I sat on the hard cement ground with my knees up and my head down. Jasper had taken the girl home. She was so scared she was shaking by the time I had pried the monster off her. Jasper had tried to approach her to make sure she was okay, that she wasn't injured too bad, but I should have known she'd freak out. I had to knock the guy out just so I could calm her down. I knew what she was going through and I thank God she didn't know what I was going through. By the time I was done telling her that she didn't need to be scared, and that she'd be returning home that night, the tattered and frightened was in my arms sobbing her soul out into my shoulder. It took everything in me not suck her dry right then. It was extremely hard and painful in all. My throat had ached and burned and Jasper as always came to my rescue. He had told the girl we needed to get her home. I painfully told her she could trust Jasper, he would never hurt her and he'd walk her home to insure her safety, he didn't even have to touch her. She reluctantly agreed, and as I fed Jasper took her home. There was no way in hell I had the strength to walk her all the way home while fighting my instinct and extreme need to feed, while she would no doubt clinging to me the whole time.

As I sat looking at the cement ground below me, I couldn't help but think of how afraid she had been. Her eyes had shown bright with terror and her body trembled with fear. I even had to give her my jacket because her shirt was completely destroyed. Her heart was beating a mile a minute, and the constant tears streaming down her face told me she knew what was almost to come of her. It was a rough time for me as well, with my focusing almost everything on not killing her, while at the same time fighting an emotional break down as I constantly flashed back to the time I was just as terrified as her. I couldn't lie, I had thought about just hunting animals, it would be so much easier. Of course human blood was easier to succumb to, but the lifestyle I had chosen have proven more difficult. Fighting my emotions, fighting the urge to not only drink from my prey, but also the urge to drain the girls I tried to save, it was clear that an animal diet would be much easier. Yeah I'd be less satisfied with the taste of the blood, but at least I'd be in good mental health. I sighed, running my smooth, icy hands over my face, pushing back my hair. I could complain until until my lips fell off, but in all honesty, I would go through much worst if it meant I could save one more girl. I knew I'd do almost anything to save someone from life I lived before I was turned. Whoever said physical pain is worst than emotional, lied. No one deserved to feel the way I did, and if it hadn't of been for Jasper, I'd be dead. There wasn't a Jasper out there for everyone, and in all honesty, in my book, working a little harder with a bit of stress was well worth helping those who are unable to help themselves. I sighed, looking down at my fingers and my seemingly perfect manicured finger nails turning them over. I ran a finger over the cool flawless skin of my wrist, feeling venom prick at my eyes as I remembered how hopeless I had felt. How used, how dirty, how helpless, how scared, how ashamed I had felt. Even though there wasn't a physical scar there, I knew there would always be a mental scar there. I would never be able to look at my wrist without remembering those days, that day.

"Bell..." I heard his beautiful voice float through the alley way, sounding more beautiful than any Angel my wildest imagination could ever conjure. I slowly lifted my head and when my eyes met his, I almost crumbled at the look of understanding, comfort and love in his beautiful amber eyes.

"Jazz..." I whispered half brokenly, half relieved. He was in front of me before I had time to blink, with me sat soundly in his lap, wrapped in his arms.

"I'm here for you Bell. I love you so much, you can tell me anything." He assured me. I buried my head deeper into his neck while his strong arms tightened around me, assuring me further.

"Jazz, I don't think I'll ever get over it. Everything I do seems to remind of it. What if I never get better? That's not fair to you. You shouldn't have a broken mate, yo-" I was abruptly cut off by Jasper growling.

"Bella. You are not broken. You went through something that you will never forget, but that does not classify you as broken. It only makes you stronger. You won't ever get over it Bella, but it will, get easier, I promise." He whispered the last sentence in my ear so low, I had to strain my ears to hear. I let out one chocked sob and threw my arms around him.

