A/N: So, I'm not entirely happy the story is going right now. I don't feel like it's fair to Lexie, Mark and Callie to be them this way, so I'm gonna look what I can do to make it a bit better than it was. So.. Read and enjoy or something.
It's been a few weeks since Mark asked Lexie out. Callie ended the things that were going on between Lexie and her and she tried to avoid Mark. As if that was really possible, but she tried. They seemed to have a good time with each other, and Lexie didn't seem to miss Callie. She wasn't on her service, so they weren't spending time together in ORs. Callie didn't want Lexie to cheat on Mark, and she didn't want to cheat on Lexie with Mark. Pff, I hate the mess. Why is anything so difficult? She wondered. Why did she bring herself into this?
Callie was sitting on her couch, in the middle of the night. She couldn't sleep. She couldn't sleep for weeks now. She wished she never kissed Lexie. She was heart-broken. She couldn't deal with this. The bedroom door of Cristina opened.
"Hey, why aren't you asleep?" she asked, half asleep.
"I can't sleep."
"Why not?" she went to the kitchen to get some milk. "You want some too?"
"Yes, thanks."
She walked to the couch and sat down next to Callie.
"So, tell me. You've been like this for weeks."
"Why aren't you sleeping? I didn't make a sound. I couldn't have woken you."
"I couldn't sleep, because Owen wants kids and I don't. And he doesn't understand."
"Well, that's an issue. Mine is not like that.. I don't know. There's this woman I like.. or actually I'm in love with. But I can't be with her, because she's seeing someone else. But I was with her before she dated this guy.. And she said she was gonna see me too. But I didn't want to, because it would feel like cheating. And I cannot do this to this guy, you know. That would be horrible."
"So, you're finally admitting to someone you're in love with Lexie? That's a good thing."
Callie froze. "What? How do you know it's her?"
"Because a blind man could tell."
"You don't mean that, right?"
"No, but I saw you looking at her that way. Your pupils dilated and stuff."
"Does anyone else know?"
"Could be. I didn't tell Meredith though. I thought she didn't like it when she knew you were in love with her sister, you know. But what I know now is that you were dating? Lexie doesn't like women, does she?"
"Yeah, I don't know how to say it. She didn't like me that way or something.. it was just.. yeah, I don't want to say that."
"You were having sex?" She looked very shocked. "Oh my god. She is Little Grey. You cannot just sleep around with her."
"I know. I'm so sorry."
"Oh my god. You love her!"
"Shh, not so loud. And please don't tell anyone else. Bailey already knows."
"What? Why?"
"She caught us in the on-call room."
"Oh my god."
"You are not helping."
"No, I don't think I can. You're screwed."
"Go away!" Callie chased her away, not really mad, only frustrated. "Just don't tell anyone."
Next day Callie was really tired. She didn't sleep at all, but she was used to a little sleep, so she could handle it. She decided to move on today and to go to Joe's tonight. When she was at rounds today, she saw Lexie, but she avoided her glance. But she noticed Lexie was very distracted today. She had red-rimmed eyes. It was obvious she had cried earlier that day, but Callie decided not to talk to her. It was none of her business anyway.
That afternoon Bailey came to Callie.
"Dr. Torres, you're getting a resident on your service today, because there are too many doctors in the pit and she is off someone else's service."
She now saw Lexie standing behind her. She tried to avoid Callie's glance. Callie could tell Lexie tried to be in the pit too, but Callie knew Bailey was testing them.
"Okay, I will take it from here, dr. Bailey."
They walked to the elevator to go to the patient's room, in awkward silence. Callie decided that she didn't want to talk to Lexie, unless really necessarily. When they were in the elevator, it broke down. They were stuck between two floors. Callie pushed the emergency button, but nothing happened. It just broke down. She started to get claustrophobic. If it was just a problem with the elevator and not with power in general, it could take a few hours till they were discovered. And none of them was scheduled to be in surgery soon, so they wouldn't be missed. Callie started to hyperventilate.
