Disclaimer: I do not own any of the Victorious characters or franchise. I do own the plot and want anyone reading this story to know that some of the characters are not written the way they are portrayed on television. Relax and enjoy my first Bori story.

Chapter 1

My life was going beautifully-I had landed a lead role in the school play and my boyfriend Andre and I were about to celebrate our one year anniversary. What could go wrong? I was about to enter Sicowitz's theatre class, when I felt this tap on the shoulder. "Good morning, Tori" I finally look up and see that it's Andre. His eyes are so bright and so brown. Dreadlocks frame his face in tiny waves.

"Hello," I reply back. "Are you ready for tonight?" he asks. Although I have no idea what he's planning. "Yes I suppose what are you planning?" "Well Tori we have been together for a year-I wanted to have a romantic weekend just you and me." I stared at him, I loved his ash blacken skin and the dimples that embedded his face. "A romantic weekend? What are you planning?"

"Well Tori, I thought we could rent a hotel room and go out for a romantic dinner." He said staring at me with those large brown eyes. I thought for a moment, do I want to stay in a hotel with this boy? He is my friend and yet I am dating him. I used to be so in love with Andre, I loved him caressing me and stroking my glossy hair. But it's as though my feelings toward him have changed, and I am only starting to notice now. There are times when I have feelings for him-do I go to this hotel with him in hopes that there is still something there-some spark between us?

"Well Tori do you want to go to the Hollywood Hilton? I got us reservations for the Ruth Chev's Café and two massages for later tonight." I can tell he wants me- that's why I am losing my feelings. He is way too pushy for me. But I could sure use that massage. "Sure it will be great." I say clenching my teeth.

"Tori you sound so excited!" "I am really- we need some US time" I say hoping I sound convincing. "I am glad to see you're allowing yourself some time off." He has a point; I never allow myself a break. I always write my songs, go to dance, practice for a play, or study. I have become that creature of habit-I exist but barely. I have often felt like I drift through life-with no purpose but to perform. Every day is an act, my peers are my audience. I only hope I am putting my mask on correctly to hide my stains.

"We should get going to class. You know how crazy Sicowitz can be," he smirks. "Yes" I say. When I get into class everyone stares at me-their eyes feel like daggers. "Congrats Tori! The lead of the school play! Do you know who's playing your love interest?" Cat says to me her red hair falls to the floor in heaps.

"No who?" I ask unsure of why she sounds the way she does. Unsure of many things today. "It's Beck Oliver," Cat bellows. "Yeah so what!" I say. "He's a jerk a genuine jack ass. I can't even stand to look at him." "Whatever Tori," she says. "I am serious anyone who dates Jade West has to be a jackass. She is evil- last week she pushed me into a locker, called me a bitch then stole my lunch money."

"Wow really, I am sorry. But you can't deny he's physically attractive?" she jests. "God Cat what is this 20 questions? Yes I suppose he is attractive but not likeable." "So how's our relationship with Andre? You don't seem to be as happy as you were." My stomach had butterflies-I wanted to admit that all was not well. A long pause between us. "I am not happy. Honestly I don't think I am in love with him anymore. I just go through the motions, I am supposed to go through the motions right? I should be happy right? Our one year's this weekend and yet I don't care. But he got use reservations to the Hollywood Hilton and has all these other plans. Man being 18 is confusing- I don't know how I will ever make it in college."

"Well Tori, we are graduating soon you will be fine. Tell him you don't want to go to the hotel or just go and see if it sparks your feelings again." "Thanks Cat you usually don't make sense- but since you've grown up in 4 years I actually understand you recently" I said recalling all the times she'd go on rants and I would have no idea what she'd be talking about. But it was okay not to understand her because she'd always laugh and carry on. Her laughter made being her friend easier-her contagious self always gave me comfort. She has grown up into this wise beautiful red haired wonder. Everyone at this school loves her-it's no wonder that she's so popular. I just know this talented beauty will be famous and all this fine arts education will be put to good use.

As class begins, Sicowitz waltzes in wearing his usual Scottish attire and carrying his famous coconut coffee mug. He sure is a crazy teacher. I heard that he didn't actually graduate from college but they hired him because his resume was impressive. Lucky bastard.

"So class, as you all know Tori Vega and Beck Oliver are the leads in the musical Grease. So today for improv I want all the boys to act like they are in a gang and all the females to cheer them on as good audience members."

As the improv begins Sicowitz pulls me and Beck aside. "Alright you two we need you to write down a schedule for us of when you both can meet to go over lines." Sicowitz smiles, his grin resembling the equator. "Well get chatting, I have a class to teach," he finishes.

"Hey Tori," says Beck. "Hey Jerk," I say, fuck why do I have to be so mean? "What did I do?" "You're dating Satan who always steals my lunch money. She is a bitch and it's like you don't notice."

"Wow, people always talk about how nice you are. You must put your mask on well-but I see through it." Silence, wow it's the first time anyone's said that. Not even Andre can tell that I put a mask on. I wonder how Beck noticed it so quickly. Oh well- he is still a jerk for affiliating himself with that temptress. It's as if Beck's a lost sailor who heard the siren's song and quickly fell into her clutches. Pathetic. But it's now time for me to convince him that I am a nice girl.

"No it's not like that Beck… it's not. I cannot stand Jade she is always stealing my lunch money and I starve most days." It's as if he still doesn't care. He is not convinced; he did say I hide behind a mask. He is right I put on a façade for all of my friends, Andre, my parents; not even Trina my sister knows the real me. Well there is Cat; I can almost be myself around her-almost. I am terrified of everyone and what they will think of me; I smile with tears and laugh behind brokenness.

I have never learned to push back in my life-Andre pushes my morals, Jade pushes my social status at this damn school. My parents push for grades by saying, "An A- Tori you could do better. Why can't you get all As?" It's because I am human. I am limited by these flaws. I have desires to push back but fear drives them away. If I don't give into all these demands in my life- then what is left of me? In a single moment Beck took my mask away and forced me to look at myself. I don't like this vulnerability-scares the shit out of me.

"You're right," Wait what am I doing agreeing with him? He doesn't deserve to know he is right, that I'm a fraud. "So why hide behind a mask?" At this point I am so uncomfortable. "Why hide behind Jade?" I shout so the entire class can hear. That sparks everyone's attention and shuts Beck up.