"I love you so much Major." I told him as I squeezed him to me. His hold getting slightly tighter around me as I called him Major. I hadn't called him that since the day I told him good bye two years ago. We sat there in the middle of an alley just holding each other until I felt Jazz freeze under me. I was immediately alert as I looked up at Jasper for an explanation, but as soon as I lifted my head I was alert and on my feet within a half a second, Jasper with me. I knew why he had become so alert and still, I could distinctively hear several footsteps coming closer to ourselves. Footsteps that were way too calculated and graceful to ever belong to humans. Jasper immediately pulled me into his side Holding my securely and tightly with his arm wrapped around my shoulder as my arms held tightly to his middle, the other rested lazily to my free side. We waited in the middle of an alley holding each other as we heard the footsteps get closer and closer. We didn't have to wait long because soon six pale figures were now standing in front of us, seemingly accessing us. They looked so familiar, too familiar. Then it hit me, I knew these vampires with their golden eyes shining.

"Cullens." I whispered to myself, but I should have known they'd hear me. All eyes were on me now and as I took them in. Carlisle was holding Esme to him, the both of them watching me with shocked and wide eyes. Rosalie standing next the Emmett, their hands clamped together tightly and to my surprise Alice and Edward were too holding hands with sneers on their faces. I mean Jazz had told me that he and Alice had grown apart and separated and that he was not on the best of terms with Edward or Alice but I was too far gone in my depression to really care why at the time. It was in that moment that I noticed a vibration going through the left side of my body. I looked at Jasper and realized the vibrating had been coming from him, he was growling. His teeth nearly popping out as he starred evilly at Edward and Alice.

"Jazz?" I asked breaking the thick and heavy silence of the dark alley. He didn't look at me, just moved his arm from around my shoulder to grip my waist pulling me closer to him.

"What the hell is going on here!?" Rosalie suddenly shouted to Alice and Edward. They didn't even acknowledge her.

"Someone care to explain why all of a sudden we had to leave our home, only to be led to my missing brother and a not so human Bella anymore?" No one said anything.

"What are you doing here?" Jasper suddenly snarled at Alice. She sneered at him.

"I saw you drink from a human!" She accused menacingly. Suddenly I was highly offensive. I growled at her for hissing at my mate stepping slightly in front of him.

"Jasper! It's true your eyes..." Carlisle said disappointment strong in his voice. I was about to say something when Jasper intervened.

"I'm not going to discuss my life in an alley, let alone explain myself to you as if I must report everything I do to you. I am my own person and I have to answer to no one." Jasper cut. I was shocked, I would have asked what was going on but I had a strange feeling, something had gone wrong that I didn't know about, so I shut my mouth. Carlisle looked a bit taken aback.

"I am sorry Jasper if I made you feel you had to answer to me, and I am sorry, you are completely right, the setting is not appropriate, we are staying at a hotel near by, maybe yourself and Bella wouldn't be opposed to joining us there to talk?" He asked. Jasper sighed and looked down at me. I nodded and he pulled me tighter, turning his head back to Carlisle.

"Lead the way, I'll be right behind you, I can follow your scent." He said. I and many of the Cullens looked confused but Carlisle nodded and they were gone. I looked up at Jasper silently asking him why we staid back. He sighed and turned my body so it was facing him as he brought his hands up to rest on either side of my face.

"There are things you need to know before we go there. You need to know why I left." He told me softly. I nodded, whatever it was, I could take it.

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I don't think beyond pissed would cover my emotions right now. Those two son of bitches kept me from my mate! They made my life a living hell! Continuously put me in danger! They would pay, if it was the last thing I did, I'd see them suffer.

"Bell baby, you gotta calm down. If you are not in control of your emotions, you won't be able to control your actions, and we all know what an out of control newborn is like." Jasper said placing his hands on both of my shoulders. I looked up and around and to my surprise, we were already at the hotel where the Cullen's sent ended. It was late, maybe two in the morning and everything was quiet and I couldn't see any humans from here, but Jasper was right, I couldn't take any chances. I turned back to him and nodded, pulling him into a hug to try and calm myself down. He wrapped his arms around me tightly as I did the same. He pulled me tighter into him as he buried his head in my hair and I did the same to his neck. I don't know what I'd do without him. He had gone from being the person I was in love with that I could never have, to my savior and mate. He was my everything. Soon he pulle3d away and placed his hands on either side of my face.

