Chapter 1: It All Begins

Summary: Emily has a secret. When she was little she was bullied. Everyone knew that part but Emily never told anyone how bad it was. Who is "Rozey" and "Valley"? Why is Emily very protective lately? Why is she acting strange?

Emily

Flashback

I went home and went on to my computer. Our school had a chat site. The teachers couldn't moderate it but every day we had to go on and do homework with our assigned buddy. I logged on to talk with my 2 partners. We had to use different names so I never knew who these kids were. Their usernames were Rozey and Valley.

I interrupted their chat.

"Oh look who is here!" popped up on a speech bubble. Rozey.

"The FREAK! She is such a nerd! Hey, Emily? You want to do our homework? We know how much you love school." Valley said.

"She has to! Remember! We told her she has to or else we spread rumors and make her life miserable. Plus she has our assignments anyways and it's our word against hers." Rozey said.

I couldn't even speak.

"Emily? Did you start our homework?" Valley said.

"I…..I just got home." I typed.

I pressed enter and it sent.

They knew my name…I didn't know theirs. What's worse? The fact I am only 9 or the fact that I never told?

Rozey and Valley followed me throughout my school years. It first started in 1st grade. The bullying I mean. Rozey and Valley were my cyber bullies. They hacked all of my things. They got my locker combo, lunch code, Social site passwords. Everything. Just to embarrass me. I met them in 3rd grade.

I was walking down the hall when I tripped. Two girls were nearby. Those are my future bullies. I have many bullies. But that's how it all began.

Ji was finally allowing us to have social media accounts like Facebook, or Instagram, or Twitter. I chose Facebook. We all chose facebook.

"Hey Emily? What's your username?" Mia asked.

"Fluffy Bunnies." I said.

"Seriously?"

"No it's my name. Just with a twist. Emily Stone."

"Cool mine is Michael Oakers."

"Mine is Mia Frost."

"Kevin Pond."

"Jayden Inferno."

Ji wanted our names to be related to our symbol power. This way we can always tell who is who when it is just us.

"Well anyways…. I am not adding any of you." I said.

"Why not?" Mia asked.

"I see you guys every day. I want to be able to be normal. That also means I am blocking my wall from all of you!" I said.

They groaned.

"Not my fault. You know I am the youngest. This means I am more rebel like since I am further away from becoming a mature lady." I said with a fancy British accent at the end.

Later in the day

"Look who is back the nerd!" Appeared on my wall. That and more hurtful comments. I started to deep breathe. I was close to tears. This is what I was afraid of. If my friends knew they'd go beserk.

"She is so obese!" popped up.

"Emily! Dinner!" Jayden shouted.

"One minute!" I shouted back. I put my laptop down on my bed and logged out.

I grabbed a hoodie and went to the dining room.

"I am not so hungry. I am going to go for a jog. I will be back later." I said.

"Are you sure Emily?" Ji asked. I nodded.

"I just need to do some things. I need time to think." I said. They nodded and I left.

A few weeks later

The bullying hasn't stopped. It has climaxed. I haven't eaten in weeks but drank lots of water. I worn sunglasses whenever I was around them. I have lost a lot of weight.

As far as the rangers knew I been eating at restaurants. That's all they needed to know.

They were all out right now. They went to go get something to eat. I told them I already ate.

I can't tell them. I lied to them! I told them I ate and everything! The only person who knows I haven't ate is Bree. She is a friend to me on facebook. She keeps trying to get me to eat but I never see her at all so she doesn't know. She does have my number and she still thinks I live at home with my parents. That is a lie to.

Authors Note: I have been bullied millions of times. I have been bullied for a variety of things. Most recently for protecting my friend. I been bullied for the way I speak (not accent but the way I put words and order, you may not know it but I have a learning disability called Non-Verbal Learning Disorder) I have been physically hit. I been called dumb because I am half deaf. I been called retarded because I have walked into objects because I am half blind. I been called autistic. I am (Nonverbal Learning Disorder is on the border) but I still take that offensive. I been called wild (not in a good way) because I have ADHD. I been called un-coordinated because of NVLD and ADHD that I can't balance on my own. I been hit in school constantly (once with a trash barrel on wheels on purpose by another student) and no matter what I do I been bullied. I never told my friends this because I can't trust anyone. I can't even trust my nurse (and her son is my best friend from when I was little, I moved and she nurses here but her son lives in the other town.) I am been bullied since 2007. Sometimes by friends. Others by bullies. I feel like if I can't be honest with you….how do I expect you to trust me to know that I know what bullying feels like. I know about it. I been a victim. I once ran away…. (I probably made you into tears by now….) and no matter how much I cried no one heard me. I couldn't get help! I felt alone! I pretty much sit alone at lunch. People ask me everyday why I hate it here. That's the answer. I was never bullied before I moved here and now I am. I didn't want to be popular. I didn't ask to move. I didn't want to be here. I didn't want anything that happened. I didn't want to be someone I am not. And that would be someone who has to hide her feelings every day, someone who has to seem strange, someone who had to grow up hoping that no one would bully her. I used to be a girly girl! Now I am a tomboy! People make fun of me for that. Saying that I don't belong. Saying that I am creepy. I practically had my childhood taken from me! What I hate most is I walk down the halls and people will stare at me like some kind of creep! I bet if my best friend from elementary school (the one I was in before I moved) saw my eyes she can read me like an open book. She knew me better than anyone but when ever anyone looks into my eyes they see someone who is just there. My friend used to see laughter, innocence, happiness, joy, cheerfulness, a girl who had her future going for her. But if she were to look in my eyes now she would see sorrow, sadness, a girl who has been beaten, destroyed. I still think my bullies are working for the nighlok… Wouldn't surprise me. They act like it. But anyways, The only reason that is helping me get through this is being BaybieBlue. Without her….me….umm…well me…..I think if that never happened…well I don't even know what'd I'd do. The only way I am not becoming a bully is because I am not going to stop to their level. I am not going to bully others just because they bully me. I know they will exist. I got bullied once on here just for a mistake. I never told. He never bothered me again. I was lucky. I don't remember the person but after I told everyone in authors note about how much I am bullied and they are horrible he stopped. I hope that if any of you see bullying….That you will please stop it! No one asked for it. I know you must all be scared of standing up for somebody. I was too when I was a bystander when my friend got bullied. I got over my fear and stood up for her. If you see someone being bullied please stand up! Be and up-stander (a bystander who stands up for someone being bullied) Words hurt. They can kill. Here is a video someone made on youtube. Search 'It's Too Late To Apologize' and go to the video made by rAdicalKevin123 So please. Just please! I AM BEGGING YOU! For Phoebe Prince, Amanda Todd, and all the other victims. Stand up for a victim of bullying. I would appreciate it. Just please…..

~BaybieBlue