than the other, but honestly... the two are around each other too often to tell if he has a preference."

"It wouldn't surprise me if Blaise were into both of them, Harry." Draco chuckled.

"No, me either, especially since it also wouldn't surprise me if the twins were into each other." He added with an awkward look.

"You don't mean-?" Draco gasped.

"I do. They're really affectionate towards one another, no one else really sees it but Ginny and myself. Seems that the twins trust us more... Maybe I could talk to them for Blaise... if he ever needs me too." Harry hummed in amusement.

"That's... Quite interesting. I'm not judging, but it's not something I'm used to seeing obviously." Draco mused.

"No, me either, but to each their own." Harry shrugged before yawning and curling closer to Draco.

"Right, we should get some sleep. We have to get up early so that Mother can check us over once more before sending us off, and one more thing, would you mind eating here instead of in the Great Hall? I'm still not good in big crowds I don't think. Classes shouldn't be a problem, however." Draco prodded.

"Sure, we can eat here." Harry agreed with another sleepy yawn before he was drifting off, his Veela following him into dreamland.

The two woke up and got ready with meticulous care and ate breakfast with their guardians. "You let us know if you need anything. And Draco, I know how difficult your nature can be, but you also have to try and control it." Narcissa mused as she stood from her seat once everyone had finished their breakfast.

"I know, Mother. It's just sometimes too hard. But yes, I will try my best. We'll hopefully not have to see you guys until Holiday," Draco hummed as he hugged his mother, father, and even Sirius, with Harry following down the line.

"Never let them take your wand off you again, or always have a way to get it back," Sirius whispered before sharing a spell that would almost always reacquire one's wand when manually disarmed, though it wouldn't reverse an expelliarmus.

Harry grinned at his Godfather turned adopted father and gave him an extra hug before he and Draco had to be going or they would have to rush to their first class of the day.

"Goodbye!" Draco and Harry chimed together before calling out their quarters in Hogwarts.

The two grabbed their bags and books before heading off to Double Potions that they had today. Severus gave something akin to a smile to the pair before beginning the lesson in his usual drawl. Harry carefully prepped the ingredients as was listed in the textbook while Draco was carefully adding the right amounts and stirring the potion until it was just time and stirring that was required for the rest of the first portion. Then they had to add more ingredients which were prepared, where possible, before hand, or quickly done up for the more time sensitive ingredients. All was well even though Harry had begun to feel less than at the peak of his health. He let Draco know as quietly as possible so that his Veela would be aware if anything happened. He found his hands trembling as he was trying to slice the mandrake leaves so he carefully put down the knife and traded jobs with Draco.

"Love, you're really pale. Perhaps we should see if we can take a grade cut so that we don't blow up the class," Draco tried to coax.

"No. I'll be fine. We're almost done anyway. I think it's just all the fumes in here are getting to be just a bit too much. Once we finish I'll ask if I can step out." Harry assured his mate.

"If you're certain." Draco said though he kept a more watchful eye on Harry. Noticing that he wasn't missing another beat since they traded jobs.

Without any warning, however, Harry leaned forward heavily, nearly catching the cauldron and tipping it only for Severus to charm it as he rushed over towards the swooning teen.

Draco however, caught him first and helped settle him to the ground. "He thinks it might be the fumes, but... no one else is having an adverse reaction."

"No, but then again nothing involving Mister Potter is normal, now is it. You two up to Pomfrey immediately. Your potion is nearly perfect and at the rate you were going I wouldn't expect anything less. If you insist, I will put the potion under stasis for you two to complete when you are both well." Severus directed even as he charmed the potion.

Draco nodded and swept Harry up quickly and got them out of the room, hoping to see some improvement in his mate, but finding none other than his mate now unconscious, hopefully asleep really, he hurried his steps and made it into the infirmary with no incidents. Poppy Pomfrey was treating a first year with the flu so Draco did as he was directed and took a seat with his little mate careful cradled against him.

"What seems to be the trouble, other than an exhausted looking Mister Potter?" The woman asks as she approaches.

"We were in potions and Harry began feeling unwell which developed into small tremors in his hand, and eventually he swooned and fell unconscious." Draco relayed the information to the best of his abilities.

"And what where you brewing?" She asks cautiously.

"Dreamless Sleep," Draco replied.

"Not usually one to have adverse reactions in most students while being brewed, unless there are allergies of course. Though Harry doesn't have any that I know of to those ingredients. I have known multiple students who came complaining about being extremely tired through the rest of their day due to the fumes, but nothing like this" She mused. She cast a few diagnostic and frowned when she got nothing. "Lay him out on the bed, and let's wait for Severus." She hummed before pulling up her own chair and trying to think of things she could test him for.