"I love you too Darlin'." He smiled down at me, placing a small but loving kiss to my lips. He pulled back and looked into my eyes as I looked into his. He let out a sigh and kissed my forehead once before grabbing my hand and leading me towards the hotel. As soon as we had walked through the doors I squeezed Jasper's hand. It seemed like all I could focus on was the smell of blood, the thumping of human hearts pumping delicious blood through their bodies. I felt Jasper's grip on my hand tighten before he let it go, wrapping his arm around me pulling me to his side. I looked up at him and shot him a grateful smile as I felt him push comfort at me, I gladly sucked it all up. We were walking past the help desk when the young, maybe 25 year old woman standing behind the counter, stopped us.

"Is there anything I can help you with?" She asked pointedly. We turned around and gaze immediately softened as it landed on Jasper, the corner of her lips slightly tugging up in what I'm sure she thought was a seductive smile. I had to hold back a growl at her, I did shoot her a glare that she seemed not to notice as she continued to stare at my mate like an idiot.

"No, you can't." I nearly snarled, taking Jasper's hand and yanking him away. The girl's smile completely vanished and she took a step back at my furious glare. We were about five steps away when I heard Jasper's beautiful, yet annoying chuckle sound through the hall. I turned my glare on him and he laughed even harder I looked around the hall and saw no one there so I grabbed Jasper's arm and in lightning speed I had him pinned to the wall, a handful of his jacket in my tightly balled fist and was in his face. Our faces weren't even centimeters away, our nose's and lips nearly touching.

"What's so funny Whitlock?" I squinted my eyes at him as he tried not to burst into laughter. He half smirked at me, looking lustfully and mischievously into my eyes.

"Oh nothing, I just think your cute when your jealous." He shrugged still smirking. I rolled my eyes and let him go, walking down the hall with a half smirk of my own. I could see him even out his jacket and smile, catching up with me easily. I felt his arm snake around my waist and suddenly I was being spun around brought into his chest.

"Were you going somewhere without me?" He smirked down at me. I giggled and quickly pressed my lips to his. I looked up into his eyes and smiled.

"I wouldn't dream of it." I said and then turned back around grabbing his hand in mind. We had taken all of seven steps down the hallway when someone came around the corner. A small petite brown headed woman with light caramel skin, she was wearing a black feminine suit and a name tag- that I wouldn't have been able to read had I been human- that said Jasmine. I immediately grasped Jasper's hand tighter as I stopped breathing all together, and it seemed to help. I couldn't smell her or any other human in the building, but it didn't take the knowledge of what was flowing inside her body away, or the memory of her smell, or even the knowledge that it was a guaranteed fact I could kill and drain her without anyone noticing in five seconds flat. I needed to stay calm and collected, I had vowed the very moment Jasper told me I had the choice, that I would never kill an innocent human. I mean, it wasn't their fault they smelled so damn good. I looked up at Jasper and he smiled a tight, encouraging smile at me. I nodded and continued walking. The woman looked up at us as we were about to pass her and smiled. I hesitantly smiled back at her, I really hope this lady didn't say anything, she seemed nice, I didn't want to kill her. She had other plans, smiling up at us, as she came to a stop in front of us.

"Hello, is there anything I can help you all with?" She asked suspiciously, yet politely.

"No ma'am, we were just on our way to our room." Jasper was quick to answer, I'm sure trying to get away on my behalf. The woman's eyes squinted just a bit as she nodded, her doubtful eyes shooting my way. I knew if I didn't say anything, she'd be even more suspicious, and really didn't need that but I really didn't know if I could breath in air mingled with not only her bloods sent but also every human's scent in this hotel, with her standing not four feet away from me, and not kill her on the spot. I hesitantly breathed in through my nose, and I immediately tightened my hand in Jasper's. She smelt wonderful, but she didn't deserve to die, I had to do this.

