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Chapter One:

You Can't Understand

Roy doesn't understand and he never will. Ed knows that as a fact. It can't be helped. No one understands him, or what he's been through. Not even Alphonse. But Ed's tired of people pretending they understand what he's been through.

They haven't. And they won't. He can accept that. It's his burden, they don't need to understand it. So they won't.

Most people don't even try. Or if they do try, they give up before they can make any progress.

The blonde can't help the fact that he doesn't spill his life secrets to everyone he meet whenever they ask. If he did that, he'd be dead by now.

So here he is, in front of Colonel Bastard's office, on a personal summons. Whatever the hell that means. So, since it's oh so personal, Edward left Al at the dorms. No sense dragging him here too, when he'd just have to wait for him.

Ed kicks open the door, as tradition. The subordinates look up, even though they know who it is.

He doesn't know why, but today the fact that nobody's there for him, nobody understands, is bothering the young prodigy a lot more then usual. And he doesn't like it. Not one bit.

"Ah, Fullmetal how nice of you to come." Roy says from behind his desk without looking up.

"It's your fault I'm here in the first place, you damn bastard."

Roy looks up from the paperwork he was doodling on and smirks. Damn. Ed hated that smirk. "Well, Fullmetal I do believe you should grow up and stop complaining. But I guess I should expect it seeing as you have such a short temper."

"WHO THE HELL ARE YOU CALLING SO SMALL THAT AN ANT WOULD NEED A TELESCOPE TO SEE HIM?!"

The smirk grew. "Why, you of course, Fullmetal. I don't see any other tiny alchemists in my office."

"Damn you! What did you want me in here for anyway, bastard?"

The damned smirk turned into a frown. "I want to know whats bothering you, Fullmetal."

Ed blinked in surprise. 'That was it? He just wanted to know what was wrong with me? What the hell? It's not like he actually cares.' Ed thought angrily to himself.

"Nothings wrong" Fullmetal spoke scowling. "Can I go?"

"No. I know thats not the truth, so I order you to tell me whats wrong."

He was momentarily stunned into silence. 'That bastard thinks he can just order me to tell him whats wrong? No. Way. In. Hell.'

"Nothings wrong sir" Ed said mockingly.

'Oh... looks like Mustang doesn't appreciate mockery... He was glaring at me. If looks could kill... damn... I'd be six feet under already.'

"Here I am, taking my own personal time to find out what's wrong-" Roy's voice was monotone, but a bit of anger slipped through "-So I can make you feel better, because I care, and you're shutting me out."

Ed laughed. He actually laughed. Roy wore a brief look of confusion before making his face become impassive. When the teens laughter died down he finally spoke.

"Care? Care? Oh that's rich Colonel." Ed's voice full of venom and sarcasm. "You? Care about me? What's next? Are you going to offer to tuck me in to bed? I'm sure one day you will care about me... When Havoc gets a wife and Hawkeye starts handing out heart shaped chocolates."

He stayed silent as the blonde continued "You just don't understand! You'll never understand. No one will ever understand how I feel. And no one cares enough to try."

He didn't stay silent much longer after. "Fullmetal- I do understand."

Ed's temper flared "NO YOU DON'T AND YOU DON'T CARE SO STOP PRETENDING YOU DO!"

Roy remanded calm "If you don't think I understand, then why don't you make me understand?"

The teen thought before replying "I've tried to make people understand. They never do. They just don't care enough. So... I don't bother anymore."

Roy lowered his head and shook it- as if he was disappointed. He sighed loudly "Fullmetal, oh Fullmetal."

"Huh?"

He looked down and straight into the angry golden eyes. Obsidian orbs gazing into his own. "Edward, Edward... I thought you would have realized before that I'm different from other people and really, I actually do care about you, believe it or not."

"Not."

"What does that mean, Edward?"

He sighed softly. "You said 'believe it or not.' And I choose not."

He looked almost sad. "Why?"

The question took Ed aback... 'Why? Why wouldn't I believe that he does care about me? He's shown it on enough occasions, and he just came right out and said it... so why?'

Before Ed could stop himself he explained.

"Two reasons, Roy." He looked surprised the Ed used his first name, but the teen prodigy continued anyway "One, Hohenheim left us. He said he cared, hell he said he loved us. And he still left..." he paused "...And the other reason is... Everyone who cares about me... Or I care about... Always gets hurt..." He looked puzzled so Ed decided to give examples. Even though he didn't ask. "Nina, Hughes, Al and... and Mom." and the now sad teen whispered, not knowing if Roy would hear "So... I'd hate it if you got hurt cause of me too..."

He looked shocked at Edward's explanation. Ed couldn't blame him. He doubted Roy was even expecting a answer. Ed's golden eyes were shining with unshed tears. And he made my way to the door. But before Ed could open the door.. There was a weight on his wrist and he was pulled and turned backwards, his head in someones chest. With there arms wrapped around the golden boy in a tight embrace.

Ed was honestly shocked. And he spoke in a whisper "R-Roy..."

"Ed, can I understand? Can you let me understand?"

Ed spoke honestly. "You- You can't understand."

Chapter Two coming soon!

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