"Poppy, what's wrong with him?" Severus inquired upon entering the infirmary.

"I can't quite tell. Please, if you'd come speak privately with me," She directed, pulling him into her little office. "Severus, I know you are Draco's godfather, so I'd hope you have some insight into their situation, and perhaps more importantly any details Draco might be missing?"

"I'm fairly certain you know as much as I about what happened in the classroom, and you are already aware Draco is a Veela, though I don't know of any state that a mate should be fainting like this... unless..." Severus froze before sweeping himself from the room and casting a very particular detection charm. He puzzled over the results of it and tried to ignore Draco's concern. "I'll tell you in a moment," He assured his best friends' child. He spoke with Pomfrey in hushed voices a few beds down before sighing and taking the seat abandoned by Poppy. "Draco, I know you two have been... sexually active. And I'm not saying that that is a bad thing. Two boys of your age, I'd be more concerned if you weren't. I also know you've been trying to be safe-"

"Severus, is he-"

"Let me finish. You've been trying to be safe and it's been successful even to this point. On that topic, however. There seems to be a part of Harry that wants children rather badly. Perhaps even unaware of his own desire for this as well, considering today's events. I believe this is a rare event found in persons of strong magic and involved with magical mates that is often termed, false pregnancy. His body is... rather prepared for a child, and found that while not harmful to adolescent and adult witches and wizards, the fumes in the classroom would be toxic to a fetus or baby. His body hoped to react so that he could be removed from the room... He is not pregnant, the scan I did was clear enough about that, but I wouldn't be surprised if he doesn't act like he is in his first trimester over the next few weeks. He will be confused and concerned, but if you are honest with him, and above all, assure him that you want children, but now is not the time, I believe the best outcome will be him getting through these weeks and returning to relative normalcy. Protection, however, will be even more important." Severus explained as clearly as he could while his own brain was recalling information and trying to relay it.

"I think I understand. He wants a baby, though perhaps not consciously, and so his body is both preparing itself in the hopes of a baby, and as though he were with child already?" Draco said in an abbreviated sense.

"Yes," Severus hummed as he looked down at the child of Lily and James.

"I'll be sure to tell him, and be reassuring and delicate about it," Draco said as he carded a hand through dark, locks that had fallen from the braid sometime in the past hour.

"Good. I'll leave you two now," Severus sighed.

"If... If I can't explain it right, can we come see you?" Draco said as he grabbed at his godfather's sleeve.

"Of course. I would like to see the two of you regardless of your competence." Severus chuckled.

Harry fussed for a moment as he came to and blinked up at Draco in confusion while Severus slipped away. "Drae," He said sleepily.

"If you are still tired, sleep, Harry. I'll still be here."

"Not sleepy, just trying to wake up properly. Wh- what happened in there? Do you know?" He asked as he managed to sit up.

"Professor Snape was just here explaining it to me. He called it a false pregnancy, said it usually happened to powerful witches and wizards with creature mates. It's where some part of you wanted a baby bad enough that your brain began going through beginning stages, both in preparation and to imitate the first few months of pregnancy," Draco explained. "You got dizzy and fainted because that would be a normal reaction for a pregnant person because the body is defending the baby inside. But... again, your not pregnant." He explained and tried not to sound either too relieved or too put out.

Harry, however, looked quite crestfallen. "I'm not... I'm not pregnant... but my body thinks I am?" He asked carefully.

"Right, but.. more than your body thinks you are, it wants to be, and Merlin can I not wait to see you swell with child, but you know now isn't a good time, right, Harry?" Draco reassured.

"Right." Harry agreed softly before he was wrapped tight with Draco.

"You're going to be kind of hormonal I think for a few weeks, probably get morning sickness, maybe start some cravings, but it will all go away, and we'll just have to wait for it to be real," Draco hummed as he kissed Harry's face.

"Yeah," The emerald eyed teen said before crying silently, a hand wrapped around his middle where a baby would one day, hopefully, grow. Draco laid his own hand over Harry's and hummed a little lullaby.

"We'll have children, and we'll get through this." Draco said both to himself and to his precious mate. "We'll get through this."

A/N: I'm a sap and I needed plot progression. So... Bitchy/hormonal Harry in the works. Probably lots of tears especially because they don't get the reward of a baby at the end of it, they just have to tough it out and continue through school until they are both ready.