"Thank you though." I said strained but polite. She seemed to ease up immediately the moment I talked. She smiled once more at us and began walking away. We wasted no time, continuing down the hall. Just as we opened the door to the stairs, still following the Cullen's sent- which Jasper was mostly following, seeing as I wasn't breathing, Jasper stopped me. He turned me to him smiling brightly.

"I'm so proud of you. You did so good." Jasper praised. I ducked my head and slightly smiled.

"One more thing." He said causing me to look up. "I love you." He whispered to me. I smiled brightly, throwing my arms around his neck, pulling him to me, kissing him as passionately as I could muster. I wasn't sure about a lot of things in this world, but one of the few things I was sure about, was that I would never get tired of kissing Jasper, no matter how long our forever was, I'd always love kissing him. As we pulled apart, looking into each others eyes, I knew had I of been human, I would have been gasping for air by now. I softly leaned my forehead against his, starring into the man of my dreams, eyes.

"I love you too Major." I whispered to him. He grinned at me for a second, then grabbed my hand in his. I tightened our grip and we took off up the stairs. We followed their scent up to the tenth floor, quickly turning down the hall until we came to the door their scents stopped at. We hadn't been standing their for half a second when the door was being opened. As soon as I saw the person who opened the door, I let out a frolicsome growl, Mary Alice Brandon Cullen. She shrank back into the room as we entered, cowering away from me, as Edward came to stand protectively in front of her.

"You need to watch yourself Isabella." Edward said sternly and Jasper growled at my side as I snarled. Only Jasper knew the real reason I didn't like to be called Isabella, but it still pissed me off. So fast, I hardly registered it, I had Edward pinned to the wall, feet dangling off the ground, with my hand wrapped tightly across his throat. I knew it wasn't cutting off his air supply, we didn't need to breath, but I did know it hurt like hell from how tightly I was holding him. Everyone gasped but I didn't care right now.

"You listen here Mason, and you listen close. Don't you ever again in your miserable existence, call me that name. My grandmother was the only one allowed to call me that, and It's gonna stay that way. I'm not the Bella you left behind, it'd be in your best interest not to fuck with me. Got it?" I snapped, tightening my hold on him. I could feel him trying to nod.

"Y-Yes."

"Good." I dropped him, watching him crumble to the ground, holding his neck. Alice, wide eyed and gaping mouth, ran over to the spot he now resigned on the floor. I briefly noticed a crack in the wall behind him, oh well. Alice looked up at me, shooting daggers, about to say something.

"Try me pixie." I glared. She immediately shut her mouth.

"I like this Bella a whole lot better." I heard a voice say excitedly. I turned around and starred at the owner of the voice, Rosalie, who had her arms crossed against her chest, while a smiling Emmett stood next to her, his arm draped across her shoulder, smirking at me. I knew Rosalie's story, but until that day, I never understood how she felt, and I would bet my left arm, the reason she's such a bitch, is to protect herself. Just like me. I smiled a genuine smile at her, as I walked slowly back to Jasper's side, him pulling me into his side.

"Damn Belly, your hot! And mean!" Emmett boomed, causing me, to roll my eyes at my big lug of a brother, I had missed so much, Jasper to glare at him, and Rosalie to smack him upside the head, which I laughed at. "Ah sorry, I mean, I missed you!" He cheered up and I smiled at him.

"I missed you too Em." I said stepping forward to hug him as he sped to me, pulling me into one of his famous bear hugs that would have broken my whole rib cage had I been human. We pulled back and Carlisle was looking confused, his eyes roaming from Edward, Alice and his wife who had checked on Edward to me. Esme looked hurt.

"Bella, why were you so upset?" Esme asked me in a small voice.

