Dairey: Hello everyone.

Syns: so this is kind of a heavy deep writhing we presenting to you

Dairey: please be gentle this is the first I wrote it like this.

First chapter: Yuma's though's true episode 97-98

Trust is a powerful thing, yet it can break so easily.

And I broke yours.

By keeping a secret from you.

By lying to you to keep it a secret.

But I didn't mean to.

I swear it.

I wanted to tell you the truth, because it didn't feel right in my heart to keep it from you.

Every time I saw you I wanted to tell you everything, releasing myself from this heartache.

But as always he reminded me that it could bring you in danger.

And then fear of losing you became stronger than my sense of reason.

I remained silent. Keeping you in the dark.

I thought, no, believed that I was doing the right thing. That I was really protecting you. And with the power I received from him I felt stronger. Stronger to protect you.

Yes I know. It was the power from the ones that were trying to destroy you. But we humans have an old saying: sometime you have to fight fire with fire.

And was working. For the first time I could win against them without bringing you in danger.

But.

When you first saw that card in my hand you wanted to know where I got it from.

And I did the worst thing in my life.

Lying to you. And I continue to keep you from the truth when you asked me why it was in my deck.

I even didn't have the gut to look you in the face.

I didn't wanted to see your face, but I felt your mismatched eyes burning into my soul. Like you knew I was lying. Only you didn't know why.

But you remain trusting in me.

And I remain believing that I was doing the right thing.

Until.

Until it was all revealed to be a lie.

The Varian guardian story.

That he was here to protect you.

That he was my friend.

That he was one of the good guys.

All of it.

Nothing but lies, lies and lies.

Only one thing was true: that I knew he was a Varian.

I heard you exclaiming to me in disbelief.

Like you wanted me to tell you that he was lying. That it couldn't be truth. Because I would never hide something like that from you.

I didn't say a word.

I only said: Astral, I…

My face expression of guilt and regret confirmed your fear.

There were some many things I wanted to tell you. That I didn't mean to. That I never wanted to keep this from. That I never wanted to lie to him. That I only did this because I wanted to protect you.

But I couldn't get it over my lips. There were no millions excuses that could make up of what I have done to you.

To you and the others.

I have lied to all my friends.

And if that wasn't enough the liar added more pain to your suffer.

My betrayal had left a hint of darkness behind and his words caused that darkness to spread over your eternal heart and soul.

With horror I saw you changing.

Part of your blue skin turned into black. And your personality changed as well.

You became someone else. You forced dark Zexal were you fully took control.

After a long and hard journey, being blocked by falling boulders and dangerous wolfs, I founded you again in your heart.

You said you couldn't trust me anymore but that thanks to me you had received a new power.

Darkness.

You roared that you wanted more. More darkness, more power.

Insane, crazy and destructive you wanted to destroy everything. Just out of hate and anger

The way you acted reminded me at Black Mist. And I hated that number with all my heart. He was what I truly called a monster.

But.

I didn't saw you like that. I understood your reaction. You were hurt. Betrayed by the one you trusted the most. The one you were depended on.

If you couldn't trust me anymore; what could you do then? What will happen to you?

But seeing you like that hurts me in way you can't image. Not only because it was my all my fault but you were always the pure one.

Now you were tainted by darkness.

I couldn't continue to watch you like that. Desperate I ran at you. Hugging trying to calm you down. To free you from the darkness.

We both felt out of the window.

I closed my eyes, bracing me for the impact.

Nothing came. I opened my eyes and saw we returned to the real world. You lay on the floor. Weak and exhausted.

Shark and Kaito shouted at me to stop the attack otherwise we will lose the duel.

I ended my turn immediately when I saw what was going on and I ran to you to check on you. I didn't get far though when the lighting from the field card strikes me.

Also exhausted and hurt I tried to get up. I have to continue this duel. For your sake.

I failed you once. I won't fail again.

Fighting with everything I had I blocked his move to end me.

I said to him no matter how desperate thing looks like I will continue fighting. To save you. To protect you.

I will always believe in hope, and as long I believe in hope I will never surrender.

I drew the last card in my deck. The cursed card that I got from him was the last thing I could draw.

I felt on the ground, my last strength had run out.

I heard you calling my name.

I looked up to you.

You say that you can't just believe in me again like you did before.

I felt a pang of pain in my heart. Was our bond gone forever?

But; you said; no matter how bad things get, you want to trust me and fighting beside me, who always believing, hoping...

I saw in your eyes what you we trying to say.

Although our bond received a serious blow, it was still there. Because we went through so much together. And deep down your heart didn't want our bound to gone. It was the most precious thing you will ever have. The only thing that kept him going.

It was the same thing for me too. He was the reason I kept on fighting against the Varians. And I won't stop until it was all over.

Our hands reached out to each other.

I felt my heart fill with hope. You give me a chance. A chance to earn your trust again. I know the road ahead is going to be tough. And I know that there will be moments that you will doubt me. But I will gladly bear those moments until you will fully trust me again.

There will always be a scar of mine betrayal on your heart.

But I will do my best to so that in time that scar will fade away so you almost can't see it or feel anymore.

I will earn your trust again.

Trust can be broken, but something broken can be healed.

And I will heal your trust.

Dairey: Aaaaand that's it.

Syns: Like she sais first time she wrote like this.

Dairey: check next chapter for Astral's thoughs.