Ladies and Gentlemen… I present to you… The Second chapter of Irony.
I saw her today… she looked like a disaster… a beautiful disaster. Did my non-presence really cause her that much pain? I can't help but feel like I've just ruined her life. Perhaps I have… but… there's nothing I can do about it now, right? I can't take her back, as much as I want to, I can't put myself in the danger zone again. I won't do it; I have my kids to worry about, my life to worry about, and my career. But if we're being honest here, I miss her like crazy. I still love her, even though I wish I didn't, I do, with all my heart.
I miss her so much; I named my own daughter after her middle name, Autumn. I guess I'll never get over the fact that she cheated on me, with a guy. With a freaking guy. But then ill never get over the fact that I didn't give her one more chance so she wouldn't end up like this. Somehow I always wonder what life would be like if we stayed together. I think I'd be a little more happier; but don't get me wrong, I love my two kids, so much, but I just keep saying 'what if'
I sigh deeply and make sure that my kids are in bed since they're staying at my Mom's place for the weekend. I grab my keys and coat and drive over to Cat's house. When I get there, I take a deep breath and knock on the door. When she opens it she smiles and motions for me to come in.
"Tori… it's really good to see you." She smiles and sits on her deep purple couch. I join her and smile back.
"Yeah, same to you. But uh, could I ask you something?"
"Of course."
"What happened to Jade?" I asked, now worried to hear the answer.
After an hour or so of talking and silent tears, I learned a few things that my leaving caused. Jade dropped out of college, lost her job and moved back in with her parents. There, she tried getting her job back as a writer, but all she could write about was the things we did together. She lost her title as the most amazing writer in the Hollywood area, but from what she told me, she didn't care anymore. After that, her parents kicked her out and disowned her, except for the fact that her Mother had secretly helped her because she couldn't 'hate her' for a few mistakes. But they lost touch because her Father found out about them talking and moved to Florida with his wife, leaving her all by herself. She started getting in trouble for stealing and hot-wiring cars for heat, but who could blame her? Well, I can't, because it's my entire fault.
"Cat… what else can I do? All I can think is 'what if'" I say with sadness, yet she just smiles at me.
"Start saying "I love you' I guarantee that'll change things."
She was right though; I should stop saying 'what if' and start saying what I feel. I gave her a long hug and thanked her before I left and drove back to my house. I sat in my room for a while thinking of what to say. 'I ruined your life, I'm sorry, take me back' just doesn't sound right. 'I love you and I'm sorry.' Sounds too easy. 'Please take me back, I know I messed your life up but I want to start to make it better.' Now that will work. I smile and get back in my car and drive through the streets near that sidewalk looking for her car. After 12 minutes of searching that area, I spot it parked near the curb. I park on the other side of the street, get out and walk over to the car. This is it, I'm going to get my girl back, the girl I loved, the girl I was supposed to marry, the girl who stole my heart, the girl who broke my heart, the girl who didn't care… oh no. I feel the anger and disappointment rise as the tears fall. What am I doing? I can't do this… I can't risk getting hurt. Life isn't just about what I want anymore, it's about my kids now too, and I can't risk Jade leaving us all alone. I shake my head and slowly walk back to my car when I hear a car door shut. I close my eyes but don't turn around.
"Tori… what… what are you doing here?" She asks almost silently. I just want to turn around and say 'I love you and I want you…I need you, take me back, give us one more chance.' But I can't muster up any more courage to open my mouth. I try to speak but the words come out broken and dry.
"I… I don't…. I can't Jade. I… shouldn't b-be here." I whispered reaching for the handle on my car, when a cold hand is placed on my shoulder. I shiver, but not from the coldness. I missed her touch, more than anything.
"Tori look at me, please." She pleads, but I shake my head. "Please, look at me Tor."
I let one more tear fall before I slowly turn around and look into her eyes. We stay like that for sometime, before I avert my eyes.
"I can't do this Jade, how do I know you won't do it again?" I whisper, letting my head fall. "How do I know?"
"Tori, baby, I'm not going to screw up this time. Look where it got me. I've learned my lesson, and I don't want to repeat it. I'm staying, for good this time, no matter if it's as a friend or as your girlfriend. I'm staying right here, I'm not going anywhere."
I couldn't help but smile, she just sounded so… sure. These were the words I wish would have came out of her mouth when we first started dating, but I don't care anymore. It took her a while, a long while, but still… this is all worth it.
"What time is it?" I ask and smile dumbly. She gives me a confused look but looks at her watch.
"10 seconds to 11:36 why?"
"Okay, so we'll wait 10 seconds." I stood, and lent up against my car and counted to 10. She gave me another confused look but then it starts dawning on her. But before she could say anything, I crashed my lips onto hers. She wrapped her arms around my waist and gently pushed me further into the car. We kissed for fifty seconds before I pulled back.
"I love you, Jade."
"I love you too, Tori." We walked hand in hand down to the old coffee place we used to hang out at. She turns to me and smiles before putting her hand gently on my cheek.
"Man I love Irony." She whispers before kissing me softly.
So, this is it. Should I make an epilogue or keep it this way? Let me know. Thanks guys.