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"What did you say?" Alex spat out as she bit the inside of her cheek. They were both standing there in the kitchen staring at each other. "I'm pregnant" didn't come out any easier the second time, and once Alex's jaw set she could feel the tears coming. "I can't believe this how did this happen?" He put his hands on his head, and Jo's chest started to ache again. "Alex I…" "How could you do this?" She suddenly felt like she had been slapped in the face, and soon her breathing became more erratic. "How did I do this? What is that supposed to mean?" The last part came out weaker than she wanted to, and she cursed under her breath for letting him get to her.
"You know where I am right now, what I'm doing. Where the hell is a baby supposed to fit in the picture?" He walked towards her-over the glass, and soon Jo found herself pleading with him to be careful, and watch what he was doing. "I need some air I'll clean this up later." He said with a door slam. Then it was just Jo, and her empty thoughts, in a very empty room.
The next morning Alex still hadn't come home, and Jo didn't know if she should be pissed, or worried. She was in the middle of debating when the door slammed. "Alex?" She cried out hopefully. "No it's just me little one." Cristina said tiredly, and made her way towards the coffee. "You and Karev have a fight or something?" She asked bluntly. "Something like that." Jo mumbled. "Well if I know Alex, which I do, I'm assuming it's his fault. So what happened?" Jo ignored the giddiness on her residents face, and before she could say anything the smell of Cristina's eggs were under her nose, and the bathroom was calling her name.
"Don't like eggs do ya little one?" She heard Yang call out. Jo rested against the wall, and wanted to cry. "Damn morning sickness."
Alex was busy with rounds later that afternoon when Meredith, and Yang suddenly double-teamed him. "What'd you do to Wilson she's like some crying, yacking baby." Cristina said with a chuckle. "Don't' say baby." He replied gruffly. "Oh come on you don't…" Yang stopped. "Oh no you really got her knocked up didn't you?" "Alex!" Meredith cried out. "What it's not like I woke up last week, and was like let's have a baby!" He snapped back. "Well have you talked to her? She didn't come into work today." Meredith asked as they were heading towards the cafeteria. "I…talked to her…we didn't say much." He mumbled as Cristina hit him with a banana. "She's at our house crying! She was when I got in, and was when I left. What'd you do?"
"Alex…" Meredith said in her mom voice, and soon Alex was throwing his hands up in the air as they sat down. "I can't take this you two are not my mothers. I already have one crazy chick at home I don't need anymore." "Alex! Wilson is not crazy, and I don't know what's up your ass but I know you, and you probably said some mean comment, and left her by herself."
Alex lowered his eyes to his food, and sighed. This was not what he was expecting this morning. "I walked out on her okay so there's your typical Alex." Meredith looked at Cristina then put her hand over his. "She needs you now more than ever."
He sighed once more. "But what if I don't wanna do this? I'm around kid's everyday, and I never thought I'd have one of my own. I'm not ready for this."
"Your never ready. That's the beauty about having them."
Jo was on her second pint of Ben and Jerry's when she heard her phone buzz. It was nighttime, and she had spent most of the day sleeping-ignoring the sudden texts from her boyfriend. Out of spite she had even locked the doors, and hidden all the spare keys. She wasn't sure what she was going to do once everyone came home, but that was for later. For now the baby wanted ice cream, and ice cream was what it was gonna get.
"Wilson open up!" She heard Alex cry out. Apparently later had come early.
She had tried to pretend like she couldn't hear him, but by the fourth knock he was getting on her nerves. She didn't care if this was his house; this was his baby inside of her. If that didn't matter neither did letting him in.
"Intern open the door!" Yang called out, and soon Jo appeared. She could have sworn Alex tried to smile at her, and suddenly she didn't wanna be strong. He always did this to her. It was that damn charm that had gotten them in this situation the first place. "She comes in not you." Jo said across the glass door. Cristina smirked and slid inside. "Should have been nicer spawn." Alex rolled his eyes, and looked over to his girlfriend standing across him. The door acting as her barrier.
"Jo I…" She cut him off. "No you don't get to talk. You're the one that left me last night; you're the one who said this was my fault. So no you don't get to talk." By now she was starting to cry, and Alex couldn't help but feel like the worst person in the world. He had been scared, hell he still was scared, but Jo was his life now. It took the two of them to make this baby. It would take two of them to raise it.
He was not his father.
"Jo I love you. I've always loved you, and I know I'm not the easiest guy to be with. I shouldn't have blamed you." He stops for a minute to see if she's actually listening, and she is. Her cries have gone softer, and she's folded her arms across her chest. "When you said you were pregnant I panicked. I decided a long time I wasn't going to be the guy with the wife, and kids. I gave up."
Jo's still quiet, and he's wondering if this was even the right thing to do. She probably hated him. "This baby is a blessing it came from you, and it came from me. So I want this…all of this…with you." The cries are back, and he's wondering what he did wrong now when suddenly he hears her laugh. "You sounded pretty mushy there Doctor." Tears are still rolling down her face, but their good tears, and for the first time in awhile she feels safe.
"You wanna let me in now?" Alex pleads across the glass. Jo smiles, and once he's back in she let's him wrap his arms around her, and kiss her forehead.
The faint smell of coffee, and old spice fills her nose. She's home again.
"I'm fat." Jo grumbles as she reaches for the cereal. "Your not fat your having a baby." Alex laughs as he reminds her. It had just seemed like yesterday when she told him, and now here they were. Four months along, and still chuggin'. Jo looked down at her stomach, and sighed. It had grown overnight, (literally she kept telling him) and now it looked like she had swallowed a small basketball. She was huge.
"I think you look great. Plus your boobs are bigger." Alex claimed. Jo rolled her eyes, and pretended to laugh. Not only was this pregnancy thing wearing on her, but it was cutting into her surgery hours as well. Alex had turned into a total stickler for all the pregnancy rules. No caffeine, no extra sugar. Some days she thinks he's just gonna show up in the O.R, and force-feed her, or something.
But other days (when Jo was in a good mood) he was the most perfect person on the planet. She'd look at him while they were together, and couldn't even wrap her mind around the fact she was his (and vice versa). He chose her. After all the women in his life he chose her, and now they were starting a family.
Even with him saying he was scared all the time she knew he was lightening up. He'd brush her belly after a long day without seeing each other, or rub her back when she gave him the "it's been kicking all day" look. At night he'd fall asleep with his hand on her stomach.
"You've turned him into a pile of mush." Stephanie said one day over lunch. Jo laughed, and shook her head. Maybe she had, maybe she hadn't. She knew she loved him though, and all he had to do was look at her, and she knew he felt exactly the same.
She didn't know if she'd ever get used to it – the feeling of loving and being loved in return.
She thinks it's the best thing she's ever experienced.