Ianto, love, I kept my promise.

I haven't forgotten you. I have forgotten nothing about you. I haven't forgotten the way you felt under me, or your face. Remember the time I tilted my chair so far back, I nearly hit the floor? You caught me. Damn, wasn't your expression priceless? You made me feel like I was seven again, scolding me like that.

Of course you don't remember. You died a millennium ago. Died in my arms. We're such a poetic pair.

When I woke up, I thought I was in a very bad dream. You were so cold, Ianto. You wouldn't move, or speak. I kept waiting for you to open those baby blues and smile at me.

I've been so bad to you. I've treated you like hell. But you just sat and took it, didn't you? Because you loved me. And in the end, I killed you. Not that you would ever admit it. You're safe and whole in my mind. You still breathe and kiss me. You still reply to my questions. Not out loud though. Ah, Ianto, my hands are stained with your blood.

Ianto, you don't ever, ever, ever want to be immortal. The price is terribly high. No matter what you do, you will always watch them die, or you will kill them. I didn't want to see you grow old, even though you'd have looked as handsome as ever. Preserved in my mind, for eternity, ageless. Can you see what you've reduced me to? Soliloquizing on paper.

You told me you loved me. Why did you go? Why didn't you be stubborn and not listen to me? The only place you're immortal is in my heart, Yan. And you had to go and break it by dying. What was it like for you? Was it painful? I hope it wasn't. I never want you to suffer because of me. I'm stupid, selfish, senseless, but I care that much.

There was something special about you. Something I never found in all the other lovers I had. You were so earnest. I never found anyone like you. I know, that's genetically impossible.

I think you broke me, Ianto. Yes, I had people, but that's it. You certainly put me off love. Are you happy, knowing that you put me off love? Imagine that, you having to share me with only a couple of the people in my long, long life. You're adorable when jealous. I was going to marry you, Ianto Jones. I was going to ask you to be my husband. I wanted to wake up every morning for as long as I could at your side.

The 456 are gone. They've been eradicated from this universe. The Doctor tried to stop me, but he couldn't. I had a lot of time on my hands. And who can stop me? They killed you. I begged for them to save you, but they didn't.

It's funny. In a thousand years, I still haven't found someone who makes as good coffee as you do.