Request by Freyja-If the world were to end by Lower than Atlantis. "If the world was to end,

Would I plummet or ascend or would I even know it had happened.

I'd like to believe, destiny has a plan for me, but my mind won't allow me the idea"

My name is Izaya Orihara; I am the greatest Informant in Japan and a God to my lovely humans. Or at least that is what I claim. In reality I am the best informant in Ikebukuro and Shinju-ku and I am a mere mortal. Despite my views, I know I am only human and could die at any moment. If I am honest, the thought terrifies me. I go day to day unsure of if it shall be my last day.

I would like the world to end on my last day.

If the world was to end, would it be my fault, my doing? I highly doubt that but it would be fun. I would enjoy seeing all my precious humans fleeing in a pitiful attempt to save themselves. Life isn't what it seems, everyone lies even to themselves. They put on a fake smile to hide any hardships they have, not wanting to burden others with their problems. They lead themselves to believe everything is fine, it will get better. I can say right now that it is another lie, it won't get better.

I guess in a way I am a hypocrite seeing as every day I wear my cocky trademark smirk, yet I am merely hiding how I feel. What kind of god would I be if I let my anger, fear and uneasiness show? Oh right, it doesn't matter for I am not really a god. See this is what I meant when I said people lie to themselves to the point of beliefs forming. Back to the idea of the world ending, what would happen to me?

Would I plummet, down to the deepest depths of hell, for an eternity of pain and suffering? Or ascend to what other call heaven? I wouldn't mind as long as I existed. However I believe hell would be better suited to me even if I prefer the ideals of heaven. A man such as me doesn't deserve to go to heaven, not for what I have done, and continue to do. Very few deserve heaven, though I can think of one who deserves better. As much as I hate to admit it, Shizuo Heiwajima would be too good for heaven itself. He puts up with me every day and hasn't killed me. He was cursed with strength and anger he cannot control, yet he still tries. He doesn't want to harm anyone, not even me. To think someone condemning himself to hell readily thinks that another is too good for the best place people think of.

Would I even know it had happened? Would the world end and I not realise it and simply die? I cannot prevent the fear slowly setting in at the mere thought of that. I hate not knowing things, I need to know things. If that were to happen… if I just died…I can't handle that thought. No, that's not how it will happen…I'm sure of it.

Never mind any other beliefs I have had, I'd like to believe that destiny has a plan for me. I want to think that when I do die, I still exist in some way. As long as I exist, I don't care if there's hell, or if only suffering exists there. I don't care if unlike Shizu-chan I will never see the gates of heaven, as long as I exist I will be content.

Ha that's what I'd like to believe, but my mind won't allow me the idea.