Okay so I know there were a lot of mixed opinions on the 2x21 ending, personally I felt it was poor writing yet again on the writers half but who the hell knows anymore?!
This is a one-shot picking up from when Wade and Zoe go inside. I may continue it depending on the feedback…Enjoy!
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The porch door snapped shut, the noises of the night were safely locked outside as Zoe let the blanket drop from her shoulders and pushed open her bedroom door.
Wade's hands were sweaty and he had that feeling in his stomach, the feeling he always got when he was around Zoe. Her house still looked the same and smelled the same like those incense candles she insisted on burning every day.
He wasn't really sure what to do, they had done this a million times. One would initiate, the other pretend to be tired and then next thing they knew hours had passed and they still hadn't made it out of the house but this time was different. There was a sense of intensity or angst in the room as Wade closed the door behind him.
She stood there, looking as gorgeous as ever and although she had just downed a bottle of wine she still looked alert and aware which was important to Wade, he didn't know why it just was. Her eyes were glassy as Wade cautiously moved closer to her. Before their breakup he would go about this by picking her up and playfully throwing her on the bed but this time was different.
He moved closer just enough to hold his left hand out and place it on her hip while using his right hand to sling her hair behind her ear. She never liked her ears but Wade loved them and he wanted her to know that. His breathing was heavy and his heart pounding as he reached his head down and pressed his lips on hers. She still used the same lipstick in fact nothing had changed, she still smelled the same and her skin was still soft as ever as Wade supported her bare back with his right hand. That was when it all changed.
Zoe was cautious in placing her hands on his chest but once she felt his toned body through his t-shirt she was at ease. Her nerves were gone as she searched for the zip on his hoodie and pulled it down before lifting it off his body.
This was what they were good at. They may not have been the best communicators or the most trusting but one thing they could do was remove each other's clothes at an unbelievable rate... that was normal to them.
Once Wade had slipped Zoe out of her dress he pulled her in and hoisted her up allowing her to wrap her legs around his body. The feel of her warm skin against his was exhilarating and spurred him on to shower her neck in kisses. Zoe supported herself by gripping onto his soft sandy blonde hair, she loved his hair, it was perfect. Lately she had to stop herself from thinking about Wade and his flawless features but now, now she could embrace his body as much as she wanted, and she wanted to.
'God I missed this bed' Wade thought to himself as he laid her down on the perfectly made bed, although he hated the pillows there was too many and they always got in his way but tonight the pillows weren't a problem tonight nothing could stop him.
Zoe ran her hands up and down his back taking in every muscle and dent before running down his chest and onto the band of his boxers. She missed his boxers. She missed wearing them to bed, watching him walk around in them like it was normal to do so but most of all she missed the man wearing them no matter how many times she had tried to tell herself she didn't she did, she missed Wade, end of.
Wade could get the smell of wine from her breath each time he kissed her but for some reason he didn't think she was feeling the proper buzz someone should after a bottle of wine. He stole glances at her as much as he could, he wanted to smile at her. Could he do that ? Could he show her that this was what he had longed for since Tom and Wanda's wedding ? Could he show her how much he missed her?
Zoe rested her hands on either side of his face as she couldn't help but wonder why hadn't he made the next move? They were lying there in their underwear with the sweat of intensity and want running down their backs, why wasn't he taking the next step? She could feel his body ride up against hers and that's when she thought…. Was Wade nervous? Was he afraid to explore her body like he had done so many times before? If so, he shouldn't be because it was her, he knew that he could be with her or at least he should know, or was he so scared so ashamed of his actions that he felt like he couldn't properly be with her?
'No, stop it Zoe. Do not connect with him, this is just sex, don't open yourself up to him again' Zoe thought to herself but it was no good, that wasn't who she was, that wasn't who they were. She pulled away much to Wade's disappointment but it wouldn't last long as she looked him right in the eyes, his beautiful soft eyes, stroking his feint stubble with her curled up fingers. She didn't need to speak but rather smile softly at him giving him approval not only to reach into the overly familiar drawer and pull out the box of protection but to open his heart, both of their hearts.
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Silence. That's all that was in the room, that and the feeling of vulnerability. Zoe didn't know what time it was and she was too afraid to turn her head to check her alarm clock, she was also too afraid to turn her head the other way and see Wade lying there, flat on his back with his golden abs exposed to the room. Should she turn to him and really cave and let him hold her like before? She wanted that, to have him hold her and for one night let her know she was safe. That's what he was best at, making her feel safe, that when she was in his arms nothing or no one could hurt her or him.
Their thoughts were almost parallel in fact they were. For once in his life Wade was letting his heart speak and not his pants, he didn't want to do it again, well he did but more importantly he wanted to know what she was thinking, was it as meaningful for her as it was him? Did it give her goose bumps every time their bodies crashed together ? Or was it just something to numb the pain she had been feeling for the past few months? He was afraid to question it.
He stared up at the ceiling, a reminder of the events of the day and that's when he let his mind wander to the worst, maybe it was just sex, she didn't look at him and she most certainly did not look to cuddle with him so maybe it was best he go and they put it down to a moment of weakness once they have an awkward encounter in the kitchen the next morning.
'I should probably go.' He whispered his eyes still fixed on the ceiling.
Zoe's heart sunk, she did not want him to utter those words not after what had just happened between them. This was a huge moment and she was the conductor of what happens next. Does she let him leave and she lies in bed awake and alone all night or does she be honest and let him hold her as they both have a doze off to a peaceful, happy sleep?
Wade took her empty response as his cue to go and threw back the sheet but discovered Zoe's hand dart across and stop him.
'Or you could stay.' She cracked out trying to hold back her emotions 'I want you to stay.'
Wade smiled to himself hoping Zoe didn't see but she did and it was all she needed. Wade lifted his left arm and stretched it above her head inviting her into the safety of his body which she gladly accepted and once her head hit his chest her heart fluttered.
'I want to stay too.' He whispered into her hair 'Come here.'
So there you have it! Please let me know what you thought and if I should continue. Thanks (: