Chp.14

I stared back at Jasper for a moment. Could I really tell him what happened? He has moved back onto a chair next to my bed to be able to look at me properly. He would think so much less of me. I already see the pity in his eyes when he looks at me, I do not need to add to that look of pity. I turn away from him and start to shake my head no. I feel the tears pooling in my eyes.

"Alice." Jasper says softly.

The tears break free from my eyes and begin to stream down my face. I move further away from him.

"Alice, whatever it is you can tell me. I'm here for you." Jasper says trying to reassure me.

I already see the pity in my parent's eyes and when Em comes back, after he beats Edward to a pulp, I'll see it in his eyes as well. I can't deal with Jasper pitying me as well.

"I'm sorry….. I can't" I say through my tears.

The tears became full on sobbing and I became an uncontrollable wreck. I can't believe I'm letting Jasper see me like this. He is never going to like me when I'm like this. I see out of the corner of my eye that Jasper stands up. I have driven him away already and I deserve it. If it is possible I begin to cry harder. I feel something on the bed beside me. Jasper is sitting there next to me. What am I a pity party?

Jasper moves closer to me and envelops me in a hug. I start to push him away and I punch him in the chest with my good arm. I finally concede after a few moments and allow Jasper to wrap his arms around me fully. Jasper is such a good guy why would I ever think poorly of him. He was there for me when Edward wasn't. Jasper pulls away when he realizes that I have calmed down.

"Now that that is out of your system will you tell me what is wrong? I'm thinking of horrible situations in my head, Alice. Please ease my worry." Jasper says his eyes pleading with mine.

I stare at him for a while. My eyes land on his lips and stay there for a moment. I lean forward and place my lips against his. I feel Jasper hesitate but then I feel his lips move against mine. He is gentle with me like I am a fragile doll who is going to break at any moment. Jasper breaks the kiss with a sigh and moves away from me slightly. Great, I have ruined everything with him. He doesn't think that way about me. Jasper takes both of my hands in his.

"Now, that is not how I wanted out first kiss to turn out. My mama raised me as a proper gentleman and I do not want you to think that I am taking advantage of you in your current state." Jasper tells me.

"I would never think any less of you, Jasper. I initiated the kiss and I'm sorry if I ruined some plan you had about our first kiss." I smile lightly at him enjoying this conversation.

"When you are better I am going to take you on a proper date, Alice." Jasper replies.

"I'm holding you to that, Jasper Whitlock." I reply with a smile.

JPOV

Alice leans forward and I feel her lips graze against mine. I hesitate for a moment then kiss her back as gently as I can. I do not want to injure her any more then she already is. I lean back and sigh breaking the kiss knowing if we continue I do not know how much self control I'll have left. This should not have been our first kiss; it should have been on her doorstep after I escorted her home on our first date. But sadly the world does not work like the movies.

"Now, that is not how I wanted out first kiss to turn out. My mama raised me as a proper gentleman and I do not want you to think that I am taking advantage of you in your current state." I tell her.

"I would never think any less of you, Jasper. I initiated the kiss and I'm sorry if I ruined some plan you had about our first kiss." Alice smiles lightly up at me.

I smile back at her, happy to see her happy. I was not sure when I was going to see that smile again.

"When you are better I am going to take you on a proper date, Alice." I promise Alice. I want her to have good memories from her senior year not just bad ones.

"I'm holding you to that, Jasper Whitlock." Alice replies with a smile.

"Now, no more distractions. What happened last night to you, Alice?" I ask curiously.

Alice takes a deep breath and pauses. Her brow furrows as she thinks how to start to tell me what happened last night that has her so torn up.

"The reason I have blood on my gown is last night after my parents left and the nurses lessen their rounds…" Alice starts then stops abruptly.

"Take your time, Alice. I am here and I am not going anywhere." I tell her reassuringly.

Alice takes another breath. "I was about to go to sleep when the door opened. I turned to see Edward at the doorway. He shut the blinds and placed the chair in front of the door. He said he came to apologize but he had different intentions. He placed his hand over my mouth and the other on my cast hand. He then took my innocence. My dad came in to check on me like he always does at night but he was too late. I understand if your feelings towards me have changed. I am damaged goods." Alice says the turns toward the window; I can see the tears in her eyes again.

I'm going to kill him. How can anyone take advantage of a woman has always baffled me. But you really have to be a sick and twisted person to take advantage of a sweet and innocent little girl like Alice.

"Sick bastard" escape my lips. "I'm sorry Alice. I did not mean to say that out loud. A woman should never hear that kind of language."

"You are forgiven. But I guess it was my fault. Edward said I teased him and he is true. We were dating for two years and he did see me in my dance clothes a lot. They do leave little to the imagination." Alice replies.

"No, Alice you did not bring this on yourself. He took advantage of you. He is going to get what is coming to him." I say while standing up.

"No, the police took him. Please don't leave me, Jasper." Alice says with her eyes pleading with me to stay.

I sit back on her bed and envelop her in a hug. I kiss the top of her head. That bastard made her believe it was her fault for what he did. What kind of person does that? Maybe, I should tell Carlisle that she should speak to a therapist about what happened. It might do her some good. I'll go see him later but right now I'm going to hold Alice and try to my best to make her feel better.

A/N: Sorry, I did not disappear. My first semester of college has been hectic but I am able to update quickly. I hope you like it and please review!