Family. Meh – that is exactly what I feel when someone mentions that word. I don't even think I have a family. My mother is probably the best mother one could ever have. Walburga Black – The mother who wishes her son was never born. "Oh Sirius, stop empathizing with those muggles", "Oh Sirius, just because you were sorted into Gryffindor doesn't mean you will forget the traditions of the House of Black". All she cares is about the House of Black, which is getting blacker everyday. I mean, how can these people even be my family?!
For everyone at my house, I bring disgrace to the family honestly speaking, I love doing that. It is better to spend the holidays in Snivelly's company than to spend them with a bunch of narrow minded idiots. How can they even tolerate the nonsense Voldemort's been feeding in their minds ?! Can't they just come back to their senses?! Especially Bellatrix. I think she fancies him. I always knew she had a bad choice in men. The only person who I feel sad and proud for is Andromeda. She married a muggle. She actually went against the wishes of everyone and married Ted Tonks. Hope is still alive!
Coming back to me, Sirius Black III or rather, the black sheep of the family (pun intended).I am thinking of running away and as usual, I have absolutely no idea what I will be doing after that. Probably live alone. Much better than living in this filth. And I am sure no one would mind. In fact, mum would be glad to burn my name off the family tree.
But the person I hate the most after my mother and Bellatrix is Regulus. I think he is becoming a Death Eater just to annoy me and to prove he is the better son. The idiot won't even last a day as a Death Eater. It's a miracle he got selected into the Slytherin Quidditch Team. My parents are proud of him though and mum's started saying,"Oh Sirius, learn something from your brother". The only thing I would learn from him is not to be an idiot.
The only people who understand me are Prongs, Mooney and Wormtail , if he gets time from eating. And perhaps good old Minnie. She was the one who wiped my tears when my mother sent me the Howler, expressing her displeasure about me getting into Gryffindor (laugh as much as you want). I know my mother is charming, thank you very much. If only I had a mother like Minnie!
Everyone thinks that Sirius Black has everything he wants, but then they are so wrong. I just need family, like my fellow Marauders. I am jealous of them because of the fact that their families love them and support them for who they are and for everything that they do. But the good thing is that, their families treat me as their own too. In fact, the Potters have invited me over for tea today, so I really need to get going before James finishes eating all the scones!
If anyone of you breathes a word about me crying, I swear on Merlin's pants that I will hex you so bad that you won't get out of 's at least for a Kidding! It actually felt nice to know that you actually care about me that you bothered to read a million! But please, just don't tell anyone about the crying bit.
Signing off,
Yours truly,
Padfoot the Awesome!