"No one has ever been allowed to call me that name since my grandmother who was more of a best friend to me pasted away. Plus, I'm not too keen to acting like sugar and spice and everything nice to the people who wanted my life to be miserable for some unknown reason." I said conversationally. Esme looked confused and Carlisle's head snapped to me.

"I guess it would be only logical they didn't tell you." Jasper said from my side.

"Alice and Edward knew that Bella was my mate, Alice knew that I'd leave her for Bella, and tried to stop that from happening in anyway possible. I don't know why, Alice didn't love me nor did I love her at the time, and she knew she had a mate in Edward, obviously, she was screwing him for who knows how long, they both did. They convinced us to leave after Edward almost attacked Bella, to keep us apart, and I don't why, but I plan on finding out." Jasper announced. Everyone but Rose, who was glaring at the pair gasped and Esme stood up, backing away from the both of them.

"It's happening! You wanna know why we did what we did!? It's because of this! I had a vision of you Bella, coming in and destroying our family, turning them against us! I tried to convince them to stay away from Forks, but they just had to go! Nothing else felt like home, like forks! When Edward and I found out we were mates, we knew that if we were together with Jasper around, the family would turn against us! We sacrificed our own happiness to keep our family! This is all your fault!" She yelled at us. I growled and Jasper stepped in.

"No Alice, did you do it to save the family, or did you do it because you knew we would expose you for who you both really are? I've spent a lot of time with you, and I know you are far from an Angel. You knew that when Bella and I finally found each other, you'd both be exposed. Looking back on it it's so obvious, I don't know how I didn't see it. You wanted Edward to interfere and dazzle Bella into doing anything he wanted, like stay away from me, fill her head with lies of how dangerous I was to be around. You befriended her so you could tell her how dangerous I was but how much you still loved me so if she ever started to love me, she'd feel guilty because that's the selfless kind of person she is. But when you realized that it wasn't working, that Bella and I were becoming closer and closer, you set up the whole "paper cut" stunt in hopes of me loosing control and draining her, but that was a stupid move, I could never harm a hair on my mates head and Edward read in my mind how I was only going to help her and decided to do it himself, not factoring in me protecting my mate with everything I am. When your plan didn't work a second time, you orchestrated this whole she's not safe, we need to leave bullshit and your fucking plan didn't work a third time!" Jasper snarled, and by his time, he was trying to hold me back with emotions and physically as I wanted to rip both of their throats out. Esme's hand flew to her mouth as she found truth in his words, leaning into Carlisle for support, who looked like he was trying to keep his cool, glaring at the two. Emmett was growling furiously and Rose was glaring at them.

"It was all to keep the family in act!" Alice defended. Edward glared at her for giving them up.

"You sons of Bitches!" Rosalie screamed.

"All you fucking care about is yourselves!" Emmett backed her up. And in half a second, Rosalie was in front of Alice, slapping her across the face as, Emmett tried to pull her back. Alice went to launch at Rose and I tackled her, Edward went to grab me and soon he was once again being held up against a wall by his neck, only this time it was Jasper.

"Stop!" Carlisle shouted at us, and we all looked at him.

"Alice, Edward, you both agreed to follow certain rules while being in my coven and you've disrespected all those rules, along with our beliefs, you can no longer stay with us." He said sternly. Alice went to protest from underneath me but Carlisle stopped her.

"Leave!" He ordered. Wow, we were all in shock for a moment as Alice and Edward scrambled to leave, Carlisle never lost his cool. I stood there, my eyes glued to the door they had just walked out of until Carlisle was standing in my line of view.

"I've always thought of you as a daughter, and I'm sorry your happiness had to suffer because of them." He whispered. Before I knew what I was doing, I launched myself into his arms hugging him tightly.

"I love you Carlisle, you've always been a second dad to me, I think I remember you more than my dad from my human memories." I told him. He sighed, pulling me tighter before releasing me. Esme was next, then Emmett and surprisingly Rose. We had all just began to calm down when Rose, asked the question I had been dreading and foreshadowing at the same time.

"So how did you become a vampire?" She asked.