"Don't hyperventilate. Just breathe slowly." she grabbed Callie's arm softly and pulled her down on the floor and sat down next to her.
"You don't have to talk to me." Callie breathed, almost inaudible.
"I know. But I choose to. Because I don't want you to faint. You're gonna hurt yourself."
"I'm already hurt."
"I'm sorry." Lexie said, looking at her shoes.
"Damnit, my pager doesn't have any signal. Yours?"
"No, they don't work in elevators."
They were silent for almost an hour. They didn't talk. Callie didn't want to talk. But she started to get dizzy again. Not because there was no air in the elevator left, because there was a circulating system in the elevator, but because she unconsciously started to breathe faster again. Her head felt lighted.
"I said you have to breathe slowly, otherwise you will faint. You know that."
"I know that! You don't have to tell me!" Callie yelled. "But the fact that I'm stuck in the elevator with the person I don't want to be near right now doesn't work in my favor!"
"I'm sorry." Lexie said with a weak voice.
"Yeah, whatever. It's my fault anyway, because I started it all. If I didn't do that, nothing would have happened and maybe I was in love with someone else. But now.. I cannot think about other things than you. You're amazing. I don't want to be with anyone else. And you made me that way. And now you're screwing my best friend and I lost him too because I cannot stand the fact he's with the person I want. And I know I shouldn't be so jealous, but I just can't do better than this."
"I thought you hated me.." Lexie breathed.
"No I don't. Not at all."
"Mark and I had a fight."
"Why would you tell me that?" Callie was confused. Lexie didn't freak out because of her freaking out.
"Because. It was about you."
"I don't understand."
"I told me he loved me, but I couldn't say it back. I-I.. don't think I love him.."
"Why not?" Callie wanted to use as less words as possible.
"Because.. I think I'm in love with someone else. And that someone might be accidentally you. But these feelings scare the crap out of me, because I was never in love with a girl before. Or even kissed one before."
"Oh."
"What 'oh'? I tell you I love you.. Instead of Mark.. And you just say 'oh'? What the hell is wrong with you?" Lexie yelled.
"Well, it's not that you're gonna leave him and gonna be with me instead.. It won't change anything. The only thing that's changes is that I know now.. You're too scared to be with me."
"I just have to figure out if I want this.."
"You just told me you love me, isn't that enough?"
Callie expected her to say 'no', but instead of that she kissed her. She kissed her like she never kissed her before. Like she wanted to make things right. Like she wanted to tell her she loved her. Like she wanted to tell her she wanted her.. Like she wanted to tell her she'll try to be her girlfriend. Amazing. Lexie slid onto Callie's lap, to get better access and Callie stroked Lexie's hear. Lexie straddled Callie and started kissing her neck. She ran her tongue across her collarbone, and her chest, while getting the hem of Callie's scrubs. She pulled her shirt off and started massaging her breasts. She softly pinched one of her nipples. Callie got rid of Lexie's shirt too and pulled off her bra. She teased Lexie by softly stroking her inner thighs, getting near the place Lexie wanted her to be so desperately. She breathed in Callie's ear, which aroused her a lot.
Lexie slid her hand into Callie's pants and teased her down there. Callie bucked her hips to get more of her, but Lexie didn't give in yet. Callie slid her hand into Lexie's pants and stroked her fingers between her folds. She was so wet, so she entered with two fingers. Lexie gasped. She started pumping in and out, while she rubbed Lexie's clit with her thumb. Lexie weakened a bit and held Callie's shoulder tight, to keep her balance. Apparently she found strength in her arms because she slid her fingers between Callie's folds and started to rub her clit. She circled around the nub, teasing, which caused Callie to speed up the rhythm. They both increased the pace of their fingers till Lexie came first, heavily shaking, and not long after Callie came too.
They were just finished, when the elevator started to move again. She started to get dressed as fast as they could, hoping they wouldn't look like they just had sex. They were just dressed, when the doors opened. Callie froze when she saw Mark..